I can NOT stress how BORED I am with pictures of cocks, pictures of people being dominated by OTHER people, and images with your car or motorcycle!!!

If you've uploaded a picture so that someone can see you, why use a photo that draws focus AWAY from YOU??? Grrrrrrr

I just thought that I would share with people who subscribe to My journal a message I recently wrote to someone who obviously needs some professional help!!

P.S. I am NOT on CollarMe constantly because I am successful in this Lifestyle... (think about it)

**This was to end contact with someone who doesn't know what he wants**

First of all, young man, what makes a woman strong isn't the same as what makes a man strong.  You have no idea... you really don't have ANY idea of what you've learned from Me. I have no doubt that you "CHOSE ME,” I realize that you say specific things to help yourself believe that you have controlled a situation, however Dear, I can accept this point because it was YOU that initially replied to My profile...

If I were really on the quest that you claim I’m on as far as Collarme goes then I would be browsing profiles instead of replying to all of the messages sent to Me.  Everyone chooses Me, but then it is I who "filters" out persons who are and are NOT qualified to take up My time.  This would be one of the key reasons that we’ve NOT met in person.

I won't keep going back and forth with you over what you feel that you've achieved, or accomplished, your goals are your own.  You recognize in Me the need to "feel" in control at all times, you also have read about Me that I am EXTREMELY competitive and therefore when you challenge the idea that I am in authority OVER YOU, you already know that this is an effective way to keep testing Me.  Since I refuse to lose I would have to keep this up with you... This is something that I can appreciate about someone who is dominant, but it's something that I detest in someone claiming to want to submit to Me.  I don't have to go back and forth with you about which one of us has had an influence on the other, why can't you accept that we have both alternated as teacher and student.  I just have to add that I didn't learn anything NEW about you, and just WHAT does knowing about Juggalo clowns do for Me?  I did learn “something” and that was one of MY goals.  I can accept that you are more stubborn than I am motivated, to continue trying to crack your shell.  If you believe that it is necessary for you to ALWAYS endeavor to let Me know that you're "testing Me" or "challenging Me"  baby I have to ask you again, is this a contest?  Just what do you win when the test is over?  You will still be looking for a Dominant Woman, and I will be laughing at the memory of what you thought you were doing petitioning Me! You are very wrong to state that I am looking for something that I can only dream about,  I don't look for perfection, in fact... I think it's My calling to find the weak, and then help them to see that they are stronger than they believe.  I love to find the wounded bird and then help THEM to fly, I am just very creative in My methods.  MY profile says that I offer "training" and instruction, and that with ME a person will grow... My needs are met when I see the "graduates of My program" (if you will).

There is some irony in the statement that you heal, because it seems like you only want to damage My spirit and agitate Me. I think that something in you doesn't want someone, especially someone like Me, to care deeply for you, which may be evident in all of that “I'm ugly, and destructive,” and “I can't be trusted” stuff you wrote to Me.

I didn't come into your world and play make believe games, you AGAIN by replying to My profile came into Mine. I tried to be available to you to help you find your way to the fantasy YOU have. I tried to be available for YOU to indulge YOUR fantasy to be controlled by a Woman.  If you've found what you’re looking for somewhere else, then so be it... but you can't walk out, tap out, or make your exit and actually believe that you made a difference in My world.  All that you can take credit for is that you entered an area made a scene, cause some commotion,  to get some attention.  The little bit that I know of you is that you require a lot of it.  If you like the idea that you have helped Me, know that you are helping ME to decide that maybe the effort to come out and  actually meet you in person was never worth it. Yes, we exchanged messaged for months and I did grow to care about you, I am not ashamed of being human.  Still, not only did you NOT help Me, but in fact you telling ME that you only made a CollarMe profile after deciding that you wanted to play some game with Me, only pisses Me off. If telling ME that was supposed to flatter Me, ummm it didn't work. I only answered YOU because I thought that I was looking at someone who clearly didn't belong in My scene, but was still willing to learn.  I am confident in knowing that I would have been the best person to help YOU learn about the BDSM world first hand, and so I spoke to you like that... I haven't flip flopped back and forth, unlike YOU...My effort to edify YOU has been consistent since you first introduced yourself.  MY profile is cleverly worded on Collar Me, and so is MY journal, but when you only have that one chance to make the first impression shouldn't it be an excellent one? I believe that Mine is!

You can't possibly know this, but I stopped to laugh at you just now. You are in your own damned way, and too arrogant to examine this about yourself.  I'm sorry baby you can't learn about this lifestyle from "reading" it, the very nature of this lifestyle is to experience and feel something MORE...  I almost feel bad for you, because I KNOW what you're missing out on, I know exactly how to take care of ALL THAT YOU CAN IMAGINE, and you can't possibly know about any of it until you've been there and gone through it.  You’d “rather keep masturbating to internet porn than work with” Me? You say that like I am supposed to feel less about Myself for that. But, baby don't you want more than your own hairy palm sometimes... I'll get off that subject and try to wrap this up... 

All of My life, I've felt "special" and in many many different areas of MY life those who were a part of MY life all sort of agreed with Me.  I'm not particularly model beautiful, or independently wealthy, or something that would NORMALLY make men, and women alike fall down in front of Me... it's something that I probably can't really describe even if I had the words, but I know that there is something in Me, that is persuades people to do whatever they can to make My world better. I don't want to sound like a cliche' but I am like a Queen Bee with everyone else in My world acting as a worker bee to take care of Me.  If I wake up one day and I no longer SUPER LOVE Myself, still there will be someone here to run a bath for Me, wash Me if I want that, dry ME off, select My clothing, dress Me, prepare a meal for Me… someone will do what they can to entertain Me, someone will make sure that My household bills are taken care of, someone will run errands for Me when I need them to, and someone will handle all of My housework.  In 24 hours of a day I will have SOMEONE completely available to Me, to do whatever I need done.  This is NOT a benefit of being Dominant, this is a benefit of Me being a woman who happens to BE Dominant… So in closing you’re right for the fact that I am (as you put) ONLY Human. One flaw I have ( like all human beings self-esteem) and like ANYONE mine fluctuates for whatever reason… BUT… and this is the point of MY entire letter… I was born with a pussy, I will go away from this planet with my pussy, and that is because I am a woman! Not because I am a Domme. Show Me the man that doesn’t want good pussy in his life, and I guess I will be looking at you pointing into a mirror!

If you contacted Me, and wrote to Me your entire sexual fantasy...

1.  That is why you didn't get a response!

2.  I am NOT on this site listed as a DOMINANT so that I 

can take lessons from you about how I will do what I ALREADY DO well!

3.  I am NOT so full of Myself that I can't learn something new, BUT

if you intend INSTRUCT Me HERE... this is the WRONG arena!!

if you are sincere, and feel that I haven't given you a "fair" chance I am asking you now

to write to Me again, only this time try it with less talk about what you want 

Me to do to your ass

PLEASE!!!!!

Why is it that it's so hard to find someone REAL on this site... the so called PREMIER site for what we do, the LARGEST BDSM Community on the Planet, man... if I can't find REAL Bitches HERE, where the hell else can I look!

Come out come out where ever you are!!

I don't know why I am still surprised by
the many role playering hookers, and game players on this site.

I don't need to put down another woman's hustle, in order to feel better about Myself, but WOW!!!

I am not for role players, or person's looking to persuade me with cash to grant them a happy ending!

My?standards?may be high, I do
have a set goal, and expectation, but don't you?

If because I live in Las Vegas, you believe that I am a hooker, please?
keep scrolling profiles.

I am here to find people to engage in
a variety of adult oriented games, I am marking all of My fantasies off of My bucket list (LMAO), and I am living out loud searching for good bitches!

I may treat YOU like a whore, but you won't get to return that favor!!

Many of you have messages that end up in My
bulk folder... I will get to you, but since you are outside of what I normally look for
it may not be when you hope that I do...

but I will...

The Universe is GOOD to Me
this morning it was time to say goodbye to
what I had hoped was a new opportunity...

and at the end of My DAY ummm hello!!!

its been a real challenge recently to meet
new people, but since I met YOU before you knew
this side of Me... hmmm this could be fun...

So I woke up a little anxious, went thru MY day
a little sullen, and now...

The Law of Attraction says that which is like unto itself is drawn
then I enjoy people who have integrity, and are sincere, and tonight I enjoyed the look in someones eye that told Me that I am as fabulous as I claim!!

LOL love you bitches!

“As a man thinketh, in his heart so is he..“ That is a powerful motivational phrase apparently meant for men, but today it’s mine to make this point.

Another CollarMe member is asking on her profile what qualifies someone to call themselves a Domme or Mistress, or a Master/ Dom. BTW she claims to be submissive. I cannot speak to what information she was looking for, or what exactly she expected to hear self appointed people say about themselves, but I answered her anyway.

I know that first of all I don’t take Myself too seriously, I can laugh at anything… so even when I am “on” I am approachable as a taskmistress.  I am, after all,  the author of MY own screenplay, so of course I am the Star!! Shall I allow you/ or society to delineate Me? Uhhh , No! I am the artist, and I shall craft Myself as a Mistresspiece (OK OK Masterpeice, but you know what I meant… shut up!!)

I understand that various people with separate fetishes potentially require atypical stimulus. A man who is submissive is not the same as one who is a masochist, and a woman who is looking to belong to a poly household isn’t the same as a woman who is a swinger, but these interests aren’t mutually exclusive. I know this game well, and I play it to win. I have the advantage of using My own playbook. I write the rules, and modify it uninfluenced, only as I see fit. I’m versatile, my skill is consistent, and My experience is My only guide!

I am autocratic, haughty, brazen, and yeah, saucy is a good way to describe Me too. On AOL I used to be known as SpicyFruitTaste, a nickname I both earned, and deserved baby. And for anyone whose puny mind is too deficient to think along the lines of cinnamon apple, or orange and cloves… when you are advised by a man with a shiny chin that your, ahemm err... let’s just say… “essence” is so sweet that it reminds him of Christmas morning at his mom’s… I didn’t ask him what they hell was HIS family doing when mine was ripping up wrapping paper. I just took the compliment and I am STILL running with it. With scissors in My hand!!! LMAO!!!

I’m like any person running a business, I can be slow to hire, but quick to fire. I could talk online to someone for the entire time that we know of one another, I may not ever meet you, or allow you to take up My air, but if I deem you to be worth My time… if your petition is  apprecialble, and you are finally  under consideration… that association can end faster than some of your hands move when you’re masturbating in the shower. I don’t allow anyone to undermine My authority. If you are truly resigned to being used/ consensually abused, and Domme-n8ted, then to try to cast a shadow over My splendid ego, you have only sabotaged your own struggles. Let Me help you know Me better, I am the embodiment of what a REAL… common, average, dare I say it, normal guy wants. “A lady in the streets, but a freak in the…” you better ask somebody!! I don’t just call Myself a Domme, here is why I am Her… I top, I initiate, I control it all, and I am Indigo. I am dogmatic about what I believe, and still looking for good bitches!

Maybe I should have just said that I passed enough Higher Education BDSM classes to get My Mistress’s Degree! Or maybe I could have said  that I so “Mistress”ed the arts of tranny caning, nipple clippin’, objectification, paddlin’, pegging’, flogging, TENS play, slave training, and prostate milking to the point that after I slapped the face and pulled the hair of My neighbor's (wink wink) "bi-curious" wife, with My cuck  gagged and cuffed in the corner, that they just up and decided to $$upport Me, AND My fixation with corsets, gauntlets, bamboo canes, kinbaku, vintage panties and lingerie, restraint devices, spreader bars, patent leather boots and shiny vinyl clothes.

Out of nowhere these guys just decided that I deserved to be on a pedestal. Either a side arm whip crack is a VERY effective way to encourage a bitch to act right, or I was just born a Domme, and accept the epithet of “Bitch Maker.”

As a (Domme) thinketh, so in her heart is (She)...

As I thinketh about Myself, so in your eyes I should be...  I think I'm going to make that My new Rule #1!!!

Your messages give Me a little of what I want and that is adoration! I really
do appreciate you all for that, BUT

I am not here to laugh at your messages, and some of you are VERY clever... and OK I do laugh, BUT

Like I said I can't compromise My own goals to better meet your needs.

Please only serious inquiries, many of you are in My bulk mail area anyway  and so I didn't even see you until I got REALLY bored!

I've been on this site for quite some time, and I don't understand how, or why I am so popular all of a sudden!

It is amazing to Me that all of a sudden so many of you are telling Me how REAL you are, and how you truely desire Me.  Telling ME that My profile is all that you've been hoping to see!  That is great,except can someone at least use unique phrasing?

FYI I prefer newbies or even vanilla people that I can corrupt more than I like someone whose indicated that they have several years of service!  This only tells Me that you got bored, or were a failure, in both cases WTF would I want you for?

I had high hopes for this person, and surprise surprise he's a let down!!

But, I guess he had to... find himself

Arrrrggghhhhh!!!!
I'm so mad I can't even continue writing.... PHUCK PHUCK PHUCK!!!!

Damned vanilla people, Damned carrot dangling confused azz vanilla people!!!!

I specialize in adult molestation, debauchery, sensual sadism, and exploiting perverts...

My favorite type of men to misuse
are mommas boys, geeks (not nerds)
and I have a special place in the
dungeon for little boys who think that their wit and intellect make them less pathetic to Me than the rest of the cock pullers on this site!! LMAO

Shut the fuck up trying to be so deep, and just bend over and so I can take your ass!  You can resist but I assure you this will only prolong the inevitable!  Your ass will be mine!!

I am only interested in you belonging
to Me as a THING that I can toy with!

I do not want you to love Me, or hold hands with Me while W/we walk around the damned mall... I dont want to have dinner dates with you, I dont want to be your damned girlfriend!

I want to tie you up, stick a ball gag in your mouth, beat the fuck out of you, make you cry, then fuck your ass! Right now my clit is throbbing because I just saw Myself in a vision
choking you and sqeezing the shit out of your cock!  Its possible that somewhere in there youll see or sniff some pussy, but dont hold
your breath!
I will happily do it for you...

Dont play with Me Bitch!

I am almost certain that this site will not lead Me to find what I desire.

PLEASE NOTE... that I wrote
"I am almost certain"

I'm still here, still hoping! Still looking for someone to put My hands on...

I have been clear about what I am NOT looking for, and so far that is all that I am seeing...

Repetitive appeals annoy Me, especially when you retype Me VERBATIM  a message that you've already sent!!

Non-locals need NOT apply!

It doesn't SERVE Me to consider the
petition of someone who is NOT actually
available to come to Me when I NEED...

I am not online to amuse people on other continents, in other countries,  in other states... and I don't even like the idea that I will talk to someone who is more than 1 hours drive away?  Why would I do that?

I'm not going to get caught up in sending someone money, having someone expect to move here to live with Me, marrying a foreigner so that he can stay here in exchange for his temporary service and his money (bribe!)  I don't care what the scheme, or even if YOU are the one sincere person out of the hundreds of people who aren't...
I DON'T CARE!!!

If you ARE NOT here already do not
assume that I will make any time for your requests!

This is "SIN-city" and even
here it's HARD as hell to
encounter a REAL decent indecent bitch!

Come on people, isn't there a guy out there who needs to be treated like the inner bitch that he know's he is, and appreciate a Woman who knows what he really needs???

If you answered:
I'm right here!
then identify yourself to ME!

Someone is claiming that
he hasn't heard from Me...

I suggest you check your mail settings, and/or your bulk mail folder...

I respond to EVERYONE!!!

Today it occurred to Me that I had set My mail controls to block
out specific groups including male Dominants...


I had recently been reaching out to You and have until today been
under the impression that You were shunning Me...

My apologies to anyone who has been waiting for a LONG time to hear from Me...

I found a house everybody...

Thank you to those of you
who REALLY went out of their
 way to help Me...

The house has EVERYTHING that
I asked you all to find for Me...

I am XXX-tremely pleased

I didn’t wake up one morning and DECIDE that I would begin to portray a Dominatrix for the rest of My life.  I didn’t actually even decide that a Femdom way was for Me.  It is just who I am… see if this helps you agree!

I have been an athlete most of My life.  I turned out to be good at everything I tried… it started with basketball.  Girls at age 6 and 7 were mostly playing with dolls, or platic makeup so I had to get used to playing with/and/or against the mostly bigger boys in My neighborhood.  North Long Beach, was a stereotypical  "hood" too!!  I became extremely competitive at an early age.  From that experience I also developed the attitude that no horny li'l boy was ever going to push Me around.  In fact I used to gamble on the games, betting if I beat whatever boy that wanted to challenge  Me at “horse” or 21 or whatever, that he would have to “be My slave for a day.”  YES, that is actually the phrase I  used to use even way back then!!!  Can you imagine?? By the time I was  8 years old, I was getting the boy’s in da hood to bring Me their dog’s collars so that I could put them on a leash to let everyone see that I was better than they were (at basketball, better than them at basketball… LOL  )

I also became aware in my youth that female sexuality was powerful, when I learned that horny boys were VERY eager to do the craziest things if they even THOUGHT that I was going to consent to sex, or even just a sex act.  I don’t drink alcohol and I never have, but when I was 14, a 19 year old boy tried to pressure Me... ha ha ha he was going to "pressure ME" into drinking beer at a house party.  He obviously didn’t know Me well enough to understand that "Lady" (My nickname then)was the WRONG girl to try to get to cave under peer pressure.  This is journal entry so skipping a lot of details.  That “Heine” beer bottle ended up stuck in his ass by his own hand, he really thought that he was going to get "some" from Me, because he did what I told him to do exactly!  He begged, and got on his knees and on that night My fascination with boys tears began.  The rest is HERstory…

When I am in position OVER a man it just feels natural, when a woman is at my feet that is even sweeter.  This isn’t a lifestyle choice for Me, it’s a birth “E”ffect!  HA HA HA

I am what My  life has made Me, and so when someone tells Me that I am not real because I don’t travel the country getting involved in different BDSM festivals, or because I don't treat a man like a customer!!  When someone who is masturbating as he is on his computer, or has Cum stains on his mouspad, tells Me that if I was real I would know about a specific leather club or BDSM group… I just have to say to this idiot, not all clowns are in the circus either, because you’re at home typing to ME…

Recently someone decided to advise Me that I was "naturally mean"
I'm sure that this assessment was made when he became frustrated at My lack of interest in him, after his repeated attempts get Me to talk to him over the phone.  He is hundreds and possibly thousands of miles away from Me...
I am not interested in ANYONE that I cannot see/audition/train and then use when I have a tasks for them to complete.  Why would this or any Mistress need to hold out for dreams that can not ever be actualized? 
I refuse to be in a position where I have to wait for My so-called "slave" to fly in from out of town, or to take off time from work in 2 weeks before I can have My needs met?  Does that really make sense to ANYONE??

I know that there are a lot of black women that may appreciate being called Ebony, but since that material is native to India, and associated with Egypt it doesn't actually represent me or any features I have. I also don't like being referred to as "Nubian."

 I am really looking forward to celebrating My birthday this year.
I'll be partying with REAL lifestylers, at a very kinky party in Lexington KY July 3rd!
Ask Me for details if you can attend!

Visa, Mastercard and AMEX all have gift cards that you can purchase anywhere!
And
I need a quality singletail whip.

I'm also looking for a bitch who can build dungeon furniture!

Some of you have been sooooo GOOD to Me.  A Domme like Me is less of
a diva without Her help.

You are good bitches!!!

I am not a dominatrix because I hate men, I am a Woman that expects a certain type of treatment from a man. 
Being a Domme is My strategy to alleviating Womankind of the stereotypical male ego in as many areas as I can by training boys young and old boys!! I teach a bitch  wonderful ways to serve the superior Female!!  One lesson ANY of you reading this can take away right now, is... offerring to be My sub/slave is about you commiting to making Me happier.  If you honestly believe that My entire life will improve just because you SAY that you'll be a chair for Me... you don't have a REAL idea of what living this lifestyle is...

If I were an emotional Queen, your genero$ity would reduce Me to tears!!

a certain bitch knows who he is...

I'm so in awe of what just you did for Me, that I wanted to recognize
 you here!!

Be humbled by the mention in My journal, whore boy!

When W/we do meet, I will "shower" you with My own special recipe appreciation!!

DAMN the luck... everybody I found a dirty bitch, and I couldn't get to him with My car at the VW dealer for repairs!  I don't know if I should curse them for not having it ready when they said, or curse his employer for sending him out of town before I could mash My ass in his face!!! DAMN!!

What part about being HERE don't you understand?  And you did also read the STRICT part too, right?

I am not and I repeat NOT looking for a pen pal, or cyber. 
 I am looking for a REAL
LIVE bitch to
use and abuse in the most
phenomenally wicked ways!

If at breakfast I demand your services and you can't get to Me by dinner... DON'T waste My time!