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Well I am off to bed night everyone |
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Ever since I started dating at the age of 14 all I have wanted to do was please the person I was with. And every time I put 100% into the relationship I only get at most 45%. I cant keep putting my heart out there and sacrifice what I want which is 100% from the person I am with.. Some may be ok with only giving 25% or 50% and saying something is better then nothing.. Well that maybe good for you because you have someone else that you give 100% to but I need and want to feel wanted and to feel important. I don't deserve to cry myself to sleep at night or to feel lonely. I deserve someone who will make me feel like they want me and they want to be with me. |
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So last Saturday I got my first tat and got the left side of my lip pierced.. I have already got prices on 2 other tats...I cant wait to get them.. |
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So my bday is this weekend and really looking forward to dressing up and going out and having some fun.. Its been way to long.. Hopefully my plans go good that I want to do and nothing interferers with that. trying to keep stress free this week keeping fingers crossed I do lol |
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I love you and nothing will change that... |
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Dealing with a lot of stuff on a personal level.. I swear every time I turn around my stress levels are getting pushed to a new level and not sure how much farther I can go before I snap or have a break down.. Barely got any sleep last night even though I took a trazodone.. Its just so crazy.. |
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I don't plan on giving up on you and I hope that you don't plan on giving up on me.. We can work through this you just have to have some faith |
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Having a really bad day and no one to talk to..Grrrr I just wanna scream and say fuck it all |
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Going to be up most of the night cleaning and Collar Space will be left up so if you email me and I don't email you back right away no im not being rude and ignoring you I just may not have checked it yet... |
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Today is a really good day. Things seem to be looking up and going well.. I am happy and all giggles today.. I love you Daddy and I always will... YOUR'S and ONLY YOUR'S |
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I feel like im about to break and you are no where around.. I need you now more then anything. I really wish things was different with us.. All I do anymore is just cry myself to sleep.... |
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Feeling down and depressed |
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I miss hearing your voice I miss hearing you calling me your nickname for me... I wish that things could be back to normal... I really wanna hear you telling me what to do I need to hear you telling me what to do... I love DADDY and I miss you so much |
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This not talking to you feels like someone just keeps stabbing my in the heart with a knife... This feels like I'm being punished and I don't like it at all. I don't like not being able to hear your voice... I don't like not being able to talk to you.... I don't like the fact that we barely talk right now.. I understand what I did and I understand that no matter what I can't change the past but I do understand what I need to change and how I need to change... I just hope that I get the chance to show you that I can do the things that I need to do... I have never felt like this before... I have never felt this strong about anyone before... Yes it may sound like I'm some crazy person but the fact is I'm in love and I don't want to lose you... |
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I'm having a hard time dealing with recent changes that have been going on... I just want to sit down and cry and I cant because there's things that need to be taken care of... I just want to be in your arms with you holding me telling me everything is gonna be ok... But I'm not sure that everything is gonna be ok... And I just wish you could tell me everything is gonna be ok and that everything Is gonna be the way it use to be... I don't want things to be this way I want things to be like before... I have said this a thousand times and I will say it a thousand more if I have to... You're the only Daddy I want I don't want no one else... I love you Daddy and I hope that you see that.. |
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You are my only Daddy... I love you so much and I hope that we can fix things. You're the only one I want touchin my body the only one that uses me for pleasure... The only one that calls me a Good Gurl the only one that calls me Baby Gurl... I will wait as long as I have to for you to call me YOURS |
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over the past few days I have learned a lot about myself. I have learned that I jump to quick instead of taking time to cool down and I make bad choices. I learned that I need to trust in people that say they are there for me... Most of all I learned that people can actually care about you and not just want something from you... I lost someone important to me because I didn't want to accept this facts... I love him with all my heart and soul. I will wait for him and hopefully one day he can forgive me and we can maybe try again... |
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