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Will update as soon as I can think of what to put here. . . for now enjoy my old profile. . . Well, there is a lot to say about me, and I'm not sure where to begin.? So I'll start with my vanilla side then work into the rest. Becuase if you can't accept my vanilla side, then you really can't accept me.
MY VANILLA SIDE:
I am a BBW girl, and I don't mind the way I look.? My hair is really long (half way down my bum).? I have blue eyes, I wear glasses, and I have my lip pierced.? Music and art are my life and passions. ?Graduated college with my BS in Graphic Design. ?I do read a lot and admit I'm a bit of a dork when it comes to Harry Potter, MtG, vampires, and other fandoms. I play guitar, but I'm not really that good at it yet, but I get better all the time.
My Domme side:
I don't really know much about it in the lifestyle, since I haven't really been in relationships where I can practice it. I love blood, wax, and bondage.? I have recently found out that I am a bit of a sadist, which can be ironic since I don't enjoy pain that much when I am serving a Dom/me. I suppose in the natural world I am a bit more submissive, however in a relationship I tend to be more dominate. With a submissive, I do not what them to only be submissive in private. Yes, it is nice to be able to sit next to my sub when out in public and have normal conversations, that doesn't mean I'd get annoyed if they knelt at my feet or served me. I don't mind the stares of people, over the past 23 years I've grown used to them.
My Submissive side:
I am quite submissive when it comes to the right person.? My submissiveness is part of me, so no I'm not going to just give it up to anyone.? Don't think I'm being rude if I respond to your message with something sarcastic and rude.? It's how I am when people try to dominate me before they know me.? I'm not a slave by the way, I'm a submissive.? I have my limits, and you are going to respect them if you think anything is going to happen between us.? I love bondage, but I'm really just a beginer at it.? I really want to learn more!
What I'm looking for:
Well, friends in the life are always nice to have don't you think??
In a submissive I look for someone willing to learn, and willing to voice their oppions when it comes to what they want.? Until the collar is around their neck, we both need to learn to make the relationship good and strong.? That doesn't mean a submissive can be rude to me.? It does mean that a submissive can tell me what they want, like, and need.? I'll listen.? As for what I look for in a Dom/me:? someone that can teach me, but not abuse me.? I'm not into a lot of pain, yes I can take it, but no I don't like it at all.? Ask if you want to know more :)?
What don't I want??
-poly -abuse to the point of breaking me -anything illegal -bestiality-kids
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Didn't really know it's been that long since I wrote here. Well dang! Still just looking for friends. I'm happy with my life, and am going to be graduating from college soon. Stoked about that :) |
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Um, thank you creepers, for making me scared to open a message with a pic attached. . . |
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The newest photos I've added are from 2 different photo shoots. My friend at school who is a photography major, wanted something different from what she does so asked me to play vampire. I of course said yes, and we did 2 shoots. A solo shoot, and one with another friend of ours playing a werewolf 2 days from the change. |
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Yeah, I do only get 2 weeks off for my summer vacation. Why? It's quite simple. My school has decided that the fast track is best to get people what they want, which is a career. So we go for 3 years to get our Bachelors instead of 4 years. It means I get my bum into the field before my competition has even started their portfolios. Yes I know where I am going, and if you don't want to see me get there than close your eyes. You will be seeing my designs on web pages, CD booklets, and tour posters within 3 years. Deal or move out of my way, because I have no problem stepping on jerks to get to the top. I've been the top at what I do since I started school last year and I plan to stay here. Passion drives me and love makes my work amazing. |
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I will admit that I do lurk. Mainly with viewing someone's profile. Why? Many have asked, so I felt the need to answer it here. It's because I found that when I spend my time writing a message based on a profile, I get ignored based on how I look. So instead of wasting my time trying to get to know someone, I rarely write a first message. If you see me viewing your profile, it's because I thought there was something worth reading. If you view my profile back, don't shy away form sending a first message, I always respond unless it's rude from the get go. As always, have a pleasant night. |
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I have found out that updating CS3 to CS4 takes more patience than I have when i just want to get onto PS and play around with the new brushes and whatnot. Ugh. |
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Ugh my back hurts! just had to share. |
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At home tonight since I don't feel up to going to the clubs with the friends. Thinking about just doing my homework so tomorrow and Sunday I can relax and hang out. |
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Having a headache sucks! kinda wishing that I had advil. and that it wasn't sleeting so i could go to the store and get some. |
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So, for those of you who have sent messages that are rude, why waste your time? I do not respond, and that makes me weak? I really don't care if you are disgusted that I am a BBW. That's not my issue, it's yours. So really, if you want to waste your time and tell me how I'm ugly and fat then have at it! They don't hurt me, just laugh at how you waste your time. I will not care what you think about me now, or ever. Sorry to disappoint you. |
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another year older. but not another year wiser |
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And I'm updating my journal just for the sake of letting everyone know I'm still alive lol |
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I love people who try to tell me that I can't be a switch. One "dom" messages me saying "HA! you are a fukin joke! you cnt b a fukin switch! ur a slave dat trys 2 b tuf. wen u relize wut u really r den message ur next dom. me!"
So I replied with "I will never be a slave, it's not who I am. However, if you choose to respond to me, drop the "txt speek" and type like they teach you in school. If you wish to keep trying to insult me then become friends with my block button" |
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Ya know, I've decided that if I do meet the right person, I would move to be with them after I graduate college. I mean, my carreer is UBER important to me, but it's not like music isn't everywhere. |
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Thank you to all the people sending me messages! You are totally helping me procrastinate on my homework for tomorrow night :) |
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Changed my pics, so they will be up again in a few days. Have fun enjoying them when they are up again! *laughs* |
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*laughs* he thinks he still owns me, uh no. Over a year ago he let me go because he wanted poly and that's my hardest limit. loser. I'm not his, haven't been for a long time, and I never will be again |
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I BROKE MY BUM!
heels+too long pants+rain+going down slippery stairs=sara breaking her bum |
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Nebraska is boring!
I got a sunburn and now I don't wanna move! ARGH! |
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3 weeks off of school!
Off to Nebraska for a week, then to Iowa, and then back here to get my books and spend time with family.
:) I'll be off and on here when I'm gone. I'll respond to as many messages as I can, but if I read yours and don't respond, please don't send another message. Some are longer than others and take time to respond to so I can send a real reply instead of 1 line. |
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OMFGC!!! I'M PISSED!
So tonight I would be in my drawing class, but apparently I'm going to fail no matter what.
Yeah, look at my grades and it says an "A", but according to my teacher, since I missed the mid-term and I can't make it up, I'm going to fail.
I missed becuase I was in the hospital, and my teacher said that I could make it up after class on the day of the final. Now I wake up to an email that says he checked school policy, and it's up to the teacher if students can make up tests, and he has better things to do I guess than give me the 2 drawings I would have to do for the mid-term.
Yeah, I feel like I'm going to cry.
Yeah, I need brown pop. In a total bad way. |
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*laughs* *does happy dance* last week of school before 3 weeks off!
on another note, REALLY?!?!?! you still enjoy the sound of your own voice? really?? i dont like you like that anymore rob! you annoy me! you are like that guy that sits in the back of the class and gets ignored! you have your gf (last i knew) so stop talking about when we would be friends with benefits! i shouldn't have let it happen, but it did. you were annoying to have as a FwB. you were, and still are, annoying to talk to about anything. |
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Worst thing about being short? When you go shopping for jeans and the "peite" (shortest jeans you can buy) are too long.
Worst thing about being clutzy? Realizing that these jeans look amazing, but I have to wear heels with them, and I fall and hurt myself LOL |
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Headache.
I don't wanna go to class!
Does anyone else wanna go for me? lol |
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SO early! DAMN YOU WORK!!!
Yes, I totally have a new job. Go sara |
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Okay, so I've been getting messages with repeating questions, so I'll just do this journal to answer them.
Q: "Do you drink or do drugs?"
A: actually, nope. I stopped smoking about a year and a half ago. I don't do drugs anymore, and I don't drink. (My reasons for that have to do with my older brother and how I so don't want to end up like him)
Q: "Are you close to your family?"
A: Not really actually. My mum and I talk every day, but that's mainly becuase I do still live with her. My siblings and I don't talk too much, and my dad and step mum and I don't talk too much really.
Q: "Would you like to be a sister slave?"
A: No!!! FOR THE LOVE OF GODDESS I DO NOT DO POLY AT ALL! If you do, all the power to you, but I've learned in the past that a poly relationship is not for me at all.
Q: "Will you move to be with your Dom/me?"
A: At the moment, no becuase school is the most important thing right now and I'm not giving it up for anything. In the future I might not either. Travel is one thing, but I'm so not moving out of state to be with a Dom/me.
Q: "Why did your last relationship end?"
A: Okay, so my last D/s relationship ended becuase it turns out he's crazy (and not in the cute way like me). He actually thinks he's the demon Azazel. The nice way to say it is that he wanted poly and I don't. Really, he wanted a slave for himself, and one for "Azazel", what's sad is that he (I mean "azazel") killed him, and now it's just Azazel, and he still wants poly LOL. He has a slave, and I have to wonder how crazy she is.
My last vanilla relationship ended becuase he decided that it would be fun to abuse me and attempt to rape me.
Q: "Do you like pain?"
A: To a point. As a punishment I will accept it, but pain for the sake of pain no! I was physically abused by my brother for most of my life, and I'm not putting myself into that again. |
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So I am so fucking tired. I haven't slept in 3 days, classes are running even fucking longer, and my uncle is always needing rides now that he got his 2nd DWI so that's just making everything so much better. I need to sleep!! DAMN YOU DRAWING CLASS |
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Why is it that everytime I log on, his profile pops up? Is fate trying to laugh at the joke? Is it really funny to watch me type a message to him, and then delete it all before I send anything? |
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So school was totally amazing for the first week at the new school. I like it so much more than the school I got kicked out of. Life is actually great. My ex's have finally gotten it that I'm not going to be with them anymore, no one is mad at me, and I finally cleaned out my phone from 200 something contacts of people that are no good for me, to 60 something of people I actually like. I hate getting texts from old friends and not responding. It's hard, but I have my future to think about. |
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Woop Woop.
School on Monday.
FUCKS YEAH!
Oh, and if you think that you can upset me by calling me "fat", "ugly", "worthless" and all the other lovely names you think I deserve, stop wasting your time. It doesn't affect me in the least. I'm living my life. I have kick ass friends, a great family, my job sucks (oh well) and I am starting at my dream school. So before you waste your time thinking that I'll care what you think, take a look in the mirror and see who really gets affected by name calling. It hasn't bugged me since I was a kid. So sorry to ruin the fun! |
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The worst thing my dad could ever say to me "your stepmother and i need to talk to you about co-signing this loan for school" My dad has never really been a big fan of mine, and what I want to do with my life so I'm so scared that this close to school starting, he's going to say he's not going to sign. Then I'm stuck, and I have to go back to the school that he teaches at for free. I want to go to my school! Not his!! |
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I swear I hate stairs. I'm so short that my pants are too long, and then when I walk up stairs I'm always tripping up them. Damn stairs! I hate living on the 3rd floor! lol Too many stairs for me to trip up. Makes me a very very very sad Sara. |
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I'm not going to relocate. At least not for a few years. I like it here, I was born and raised here, and I'm going to school here. Don't try to tell me my life will be better somewhere else. It's great right here. |
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The stupid thing I did today: I was cleaning my room (giving a lot of old books to Arc) and i dropped my Vampire book on my foot! I screamed so loud (it landed on my pinky toe) that my neighbors ran over to see what was wrong. Well I was wearing these ratty old shorts with a hole in the ass, a black thong, and a tank top with a hole by the nipple. Let's just say my neighbor is hot, like Johnny Depp in Secret Window, 22 years old, and protective of me. LOL it was funny and weird at the same time. |
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| Age: 30 |
| Bristol,
United Kingdom |
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