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The dress is ordered, the tux, the veil, the tiara, the unmentionables...all arrived. The rings are waiting for engraving, the make-up selected. Everything going perfectly, like he promised it would. Now it's the guest list, the ceremony, a date, the invitations, the selecting of the groom's men and bridal party...he wants it all to be on time, and he doesn't flinch. He has helped me through every step of the planning to his specifications, guiding me, as if he's done this a million times. He wants it soon. I'm curious to see if I will survive the fastest engagement-formal wedding planning. I know he'll pull this off. That's what kind of man he is.
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I really don't understand some people.
Read my introduction...I'm not looking.
Please don't ask me why I remain on this site, because it says why in the introduction.
I can not and will not correspond with males, except those who are already my friends.
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I'm happy to say that I will be wearing a 3rd collar (from the same man)
Friday we went shopping and he found the cutest wedding collar for me. It's white, has white lace, and has 3 o-rings, and little red ribbon roses (say that 3 times fast!)
It's nice to have a dominant man who likes to pick-out and buy you cute things like that, usually, with other doms I've been serious with, I've had to hint, beg, and cry for anything. Not so with Mr. Young. |
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I didn't know how much the sound of German would turn me on so.
I always write things in German, but hearing a dominant man speak it to you is a different matter entirely. |
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Always miss you by an hour |
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Today's Horoscope for Virgo:
Today you will need to try to refrain from acting in a rash manner, or else you will find other people keeping some distance from you. You may be emotional about some issues that have arisen in your life, but try to keep a cool head and not to be hasty in your decisions or your actions. If you seem to be acting in an irrational manner then others are likely to judge you based on these behaviours. |
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Ich liebe dich aber I don' t-Notwendigkeit Sie |
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So much to say, but can't find the words. |
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I'm not always online. This browser (Opera) doesn't ever sign me out. Trust me, I have better stuff to do than sit here on CM all dang day LOL |
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Geez! I'm getting annoyed with a certain someone's (Chad) accusations that I'm paranoid. He leaves me snide remarks, and assholesque comments. Then when called on his shit...he says I'm paranoid. The stupid part is that I have saved the messages, and maybe I should send them back to him to prove he is either a pathological liar, or severely delusional. Whatever! |
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I think I'm over the rough patch |
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It's amazing how happiness, and optimistic goodness is relative to environment.
Now that I'm in a healthy, and supportive place, I feel there's nothing I can't accomplish :) |
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Yeah! Finally I'm here! It's good to see old friends, and Mt Baldy.
I have a lot of hope for me here. |
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I don't know when I'll be on CM next. I'm moving, and will be crazy busy. Till we see each other again :)
Blessings,
lilly |
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Thinking about being in trouble, deep deep trouble. So deep my legs are wrapped around it. ::the truth took the grin off my face:: |
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I need to see a doctor, something is really WRONG with me :( |
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Hmmm
Very curious. How did this fixation start? How must I deal with it? It scares me to have no control over this situation. |
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LOL that's the 2nd time someone said I've spelled dryaid wrong. Lemme explain where I get the variation. My brother is an Odinist Priest, and this is how they spell it. My brother did some type of reading on me, and I am a Oak Dryaid. I have absolutely no friggin' idea what significance this has. He used to cast runes for me too. Silly Viking, myths are for kids! |
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Pain? How dare you use that word. What you think of as pain, it's only a shadow.
Pain has a face, allow me to show it to you, gentlemen.
I AM PAIN
Pinhead-Hellraiser Bloodline |
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...Now you are mine
In my control
One taste of your life
And I own your soul
Judas Priest-Love Bites |
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Hello :)
This is my last week in Darkest Hell, AZ.
Everytime I move out of state, I end up in California again. CA seems to always be my stop-over destination, then I stay awhile, and then I leave.
CA is where I was born and "raised" (LOL! raised, more like razed)
I always come here to sort out a problem in my life, once fixed I leave.
This time when I leave, I only want to return for weddings and funerals.
The next place I land, I will make it my home. Growing roots. Staying.
I had a Dom in AK who made fun of me because of all the states I've lived in. He often accused me of being "flighty", "wild", and my favorite..."undomesticated".
So I've moved 7 times, out of state in the last 13 years...it was my path.
I'm affraid of making new friends when I get to CA...because I won't be staying. I have friends there I've known for 30 years, I'm thankful for that.
What to do? Follow providence, let fate have it's way. |
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Holy f*&cking sh$#! I came across my father on CM...f%*cking SCARY!!! |
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Guess who has their shit together? In 24 hours I have completed the following:
-I have an apartment
-I have a full-time job
-I have my new doctors all set-up
-I will be able to get my Sweetpea back
-I get to go to play on the Santa Monica beach
Yo ho and huzzah! |
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What a relief! In 2 weeks I'm gonna be in 70 degree weather, going to Disneyland, road rage, crips and bloods, L.A. and Hollywood, oh yeah my favorite...Newport and Balboa Beach! |
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:( i won't be going to the party on Friday...because of some asshole i live with, god damn i abhor him! |
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Frank Rizzo (Jerky Boys) would make an awesome Dom.
" Hey there sizzle chest! You fucking milky licker, I'm gonna come over there and cut your nuts off from the side of your face! I'm gonna shoe you up the ass so hard, you'll never walk the same!" -Johnny B. as Frank Rizzo
Something about Frank Rizzo turns me on. I think it's a combination of his NY accent and his aggressive manner of communicating. At any rate, he makes me laugh, which is another great attribute.
Johnny B. does a polar opposite character named Sol, which has been adapted in Family Guy as Mort. Mort/Sol would make a great subbie. Basically he is a sissy, fretful wuss, and has a real anal fixation. Not one once of Dom in him.
Hope you all enjoyed this unusual observation. |
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-Not like other children
Today I was told I was devious. This makes me chuckle. I've always admitted to being highly manipulating, to get what I want (hence a nickname of mine, Veruca)
Am I devious? Does this make me evil? Is devious a good thing, bad thing?
The weird part...I actually felt this was a complement, I felt a sense of pride.
But seriously, I know me. I'm not mean-spirited, or have ill-will (except for the ex). I just have a mischievous streak. :)
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Well, once again I've managed to lead myself astray. This "diversion" wasted a good deal of time, talent, and energy. This energy would have been better spent on myself. I'm still trying really hard to see the purpose, usually there's a method to the madness. This time I'm befuddled, slighted, and feel... nevermind. The point to this, is simply, No one will ever refocus my energy away from me, my life, and my goals. I moved heaven and earth...now I own the universe. |
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It's funny how much being around friends and family for just a few days can make you feel very homesick when they leave. |
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...The sweetest infection
of body and mind
Sweetest injection
of any kind
I stop and I stare too much
Affraid that I care too much
I hardly dare to touch
For fear that the spell might be broken...
...I know that nothing can stop me!
Sweetest Perfection- Depeche Mode
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Diamond rope, silver chain
Pretty noose is pretty pain
Pretty Noose- Soundgarden |
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Aren't i the lucky one ::sarcastic tone:: |
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Yea! Huzzah!
6 more days! I can't wait!
A former love-of-my-life-turned-best-friend and my favorite brother are coming from out of state for my birthday!
I wonder what i'm getting for my birthday? ::giggle:: |
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i've been checking out vanilla dating sites lately. Funny thing is i am being hit-up by Doms. Seriously, out of about 2-3 vanilla guy messages, there is 1 Dom message. Very interesting to see THERE ARE good, loving, and romantic Doms out there...too bad they are not here LOL! |
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Aint no fun when the rabbit's got the gun.
LMFAO! |
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"Some stories happen just to be told" -My cousin Stride |
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i'm getting annoyed by my lack of privacy, and someone hindering me from working-out. Damn it! Waiting for my room to be done! |
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i'm craving something odd today, is this my desire...or is this an imparted desire of a stronger mind? |
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There are some words I'd like to take-back. Words I'd like to retrieve. But it's too late now. |
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Okay, i know how to solve this problem...
i don't mind making friends.
At this moment, i am off the market.
i am not making myself availible to any Dom/Master at this time. And you subby boys, please don't think i want you either, i'm not interested in male subs.
i'm here to check-in with friends.
There, is that off-putting enough? |
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Yeah! Today started out shitty...but it's really perking-up! Now i have my whole weekend packed with diversions! :) |
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i was recently asked, "What do you have to offer?"
Hmmm, good question, i'll try to answer.
For the right man, i offer unwavering love and kenetic passion. i am extremely intelligent, trustworthy, and loyal. i am humorous, courageous, courteous, observant, and very psychic at times.
i am talented in business, cooking, decision making, hospitality, writting, arts, and budgeting.
Aside from my natural allure, there is wisdom, childlike playfulness, and logic.
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i have 2 statements to make:
1) i wish someone would spank me black and blue
2) That Jesus sure knew what he was saying when he said, "you can not serve two masters...you'll love the one, and hate the other" |
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This has been a strange day, indeed. Mellow-Chaos. Quiet-Chatter... |
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Please Gents, don't abruptly ignore me, just because i don't cyber. Do You want instant gratification, or something much more lasting and tangible? |
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i'm at a crossroads in my life. Do i follow this path, or that one. i need to really read the signs, portents, and omens deeper...i know how i feel about the 3 paths before me...i want to follow my heart, and ride the wave in. i want the right path, Someone show me the way. |
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My twinkie and tummy hurts |
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Wow! i just got spammed on CM!
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Grrrrrrr
May i cuss?
Fuck this shit!
This place gives me a fucking headache!
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Never go to them, let them come to you, just like I do...just like I do
-The Smiths
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Fuckin' A, Red! If I decline to chat, I fuckin' promise you it's totally because I pressed the "Declined" button |
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HAHAHAHA! A 19 yr old male told me that he could teach me about the lifestyle. Pardon me while I piss myself from laughing! |
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