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Looking for friends! Be it online or real, someone to talk to and ideally do things together would be nice. Just message me!

I like
+ fantasy
+ science fiction
+ psychology
+ electronic music
+ bondage
+ cats
+ crocheting
+ poetry

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5/14/2023 6:13:34 AM

Ich + Ich - So soll es bleiben

 

Ich warte schon so lange
Auf den einen Moment
Ich bin auf der Suche
Nach hundert Prozent
Wann ist es endlich richtig
Wann macht es einen Sinn
Ich werde es erst wissen
Wenn ich angekommen bin

Ich will sagen
So soll es sein
So kann es bleiben
So hab ich es mir gewünscht
Alles passt perfekt zusammen
Weil endlich alles stimmt
Und mein Herz gefangen nimmt

Wenn es da ist, werd ich feiern
Ich weiß, da ist noch mehr
Es liegt noch so viel vor mir
Ich lauf noch hinterher
Bis jetzt fühl ich nur die Hälfte
Von allem, was geht
Ich muss noch weitersuchen
Weil immer noch was fehlt

Ich will sagen:
So soll es sein
So kann es bleiben
So hab ich es mir gewünscht
Alles passt perfekt zusammen
Weil endlich alles stimmt
Und mein Herz gefangen nimmt

Ich weiß nicht, wo du bist
Oder wo du wohnst
Aber eins ist sicher
Dass es sich lohnt
Ich bete jede Nacht
Dass ich dich finde

Und du sagst
So soll es sein
So kann es bleiben
So hab ich es mir gewünscht
Alles passt perfekt zusammen
Weil endlich alles stimmt

So soll es sein
So kann es bleiben
Genau so ist es gut
Alles passt perfekt zusammen
Weil endlich alles in mir ruht

Yeah...
Oh...
Yeah...
Oh...
Yeah...

So soll es sein
So kann es bleiben
So hab ich es mir gewünscht
Alles passt perfekt zusammen
Weil endlich alles stimmt
Und mein Herz gefangen nimmt

 

 


7/15/2022 2:47:22 PM

Drax & Scott Max - The Sun

Moments...
(I) Count each moment
Believing you'll set me free

Wanting...
Draws you closer
I taste you on the air I breathe

Touch me
Feel me
Come and feel the love this time that's in my heart and set me free

Touch me
Feel me
Save me from this emptiness inside

Here comes the sun
Here comes the feeling
Here comes the moment that we've waited for so long...


5/15/2022 8:55:18 AM

RAM - Forever And A Day

I'll show you I love you
I'll show you I care
I'll tell you everything you want and need to hear
I'll heal your sorrow as long as I'm here
I'll make you smile again so loud and clear
When your daylight disappears
When the storm is coming near
When you feel like hope is gone, lean on me – I'll be strong
Let it all out now, it will be okay
Cause I'm gonna heal you now, forever and a day
Don't you give up now, it will be okay
Cause I'm gonna fight for you forever and a day

4/20/2022 10:32:56 AM

Wer leuchten will, der flieht das Licht
Der schaut der Nacht ins Angesicht

Subway to Sally - Eisblumen


4/20/2022 10:32:37 AM

Conjure One feat. Poe - Center of the Sun

When I close my eyes
I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done
I look into your eyes
And I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done


12/17/2021 11:47:23 AM

the blue bird woke

from a blackened dream

as a phoenix

fire burst from its eyes

as it flew away

high into the golden skies


1/26/2018 11:32:10 AM
Did I come back too early? There's pain under a veil of longing. Maybe I should give it up altogether? Or still fight the butterfly? Came so close to embracing it, hard to turn my back now within that cutting grip. What other way to defeat it?

2/12/2016 2:15:20 PM
hope
love
then, cuts
glass deliquifying
splinters building sharp walls
butterfly scratching my eyes
no place
no one to go to
i love you
please love me back
i'm trying hard
trying harder
i make so many mistakes
darkening your light
i love you
please come home
scream

9/12/2013 8:53:20 AM

Mazzy Star - Into Dust (John O'Callaghan Deep Dream Remix)

Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
Around broken in two
Till you eyes shed
Into dust

Like two strangers
Turning into dust
Till my hand shook with the way I fear

I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
Under your fate

It was you breathless and tall
I could feel my eyes turning into dust
And two strangers turning into dust
Turning into dust


8/6/2013 8:24:50 AM

Sunscreem vs Push - Please save me

(i'll set you free)
Who will help me now
Who will help love me, who will ever help me
In the forest, there's a monster
And it looks so, very much like me
Won't someone, hear me singing
Please save me, please rescue me
In the forest, there's a monster
And it looks so, very much like me
Won't someone, hear me singing
Please save me, please rescue me
Who will love me now
Who will ever love me
Who will love me now
Who will ever love me
Who will love me now
Who will ever love me, (who will ever love me..)


7/31/2013 1:53:23 PM

I think white dust is helping to liquefy glass, too. Hot light is in the startup phase.

So many stabs in the heart teach me: noone is what they appear to be. Under the surface there linger elements of surprise. Or... they keep slapping your face and you only feel it when finally they draw blood and tears.

I start feeling lonely.


7/31/2013 1:41:30 PM

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger? It almost appears to be true. If not stronger, then maybe wiser.


7/16/2013 12:28:55 PM

How to liquefy glass?


7/16/2013 12:23:55 PM

Locked in myself. Searching scratching screaming a breakthrough. Am I waking up? Or falling into the glass sleep again? So many fen fires in so many shades of my butterfly. Which meander, which shade to take? Which colour will, eventually, let my sun through?

And

who can reach through glass?


7/13/2013 1:29:30 PM

I hope that someday I'll be able to regain my creativity. My inner scenery. My wordless tears and smiles.

That one day the struggle will ease. That my dark butterfly will stop tearing at my heart. That, one day, I can live with its path of devastation.

That one day I'll be able to love without falling apart.

That someday I'll find my own place in the world, my very own, free.

That my dancing on broken glass can slow down, ever so steadily, steadily, steadily. That my feet can stop moving in the dark world, and turn towards my beautiful world of light. That their cuts and tears will heal, that the blood will stop flowing, that treading the ground will become a delight, a gift.

This is a small, small river. My dark butterfly, are you coming back to me? I need you, I need you now. I need you to heal. Without you, the world is glass. Without you, there is no going back or forth. I need you to cut me and make me bleed, so I can see you, feel you and heal you and me. I long for our silent words, my tears. Let me see. Let me feel. I'm blind now. Let me open my eyes. Your dark strength can be our sunlight. Help me, please help me.


4/9/2013 8:10:06 AM

The last time I told someone I loved them was about 6 years ago.

Now I can say it every day...

truly

freely

happily

?

Life is good now.


3/14/2013 3:48:22 PM

I feel happy.


10/2/2010 8:25:24 PM

Falling ~ Andy Duguid feat. Julie Thompson


I never thought I could move this mountain
I never thought I could even try
I never thought I could make this happen
But I was wrong

I never thought I could build these bridges
I never thought I could do it right
I never thought I will ever feel this
But I was wrong

'Cause I am not alone
No, I have found my home
It's where the darkness feels like moonlight
Where the stars keep burning in your eyes

No, I am not alone
No, I have found my home
It's where the moon won't contain the winter
Where the sun keeps smiling in your eyes

All I want is you
Catch me when I'm falling through
'Cause I belong to you

I never thought I could reach this distance
I never thought I could even try
I never thought I could stop to listen
But I was wrong

I never thought it would bring us closer
I never thought it would turn out right
I never thought I would see right through this
But I was wrong

'Cause I am not alone
No, I have found my home
It's where the darkness feels like moonlight
Where the stars keep burning in your eyes

No, I am not alone
No, I have found my home
It's where the moon won't contain the winter
Where the sun keeps smiling in your eyes

All I need is you
Catch me when I'm falling through
All I need is you
Catch me when I'm falling through
'Cause I belong to you


9/19/2010 12:52:52 PM

And she replied:
This is not my wing, mine cannot be perceived by nature's powers, thus I cannot fly and never shall, for my skin burns any feather in the wind, and mine shall remain invisible as I become.

And he said:
You are like water, going around the rocks and running from my hands, restless is your search. As long as you do not rise, the rocks cannot bind your fall. Answer, what is this skydeep whisper knocking on my ears?

And she replied:
It is my lost scream.


6/15/2010 11:59:00 AM
Falling dancer
What is a falling dancer worth
All i can do is
Fall gracefully
How
Do you fall gracefully?

The only way is
To fall from the tenth branch
And spread my wings
Fly, fly, fly
And fall into eternity

Whether i land in dirt
Or between sweet orchids
Does not matter
I fall with grace

Still i have love in my heart
Love is my wings
And i sing it into the wind

Falling
Flying

Loving too much

5/14/2010 8:03:22 AM
Hold me


hold me
let me be

a little girl
again

don't want
a lover now
i need a friend

and the one
safe place
to be

hold me
don't want to
talk

i don't want to
smile

i only want
to hide

and rest a while

and have you hold
me

i don't want to
think about

the world outside
your arms

so hold me

written by Venus3501

4/30/2010 4:16:11 PM
Fissure


I am here again
I am visiting you ...
your tender pain
your butterfly
which, in graceful fury
ecstasy
burns everything
It's tearing my heart apart
from the wounds
your desire screams
Oh, love me !

(c) Asyra 2006

4/2/2010 2:24:30 AM
Underground or Aeroplane
Doesn't matter in the end
I know it has to be this way
You're leaving me again

So I'll write my little love song
And I'll sing it to the wind
You're out there on the road tonight
London, New York, Amsterdam

And I'm lonely here without you
Miss your breath against my skin
You love me then you leave me still I lie here
Pressing fingers where your kisses have been

And I miss you
And I miss you
And I miss you

I know that I should be in bed
It's almost 3 am
But when I close my eyes I can only see
miles of headlights
Fleshing out the distance

So I'll sing my little lonely songs
It's just part of who I am
Cause I know that it's been calling to you
London, New York, Amsterdam

~
Luminary - Amsterdam



3 am and i can't sleep
Missing what i cannot miss
Craving for what i don't know yet
Feeling like i should not feel
Kisses that i've never felt
But in my dreams
Touches that i've never felt
But imagining wakes me up inside
Craving..
Craving..
Craving.. so much it hurts

3/25/2010 6:44:57 PM
You're speaking
A different language to me
Your world is far away
I can't ever live there
I'm looking into your eyes
Trying to find
A common place to start
Don't fire that gun yet.

I was turning the page before
You could read
The signs were all around
But missing them is easier
I admit that I'm the stranger here
The story of our past
The one that never got started.

We never got started
So I'm travelling light
Oh yeah
I'm travelling light
We never got started
So I'm travelling light
Travelling light.

~
Markus Schulz feat. Anita Kelsey - Travelling Light

3/7/2010 3:55:29 PM
See the mirror in your eyes
See the truth behind your lies
Your lies are haunting me

See the reason in your eyes
Giving answer to the why
your eyes are haunting me

Falling in and out of love...

Keep, keep running
Keep, keep falling...

~ Armin van Buuren feat. Sharon den Adel - Falling in and out of Love


The dancer is wearing a costume. Shiny seashells. What are they reflecting?
My eyes or your eyes? Will there be the moment where it is wise to take them off?

The mirror in your eyes is a thousand mirrors. I'm collecting the pieces, carefully putting them beside me, their cusps pointing at your heart. What will I find when your eyes are bare? What will you find in mine? Will I even get there, or will the mirrors cut my hands too deeply?

2/10/2010 12:53:47 PM
Current Status:
~Slowly connecting rope to her body. First contact made. Progress unpredictable.
~Today wave of Blue colour killed my painting. Used Yellow to get something Green out of it.
~Reactivating the Dreamer ressource. Going well.

Encountering new issue
How to cut a pearl necklace
Wish someone could give me advice on this one ...
Giving me nightmares, but it has to be done. The sooner, the better.
I have to hurry up ...

2/8/2010 12:08:20 PM
Preliminary result:
Painting is going automatically at the moment. Pictures keep shades of Black, but enough Red to prevent them to overtake. I'm satisfied. *wipes sweat off eyebrow*

Edit: Somehow it's turning out perfect. Can you believe it. I was wrong ... was I? It's time to fight.

2/5/2010 6:04:17 AM
Even though my hands are tied
I keep on moving
Right to the other side
I keep moving on
I keep moving on
I keep moving ...
~Ron van den Beuken - Keep on movin


A wave that flows through my mind and heart
Taking me high
To the sky
And I fly ...
fly ...
fly

2/4/2010 1:22:01 AM
Found that amount of brush control while painting might influence amount of bleeding caused by touching Ruby

This is a totally new option


Very scary - reaction of Ruby unknown
Might be strong enough to actually do this

Use the correct colours:
#1 RED
#2 YELLOW
#3 GREEN


THIS COULD BE THE SOLUTION

2/2/2010 5:52:56 PM
Analyzing the dancer problem.
Wings.
Connect the rope to her body.

Remaining issues:
How to keep the Ruby while preventing it from bleeding her out.
How to transform the butterfly.

Deduced thesis: The butterfly causes the Ruby the make her bleed.

Issue: How does it do so.

Supposed answer: By covering her eyes, denying her to see where the rope leads to.

Issue: How to handle the butterfly.

Characteristics:
*cannot be killed
*wings: white inside, black outside
*protector
*attacks causing boomerang effect
*changing size

Considered tactics:
*Expose to sunlight (+) ~ tested.
*Expose to moonlight (-) ~ tested.
*Connect to the Ruby (++ / -) ~ tested. Low situation control.
*Connect to extern gems (?) ~ not enough evidence. Judged unsuitable.
*Connect to half-extern gems (+ / - ) ~ tested. Unsuitable.
*Embrace (--) ~ tested. Marked as most efficient last resort. High desiration effect.
*Paint (++ / + / -) ~ tested. Outcome depends on brush control. Hardest maintenance. Best possible outcomes. Slow effects.

Favorised tactics: 
#1 Paint. Goal: (+++). Combine with sunlight exposure to reach.
#2 Embrace. Goal: (---). Combine with moonlight exposure to reach.

Desirability: varied. Actual tendency: #1 > #2. Depending on amount of bleeding caused by holding the Ruby.

Conclusion: Maintain #1 while collecting information about #2.

2/2/2010 2:41:50 PM
Silence is death.

2/2/2010 4:43:35 AM
That Ruby is cutting deeper. It's getting serious. Dangerous, might I say.
And I still haven't figured out where this key leads to.
I can't seem to cover the wound, it keeps bleeding.

I feel the Butterfly rising. It's taking over my mind.
Try to catch a butterfly when you're dancing on a rope above an ocean.
Whatever I decide, one of them will get me.
But. Then why do I keep dancing? It's the Ruby. It's a circle.


I need wings.


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 Age: 29
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