as of late i have discovered some new emotions relating to my non existant sex life within my marriage im coping quiet well i would describe it as in the beginning it was like a fish out of water wanting to breath but finding you cant its suffocating not being able to let go and then i felt dead now its as if ive found new way of forcing my heart to beat again redirecting my energies i cant really remember why it was so important in the first place but im geussing i have changed better or worse is interpretation but im someone else now its not wat i wanted but its coping isnt it its the most selfless thing i can do is give what i can |