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6/7/2012 8:57:05 PM

PROUDLY SHARING MY SLAVE'S JOURNAL


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6/6/2012 1:34:42 AM [Report Entry

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Serving GODDESS AFFINITY, and PRINCESS BLIX is not always an easy job, but it is an honor and a pleasure to be allowed such an opportunity.  I'm sure some guys would think I'm  Crazy, and other guys would give all they have just for the chance to spend ONE DAY in my position.  I live with GODDESS AFFINITY and PRINCESS BLIX, as their live-in slave.  I sleep on a small cot, next to their bed, on the side of my WONDERFUL, and BEAUTIFUL GODDESS AFFINITY.   I serve both of my Dommes 24/7, as well as taking care of several other Gorgeous Women that work for them, as my Owners see fit.  I'm their ashtray, I cook, clean, do all their laundry and provide any service for them as they desire.  I've also been working on camera with my GODDESS, shooting scene videos, and helping her with other video endeavors.  My life as a 24/7 slave is never boring, it starts early and ends early....the next morning.   16 to 20 hour days are the norm.  It's not for the weak of heart, nor for a lazy slave.  It's challenging and fascinating at the same time.   Anyone wishing to serve GODDESS AFFINITY OR PRINCESS BLIX, is encouraged to do so...they are BOTH very knowledgeable, Very Exciting, Creative and TRULY DOMINANT...all the time...this is a lifestyle for us, not a game, nor foreplay....it's real.  I've been in this lifestyle my entire adult life, was introduced into the scene and have been a REAL SLAVE for as long as I can remember.  My philosophy is "Being a Submissive Slave is something that you're born to be, it's your personality, your thoughts, feelings, and the ability to give up complete control to a someone that is able and willing to control you.  I have a better life now, being owned by GODDESS AFFINITY than I've ever had.  I LOVE my GODDESS and would truthfully do ANYTHING GODDESS WANTS ME TO.....THAT...is what makes a submissive a REAL SLAVE....if you're only willing to do part of it, or if you resist, or do things just to get attention, ask yourself why you're still searching for a domme....to find one and KEEP one, you have to be willing and able to do ANYTHING and I mean ANYTHING your domme desires.  It's not an easy world, and honestly, the position I have now, I could not have done 10 yrs ago, I had to mature, find myself and work hard to discover what it really means to be a slave...........smokey


6/5/2012 11:34:42 PM

Serving GODDESS AFFINITY, and PRINCESS BLIX is not always an easy job, but it is an honor and a pleasure to be allowed such an opportunity.  I'm sure some guys would think I'm  Crazy, and other guys would give all they have just for the chance to spend ONE DAY in my position.  I live with GODDESS AFFINITY and PRINCESS BLIX, as their live-in slave.  I sleep on a small cot, next to their bed, on the side of my WONDERFUL, and BEAUTIFUL GODDESS AFFINITY.   I serve both of my Dommes 24/7, as well as taking care of several other Gorgeous Women that work for them, as my Owners see fit.  I'm their ashtray, I cook, clean, do all their laundry and provide any service for them as they desire.  I've also been working on camera with my GODDESS, shooting scene videos, and helping her with other video endeavors.  My life as a 24/7 slave is never boring, it starts early and ends early....the next morning.   16 to 20 hour days are the norm.  It's not for the weak of heart, nor for a lazy slave.  It's challenging and fascinating at the same time.   Anyone wishing to serve GODDESS AFFINITY OR PRINCESS BLIX, is encouraged to do so...they are BOTH very knowledgeable, Very Exciting, Creative and TRULY DOMINANT...all the time...this is a lifestyle for us, not a game, nor foreplay....it's real.  I've been in this lifestyle my entire adult life, was introduced into the scene and have been a REAL SLAVE for as long as I can remember.  My philosophy is "Being a Submissive Slave is something that you're born to be, it's your personality, your thoughts, feelings, and the ability to give up complete control to a someone that is able and willing to control you.  I have a better life now, being owned by GODDESS AFFINITY than I've ever had.  I LOVE my GODDESS and would truthfully do ANYTHING GODDESS WANTS ME TO.....THAT...is what makes a submissive a REAL SLAVE....if you're only willing to do part of it, or if you resist, or do things just to get attention, ask yourself why you're still searching for a domme....to find one and KEEP one, you have to be willing and able to do ANYTHING and I mean ANYTHING your domme desires.  It's not an easy world, and honestly, the position I have now, I could not have done 10 yrs ago, I had to mature, find myself and work hard to discover what it really means to be a slave...........smokey

 


4/29/2012 2:08:33 AM

My life as GODDESS AFFINITY'S SLAVE has made me the happiest & Luckiest slave in the world!!!   I am HER live-in slave....HER ashtray, HER chef, HER handyman, HER housekeeper,  HER massuese, HER bitch and GODDESS AFFINITY'S PROPERTY, TO DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING SHE PLEASES WITH ME, OR TO ME, AND I DO WHATEVER SHE COMMANDS, OR EXPECTS FROM ME.  I have NEVER been Happier in my life than I am now.  I feel safe, protected, cared for, taken care of & I WILL NEVER STRAY.  I only PRAY that my GODDESS NEVER GROWS TIRED OF ME.

        A few nts ago, I was taken to the depths of the PAIN PALACE for an intense session with my GODDESS AFFINITY and PRINCESS BLIX .  PRINCESS BLIX is also in charge of me at all times, as I live with both of them, and serve them both.  I was put in a hood, the cock and balls that are between my legs belong to the GODDESS, and they were subjected to extreme torture for a considerable amount of time.  There are new scars on the GODDESSES COCK, due to some of the hottest wax I've ever seen.  I honestly thought it was a lit cigarette causing the intense pain on GODDESSES COCK.  GODDESS added another letter to the branding shes doing on my back.  She's burning HER name into my back with HER cigarettes.  So far SHE has the letters GODD branded into me.  After she finished with the second D, SHE informed PRINCESS and I BOTH, that SHE wanted PRINCESS to Brand HER NAME beneath the GODDESS name, so I also got the letter P branded into my back that same night. 

          After all of the branding activity, I was ordered to play with GODDESSES cock, BUT GIVEN ORDERS NOT TO CUM....IF I DID....I WOULD BE PUNISHED WORSE THAN I COULD POSSIBLY IMAGINE....SHE WASN'T KIDDING EITHER, I KNOW THAT MUCH FOR SURE!!!!

           GODDESS AND PRINCESS played a game with different colored dice.  Each color had a significant meaning, blue meant GODDESS would slap HER cock how ever many times the die said to, 1 - 6 times....one color meant stop, one color meant PRINCESS would slap GODDESSES cock, one color meant I could stroke HER cock however many times it indicated.  Each color had 2 dice, except one, the gold one....this one,  if it were rolled allowed me to cum.......if it wasn't rolled before the final STOP dice, I would not be allowed to cum for a VERY LONG TIME......

             Fortunately for ME, there were only 2 dice left, the GOLD one, and the final STOP....somehow, fate allowed the GOLD DIE to fall, which allowed me to cum, as GODDESS said, "CUM SMOKEY, CUM FOR THE LAST TIME....THE LAST TIME FOR A VERY, VERY LONG TIME", I came for my GODDESS and PRINCESS.....

              I was beat,  flogged, burned, branded, bound, clamped, hooded, and tortured to the point of exhaustion.....it was definitely a session I won't ever forget, but I have a feeling, some day soon, I'll look back on it and realize that it was NOTHING compared to future sessions with these two LOVELY, BEAUTIFUL DOMINANT LADIES, THAT OWN ME, OWN EVERYTHING THAT USED TO BE MINE AND EVERYTHING THAT I COME IN CONTACT WITH IN THE FUTURE WILL BELONG TO THEM AS WELL.......JUST AS IT SHOULD BE.

            THANK YOU GODDESS AFFINITY AND PRINCESS BLIX FOR ENSLAVING ME, AND FOR GIVING ME THE HONOR OF SERVING AS YOUR LIVE-IN SLAVE AND ALL THAT GOES WITH THAT......I'M DOING MY BEST TO BE WORTHY OF SUCH A POSITION........AND I ALWAYS WILL, ALONG WITH NEVER EVER FORGETTING MY PLACE.

                                 GODDESS AFFINITY'S and PRINCESS BLIX'S slave, smokey


4/17/2012 11:16:36 AM

Finally, back to my story.....

 

         After I took off my jacket, the GODDESS had walked across the room and taken a seat in a chair....she ordered me to come to her...so, I quickly crawled across the room and positioned myself, still on my knees, head bowed, directly in front of her...  The GODDESS handed me a lighter and leaned toward me with her cigarette.  I quickly lit her cigarette.  She inhaled deeply, then blew her smoke directly into my face, doing so several times.  I thanked her.  She then explained that I was to thank her EVERYTIME she blew smoke in my face, as HER SMOKE, WAS A GIFT TO ME...yes, indeed, it is a definite gift...I haven't ever felt as weak from such an act as I did from this wonderful GODDESS...I was in HEAVEN!!!

      "I don't like this shirt, take it off" commanded the GODDESS...I did as I was told, and knelt before this gorgeous GODDESS, shivering, partly from the cool temperature in the room, but mostly from nervous anticipation.  It was very obvious that this PERFECT LADY could cause me an extreme amount of pain if I displeased her in the least....I was NERVOUS.... the GODDESS asked me if she made me nervous, as I was shaking enough to be very obviously nervous....I answered that It had just been a long time since I had been in this position and yes, I was nervous...she flicked her ashes on my left shoulder...it stung for just a second, but I remained motionless and my head bowed.  She began to explain her rules, regulations and what I could expect, IF she decided to make me her ASHTRAY...She touched my shoulder with her cigarette.  It stung but not horrible.  She then asked me if I expected to leave with a nasty burning reminder of the day.  I replied that I was there to please HER and IF she wished to leave a burning token of the day, I would be pleased, ONLY if SHE was pleased.  When she finished with her cigarette, she crushed it out on my left shoulder.  After talking for a while, she placed a collar around my neck and informed me that she was giving me a "COLLAR OF INTENT", I believe is what she called it, then fastened a thin black leather collar around my neck...I was very nervous.  SHE then told me that she had decided to ACCEPT ME as her ASHTRAY SLAVE and offered me the position....I IMMEDIATELY AGREED, without the slightest hesitation...WOW....to say I was happy is an understatement...

          My NEW OWNER then informed me that she was going to burn the word GODDESS into my upper back, between my shoulders, and immediately began to burn the letter "G" against my left shoulder blade....Amazingly, I relaxed my body, remained perfectly still as my new GODDESS deeply burned the first letter of HER NAME into my very tender flesh....I couldn't have been more honored...She told me that she was VERY PLEASED with me.....and then, told me that she wanted the PRINCESS to meet me.   "REMAIN HERE, I WILL BE RIGHT BACK"....

          Many more things happened to me that first day, pictures were taken, I was put in a dress, and bondage, flogged, whipped and even commanded to form a "COCK MADE FROM SHEETROCK MUD, ON A MANIKIN....with my bare hands, WHILE BEING WHIPPED.  Oh, I had to keep count and THANK THE GODDESS when she got to 50, otherwise she would keep going until she decided to stop...Luckily I managed to keep good count, AND form a suitable "COCK" on the manikin, all of this while the PRINCESS laughed and kept reminding me to keep a good count, or I'd be in real trouble.....as MY GODDESS struck me for the 50th time, I quickly thanked her and the torment stopped.....A complete INDIAN WAR BONNET was decorated on my balls in clothes pins and a vibrating pair of clamps was placed on my balls as well.....OOOHHH MY......the rest of the day is a blurr as I was doing my very best to be the PERFECT SLAVE for MY NEW OWNERS....I AM NOW THE PROPERTY OF GODDESS DOMINA FELIX, AND I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER..... 

          WOW....I WAS FINALLY WHERE I BELONGED...FINALLY HAD A NEW OWNER...A REAL SMOKING GODDESS, TO USE ME AS I SHOULD BE USED...TO TREAT ME AS I SHOULD BE TREATED...AND SOMEONE I COULD SERVE AND WORSHIP, JUST THE WAY THIS WONDERFUL WOMAN DESERVES TO BE SERVED...WITH HUMILITY, OBEDIENCE, LOYALTY AND A DEEP SENSE OF RESPECT......BUT, as I was soon to find out, I would not only be serving this wonderful GODDESS alone, I would ALSO be Serving her mate, the Wonderful and Beautiful PRINCESS...a task which, although Difficult and Demanding,  would prove to be THE MOST REWARDING AND FULFILLING POSITION I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE....I COULDN'T BE A HAPPIER SLAVE.......THAT DAY I WAS RENAMED, SMOKEY, I WAS ACCEPTED AS THE GODDESSES ASHTRAY, AND I BEGAN MY NEW LIFE AS THE PROPERTY OF THE GODDESS DOMINA FELIX, AND upon orders from my GODDESS, I am also under the command of the VERY BEAUTIFUL and DEMANDING PRINCESS BLIX AS WELL.....How much better could life as an ASHTRAY SLAVE GET???

              Believe it or NOT, IT DID GET BETTER, and STILL IS!!!!!!

 

THANK YOU MY WONDERFUL GODDESS, DOMINA FELIX AND PRINCESS BLIX...THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!


4/6/2012 3:10:42 AM

      FINALLY.....I have FINALLY met a REAL SMOKING GODDESS THAT REALLY KNOWS HOW TO TREAT ME!!!  My very first session with the GODDESS DOMINA FELIX, was every bit as good, OR BETTER than the very best session I've ever had before, serving as a human ashtray for former Mistresses.  Oddly, I've had 4 Mistresses, before my GODDESS, that have used me for ashtray play, and only ONE OF THEM was a REAL LIFE SMOKER.....

Strangely, my profile, explaining smoke play attracted 2 of the non-smokers.  For non-smokers they both did exceptionally well dominanting me with their cigarettes.  BUT, until I met MY NEW OWNER, THE GODDESS DOMINA FELIX, I had never really known a TRUE DOMINANT.  My former Wife/Mistress Rebecca was the best Mistress I'd ever served long term.  She was a beginner when I met her, but the last time we were together, SHE WAS A PRO...She Branded my right ass cheek   "B's bitch" with her cigarettes.  Over 3 yrs later, it's still slightly visible.    

 

       I sent out inquiries asking if any of the Mistresses on here were interested in using me for their ashtray slave.  I sent one to the GODDESS, BUT didn't hear from her for a week.  When I DID here from her, My heart skipped a beat....I had sent a short introduction saying I was looking for a Dominant Smoking Goddess to use me for her ashtray and smokeslave.  No one had wanted to use me for an ashtray yet, but a few wanted to do other things.  However, when I opened the GODDESSES mail, INCREDIBLY....IT READ....."Ironically, I've been looking for an ashtray"    WOW!!!!!!  FINALLY!!!!!!   I received that 1st mesg. from my GODDESS on the evening of March 29th, and by April 4th, a mere 6 days later, I had already sessioned with the GODDESS, AND, BEEN OFFERED THE POSITION AS HER VERY FIRST ASHTRAY SLAVE!!!!   I didn't hesitate....."YES GODDESS, YES I ACCEPT THE POSITION AS YOUR ASHTRAY, I WILL BUY ALL OF YOUR CIGARETTES, LIGHTERS, ETC....ANYTHING YOU NEED FOR YOUR SMOKING ENJOYMENT."  

   

        When I first got the e-mail, it took a couple of days for us to hook up....we had planned to meet Monday the 2ne, but that didn't work, then, the next day didn't work either....Finally, when I got in the evening of the 3rd, I had a mesg from the GODDESS informing me that since we'd had so much trouble hooking up, I was to report to her at 10:30am the following morning.  I got a sick feeling in my stomach....OH....I usually have to move music gear at 10:30 Weds. morning.   I have to go to a clinic every morning around 9:30 to get medication, as I broke my shoulder many yrs ago, had it operated on, then became addicted to Pain Killers...therefore, I have been on a pain and opiod blocker for the past 8 yrs.  After I went to the clinic, I had to make up an excuse to get out of hauling the gear at that time, and have my bass player bring my by the GODDESSES Premesis...I was to be there at 10:30, but it was 10;20 when I got there....I've heard way too many horror stories of slaves being Early, OR Late to a session, so I tried to kill a few minutes.  Finally, I decided to chance it.  When I knocked on the door, a pretty young Lady answered it.  I recognized her from a picture with my Goddess, as her wife.    The young woman told me to go to the 2 story bldg behind the house &  go up the steps.  As I entered the building, and headed up the stairs, my heart was really pounding, HARD...the farther I got up the steps, the more nervous I became.  as I rounded the steps to head to the top,  I caught the very familiar odor of cigarette smoke and my rapid heart beat doubled......as I stepped on the finish floor.........The GODDESS stood there....a lit cigarette in 1 hand and a black riding crop in the other.   The GODDESS was dressed in pink open toe high heeled shoes, and had a turquoise colored corset on.  Her hair was blonde and although I knew much better than to make eye contact with the GODDESS, I could tell right away that she was very beautiful...In her pictures, her hair had been much darker, redish in color.  I immediately bowed and began to kiss her left foot.  I kissed and kissed, not sure when to either quit or change shoes.  Finally, I decided to swap feet, and began to kiss her other foot.... finally I made the decision to stop, praying that I wasn't about to be punished for stopping too soon.  The GODDESS PRAISED ME FOR GREETING HER PROPERLY and had me take off my jacket.

                                      

                                                  More to come.......Next Part.......My 1st burning from my GODDESS


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