I've gone through a fairly painful (and not in a fun way) relationship roller coaster in the past. it was so bad that for the longest time it hurt to say those three words. I feared the pain it brought so I pushed them a side. now lately I said them to my Mistress and...the fear was still there but lessened, but after seeing a simple little text from her I'm speechless. I haven't felt these feelings of love and trust in ages and I feel like I can achieve anything. I'm working on getting a job and then a home. It still blows my mind to hear me, the gypsy, say that I want to have a home with her. I love you Mistress, love and trust are all I have to give along with my heart.  

I miss my Mistress so much. I get so hard just thinking about her standing over me pouring hot wax on my chest. leaving little wax splash marks. grabbing the wooden clothes pins and twisting. my back arching as my Cock begs for her touch. My Mistress removing the cloths pins with her teeth, teasingly licking my nipples back to health.I go to pull her closer to me but I'm restrained. I've been bad I guess.......

we have come to terms.

could really use a good beating right about now.......

"another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody, I got some money cause I just got paid, oh how I wish I had someone to talk to, I'm in an awful way."

My Mistress had some problems last night. I hope everything is ok this morning.

I feel really down today and I have no idea why....I hate days like today...god I need a good beating.

talked to a new Dom tonight...we'll see