Well... found a new website today. ... going to give it a shot. Not like this one but... it seems to be fair close enough. Don't worry... not throwing this account out the window. Just peeking into the other site.

Okay. been a bit. Here's what has been going on with me. Living life a bit more in full now. I have joined a group called SCA. All is fun thus far. My first big event is this weekend. Can't wait to get there. Also, I am down to little walking for the next couple weeks due to a leg injury. Managed to hurt it pretty bad on a hike the other day. It should heal fine. Hmmn... About it.

You know, some days I wonder lots of things. Most things just little, others seem fretful, and others are just jumping ahead to things being thought. Oh well, things happen, either I think, or I don't. I guess what I am trying to "vent/say/think" is... Why do I have to just continue to ponder on these certain subjects? The more I tend to not think, I just think on it more. It sucks. It really does. Perhaps I need another hobby or I just need to learn to forget about things/people/issues. Who knows. This world is a very strange world and it doesn't seem to be going to a clear side anytime soon. So, just accept things.

Yeah... just accept things... :)

Seeing how this is the only damned place where I can vent... I am gonna vent. If you disagree, go read another profile.

Anyhow... I know I am not perfect, I know I make mistakes. I am human. It's normal for it to happen! What I am fed up with is all the damned lies, the half answers, and the shrugging off. I hate it! It's rude, disrespectful, and most of all, just not nice. I don't live to please EVERYONE. I have a life, an agenda, a job. I am only asking for a bit of truth and understanding once in a damned while! Is that just to much to ask? That simple little thing? Guess so in this world. I am so angry.

Well, long week over, mostly. Tomorrow is my last LONG day before a tad bit of rest. Let's see... Found some odd items and forgotten items while cleaning house the other day to add, yet, another computer into my mix on my desktop. That makes a total of 3. Don't ask why. I don't even know why I use more then two most days. Ooh. Server. yeah, a faster computer. Heh.

Anyhow, rambling aside, still unsure exactly what I am looking for. So that bit hasn't changed. I think, for now I would love to hang out with some one new, or just chat to some one that has a good sense of humor, and not annoying. That being said, I guess, give it a shot. What's the worst that will happen....... (famous last words, I know. :P)

Well, I am back again, for now. Life has had me spinning in circles for the past couple months. A few things are looking up, but some things still are in a rut. I'm hoping to get that fixed soon. Personally, I think it will be just fine once I start to change up my schedule a bit. We'll see. A whole new outlook. Yeah. Sounds good to me! :P Anyhow, as of right now, I have no clue what exactly I want. I am still more submissive then anything else, but I feel more towards a control submissive. If that makes sense. Guess it's because I am out to get something done and nothing can stop me from changing it. Heh. Anyhow, that seems to be about it for now... Sorry there doesn't seem to be more to post here.

Well, life seems to be giving a curve ball yet again. Got good news and bad news both the other day. Bad news, my baby girl (cat of 10 years) sadly had to be let go yesterday due to kidney failure at 90%. I had not caught the issue on time. May she rest peacefully now. On the side note, my own issue has now been resolved and issues can now be resolved! Yay!

Anyhow, enough ramble... I am now seeking some one to simply speak with and try to get to know another. Have a few things that perhaps will be sought after in a later date.

Have a nice one! :D

Okay it has been awhile from my last update. Guess I should do this just a little more often. But hey, not really my thing either way. So here goes...

Had some fun today, cooked the meal, made the pies, sat down for a bit of tv. Gravy was a little thick, but it still did what it needed to do. Guess even after doing a very vanilla day today something still felt like it was missing. Perhaps I need to find a way out of the "old grind" and find something new to do once in a while. Sucks though when you have nothing to give to do. Oh well. Life is life. Not what you want to do that really matters as much as doing it.

So on that note, a bout of slight missing, a longing, if you will and a pretty mellow sitting. How are things going for ya'll out there? I sure do hope that it is well. Don't want any of you going out for a bout of stupid. Sheesh. Haha. Well, enough rambling for the time being. I'll try to post up more, perhaps a round of some findings I have had in my studies. Catch ya'll later!

My voice is now squeaky and I had a BLAST tonight at the Metal Concert. I want to do it again! Moshing was the bomb! That and thank you tommy for the platform and collar wearing. You have the full extent for my costume later this year.

Warm rays of sunshine flow down upon the icy earth, heating it to the days bright. But atlas, the sun that falls upon my fair skin does not warm what is hidden deep within. The darkness that looms deep is only a hidden passion or that of life long pain, from no pleasure.

Although the chaos churns within, a smile will be placed upon the out, acting as if it were soaking up the rays of warmth. Yes, a soft smile upon pale lips, telling the world that 'I am alright.' This, is as it had always been as a child and now the wight is carried as I am today. Perhaps the world and fantasy I seek lie just beyond the bend, in a place not so far away...