While there are many things I would like to find in the one who serves me it is less about the details and more about a shared concept of ideals in how we view our roles as master and slave. To which I have taken the liberty of writing down these concepts as best I can that I may hopefully find someone dear to me.

I want depth of emotions to take precedence over intensity of emotion.

While indulgences are a fun distraction, it is not what establishes a healthy and stable relationship. Every relationship must carry with it promises and obligations from both sides that can never be compromised without doing harm to what has been so hard fought to build. Not understanding this fundamental basic will leave one or both sides unaware that they are betraying the trust of the other and suddenly find that everything is lost without a clue or a hint as to why.

I want my servant to be by my side forever, loyal and devoted.

The choice to server someone should not be for titles or obligations, but out of respect and loyalty. While forcing respect and loyalty through fear, intimidation and conditioning may work in the short term, it will also diminish the self image of that person creating little more than a marionette who can follow instructions, a fun toy that that quickly gets boring and ends up being thrown to the side. If the respect is earned, and the loyalty is born from trust then while it is a far more difficult and challenging path, it puts the decision in the hands of the servant to choose to be by his side and that is where she belongs. Doing this, she will strive to prove herself to the one she choose and who accepted her and thus builds her self image becoming even stronger and more capable. When a person chooses loyalty and devotion on their own volition, this is a bond that can only be broken by the person who earned it and as long as this trust is never betrayed, it will endure forever.

I want the collar to represent the bond we share.

If you look around, you will see little trinkets here and there that serve as little time capsules, and bound within each one are memories and the emotions of a time we cherish. The collar a slave wears is no different. To say that it binds a slave to a master is very true, however what memories and emotions will it convey? Think of the collar as a world shared by two souls and consider what should and should not belong within this world. Will you find the strength to persevere and endure, compassion to tend to a wounded heart, encouragement to do your best, patience to keep trying, insight to understand your feelings? Will you feel the warmth of someone who loves you? All of the pain and sorrow, joy and love, the emotions that bind you two as one are imbued in that one ornament worn around the neck and as long as it is with you then you are never alone.

I will take responsibility in earnest for the life; mind, body, and soul, which has been left in my stead.

While far from being a new born child, should a life given to the care of another be any different? The happiness and well being of someone is depending on your sound decisions and reasoning to do what is in her best interest. This is the promise of the caretaker, guardian, mentor and trainer known as Master. It is his convictions in this promise that will strengthen the bonds they share and establish stability in the relationship. To serve this role I have gathered the sum of 30+ books and audio cd’s of all assortments, many of which are experts in their specific field with many years of practical experience. As of the writing of this post I have read five books and listened to three audio tapes accounting various aspects of the science of the mind, how memory works and the devices and methods to the process of learning. With so much material to go through it only made sense to first and foremost take every advantage possible to gaining the most out of what I am reading. From here I intend to focus on the body learning all I can about nutrition, the bodies anatomy, physical fitness, herbal remedies and emergency treatment. Then on to the soul learning what I can about philosophy, psychology, personality styles, exploring ethics and morality, work on ways to build character and resolve, finding insight into emotions that drive us to act and react, and develop an understanding of different life patters that mold us into the people we are today.

I value quality of life above all else.

Exactly how does one find quality in life? Is it simply the pursuit of happiness or is there more to it? If all you sought was to indulge yourself every day, each day blending into the next becoming weeks then months and even years then what would be the difference between being alive for a week or living for a billion years. If all you do is merely exist from day to day biding time until you pass on how does that relate to quality of life? We have one and only one chance to get the most out of life that we can, once time passes by whatever opportunities we had to enjoy them to the fullest are gone forever and we only have from that moment forward. To my regret I have spent a great deal of my life looking for an easy and quick path to a happy life of ease and it is only recently I have come to understand a very simple truth. Just as the body must endure to become strong, vital, and healthy so must the mind and soul. Think back to the time when you where young and still growing. At the age of twelve you no longer saw things as you did when you where a child. When you where a teenager you no longer saw things as you did when you where twelve. When you where an adult you no longer saw things as you did when you where a teenager. Does being an adult mean that we have reached our limit and the time for growing and maturing have come to an end? If we look around us we see ourselves surrounded by people that have somehow progressed much farther than we have, are we to believe that somehow they are different or special? I believe that the potential to become far more than whom we now are lies in each of us, and as we look at others with the good fortune of having the strength to find their measure of happiness, we also discover that they share that same strength to help those around them find their own. It is within this strength that I believe a true measure of quality in our lives can be found.

While the concept of a kind gentleman, master of the estate, acting as guardian, mentor, and tutor in trade of companionship is an aged old concept, it has since evolved in many different directions each devoutly stating that they are true to their name. While diversity makes it impossible to make any such claim, what I have described here is my own vision that I shall remain true to. I know somewhere out there is my treasure searching for just such a person to declare her loyalty and devotion to and it is only a matter of time before we find each other and I hold her in my arms.

Angelic Knight