Dearest Master of my World,

I know that you may be insanely intuitive and can pinpoint the moment of my incessant mood shifts, but I also know that you are not a mind reader. Knowing what I know about myself, I am not the best communicator unless it is in writing, and even then...I feel hesitant in baring my soul for fear of hurting you or incriminating myself; therefore, I feel the need to explain some things about myself that might not otherwise be readily available through words or actions.

I am an empath: I feed off of the moods of others, and though I try so very hard to keep a positive attitude at all times, I feed off of the negativity of others much more often than the positivity. I tend to put on a brave face to the world. In fact, most people see me as relentlessly joyful and filled with the rainbows of sweetness; however, more often than not, the smile fades when no one is looking. There is a darkness inside me that stems from tiny nuances of social behavior and anxiety. I analyze every word, gesture, and expression of those around me, seeking the judgement I feel must surely be there under the surface. I'm not suicidal, just anxious in social situations. That's why I tend to be quiet. I'm not dumb or high (yes, some people have told me in the past they have thought I was high all the time because I'm laid back and tend to think and remain quiet); I'm just cautiously taking it all in.

Next, I want to share some things I like and why I need them. I'm not into pain on a grand scale, but I do like a quick spank, pinch, or a hard hand in my hair or around my throat. As a woman who's mind tends to be in the clouds, the pain or firmness grounds me to Earth and the present once again. Plus, there is something extremely hot when a man wraps his hand around my chin, forcing it up while he takes his time to simply look over me. I feel vulnerable, nervous, excited, and aroused. I need these feelings as they help me with my ongoing battle with social anxiety by giving me new, uncomfortable social experiences. Aside from a minimal amount of pain, I also think I would like to try confinement/caging. I've never tried it before in the instance of the BDSM lifestyle, but when looking at my past, the times I've felt the most comfortable, the safest, were when I was confined. I liked being made to 'sit in the corner' or made to go to my room when I was in trouble. I loved playing in oversized boxes when I was little, and my favorite Hide and Seek place was the laundry hamper with a lid. The world is a little too large for me at times, so I think I would feel safe and comforted when placed in a cage or a closet (though with a book or my phone, haha), especially when I'm upset about something. Of course, those reasons may not be the goal of caging/confinement, but I suppose everyone's goals are different. I need my world narrowed down and made a little more manageable.

My dear, future Master, I am not perfect, and I will mess up a lot in our relationship. I'm clumsy, which I hope you'll find amusing and adorable, and I cry too easily, and I need a lot of patience, work, and above all, I need love and attention. If I don't get the attention I need, I might begin to act out in order to gain any sort of attention I can get, even if it's punishment. Please be wise to that fact. I don't need to be smothered, but a gentle caress along my back as you pass behind me, or a tweak of my hair, or even me simply catching your stare before I look away with a smile and a blush. I need you to be as aware of me as I am of you, for not only am I your property, your slut, your toy, but you are the Master of my entire world.

With Loyalty and Devotion,

Angel