So much time without being around here XD

I've been working myself, and some results are showing. I've lost about 30 kilos and earned some stamina too. Still, not a soul keeps notice of me. I guess I'm still halfway T_T

Speaking of the devil, I'm halfway to the end of the academic year, so yes, stressing phase ahead :)

I've been more than 2 months with the diet already. I've started to lose sizes, and I think I'll need new clothes from time to time (I don't really enjoy buying clothes T_T) . Also, belts won't be of help from time to time :P

Another thing is that I've been sick with colds and a flu for some time, and my defenses are kind of low right now U.U

I've been on a diet (I did it all by myself) for some weeks, and it's really awesome. It's true that I miss some fatty meals, but I can do perfectly well without them. I'm having even more vitamins and micronutrients than before.

The problem is, that I already think that I'm perfect in my imperfection, but I want to get a girl, and girls don't like overweight people. Precisely what I don't like about being on a diet is the reason I have: getting slimmier just for getting girls is like accepting society rules about beauty... well, it IS accepting society rules, and this will be the first time in my whole life that I adapt to the society. I feel as if I were breaking my principles, and it makes me quite sad. But after so much time, I need a fuck.

Well, it was a hard summer, working 10 hours a day and then, studying for the make-up exams, but I ended well that (more or less) and with enough money to pay my university taxes of this year ^^

Now that I've started a new course, everything seems to be awesome about it. I changed to part time working and I have very few classes this year, so I can focus on them better. And therefore, I will balance my schedule better than last year. Yeah!

One thing that I changed a pair of weeks ago about myself is that I stopped drinking coke, and now I'm becoming crazy searching for a substitute of it, without caffeine. I want to be able to maximize the effect of caffeine when I really need it.

Two new pics added!

I met a girl 3 months ago, and we talked a lot. Then she said we would be more than friends for sure. After a month like that, she had to go back to her country for some issues almost another month, and when she came back she didn't answer messages and didn't connected on msn. Then, today, she changes her status to "in a relationship".

Why do I happen to find myself in this kind of situation so often?

What happened?

And as every other time, this only increase my desire of dominating totally a girl even more.

I pity those who think that having a stable life comes with age. I, for example, have since I was 16 a full time job with chances of promotion, and I keep studying for having higher titles for promoting. With 23 years I have a car, lands and a job. Even if it's true people tend to mature around 30s (a little less for women), people shouldn't assume that's only what's in the world, there are exceptions, and it's thanks to them we aren't a sheep's herd. There is this expression in the scientific world: the best thing to say isn't "it worked!" it's "hmmm it's weird...".

In other trend of thoughts, it seems I will finally have my desired rain. Yay for my car!!! xD

It has been months since the last rain, and I'm somewhat melancholic. Yes, I know it's weird, but I like the sound of the rain, I like feeling the mighty thunders, and it normally is cold, which I love. I can't help but smile when it rains, the trees grow, my car washes for free, and people tend to stay in their houses, so I don't have to hear them on the street.

I had a discussion (the sane kind) with a friend about history. I defended that people put it on an altar, and they tend to think like if things that happened before were still true, and for that reason, history is making more damage than good to our society. He defended the opposite. It was very interesting discussion.

As a project of a scientist, I'm very curious about hypnosis. Logic thought tells me it's only a half-truth at most, but I've learned that "impossible" is the worst word in the scientific world, if it doesn't go with a "yet". Does anyone know about hypnotism?, or where can I go to learn about it? I've looked in the internet but everything I found must be paying. And I believe everything can be found free on internet. Also, since this might be a fraud, it's like gambling, and I don't like gambling.

Full change of my profile.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4RjJKxsamQ&ob=av3e

Here comes a few thoughts (and they aren't rants, for a change):

There are a lot of people that talk about experience. I'll never get tired of saying I'm a eternal noob in BDSM, and also in life. Knowledge is vast, and we are only able to have a little bit.

I'm thinking of how can I make a soundproof room in my house, to be able to play some funny *wink* games, without my neightbours hearing the loud moans, cries, and the sound of objects hitting the skin :P

I started my "holydays" this week (I still have to work, but studying is over for two months), and I don't know what to do.

Ladies, if you want to talk to me, do it. Message me, it's the best way to show you are interested. When I send mails, I put all my hole-where-it's-suposed-to-be-the-soul into it, but if I do it all the times, eventually, I won't know what to say.

Also, I can't know if you are interested in anything if you don't show any kind of interest...

Hmm from one month or two, dommes have been seeing my profile, much more than before, and I keep wondering why.

A bit of myself. This are SOME of the players/bands I like:

• Classic rock: Elvis, Brian Setzer, Chuck Berry, Beach Boys, Dire Straits...
• Nifty: Frank Sinatra, James Brown, Blues Brothers...
• Hard rock: Deep Purple, Led Zeppelin, Eric Clapton, Pink Floyd, AC/DC, Queen...
• Pop: Michael Jackson, Andrés Calamaro...
• Heavy metal: Iron Maiden, Scorpions, The darkness, Helloween, Metallica...
• Freaky: B52s, Devo, Hamburguesa Vegetal, El Reno Renardo, Los Mojinos escozíos.
• Rap: MC Hammer, Vanilla Ice...
• Orchestral music: Tchaikovski, Wagner, Holst, John Williams, Hans Zimmer...

...and many, many more.

I think everyone is selfish.

Every action in a life can be divided in choices taken, and people do the thing that gives more endorphines to their brain, which can be helping a poor boy from africa or increasing his/her money at the cost of human lives. Every thing people do is made for their own pleasure, and that is selfishness.

Our behaviour, like any other living being, is based on survival, but, since we are in a phase where we don't need to adapt to the surroundings, our desire to survive is translated in our brain as desire to live longer, and happiness makes you live longer.

So, to us humans, it's normal to act selfish. But that doesn't mean you can do whatever you like, since there are other people with you (everyone is part of the society), and they want to be happy also. There are two possible solutions to this:

1) To act together as a whole, and go even further in our evolution.

2) To continue thinking about oneself, and stay still like we are right now, a half assed species.

I hate making random ranting, but hell, I'm sick of people that ignore my messages. I may be one of the very few people that doesn't send copy/pasted mails. I write every letter in those messages, and what do I recieve in exange? nothing. I may be good person, but as I have already said: hell.

People who create profiles to warn about fakes and scammers, I had to say to you that your profiles are as annoying as the fakes and scammers. I know you do it with no malice, but I don't like it.