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I am old and fat
Anduglytoo
My only experiences in submission were brief, and rather long ago.
The most intense was a three day weekend for which I agreed to do what was asked, without question. It was very pleasing, and very frustrating, because I was expected to want and provide only exhibition, and ordinary intercourse. I was paddled tentatively, and allowed to provide oral service briefly.
It was many years ago. I am now entirely impotent, and want to find a woman of any age who desires extensive oral service. I will willingly accept other types of play, but my own reward is to learn to provide pleasure. To earn that reward I would try to become exactly and precisely skilled in the manner of your pleasure.
I am not interested in professional services, or products. I don't expect to be supported in any way. I have no required limits on length of meetings, aside from needing to work, and some occasional commitments. Long term relationships are certainly of interest, but that requires a short term relationship to begin with.
Ideal situation would lead to a very long term association, perhaps including living in available modest quarters for the right woman. Chattel Slavery is illegal, but voluntary acceptance of servitude, and a lease on quarters is legal. In the ideal case, relocating would be acceptable.
In the end, I could submit to a real person, with real wants and a strong sense of herself far more thoroughly than this brief memoir can express. People who demand immediate total submission, or claim to have no limits are unaware of the realities of human relationships. Everyone has limits, if you think you don't, you are attempting to fool someone, probably yourself. It is possible that I could help such a person learn about limits, but it seems an unlikely place to start.
Generally, I know more about the people around me than they expect. That perception cannot be avoided entirely. You can fool me, of course, for a while, but that will only impede the establishment of the open and honest understanding that must grow in any relationship, especially a D/s relationship. Surprisingly, the things you pretend reveal more of yourself than the facts of your life. You choose who you pretend to be, life seldom lets us do that.
I don’t dom from the bottom, by the way. But if I know you are not expressing what you feel, and desire, it will end up eliciting unexpected responses. Judging by the demographics I see, the woman I find here, if she does exist will be younger than I am; probably by decades. It doesn’t trouble me, if it doesn’t trouble her, but a long life provides a lot of sources for understanding, and if you get my service offered willingly, it includes my mind, which is much more able than my body.
I will try to find an appropriate picture. Exhibition is not a familiar thing for me.
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