Message/Question for all the energy workers in here:

Energy workers, i am sure that most of you have opinions on past life regressions and whether or not it is advisable/safe to do them. Let's say you have a person who is risk aware (to a degree) and in spite of what could happen, wants to go through with it.

i have been told there are two ways to go about this. One way is relatively "gentle", via hypnosis and the other, not so much, via direct energy contact and forcing open of their third eye with energy work and retrieving memories that way.

What are the possible risks of either method and which one would you, personally, choose if you were to do this? And if there are any other methods to do this, please, feel free to relate them below.

New Orleans locals, feel free to befriend me in here if you are going to be at:

this Saturday (event info is on "John Baku's" site "FL", the House has its own page as well).

i will be in attendance, and i wouldn't mind making new friends.

thank you in advance,

amber

how would i find the person who wrote this:

"My name is Tiffany. I am one of the two founders of Collarme.com. I have been involved with Collarme from its inception as a fledgling idea to give individuals in the BDSM"

because, apparently she has said that the site is currently down and i'm in here and everything appears to be working just fine.

.......

collarme drama brewing or something!?!?!?!?!

Would it be safe to say that everyone on this site (or at least everyone that is not a spammer) is mentally ill according to the following "news" article?

http://themindunleashed.org/2013/11/nonconformity-and-freethinking-now.html

comments are encouraged and welcome.  i would not mind hearing opinions on this article.

amber

The offer: 1 card pulled from my Rider Waite Deck

Time limit: Until the evening of Monday October 14th (before midnight)

How many people: no more than 10 per day (40 maximum)

Test me out, i need the practice.  The offer commences immediately

thank you for giving me the chance to read for all of you,

amber

i'm fascinated with anyone's views on this......do you agree or disagree:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/blake-page/marine-corps-religious-discrimination_b_3647235.html?ncid=edlinkusaolp00000009

i am a spiritualist leaning HEAVILY towards atheism (still on the fence with it), so, needless to say, i disagree wholeheartedly with this.

hello A/all,

i have not done this in a long time and i feel that some of you would not mind having insight, to that end, i am offering to pull one card from my Rider Waite deck to anyone who messages me over the next few days.  i will cap the number at 20, so please, act fast or you might not get this opportunity.

Blessed be,

amber

looking to improve my psionic skills, no D/s play involved, message me if You feel that Your skill-level is "above" mine.  i look forward to appreciating Your energy *wink*

if this law actually passes (and manages to pass in other states as well).....i see the end for sites like collarme and FL

smh

thoughts on this article?

http://thinkprogress.org/lgbt/2013/07/17/2315251/virginia-cuccinelli-oral-sex/

http://img0.liveinternet.ru/images/attach/c/5//3970/3970473_sprite198.swf

:)

o.O wow......Thoughts!? LOVE to hear from some anti-gun control (anti-background check) people on this vid.

i am pro gun control and i am moving to the states, how in the world am i going to cope with staying true to my beliefs while everyone else around me vehemently disagrees with my view on this?

P.S. i started this "Gun Control" discussion 3 hours ago......137 comments later and the "discussion" is still raging.  o.O

Plans for the next few weeks:

i've been lax about posting here and even checking in.......probably "need" a spanking for that.....but anyways, i am going to be here:

http://lordmorpheous.com/?page_id=20

and in a few weeks, i will be here:

http://www.endlessnight.com/events/neworleansvampireball2012/

if any of you are planning to be at either (or both) of those events, feel free to message me and maybe we can meet.

__________

beyond that, i find myself in need of "good" energy.  i am looking for a "donor".  Those of you who know what that means, and wish to help me out, please, do not hesitate to get in touch with me.

mmmmmmmmmmmmm SUCH a yummy dream last night.....quite the relief from the other....sharing:

he had black hair and piercing blue eyes, stood 5'10" with a lithe but muscular body wearing brown pants, a crisp white shirt unbuttoned casually to reveal a strong, hairless chest.  he wore a waist coat in a slightly darker shade of brown as the pants. i was drifting in and out of consciousness in bed and he was pacing the room trying to decide what to do next......i read his thoughts......he was conflicted......flash of clarity and he was inches away from my mouth bent over breathing in my energy has his hands held my head and face......i was transfixed, unable to move, not wanting to.....then i felt his lips on mine. shocks of electricity traveled the length of my body and i was shaking in pleasure completely uncontrollably......tears of joy were streaming down my face.....and then he started to bite my lips as well....alternating warm moist kisses with nips of his sharp teeth....making me shiver even more.......he gathered me into his arms, cradling me.....i stopped shaking, but it was over and i fell asleep completely sated from just his lips.

i know who this is or at least i THINK i know who this is.....comments are welcome ;-)

my recurring dream is back....i am posting it here on the off chance that one of you will be able to help:

There are 12 men dressed in black robes (all wearing this ring: http://i499.photobucket.com/albums/rr356/AmberSwan/otoring.jpg ) convening in a warehouse that is marked with pentagrams and other sacred symbols (scarabs and ankh). They are standing in a circle around a circular symbol (this one: http://s499.photobucket.com/albums/rr356/AmberSwan/?action=view&current=SDA.gif "The Sigil of Ameth") chanting something in enochian language, I am in the middle of the circle (standing on the symbol) and my eyes have rolled back into my head and I cannot see anything, but I am able to sense everyone moving in closer to me with every 10 words spoken......by the time they reach me I am shaking and for some weird reason my legs have given out and they have to hold me up. They call out "Azazel, come forth, we evoke you" I black out in the dream then and wake up.

Y/your hand is on mine and W/we connect together.

W/we pull a card from my deck.

This card is Y/yours.

Know that the deck is Rider Waite, also know that i am willing to pull a single card (short brief insight). 

This will continue until further notice (further notice being when this journal writing will suddenly disappear).

Test me out, i've been told that i am shockingly accurate.

blessed be,

amber

If you value freedom of speech and your 1st Amendment Rights feel free to join THIS

FL . com/events/87247/v2

Please read:

(Shared from here: FL . com/groups/311/group_posts/2116922)

On Wednesday, Wikipedia and much of the Internet will go black. No, they haven’t decided that the real way to look cool is to look like FL. It’s a warning about what could happen very soon.

Two new bills in the U.S. Congress are threatening the Internet itself - and FL in particular. They’re being pushed by a few media corporations. They’re called the U.S. Senate’s Protect Intellectual Property Act (PIPA) and the House’s Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA) bills.

Copyright protection needs to be updated. These bills are not the way to do it. They're comparable to getting rid of abortions by outlawing pregnancy. It won't work, and the end result will be worse problems instead of solutions. Think of it as a modern attempt at Prohibition - good people trying to solve problems, but going about it the wrong way and ultimately making things worse. For example, under SOPA, a web site where someone alleges that there is a copyright infringement by anyone could be turned off to people living in the U.S. (this provision was partially dropped Monday to “studying it”). And yes, these allegations could be false. They could simply be issued by someone who didn’t like the content of the site - and have the same effect.

The end result of these bills would be to kill off much of the Internet as we know it today. And yes, that potentially includes FL.

The Internet is one of the world's largest job creation engines. It works everywhere you can connect to it, making location less of an obstacle. While protecting intellectual property is an important part of the U.S. Constitution, it has always been a right that has been balanced against the rights of the population as a whole. The DMCA, for all of its flaws in both directions, was a compromise between the IT community and the producer community. That compromise, that attempt to find a common playing field, was not part of the PIPA/SOPA bills. They were created by a few large media corporations who are trying to push them through Congress without that sort of consideration of options and balance for all involved. These are bills that need to be tossed out, and the process restarted from scratch - correctly, with all the major players at the table.

The latest information suggests that SOPA is being pulled because of pressure from us - the internet community - but PIPA is still alive, and SOPA remains in the background. Help drive a stake through these attempts - and then hopefully we’ll see some genuine copyright protection legislation come forward. Even if you are outside the U.S., you will be affected by this. If you are a U.S. citizen, make your voice known. Your Senators are listed here, and your Representatives here. Easy ways to voice your opposition to these bills are here and here. The internet community has already killed SOPA - we did it - so, help make some more noise to finish the job on PIPA. All over her face. The FL you save may be your own!

Another article outlining what will be happening:

http://blog.zap2it.com/pop2it/2012/01/sopa-blackout-could-shut-down-internet-facebook-google-twitter-amazon-and-more-to-go-dark.html

breathe in breathe out

savor the feel of it

tendrils of energy enveloping you

swarming in from all directions

this is how you "appreciate" your "nature"

it matters not if the source is

ambient or direct you show it

same reverence regardless of

how and from where you acquired it

..........work in progress, i'll get back to this (after i have fed)......

i've been pondering whether i should write this dream in here or not but i don't see the harm in it.  it does not reveal names or places or true identifying details.  if you read this and it seems familiar, know that this is just a dream of mine and not something that has happened.

The dream:

they picked me up from the airport in a black sedan (i was wearing the outfit they instructed me to wear, a black pencil skirt, red blouse, fishnets and 4 inch black pumps), there was one driver and a man wearing a Butler's uniform.  i was told to take my suitcases in the back seat of the car and sit beside them. Before we left the terminal the butler put tape over my eyes and then a blindfold....i couldn't see anything and my sense of time was also skewed.  We drove for a while....i would say it was between 20 to 40 minutes (give or take).....and then we stopped.  i was ushered out of the car and both my suitcases were handed to me (they were so heavy and i was not allowed to roll them even though they had wheels on them, i had to carry them for whatever distance we had to walk), i was still wearing the blindfold.  From behind, both men were leading me and telling me just to walk and they would steer me in the right direction.....it felt like a gravel road beneath me, making the walking on heels exceptionally difficult, especially blinded like i was AND carrying those suitcases.....it was hard not to fall over, but taking short steps i managed to keep a semblance of control.  They noticed this and sped up their stride and still i managed through pain and slight awkwardness to keep pace.  Finally we reached a set of stairs and i was told just to keep lifting my feet high until they stopped, i felt silly doing it, but after 5 steps we came to an abrupt stop.  i heard a door chime out of the 1800's, very old-fashioned and within seconds the door flew open and the Butler announced to the person in the door that the new slave is here for processing and commencement of service.  i was then ushered into the front foyer and my blindfold was taken off and the tape ripped cruelly from my eyes, in front of me was a desk and on this desk was a quill, a scalpel and what seemed like a manuscript length contract for me to sign in my own blood.  Taken aback, i asked if i could read the document before signing it or have someone else read it for me to make sure that i would not be agreeing to anything outrageous.  Indignation and anger crossed the face of the Butler who told me that i had better just sign and get it over with because i had no rights left when i decided to get into the car.  i used the scalpel and pricked each finger of my left hand and with the quill i dipped into my blood and had just enough to sign the document before it was torn out of my hands.

i am then taken into a basement and then a sub-basement and then even lower than that, deep underground.....i have no time to look around on the trip down, because we are practically running down stairs and stairs and then a ramp into a great Hall....massive with columns of marble against pitch black walls and candles filling the space but providing almost no light.....i am forced to stand in the middle of a circle of men, all of them with stern looks on their face, The Master is the most fearsome of all, a permanent scowl etching his regal looks, i can't help but feel a shiver of fear creep down my spine.  He tells me, "we know why you are here slave, but you will find no learning, you will find no truths, you will find only pain and suffering and heartbreak.  Your feeding days are over, as of right now, this is our ritual room, we will bind you here and after we have energetically bound you, you will feed us daily in this room as well, your blood and your energy will help sustain us.  Weak and pathetic you will be forced to work and earn your keep here.  What was yours before, business, house, life and freedom is now OURS, you have nothing, you are nothing, from this moment forward your name will be known as slave and nothing else.  If you try to run, we will catch you and punish you.  your servitude will last as long as we see fit."

After this impassioned speech, my clothes are torn from my body, i am only allowed to keep my shoes, and this is my work uniform, naked save for this pair of shoes.  i have no idea where my suitcases are and i am never shown a room that i will be staying in.  i am given house chores, cleaning, scrubbing, doing laundry, but once a day i am forced into the Ritual room where i take the scalpel to my skin and allow them (12 of them) to feed on me.  i am pale and sickly and this goes on for what seems like months, i don't actually remember getting to sleep in this dream....very strange......but this morning i woke, feeling like months have past and exhausted.....i am not sure i want this........it felt so real.

Clandestine words on digital spaces

secrets that cannot be named

i am writing, yet i am not writing

my feelings are ambiguous

do you dare scratch beneath the surface

do you want to know what is there

i am unchanged since going behind THIS veil,

KNOW THAT.

If these words seem cryptic, there is a reason for it

there is not much more i can say without saying MUCH more than this.

New dream from last night.....message me if you can make sense of it:

there were a dozen of them (people) and the cavern was subterranean.....the women had their hair done in traditional Baroque style and the men had very long hair either pulled back or worn down....they were calling me Kitra and they were feeding from me....every so often i heard them call out "Elorath"......there is not much more that i remember.....

p.s. yes i know that "Kitra" and "Elorath" are strigoi vii terms.....but i don't know enough about them to know what might be going on here......i wish i could remember more.

if you don't believe in this, then perhaps you should not even consider me.....

watch and be amazed:

Ink i am thinking of getting done (hopefully by someone who is "considering" me for service.....it would be nice to find a Dom tat artist/piercer)

http://i768.photobucket.com/albums/xx325/amber_psionic/succubus-2-1.jpg



yes, this will pop my tat virginity.  any ideas on the perfect "location"?

and this is a piercing idea i've had for a while.

http://i768.photobucket.com/albums/xx325/amber_psionic/4d886_Img45_Chest_Corset.jpg



i wonder if my being "top heavy" would be a hindrance to getting the piercing done.......Those of you in the know, could message me.

Prey (temporary title)

maybe i demand too much.....but is it too much to ask, to have my hardlimits of no diapers, no watersports, no scat, no enemas and no catheters/sounding respected? 

To all of you who have messaged me, wanting to piss or shit on my face and have me drink every last drop of both your pee and my own pee via a catheter......i apologize profusely (eyeroll), but it AIN'T gonna happen.

i hope i have made myself ABUNDANTLY clear on this.

thank you,

amber =D

Impossible

I need a place
to hide from those eyes
she is fast, too
fast to follow
scent or touch
they are too warm, dark,
to look at all is to look
too deeply, and lost
naked chrome
she is, polished
smooth as teflon
smouldering, all around us
would smell kindling,
know my thoughts
and we would be convicted
air carries none
for her
to me
for you, and from, I find
escape impossible.

- B. Carruth

i had a weird dream last night.  i was taken from my bed by unseen hands and floating through the air i kept hearing the words "Malrak Ulnaus" spoken, by what seemed liked dozens of disembodied voices, right into my ear.....in fact if i could put a finger on it, i would say that the voices were coming from inside my head and the words "drifted" out of my ear and then back in again (very eerie)......i was brought to a stone tablet and strapped down and then a scarab was carved into my skin about 2 inches below my belly button (it actually feels kinda sore there now, although there is no evidence that my dream could somehow manifest itself into my waking reality)......

i have to think about this one.

if any of you have inside into "Malrak Ulnaus", i would appreciate hearing it.

thank you,

amber

if the amount of "friends" i have in here is a concern of yours (i.e. you think i am a spammer or just some sort of noncommittal attention-whore), know that half of them are people who i consider to be friends from "other sources" and not necessarily people i plan on creating a permanent bond with (beyond that, being in this "other community", i rely on some individuals when i am looking for a donor....and as i have said before, if you do not know what a donor is, i unfortunately cannot be the one to tell you) ;)

i was very young when i learned i could astral project (2 years old) and it was in a moment of heightened emotion and during a situation i'd rather not talk about now. Suffice to say its been etched into my memory and is the first true memory of life i can currently still remember.....hmmmmmmmm, maybe i need to analyze that more, not now though.

It is because my first AP session was during a moment of intense pain that i am still currently able to do the same thing in moments of overwhelming emotion and pain. i can escape from myself, leave my body at will, get into a space where even if i submit to, lets say for example 30 lashings of a cane, i feel absolutely nothing because i am not "there"......could that get me into trouble? would being unresponsive be a bad thing necessarily? yes, this is one of the main reasons why i CAN tolerate quite a bit of pain....i am not always there to actually feel like i am receiving it.

interesting, right?

Difficulties.....

i've been thinking lately, about how being submissive AND sang and psi really limits me in this community. There are so many who do not understand our life and our need to consume energy. (i would ask that You don't ask if you don't know)  Yes, i realize that pranic feeding can be done without anyone truly knowing (depending on what source you tap), but what if you are told by your Dom/Domme that he/she does not want you doing that, forbids you to do it, and you, not wanting to seem wilful, obey (consequences be damned). i know that i would have found someone already if i did not need to feed.


First "feeding"

my first feeding was memorable in that i had a raging flu at the time and my donor knew that by giving me his essence, i would soon be well (despite having a fever of 102). He used my antique knives pricked his fingers first.....allowing me to just suck on each one individually before he pricked the all the fingers on both hands....then he did something reckless....he cut his own tongue and kissed me.....and it seemed to go on forever.....like a moment suspended in time.......i felt so whole and so alive.....almost as if a cloud was lifting and the sun was shining down on me for the first time in my life. i never wanted that moment to end............

Another "Erotic" Dream:

I am in the Sisteen Chapel looking up at The Last Judgement and my eyes go to the ceiling above that image and I see an eye surrounded by a pyramid. It is the all-seeing eye......all of a sudden i turn into a succubus....red skin with green eyes and a long tail with long flowing hair (similar to Lilith)....I open my mouth and the all seeing eye starts to cry tears. The tears are made of blood and they are giving me strength, energy and even knowledge.....I keep drinking and drinking....the blood never stops flowing and i never stop drinking.....there are people around me, tourists maybe, walking and staring and taking pictures, like nothing out of the ordinary is going on.....I keep drinking but i decide to close my eyes for a second......I wake up then.

Erotic Dream:

I am in a large manor with a grey stone and brick facade.....oriental tapestries on the walls.....gleaming hardwood floors and Persian rugs......and burgundy drapes and sheers on the large picture windows.  I am taken by two slaves to a room where my clothes are removed and I am made to wear a leather bra with the nipples exposed and crotchless leather panties as well as a leather collar, a ballgag and black leather Pointe boots with exceptionally high heels (5 maybe 6 inches by the looks of it).  I am then blindfolded and lead by the slaves into what seems like an expansive room with high ceilings and a large hardwood floor with a pentagram carved in the middle....on the pentagram is a very large round table with restraints and above the table are chains and restraints hanging from the ceiling.  I am lifted by two men (who I cannot see at this point) onto this table and they  put the ceiling restraints on my wrists and I feel myself being lifted up, hoisted, dangling above the table.  Then the blindfold is taken off and I see 5 of you standing on the points of the pentagram, you are all wearing deep red cloaks and one of you (the leader I would assume) is wearing a beautiful necklace around your neck with a symbol I do not recognize, your eyes are black and your skin is so white it gleams with an unnatural light that almost scares the life out of me, you seem to see through me, not entirely there but smiling at me in an eerie way (its hard to put words to it).  All 5 of you start to chant some language I do not recognize and without actually touching me I feel all of your hands all over me, pinching, slapping, forcing me to get turned on.....your words increase in speed and I feel my legs being pried apart by the hands that are there, yet not there and hands on my breasts pinching my nipples, tweaking them......your words become a fast monotone and I feel the first tremors of orgasm overcoming me....I moan and moan and moan and whimper somewhat....each orgasm increasing in intensity.....you will not stop.....you continue with your words to induce orgasm after orgasm after orgasm until I am in a state of pure feeling only....hours....days.....I am not sure how long.....nothing but mind numbing pleasure......none of you ever leave your spots and I am never actually physically touched......power of suggestion or spell or both render me completely helpless.......

Its weird but it feels like it could be 5 people I know....the leader is especially compelling.....I love having dreams like this....I am both drained and wired at the moment (you can imagine).