Discovering my submissive nature was not a sudden process. It took some soul searching to understand what was behind some people-pleaser patterns and sexual attractions.?I am still relatively new to this.

I believe the joy in serving requires behavior modification - like playing the piano, it needs to be learned. I hope to find someone here interested in giving it a try.

I identify as a candidate for full gender rewriting (aka gender fuck, queer, mindfuck).?What started as an attraction for the bottom position has evolved in a quest for identity.?I am looking to serve as a female, in and out of the bedroom, a full behavior modification and a full,?satisfying?and open minded sexual life.

Obviously my anatomy is an obstacle, but, to be clear, sex for me means to have sex as a female.

This is a bdsm web site and I understand I offer myself to bdsm activities, mental, physical, service oriented .. the way they are wanted.

Only thing I can say: I am here to be tried, as imperfect as I might be, tried and improved, and to give you full satisfaction.

I want to accept what is wanted for me. What I am told to do.?Accept serious discipline, with real punishments for my infractions.?Fulfill the Dominant desires. Be able to tell the whole truth, and see it used to push me beyond my limits.

A side note: feminists look suspiciously at men who want to be used at females - would it not be another way to keep abusing females? Many pro-dommes memoirs tell that story, and it's not pretty.

I'd like to take my inspiration from the joyous, exploratory and radical mindfuckery of the crashpad series. Lesbian porn shows that mutual respect can go with brutal pounding. It's a matter of honest communication.

I take care of myself and like to dress well, not as a pornified bimbo, but as who I am, an elegant professional, who lived in Europe and Asia and with a taste for the best things in life.

I like tight cocktail black dresses, a string of pearls, cashmere pashminas, a classic elegance, sexy beneath. Good wines, fine food, good conversation.

My nightmare is to be ridiculous, my ambition to show some grace and class.

Some of my skills include: preparing and serving and excellent dinner, cleaning a house (all of it), ironing (very well), de-cluttering, typing letters, etc ..?

In the bedroom I like it old school, the man on top, who talk, and the femm on bottom, who shut up. I like to be manipulated in a bed as If I weighted nothing, I like when someone stronger, determined, takes?control of my slim, smooth and very white body..??languorously?laying in clean sheets, black silk on a soft skin, a fresh Aqua di Parma perfume in the air, .. ass up, head down, an invitation to pleasure, to be enjoyed slowly between two glasses of champagne, doggie,?spooning,?flying?doggie,?reverse cowgirl,?tailgate and more.

I appreciate experienced dominants can find someone already trained- why would they spend time with me ? In my?favor:?a feminine build, smooth, slender, in good shape; I use soap and exfoliants; I don't intend to play a submissive and stay a guy but to be a submissive and become a girl/gurl/femme. I commit; demonstrate very good manners, polite and respectful;?safe and discreet; looking for the real thing, not for cyber escapism;?I have my eyes open and know what I am doing;?patient, attentive and open minded.?