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She would begin to beg for me to allow her to come visit or for me to visit her, I would grow tired of her whining and put her in her place with a raised stern voice. She would quiver once again in excitement.
She would stand in her kitchen and beg me to allow her to touch herself, finally I would, describing in detail how the thrust of my fingers in and out of her would feel, how my cock would feel sliding in and out of her throat again, how my cock would fill her wetness as I pounded her head with my thrusts against the headboard again in the little cabin we visited in the woods. As in person she would beg me to allow her to cum, and I would not for hours until finally I would demand she cum instantly, and she would calling out OH ROB as she shook just as she always did while we were physically together.
She remembered being tied in the woods, blind folded, teased waiting for my attention, begging for my attention and then when she was ready to give up, I took her without warning as she screamed in pleasure and fear.
This is what I desire again plus much, much more. This lady I was involved with desired marriage, I did not, nor do I know if I ever will again. I let her fly away, and if she had come back she would have been mine. But she meet another, and now is married and very happy. I am good friends with both her and her new Man and wish them the very best.
Do I consider myself a Master............ No
Do I consider myself a Top............. Yes
I am a Alpha Male, I am a compassionate man full of empathy for my fellow man. I cry when I feel the need to cry. I laugh when I desire. I do not expect respect just because I have a cock between my legs. I am respected in my life but I have earned that respect and would again with any one new in my life.
Have you seen the series Sparticus on Stars? The way the Roman Villa is structured, I mean the Master/body/pleasure slave dynamics is what I desire and will settle for no less.
Once I own a slave, own her mind, body and soul. Then once again I will be called Master but only after I have earned her respect and trust.
Until then I am known as Rob.
I am still legally married to the Mother of my children. For reasons I will not explain here that situation is not going to change for some time. Again its nothing evil, its just a promise I made that I will not break. If a man's word can not be trusted what worth does he truly have? There is no ill will between her and I nor has there ever been. We simple to not belong anymore as we were. However she is my partner in raising my children, our children. And we are dear friends and that will not change or be questioned. The very first person who will know outside of myself and slave, will be her. As it was in all relationships I have began since her and I called it quits as Man and Wife.
I am a devoted father my children will always come first in my vanilla world. But there will be a balance.
I have not lived in the same home as the Mother of my children for several years. And it will take time and trust before I allow a woman to live within my home. For one I am raising for the moment my grandson. The state I live in has granted me custody. If my daughter does not get her life together in short order I will adopt him, he has lived with me now for 3 out of his 6 short years. But again like my kids he will come first in my vanilla world. Again there will be a balance struct between myself and slave.
I am sure more to come,,, Rob
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