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she has been gone from this site for awhile. she was living with a Dom that would not let her really check this site but to read mail. she is now once again a homeless puppy that is more timid dog, she has went from home to home been used and then cast away like she was nothing. she wishes she could find a forever home and be happy like she once was. she isn't even sure that anyone reads these journal entrys but it is a nice place to put her thoughts. her only friend has married and now doesnt seem to have the time to spend with her. she feels so alone in this big world. |
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she really messed up. To all that told her she wouldnt be happy you where right. The one place that she truly felt like she belonged she let get away from. To the Master you had a poly household who is on her friends list that lived in MO she is sorry. She seen her mistake in not coming there and wishes she could go back in time. Please message her if you read this her cell phone internet wont let her click on your picture to get to your profile to send you a message. I miss our talks and she wants it back. |
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she doesnt wanna be someones slut toy she wants to be someones loyal, obeying puppy. why does it seem like everytime she finds a Dom/Master they are so far away? and all the ones close to her don't seem interested in puppy play. who wouldnt want a cute lovable puppy welling to do whatever for her owner? oh well maybe i should move but then all the Doms up here would be interested. |
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been talking some really nice people. she hopes to meet with some of them soon. |
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she finally made it. she graduated from from college. she still seeks that perfect Dom she can give her all too. One day she will find him. she also has moved to IL to start a new life. |
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she enjoyed the movie. Some things however where not the highlight of the evening. Upon heading back to her Domme friends house, who she has known since she was in 10th grade, told her that she had let her sub go. He had begone trying to top from the bottom and she wanted nothing to do with that. she feels bad for her friend because she treated the cretin well and even paid for half of his car and some of his college. she feels that her friend will have no problem finding another sub. she says this because her friend has had many and many vanillia relantionships as well. she knows her friend is pretty and picky thats why she can get so many.
Oh well, one day the right Dom will choose her and things will look up for her. she has hopes that a certain Dom stills wishes for her to join his family. But as with all things one never truly knows what will happen from day to day.
she is off the chase her tail and have some fun today hoping she can cheer up her friend.
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she is excited, a good friend called and is taking her out to a movie and just having a girls night out. she was told she needed it.
More in a few
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So she was in college class today and she does not understand why adults think they need to act like children just because they are in a school setting. Please just grow up.
she does not know why her teacher tells her to keep the peace in the classroom. One that is not her job and two you should not have to treat adults like 3rd graders.
her class ages go from 20-45 years of age. we see the same people daily and do not get any one ones. her class of 16 including her well graduate as a class. she understands the younger few to act a little immature, especially the only two males in her class. Those boys make her want to choke them daily. They have to turn everything to sex and drug, or alcohol. what is the point it is so distracting. she grads in Aug and just want to finish without the teacher having to stop every 5 minutes to yell at them.
OH how she wishes she could come home to a Dom that could help her unwind from the work she has to do. Just hold her for a little while then let her please him orally.
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she was reading the journal of a Dom that seems to be one of the sincere ones on here, and she feels bad that a Dom that cares that much about his little one would be treated so badly by the little one. she has not only noticed it in journals on here, but the friends that she has who's houses she goes to seem to not care about their Masters fully.
she can not wait for the day that she has a Master that she is fully devoted to. she yearns to learn everything that makes him tick. Why he laughs, or why he smiles to himself. she wants to learn to know what he wants and then give it to him before he has to ask. One day it will happen, someday she be able to give her all to the right Dom.
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Her new job has had her so busy that she has not had the chance to get on. She is hoping that her new found sister and her sister's Master will forgive her.
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She has got a new job at a local vet clinic and is happy. she still talks to her sister and Master Wolf. she was sad that she didn't get to go visit as planned but she had forgot that she had to attend the MAHR'S trip with her college class the good thing is that she passed. Her next set of finals are on the 10th then she starts her next new set the 15th. She hasn't seen her former master she went off on him. She is hoping that she can get a weekend off here soon and visit her new found family.
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So its been an entertaining few days since she last wrote. She has made a new sister and hopefully a new home. *dances around chasing her tail* But she is sure that you are wondering about what happened when her former Master came by again. Lets just say that a very deeply buried part of her came out. She told him off and when he struck her, she struck him back. She never thought that it would be possible to do but he agreed that he would not bother her again and he gave her all her stuff back, and some stuff that he had bought while she lived with him. She has come to realize that starting out vanilla and then jumping into slavery in a few months of being together was not the brightest idea that she could have had. She is looking forward to meeting her new friend{sister} and her sisters Master hopefully in the next few weeks. We talk daily and text often. she is happy to finally feel like she could belong somewhere and be apart of a family. *wags her tail happily*
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her former master came by her apartment yesterday and let himself in when she opened the door. she was not happy to see him and wanted him to leave. she broke training that she had been given and told him "I want you out of my house and out of my life, you hurt me and used me to get to my friend{who he is still with and she is no longer my friend} and I want nothing more to do with you". He then hit me and told me "you are my little fuck bitch and you always will be i made you and i will be the only one to have you" she froze with nothing to say here stood the man that she had left her mothers house at 16 for and been with till she turned 18. the man that she hates with every part of her being. the man that she no longer has to listen to and she stood there unable to say anything. she keeps thinking in her head whats wrong with you you had the chance to tell him off and give him the piece of your mind that you have wanted to for years and you said nothing. she can not get over why she stood there and did nothing. what is so wrong with her.
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