And life goes on.  You search and search for that glimmer, that needle, that one in a million and you ask yourself is it worth it.  I hope to answer that some day.

That big open white square that asks for a message to be sent.  What do you write in it when you first see someone?  So much pressure.  I never know what to write without sounding stupid. 

It is quite amazing to find anybody on a site like this.  There is so many people out there and all you are looking for is that one.  You begin to question wether what you want is important and ideas you thought were written in stone begin to shift as you still can not find that special someone.

The longer I am on this site, the more I realize that what I want is not something kinky, something far out there or something impossible.  Really just want somebody to care for and for them to care for me.  If it means I need to be a daddy dom to some lil one, okay.  If it means I need to be a submissive to someone okay.  Just need to find that connection. 

Looking for a needle in a haystack would be easier then finding that special someone in here.  Especially when sometimes the needle you find seems to be a good fit but oh wait, they live on the other side of the globe.  *sighs* 

Merry Christmas to everyone.