Sorry Darlings...My Yahoo account got hacked.  Eeeshhhh....I feel so dirty!!

"Oh you nasty boys"

~Janet Jackson~

Sometimes when I am not looking for what I desire...what I desire finds me and makes me smile.

Feed me all your delicious delights...torment me slowly...make it last.

A few things I have learned while on CM

~Not every one is for everyone

~Chemistry still needs to be present for it to feel good

~There is NO right or wrong way to explore...but SAFE is always best

~Most want what they want...Dom or Sub...and will do or say what ever it takes to get it.

~Most do not read profiles prior to email contact (me included if presented with photographic enticement)

~Gentlemanly behavior is rare...chivalry is rarer (I am sure the same can be said for ladylike behavior too)

~One should enjoy any play found...it may never happen again with the same person twice.

~Talk is cheep...actions speak to me louder than intentions.

~There is NO excuse for rudeness...none. 

~NO...means NO (really knew this before CM...but its amazing how most do not think it should apply to bdsm as well...when it should actually apply MORE)

~Just because you miss chatting and playing with someone...doesn't mean they miss you.

~Not everyone is meant to feel pleasure

~Not everyone is meant to have what they desire.

~Even though I am an adult...rejection still hurts.

I wonder if MEN notice how I stare...how I size them up...how I imagine them naked.  I wonder if MEN notice me smile then bite my lips to keep from giggling and revealing the naughty thoughts running through my mind. I wonder if MEN...especially those with luscious facial hair...can feel how much I want to slip up behind them...run my fingers up their shoulders to the tips of their ears...then scratch my way around the sexy fuzz on their face. 

All you sexy boys (sigh)...I wonder if you know what you do to me.

Dream Dejour...

I dream of a MAN that can and will actually care about...ME...not just what I can do for him.  I dream of a MAN that longs to hear how my day was...laughs at my jokes...smiles when I get weird and quirky...not turn tail and move on to sip from next online honey or watch what he tivoed.  I dream of a MAN that understands my LIFE isn't specific to any STYLE...but encompasses so much more and doesn't expect me to be sexual 24/7 to meet his needs.  I dream of a MAN that knows how to make my mind...body and heart tingle...a MAN that knows how to please me with out instruction...a MAN that knows when to hold me and knows when to spank me for being his naughty slut.  I dream of a MAN that smiles when I get that kinky gleam in my eye...not one that rolls his eyes and walks away.  I dream of a MAN that accepts ME for all I am...all I feel and all I desire.  I dream of a MAN that LOVES me...but am constantly reminded...WHAT'S LOVE GOT TA DO WITH IT. So...a dream it will stay.

Wouldn't it be nice if the ones we betrothed...the ones we gave our time to...the ones we adored or even just liked gave us all we dreamed of...but I guess if that was the case...few would be here looking for more.

Dream Dejour...

I dream of a man with a beard...thick and bushy so I can twist and tangle my fingers in it as I pull him in to nibble on his lips.  I want to feel it tickle my cheek...the length of my back and the insides of my thighs and lick my sweetness from the soft curls on his chin.

Recent events in my life...my vanilla life...have forced me to put exploration of this lifestyle on hold for now.  I can only chat with friends...imagine what might be and dream of what could have been.

I just love gay porn!!

I don't know what it is about watching two men have sex that turns me on...but MAN oh MAN...is it HOt!!!

Wax on...wax off.  Becoming hairless in sensitive areas...grows more painful the older I get.  OUCH!!

TEASE....I do love to tease...and be teased!!! 2013 could be the year of the TEASE.

Lets get something straight...I am NOT here for YOUR pleasure...I am here for MINE.  Common courtesy and straight talk go a LONG way with me...please don't jerk me around...or try to play me.

If you meet me and I am not your cup of kink...then be as much of a man as you can muster and tell me so.  I do not have energy to spare on those who are not TOTALLY into me as I am. I will not be your convenient hole...or your online wank session for the evening...please find another into such things...I am not.

Whewwww...I think I need a cookie now.

A very dear friend told me this the other day when I was blue..."not everyone is for everyone" .  How true.

No matter how many I meet...no matter how much I wish it would or could work out...very simply...not everyone is for everyone.  Some of the best experiences...still lay dormant...still wait to be discovered and awakened...by the right someone.

Pleasure is not something owed...it is given freely without restrictions...and is best received openly...with trust

I discovered a new KINK...WAX...hot dripping erotic sensual wax.  I love the way it LOOKS on a mans body...I love the intoxicating sensation of having it dripped on ME...I just adore everything about it!!

I can't wait to incorporate this into my PLAY!!

I am having issue with the definition and usage of the term...SLUT.

The dictionary defines a slut as "a woman considered sexually promiscuous".

Curious to know what one would call a MAN who is equally as sexually promiscuous??

I have no problem admitting I have been a slut...and could possibly be considered one currently (for the right man)...I just do not think the term should be exclusive to WOMEN.

One does love an illustrated MAN...it combines two of MY favorite things...ART AND MEN.  I long to bind a man and trace his skillfully inked flesh with my fingertips...over and over and over again. 

FYI...I am not small...not tiny...not petite.  I am NOT on Victoria's short list for underwear models...and I am NOT a Barbie Doll.   I am a BIG girl...I have round squishy jiggly parts.  Deal with it...adore it...or move on. 

I will answer to NO mans ridiculous Domme or sub fantasy...unless of course you are built like an Adonis and have a cock that would make me drop to my knees in awe. Then...I may let you have an opinion...until I get you bound and gagged.

F U C K

...question...statement...expletive and DESIRE.

I am touched by your enthusiasm...drawn by your passions and captured by your imagination.

But...I want more...I will always want more.

Snuggled in a warm bed...watching HOT porn with a firm dildo...mmmmm...I do love fall!!

I need to YANK on someones facial hair...bad...real BAD!!

Waiting is so hard.  Patience in not a virtue I do well.

Just heard a new term...

PORKING...The art of having sex...while frying bacon.

Seriously....who doesn't LOVE bacon??

Karma is a wicked task master.  He will bully you...put up barriers...create havoc and down right knock you on your ass IF you do not do as he desires.

I've been fighting Karma and the Universe for a year now...I am not winning. Giving in is hard...trusting is harder. How do I learn to learn to break free from what I think I want and fall free into what is meant to be??

I wonder if there is an "app" for this??

I am lucky...grateful and feel so very...VERY blessed today.

Thank YOU for being YOU...I wouldn't want you any other way.