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Pan Female Switch, 33,  On the Road, Texas
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Insular, Traveler, Geek, Muse "Underdogs, Runts and Wallflowers are my kinda people, they understand the words between the lines."











Last Online:


 Female Switch

 On the Road 


 5' 2"

 125 lbs






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Transgender

Submissive Transgender

Dominant Female

Dominant Male

Submissive Female

Submissive Male

Switch Women

Switch Men

Domme/Dom Couples

Sub/Sub Couples

Femdom Couples

Mascdom Couples

Friends Only

Online Romance


A Poly Household

 Lives For:

 Travel (Expert)


 Anal Play

 Body Worship


 Breast Play

 Eye Contact Restrictions

 Mental Bondage


 Orgasm Denial

 Sensory Deprivation



 Intellectual Discourse



 Art Galleries





 Horseback Riding (Beginner)





 Arcade Games

 Horror Movies

 Online RPGs

 Science Fiction





 Curious About:


 Martial Arts


 Scuba Diving




 1950s Lifestyle


 Local BDSM Community



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Journal Entries:
1/11/2018 10:33:50 PM
If I get one more person mentioning how "on the road, texas" makes them think Willie Nelson Im going to puke.
Its a Kerouac Reference you Plebs. 

12/17/2017 2:01:56 PM

12/14/2017 3:14:31 PM
Warrning: If I can out think you in three replies on this site, thats pretty average and don't expect a fourth reply back.

Don't worry, you're just dumb.
Its pretty common.

12/13/2017 10:53:16 PM
Know any good places to look at fem boy hentai? Preferably with a femdom?

12/13/2017 10:26:26 PM
I might want a sub playmate.

12/13/2017 3:10:29 PM

Starbound and Chill 

5/28/2011 6:26:38 AM

You bore me

9/2/2010 2:40:48 AM
Task for the day:

Make me a playlist. Something that actually hits anywhere near things I actually like, lyrics, mood, tone, points if you've read high fidelity.

12 track list.


5/12/2010 4:00:51 AM
I love looking like a guy.

5/11/2010 3:23:47 PM
"You've not found your way here lightly. I know it took time and strength and a great deal of pain and disappointment. But you're here now. Right now. In the time of tall masted ships, if a mast broke and fell over the side, it would act as a sea anchor. The sails and rigging would drag in the water, pulling the ship back, slowing it and, sometimes, even dragging it down. The experiences, good and bad, that have led you here are done, even if they don't seem it. Those experiences are your own sea-anchor. The past will weigh you down, pull you back and, sometimes, and sometimes drag you down beneath the water. Cut them loose. Move on. Stop being who you are. Become who you were always meant to be." Know if we never speak again, these words will echo forever. Thank you.

5/11/2010 1:24:23 PM
Feeling a little lost today, sometimes its lonely on top.

5/11/2010 4:52:16 AM
Updated profile. Currently have room for slaves to enter my online program to quickly lead to real time. Staying online is perfectly acceptable though keeping me pleased is key. Think you can offer me something I'd like? Think again. This Geek Queen is one of the hardest to impress, but most posessive once intrested.

5/5/2010 2:26:18 PM
I dream of a girl who's eyes hide at the edge of a smile, who's bare feet patter along the warm stones of our home. I dream of a muse, who's laughter brings insperation, I dream of a girl who's fingers are tied up in hemp, weaving and dodging creating with quiet knowing. I dream of a girl who's soul brings light, who dreams of the world but is happy at my side.

5/5/2010 7:49:22 AM
10 things you didn't know about Marijuana

1. In 19th century Nepal, the marijuana harvest was performed by men who ran naked through fields of flowering plants and then had the sticky resin scraped off their bodies and formed into bricks of hashish.

2. Marijuana is known for its mellowing effect, but it has fueled many warriors in history. The word “assassin” is believed to come from the hashish taken a millennium ago by Arab killers (called “hashshashin” or “hashish eaters”), though some historians doubt they were under the influence while on their missions.

3. Louisa May Alcott, author of “Little Women,” wrote a short story called “Perilous Play” about marijuana. In it, a character declares, “If someone does not propose a new and interesting amusement, I shall die of ennui!” Another character produces a box of hashish-laced bonbons, and hedonism ensues.

4. Around 1900, the U.S. government briefly grew marijuana along a stretch of the Potomac River to study the plant’s medicinal value. Today, a more potent plant has risen on that site: the Pentagon.

5. A white Chicago jazz musician named Milton “Mezz” Mezzrow moved to Harlem in 1929, declared himself a “voluntary Negro,” and began selling marijuana. Known as “The Man Who Hipped the World” and “The Link Between the Races,” Mezzrow sold fat joints called mezzrolls. Soon a new piece of Harlem slang emerged: Something genuine was described as “mezz.”

6. Marijuana interferes with short-term memory so that users forget what they just said or did. Not only that, marijuana interferes with short-term memory so that users forget what they just said or did.

7. Before Congress voted to ban marijuana in 1937, the birdseed industry got the bill amended to exempt marijuana seeds (known as hemp seeds) as long as they were sterilized and could not be used to grow plants. An industry spokesman denied that the seeds made birds high, but an ardent marijuana foe, Dr. Victor Robinson, had previously written that the seeds had caused birds to “dream of a happy birdland where there are no gilded cages, and where the men are gunless and the women hatless.”

8. Billy Carter, the late brother of former President Jimmy Carter, believed the illegality of marijuana was part of its attraction. “Marijuana is like Coors beer,” he said. “If you could buy the damn stuff at a Georgia filling station, you’d decide you wouldn’t want it.”

9. One of the least typical supporters of the decriminalization of marijuana was conservative icon William F. Buckley, who died in February. Buckley once sailed his yacht into international waters so that he could smoke pot without breaking U.S. laws.

10. Bill Clinton said famously that he smoked marijuana but “didn’t inhale.” President Bush has never admitted taking the drug, but his drug use was strongly suggested in recorded conversations between him and a friend — the interestingly named Doug Wead. Only one of the three 2008 contenders is an admitted ex-doper.
Barack Obama has said, “When I was a kid, I inhaled frequently. That was the point.”

5/5/2010 4:22:31 AM
Currently taking on: Online and Chastity slaves.

5/3/2010 6:22:51 PM
Updated profile. READ all or I won't reply to ANY messages.
I dream of a girl who sits at her Misstress' feet, braiding hemp, smelling of cigar and hemp smoke, a smoking box at her own feet and my emblem clasped close to her heart...

4/30/2010 3:36:20 AM
"For all the boys that envy me it is not about something you can do or cannot do better than some-one else, it is not about bigger or smaller, looks, etc. It is not. You don't want to be me. You might like the idea of physical pain, of my balls being roped, stretched and hit with a cane. You might like to cum for your Mistress. But what if she wants to have you cum 3 times in a row, or even six...? You might even like that. But the fight of submitting, giving in, not losing yourself but freeing yourself. The pain it takes to be true, you don't want that. Admit it, you are here for fun, not peeling the layers down of your defense. And that is what she does. My cruel Goddess. I am happy."

4/29/2010 11:06:11 AM
World of Warcraft

Rocking with my lock out.

Khazgoroth - Perverse - Horde

4/27/2010 1:33:48 PM
Huff miss my Piggy while he's busy with a guest. But meanwhile SQUEEL I am so in love with wow again, only just relearning all my leet skills. But trying to find more wow, kinky friendly geeks to play with since I hate playing wow alone, Ill have an open mic to anyone who's a proper wow geek who want's to play as I find it hard to play alone without someone to talk to. Hit me up. 

4/26/2010 3:26:44 AM
I take that back, one of my new sissys tried giving me a beginning proving tribute. ONLY TO FAIL SO MISERABLY HE'S NOW IN MY SHITLIST the idiot managed to write "From your slave on" not thinking the TOS would not be filtering messages and then LOCK my account of more then 6 years on paypal becuase the name COLLARME finaly sprung up on my spotless record. No Im unable to use my OWN money becuase I have no bank account in this country yet, in the middle of citizenship.

Today is a fail and that miserable slut is going to pay.

4/22/2010 12:40:40 PM
yay playing wow again, ask me if you play on khazgoroth

in other news, my piggy is putting on shows for girls, you can abuse him as much as you like or as little, he begs to please his Miss by humiliating himself for giggling girls, Ill be on hand if your intrested I can verify with my own cam <3

4/15/2010 2:54:27 AM
My piggy sent me an awesome care package today. It had a cuban cigar, cigar box, zippo, maple, orange and mango papers, keychain charm, and amazing glass pipe.

Oh and those of you who saw me post pics of his tiny baby dick to laugh over, feel free to contact me to find out about my main fetish profile page where you can see a library of his daily humiliations and future picture posts of my piggy doing all he can to make his Goddess giggle.

3/31/2010 12:59:53 PM
Hah I've decided I like my shaved head too much to give it up, Im so keeping it. Besides I've been looking up cute wigs, love the idea of being able to randomly pull on some cute pink anime due and skip out for the day, also I forsee fun makeup fetish photoshoots planned soon, heeee so excite. 

3/31/2010 9:17:00 AM
*Sigh* boring

Gona call the blackmailing quits for now, had my fun. Time to find something new and fun to do.

Munches. Focusing on real playmates at the moment, ladys are on the menu for now I've gotten sick of boys. Not to mention always had a soft spot for girlies anyway. Dont have much time these days for fakes anyway, plus too many projects to work on at the moment and just have room for mentors and or inspering muses at the moment.

Still on that elusive hunt for my very own romantic muse intanglment of like minded savages and creatures of another order.

3/11/2010 5:51:20 AM
wow I didn't relize how much fun black mail is. Ohhhh just the fact my fingers loom over the send button during the day, to send the most humiliating photos to his lady boss, of his pitifull wanking. I gota tell you, it made me wet all day knowing I could ruin a man at any moment.

Definatly intrested in finding some more slaves willing to let me wrap them round my little finger, giggle at thier whimpering when they try and beg and tempt me with thier pathetic bribery. Everyone has money it dosn't make you special, I could sit on the corner asking for change cuase I look like a homeless kid but thats no fun either. Now knowing that money is burning a hole in your pocket becuase Im inches away from having your life crash down around you.

Oh yes, see Im wet all over again, delicious.

Looking: Online Cam whores

3/9/2010 10:41:50 AM
Searching for a Mentor. Feeling a bit lost lately. Seeking direction.

2/5/2010 4:00:13 AM
Wow I open up my profile to geeks and I get a flood of people who...DONT KNOW HOW TO ASK ME IF I WANT THEM

Want to write me and get me to respond?

What not to do

1) Do not ask if I WANT to do anything to you
2) Do not forget to read my FULL profile
3) Do Not forget to adress me as I have asked in my profile
4)Do not forget to list of what services you can provide in hopes of seeing if I have any intrest
5) Do not forget to tell me how and why you wish to service me
6) Do not forget to try and shower me with presents or offers of goodies in any form you think Ill want.

7) Don't forget to impress.


Ps: pressies and indulging my shoe fetish or other such fashion sluttery is a good way to stick out of my daily mail crowd

2/2/2010 9:08:27 AM
The true man wants two things: danger and play. For that reason he wants woman, as the most dangerous plaything. ~Friedrich Nietzsche

1/22/2010 6:29:30 AM
Looking for:

Everything. Boredum has finaly caught up with me in these winter months, looking for inspiring friends, partners in crime, gal pals, guard dogs and more.

If your intrested in learning how to get yourself your own personal muse, a wild child of a another universe. Write me.

Maybe you'll have something I want.

1/8/2010 12:32:41 PM

Muse buzzing around my mind

11/30/2009 8:52:45 AM
Girls Only

=3 Barbies need apply

9/24/2009 1:42:33 PM
I take that back. I have room for only one girl, someone special, switch/sub/dom any and all as I am looking for that inspiring girl I can keep as my right hand.

Slaves are more then accounted for, a full family working as a unit and I am well kept and spoiled. I seek someone to keep as my loyal other, ftm welcome but no genetic males.

I hope to find my often called for but yet to be blessed fey.

Miss Action

9/18/2009 2:45:47 PM
No longer looking for slaves. Im well kept and more then got my handsfull with my current stable and only have room for like minded friends.

Submissives or Dom's needing to just chatter with experinced Mistress or just want a kinkster friend still welcome to message me.

Still have positions open for wow based task and kinky people who want a BDSM friendly guild run by our fetish family of Doms.


9/15/2009 5:13:06 AM
Special Request:
Slaves who Play World of Warcraft
Looking for slaves to help with wow based tasks.
Server: Hellscream
Contact if intrested in serving a geek queen at her new endevor.

Limited Time Offer

PS: Taking tribute in the form of rare mounts and gold <:


9/11/2009 4:14:26 AM
Our minagery of sluts are coming along fine. For those of you who've passed my test life's turning brighting in the loving embrace of my collar.

Curious about the progress of my current slaves? Wish to fawn over them jealously for having found a most wicked Mistress? Then ask about my fet(then)life profile so you can keep up with my slut's devoted journals.

Dont you wish you where mine.
Mistress Action

9/6/2009 5:19:40 PM

I now have a personal Guard, also known as a Pelki here on the site, be sure to check her out and send her much love as Im introducing her to the lifestyle as a mentee under my guidance.

Looking for sluts for her beginning collection of boy sluts here in the area. Be sure to READ my previous journal if intrested in session time with me.

my budding pack has started to fill me with a glee only an alpha wolf could ever understand
Miss Action

8/9/2009 2:19:09 AM
The One and Only Geek Queen

Taking sessions:
Mental Bondage
Total Power Exchange
smoking fetish (all forms)
Goddess and Queen worship
Pet play (puppy, kitty, pony)
beginner's training
verbal training/abuse
Pain play (pain sluts needed)
Chastity (a must)
Domestic servitude
Hard Labor
Mind Control
Water Sports
Body worship
Strict rituals
Guard Dog Training
Public play
420 (uf you know what this is you should definatly write.)

Able to take any willing to travel from outside of Manchester.

Write Me respectfully to ask about my tribute.

You can read.

SO read this. I DO take sessions but if thats all your after (which is most any of you will ever get trust me) then ASK about my tribute. I don't accept money if that makes it easier on you but I do need something to prove your not some sicko who needs to wank. I am NOT a PRO, but could easly become one becuase of all the hundreds of emails that start out patheticly the same.


Are you taking sessions?
a:IF I LIKE YOU and you listen to directions (see above)

Are you looking for a personal slave?
a: If your already part of my training regiment (have proven yourself)

What are you looking for?
a: Someone that follows directions and lives to worship me as the geek Queen I am.

How to ask?
a: Respectfully offer yourself DONT ask me if Im going to take you. OFFER what your talents what may be usefull to me, ASK about my tribute. Be prepared to make one if ever your going to see me in person. Otherwise...


8/1/2009 4:45:10 PM

(at) fet (then) life (.) com

fuck you auto edit bot

I like it better there these days. Showing off my in progressed trained sluts.


6/19/2009 9:08:07 AM
Taking sessions:
Cater to smoking fetish (looking for an ashtray slave)
Goddess and Princess worship
Pet play (puppy, kitty, pony)
beginner's training
verbal training/abuse
Pain play (pain sluts needed)
Public play
420 Happy (looking for grow slave)

Able to take any willing to travel from outside of Manchester.

Write Me respectfully to ask about my tribute.

-Miss Action

2/26/2009 4:06:33 AM
Considering taking sessions. My afternoons are so dull and lifeless lately. Will be looking for lovely girlies and boys in the area to see to some play sessions.

Be prepared to earn your way.

-Miss Action signing in

2/10/2009 3:47:35 PM

2/6/2009 3:21:16 PM
Smokers: Wanted

Inquire within on how to meet my demands

-Action Blazing Up and Out

12/4/2008 4:21:51 PM
Leon the Professional

As the years go bye, this film only serves to make me cry harder when the ending comes. I don't think a film will ever top this in my heart.

I will always love you Leon.

This is for you Matilda.

Action's heartbreak and Vine

11/11/2008 12:34:36 AM
Ahhh thank you all for your many needy applications. But I have good news from the forefront. My husband had the fortunate circumstance of already being in contact with what I've found out is the perfect pet for our family.

WhisperKit is now officaly owned and soon to be collared by our family. I look forward to her inclusion in our household and being able to put a lovely collaring I have planned for when she comes down for her visit from Uni.

Eeee such a sweetie, so applications are closed but don't you fear dear boys and girls I am still here wanting to make good subbie friends to take under my wing. I will still be keeping my hope open for sessions and visits.

This Mistress is one smug and happy girl today.

-Action Dancing away to an interview

11/7/2008 3:18:55 AM

No...but seriously. *cough* I think I should find me a cute sissy pet. A little life bitch to keep like a prissy slutty people sized barby at my side. Tha gayer and sluttier the better, I do have my standards and I want a looker who knows how to be a passable bitch.

A prefrence for shota, lolicon and generaly being adorably girly would be my <3. I wana be able to priss up with and learn girl tips from my slutty cunt, cuddle up with her leash round my hand and send her out to suck a good cock to entertain me.

Think your the slut for me? Is your little cock just bursting behind your pantys at the thought of a Dom female owner/bestfriend to spend your days with? Still hoping to get a good cocking regularly and maybe even have a dom daddy along side too?

Then I should hope you write me soon, this offer (whim) will only last so soon.

Remember ladies, if I can't go out with you as a passable slut. There's not a chance in hell.

-Bitch Whipping Action

11/1/2008 5:43:27 AM
Jack-oh-lanterns make me sour when I look at them grin,

maybe I should have dressed up as the grinch.



10/14/2008 2:24:23 PM
Eeee LichKing....

Tributes befitting a nerd queen are the only thing that will turn my eye these days.

In other news Im growing a stylishly new shade of slender, along with a sudden reminder that long hair is fun and that orange would make a fun haircolor.

Im hoping to make it a bright and kinky holiday season for a very spoiled monster.

-Chow of soon to be


8/22/2008 6:57:25 AM
This site bores me. Every email is a qestion (most already answered in my profile people don't read)

Like "Can you come round my way," or "Where in america are you." or better still "When you coming back to my area."

Dull people dull. Isn't this a kinkster site? Isn't there some brains out there? A little more push and shove? Questions I'll never answer are just making me yawn into tears.

My boyfriend intrests me more then you lot do these days. And he's not even my slave, go figure.

-Weary and beset upon all sides Action

7/17/2008 7:35:48 AM
Moving house. Enjoying the idea of a housecleaner. Hahah already got a few offers, man scrubbing my corners while I do my southern drawl from the back spits of florida to a british burning of ears.

Fun fun fun.

-Learning the fagotry that is needing new ram for games like spore Action

7/3/2008 3:01:22 AM
"A Confedercy of Dunces" by John Kennedy Toole
Was recomended me

I like the sounds of it since I know the title's orgins of - You'll know a genius in the world when the dunces are in confedercy against him.

I'll look it up today at the library when I pay my fines.

7/1/2008 1:06:40 AM
Dear Collarme Sluts,

My brother from another mother has joined the site. And as a little hey ho and happy day for him I promised to help find him a usable little lady for play.

Intrested in being used, abused, and have been intrested in my profile in the past? Give him a click on Obscure.

I know his aussie accent will go far cooing into your ear. And I know from experince he's got an A+ in my book on level of pervygoodness.

Shamelessly Advertising Action Jackon Out


6/27/2008 2:24:25 AM
Officaly signed up for university. Starting september the chains of learning shall be shackled firmly round my ankles till Im lifted high into the lofty heights of higher education.

And I updated my photos to include my favorite glasses and my quickly growing living chia pet for a haircut.

<3 Action's In Progress

6/11/2008 11:56:37 AM
Woosh! Like the snotted air from Zues's flared nostril I have let the wind trumpet across my friends list. Don't take it personal peeps, I have odd patterns in my minds eye.

Hahah I've got a plot! Paradiddles and plots, oh and even my own little RLLL RLLL LRRR RLLL bang boom beat beat beat beat mhmmmm.

Ahhhh I could almost sleep while I pump my arms to little ticks and tocks. I feel like a babe in a rocking tree.

Hhahahah you've got a wench next to you Yang my man, friends list line ups are fun.

Biggity boo bop brit Action Jacksons

6/9/2008 11:53:32 PM
Urg someone needs to tell me how to remove friends on here. I have no idea how to remove any and I am getting a touch annoyed at the lineup that I don't actually speak to.

Make it happen.

Shazam Kongo Actions Beat

5/29/2008 4:11:37 AM
I've been silently compiling some sort of pattern, picture, peice, something to connect the dots and slowly even creeping into my very skin I can feel it Im making dots for the lines to meet.

Books, I know the themes I wana read but not the titles. Librarians are fucking useless, I need to hit up some people with some dirt under thier fingernails and ask them what they read. Im tired of looking for the beat up books in the basement, half of them are crazy rhedoric i can't spell or read and the other half is usualy some burnt out old hippie trying to act like he's SEEN it all.

Maybe some books about heros, classic crap, maybe norse mythos thats always blood thirsty. Oh hahah mafioso movies. I need to read something bone breaking and sarcastic, something with wild leaps of faith and learning how to live. I need a wall a demon to push my back against and feel like Im not going to tear apart at the seems.

Action Jackson Racing On

5/14/2008 7:20:15 AM
The truth is you're the weak, and I'm the tyranny of evil men.  But I'm tryin', Ringo.  I'm tryin' real hard to be the shepherd."

new qoute I'd forgotten about but soon as I saw it again knew I had to add it to my personal qoute list. Cheers guy who I saw it on's profile. Now I have bout three life qoutes.

5/13/2008 12:22:16 PM
To: Any professional Piercing artists on the site, or those who know of the details of them

Im looking into becoming one, feel free to tell me what you know, tips, tricks, and so forth.

Here's hoping Im putting a needle in YOU one day.

Action Jackson Painfully Through

5/12/2008 7:17:24 AM
Where the fuck did my playlist on here go.

Disgruntled Action Jackson Time

5/11/2008 2:15:37 AM
Im sick to death of my child's heart. Yes I have wounds, scars, that stick out.

When you've been down my road, you can't hide something thats managed to take that much emotional flesh out of you.

Maybe I can get a bionic one, nanannanaanannanannaannanannananananananannana.

Action Jackson  We  Can Build You better.

PS: I may get into some sort of martial arts. Please whisper me with recomendations if a) there is alot of sparring 2) its not all about the "way" 3)Learning through Actions not motions
I look forward into pouring way too much excess energies into something, something to make me feel like a predator again and less a caged monster.

5/3/2008 4:45:07 PM
Hahaha John Wayne is my Dad, he'll teach me how to shoot, and my mom will be little Ohchichi his former Geisha wife who's coming to love american freedoms.

I'll hang on his strong arm and always slow down for my mom becuase of her gentle disposition.

These are the fantastical real(fake) demension of Action Jackson fastest shot in the east(california)

Bang Bang I'll always remember your Grit Dad

4/29/2008 3:27:39 AM
Im deleting all messages that I even glance "Slave" "Mistress" "Can I be..." "band over and take..."

So since most of you can't seem to read. I'll just stop wasting my time on that percentange of you.


Action Jackson Signing Off

4/25/2008 12:30:48 PM
I am Godzilla you are JAPAN.



(Yes I couldn't fit you're in there twats)

-Action Jackson Behind the Lens again

4/24/2008 8:49:15 AM
Krispy Kreme:

Today's goal, to die of sugar overload. Wish me luck.

(yes they opened a Krispy Kreme here in my town in England. MOFO's better believe Im gona gorge, they closed down all the ones where I lived back in americ

Action Jackson Diabeticly Out

4/23/2008 7:06:32 AM
Im going to try people in my area one last time. So if your anywhere near Stockport, Cheshire or Manchester. Feel free to nudge me,do remember Im NOT going to be looking for  slaves, but submissive  male/female FRIENDS.

Im especially happy meeting Dom male's for similar friendships, and would gladly kill a spliff with either.

Don't write to me asking how to be my sub, I'll give you my answer in advance: Catch my intrest after being a friend and I'll let you know, it won't happen any other way.

-Action Out And bored to DEATH

4/20/2008 3:15:48 AM
Jonathan Swift's comment that: "When a true genius appears in this world, you may know him by this sign, that the dunces are all in confederacy against him."

I got that in the mails today, only one that cuaght my eye. I like it and I'll add it to my qoute collection. Never did read gulliver's travels. May do one day.

happy 420 all you stoners out there.

4/17/2008 3:23:56 AM
420 is coming up.

Little puff out there for me when you light up? I'll be annoyed not to celebrate with the rest of my green heads. But for now I've rediscovered young bowie, before the drugs and then right on into his space spiders phase with ziggy.

Ever hear bowies first first album? Jesus the man is a word nymph, I could roll around in his lyrics all day happy as could be thought. I may one day name a son Tom, not only for bowie for my step father.

I need to call him today, I want to be a good daughter to him, he's the only one who deserves that of me. I'll never take for granted that he kept his heart from his real sons and gave it to me instead, I can never look away when he smiles.

My thoughts are going to be way too horriblely scattered to ever make fit properly against other books. So much I have written so many chapters, but its all a vivid mess of words and back and forths of...No not going to talk about. Must go write.

-Action Furiously Typing Away

4/16/2008 2:40:41 AM
After years being on this site, I finaly hit my maximum slave email limit.

NO Im not looking for a slave, NO dom's Im not looking to turn you into a slave, NO bull dykes I don't want to be your princess and no subs I don't want to be your little fucktoy either.

God you guys are boring. Your all wanting to get fucked up? Easy go walk down to your local druggie/red light district and start putting your leg on the corner with the rest. Its dull.

I maybe get an intresting person I month amoung dozens of messages (daily).

Is my profile that hard to read?

Im looking for pervy friends, I can go anywhere and get someone to use, I didn't need to come to this site for that.

Bored and Frustrated
Action Jackson Signing Out

4/8/2008 9:12:13 PM
Its profound the affect music has on me. Even now Im listening to one of the more meloncholy songs in my soundtrack here. I find I want to invision myself emotionaly torn on a floor, my fingers pushing rackingly so through my hair, the sky cold as its grey light spills over my frail shoulders. I feel my emotions played like frets on a most nimble guitar, my heart peeled opened and fondled like a young girl with her legs parted in heat.

And even now I am remembering a film I saw this weekend called Immortal, a french film never released in more then select theaters in 2004.

A line that repeats and the body, husked voice of the main male lead "Oh my soul, don't you remember that soft and beautifull summer morning, that carcass with its legs in the air like a woman in need, furiously seething fumes and poisons." It felt so bitter sweet, tragic, torn yet the man was a predator insightfull at a glance. Oh how an actor and song can scath my soul.

Rereading this only reminds me of my teen youth filled with dark poetry and has promptly made me shut my hands in a door.

I feel better now.

3/20/2008 6:39:02 AM
What I know about Woman
By: Jimmy Carr

There was an article today in a magazine on my mother in law's table. I flipped through a few pages as a drank my hot tea. Im amazed that people call Jimmy Carr misogynistic, if anything after reading this article I had to tear it out and keep it for my own writing, Im stunned to tears at how much he could say about woman all in the sum of a handfull of paragraphs, I'll show you one becuase I have to.

"I like who I am in female company. When we write "8 out of Ten Cats" we always want to have a woman there. Partly becuase it calms us down and bit and were not as boisterious, and partly becuase men naturaly try to be funnier when there's a woman in the room . I view the idea that a man and a woman can't be friends as just the hight of sexisim. You might as well just call a woman a vagina. It nonesens. I think we tell jokes in different ways. Men are like children when it comes to telling jokes. They're not laughing, they're competing with each other. Woman tend to be more inclusive."

Brilliant, and cutting right to the point. A brilliant insight for a man who was a virgin till he was married at 26.

Action Out

3/19/2008 7:58:27 PM
I think I'll cry, the most beautifull one of a kind carved ivory snake earings made from 500 year old warlrus jawbone...180 dollars I so don't have *sigh*

And I have to save my money for my camera.

Karma you tease me so!

Sadly Action Out

3/14/2008 6:49:36 AM
Buju Banton -Driver

Oh god it made my soul go "Ahhhh" and felt like the cherry ontop. Such a great MJ song to go with my morning toke.

Bang Bang Space Cowboys
Roger Roger Action Out

3/12/2008 4:06:24 AM
2:53:44 PM) xxxxxxx: yeah, becacuse you have no fear of the fucked up strange people, you dig it
(2:53:59 PM) xxxxxxx: you are like an ambassador from that world to the world of normality

Words that I kinda skipped over yesterday but today stood out like a big red sign for my writings today.

I'll kick you apart
Action Out

3/11/2008 3:05:57 PM
Just when I thought I was having a day of peacefull contimplation, alot on my mind, alot's been put down privatly on digital notepads, alot of mental notes I need to put down...
In the midst of all my busy thinking I got put in cuffs, gaged, roughed up, my bruises freshened up for me and my face damp from a full hour of crying into the sheets.
Im resting now again, I feel exhuasted and smug as I start picking up where I left off my thoughts, little things like these keep my focus sharp. I crushed a few men's hearts and stiffened a few cocks today in my messages in and out.
I'd call it a fruitfully restfull day.

Adieu Space Cowboys

3/9/2008 7:26:27 AM
I woke up to brutality, rough, never ending, throat drying, lip cracking way of waking up. I have a bruise over my lip, cheek and over my hip and welted ass. Ontop of it all Im way too exhausted to move....and I love every bit of it.

I can't decide if I should reread more of Literary outlaw today or try and crawl my way over to the bath and make a little sense of the mess I am, and maaaaan just found a little present on the back of my hoodie. I just cleaned this. Im going to have to buy more hoodies.

I can't help but smile, always I smile, just love to do so today. I have an urdge to draw, I haven't done in a while. Oh and for anyone reading this my old photography mentor and catalog of my old gang.

Later Space Cowboys

PS: It hurts when I smiles <3

3/8/2008 5:24:39 PM
Had a talk with the husband, as it stands in the next month I'll be buying my first professional camera, bottom rung of the ladder of course. He worries someone will mug me for anything too pricey.

So comes the question, any of you experinced photographers out there, whats THE best word in a camera for a young ambitious photography student like me. Something that can handle taking lighting as is becuase I am notoriously dismissive of using a flash and love "as is" lighting. And of course is versitile enough for someone very experinmental in phase.


Feel free to write me if you have a word on the matter.


3/8/2008 2:52:03 PM
Just finished rewatching the entire cowboybebop Series and always the same feelings of great loss and joy mingles with me at the end.

Always when I see Ed walking out into the distance to forever follow her roaming father. When I see Fay laying in a bed to the old words  "You can never come back home". I see Jet empty as he turns to see the woman and child gone, and spike smoking freely to the window. Always it all strikes so many chords, Im not the sort to see myself in characters, I see other people if ever. But every main character speaks to me.

But the thing that screams loudest of all above it all is how I feel truely sad for Faye, and how I feel like her and Ed rolled into one, and how I see nothing of myself in Julia.

Maybe I should stop recomending it to people, its too personal a series to me, I want it to be mine and mine alone to look back on when I need to remember who I am again.

This little cowgirl is signing out

3/7/2008 5:56:05 AM
On Literary Outlaw;

I feel I am in love with Ivy Lee, the "Ajuster of relationships" a PR genius I could see so much of myself in, yet even in all his flaws growing overconfident enough to have unknowingly helping hitler become the propaganda monster/genius he was.

Oh Ivy Lee, I morn thee.

Roger Dodger Out

3/7/2008 4:58:21 AM
So yes my writing didn't actually get put on hold, if anything I found an intresting outlet on the message boards. I have to say Im a bit addicted to the fun swirl of response that happens. Almost ebb and flow of who can keep up and those who crash and burn. I may still have so much to learn but fuck if Im not prone to bursts of stumbling ahead with a lucid wit.

But that dosn't mean I don't fall on my face any less then any of you folk, if anything I've got alot of great stories of doing just that, just means I pick myself up faster.

Therefore I run in hopes of falling it forces me to stay tough, quick, and leaning in leaps dispite my last two years almost caged away from the world.

Later Space Cowboys

3/6/2008 5:45:00 AM
Yes there will be many journals from now on, I feel sharper with every breath today, its all bubbling up, two years of caging myself is resurfacing. Fuck it if I have too much time on my hands.

Anyways onto what I wanted to say. Yes Guard Dog's are still my fixation, someone to teach up and show up what place a woman really should take with a man, complete, real, flawed, justified man.

As for those who've ever asked a million times, my play list is significant of me and so many things hidden amoung the lyrics. What can I say, I admire prose in all its forms, and lately its helping me keep fueled like a fluid art from my speakers drenching me in cruel and vicious epiphany's that come to me at every turn today.

I've been finding and praising so many men today, why have I been looking in all the wrong places till today? I wonder how it must feel to get some bright cheery child like me giving them proverbial cock kisses for all thier well displayed brutality in freely admiting wanting to be better, educated menatly, and cruel of both mind and body.

Yes bitches get stitches but boys get all my love and kisses. <3

3/6/2008 3:33:01 AM

I was flipping back through my husband's comic, the cut open lip I've been making worse all morning has me on his mind. Something about this one is a favorite of mine, for so long I was a big hindrence to this comic and I don't know how it escaped me that in the last year its become on par with some of my favorite published comics with how real the figures are, the brashness of color, the sense of real flaws and relationships, the unsaid sexuality of male friends and how casual a sci/fi can be.

I'll list all his current comics finished and or on hold and even a new one I pushed him to do I feel has great great promise dispite being a newspaper stripe style.

Feel free to email any comments to myself or better yet of course to his email onthe site. My husband's ego could conqure europe, don't feel afraid to stroke it. He'd appreciate words of our kind Im sure.

Action Out

3/5/2008 1:58:15 PM
So Im watching Reaper, I kept avoiding it dispite my husband saying I'd like it, and today I have to tell him when he gets back I agree with him. There have been three or four things I want to qoute Satan saying in it.

Main one is the situation where young moral main character fights Satan urdging him on to his natural urdges with hot risky blonde and in the end could have had the girl was mid ravashing, shoving his nose into her ear with a hard bite...and then lets go. And I cringe, Satan did as I would have did and asked him if he was a homosexual and with a crack of pool balls clacking togeather in the backround he said "Thats! The sound of every man in the world laughing at you right now."

Symopothize with the devil, I really do, he was only trying to show a young man what was there for the taking and he like an anemic young lion droped his pray from his mouth and went into the wilderness to feel his self inflicted hunger pangs linger on.

I highly recomend the show if only becuase of the overly sun nuked Devil is my kinda guy.

Action Out

3/5/2008 5:40:47 AM
Im putting this to shame.

"Men seldom make passes at girls who wear glasses."
  --  Dorothy Parker

3/5/2008 3:18:40 AM
So after what most woman would call a rebirth (Or an extra hot extra bubbly bath) I've come to finaly put it all back togeather probably better then I was when like a grenade pin being pulled out, it all exploded. Also I might lightly blame my lack of excersise, Ive lost ten pounds in under a week that can't be good for my already boyish figure.

To all who care to know Im fine now, and with a wholey new perspective Im very thankfull for, Im calm Im collected, I feel like a razor's end of a whip right now. Also Im starting a book list.

Years ago I had a scrap bit of yellow paper, small things like this where vital to me feeling like I had some semblence of a home since I was 16 and living on the street out of my friend's trundle bed like a stray cat with a borrowed pillow and a humidifier to keep me from waking the house since I was a chronic lucky strike smoker and snored like a beast. But thats way too much info about my scrap of paper without knowing what it is. It was...a book list, with things like Kool Aid Acid Tests, Desolation Angels, The enlightenment of (I forget the name), Memoirs of a geisha (An author I have many theories about knowing so much to have the mentality of a woman so well), and more.

Im starting a new one, I feel like I've picked up where I left off at 17. These recent spoiled and hiding away from public view has left me spoiled for choice where to begin.

Book List:
1)Literary Outlaw

Later Space Cowboys
Action Out

PS:Ill be going to the library today to get it, here's to hoping I don't fall into my old habit of stealing library copies becuase Im too embrassed to show them I've been writting between the lines.

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