in the midst of attempting to succinctly explain the personality and needs of a highly complex, complicated person: me! Hard work, that!

In the meantime, I have deleted many journal entries, changed my profile and taken most people off of blocked status. 

There is a balance that needs to be struck between BDSM and all else, vis a vis slavery.

I do not care what the neighbors think, so much so that I wouldn't tell the ones that I am friendly with what you are to me, but, I'm not going to be needlessly rude to them and do things in front of their children that make everyone uncomfortable, either.

I am going to care to make sure you are healthy, fairly happy to be serving when all is said and done, not going into debt, and things of that nature. I might consider helping you with specific goals related to the betterment of your health, spirit, family life or education.

I am not going to be your friend or lover. I do not care for your opinion, in general. I will treat you fairly, but,, I won't treat you well.  I will be using you for my needs.

To be a person I help, for pay, you can be anything you like. To be my slave, you must be:

1) Very distinctly the sex you were born and dressing as the same. (If you are a hermaphrodite there may be some room for discussion, but, you'll have to prove it is a medical truth).

2) Seeking a non-sexual position.

3) Employed or possessing some form of income, which may be utilized by me, both for your upkeep and for my pleasure.

4) Living in Tucson

OR Wiling and capable of traveling to Tucson, plus serving long distance.

OR  Capable and willing to serve long distance.

5)Be desirous of being "hemmed in" by rules and protocols.

6) Be accepting, but not courting, of reasonable punishments as part of your discipline.

7) Capable of foregoing kinky little desires and/or of seeking out their fulfilment in your own time.

8) Possessing of either skills that would be of use to me or enough money to pay someone else who does have them.

Things that would help, but, are not absolute necessity are:

1) Love of reading

2) Good sense of humor

3) Weirdness (not as in "darkness" but just, you know, a bit odd)

4) A truck

5) Understanding of nutrition, herbal healing, food as medicine, naturopathy, and/or other related interests

6) Being a writer, yourself,  of fiction: not pornography!

7) Being any other sort of artist or artistically inclined

8) Having a love of dumpster diving

9) An urge to figure out how to recycle things in unusual ways

10) Mother Earth News is a bit thrilling to you, and you sure would like to attempt to make some of that stuff

Here's the basic situation as it now stands:

I have quasi moved into a house that needs to be cleaned out and repaired. It does not need to be gutted. It is mostly functional. There are many small projects and a couple of bigger ones to make it ready for comfortable living, and then to bring it up to speed as a comfortable, private oasis for our mutual enjoyment.

I need slaves who can either do the work or pay for the work that needs to be done; they must adhere to my definition of what a slave is. 

This is not about sex. I offer companionship, caring discipline, structure and the chance for you to be of use.

Seeking those in need of adding structure to their life; who wish to be held accountable for their actions and to be trained and led into maintaining proper protocol.

It could be as simple as you needing a little help being motivated in the gym or as complicated as a live-in relationship involving cages and speech restrictions.

I have been in this lifestyle (so called) for over 20 years and have a great deal of experience in problem solving; handling the needs of others; and disciplinary methods and measures.

This is not about sex. This is not about money or me getting you to do my work for me, though, be assured, those two aspects shall be involved. 

This is about accountability, structure and protocol.

If I HAVE to whip your arse, you aren't a slave. If I CHOOSE to whip your arse and you submit, you might be, though.

Slaves SERVE. Who do they serve? Their own nerve endings? NO! They take their pleasure in being needed, utilized, owned.

Whatever you are that is not that, it is your own business. Don't come to me telling me that you want to serve me, and then telling me about how we must trade need for need.

If you are a slave you MUST serve to be whole, and so my allowing you to serve my needs is me serving your needs.

Most slaves, the real ones, the boundaries are not set to protect them from their owners as much as they are set because the owner must protect their slave by setting limits on how far they can go in their giving. They make the slave understand that it must stay in good health, employed, in touch with family and friends to some degree, out of debt, etc. because, in that way, it is a better slave.

Is there any such thing as a fairly normal - as in sane, rational, has self-esteem - person who wants to serve? Someone who is willing to accept punishment, but, doesn't court it? Someone who wants to be of use and make other people happy? Someone with a positive outlook of slavery, slaves, owners, and the human race in general? Dare I hope, someone who even has a set of morals which are precious to them?

I really enjoy going over to other people's homes, after having set a cleaning schedule for them, watching them clean and teaching them how to do it properly, and then disciplining them where they make mistakes.

Also, setting an exercise schedule for them and making them workout, forcing them to do more, is a great deal of fun.

Setting slaves tasks to complete before they are allowed to come and be disciplined is also fun. For instance, I might tell a slave that a bill needs to be paid or an appliance needs to be fixed, and they have this many days to do it in. They are not allowed to come visit, to be used for play or to serve or anything, until it is done. If they go over the expected time period, in reaching that goal, they will receive an extra stroke for every day they go over.

That is for a very onerous task, which might be financially draining, such as fixing the air conditioner or having at least part of the house stuccoed or something. For a smaller task, I might add 5 or more strokes per day. 

Then, when the slave has the task done, they know that they may come and get their reward, but, also, their punishment.

Except, in the case of a pain slut, it might be the opposite. I might say "Listen, pain slut: I am going to give you 100 strokes with a crop or whip, if you get the task done in 10 days time; but, for every day you take longer than that, I'm removing 5."  So, if they want to be hurt, at all, they'd better shake their tail feather.

You don't need to know what I look like to decide if this is something you wish to pursue. Nor do you need to get to know me as a friend, because I will not be your friend. I will be your mentor, Mistress, owner or however else you care to put it, but, never your friend nor your lover.

Long distance training is possible, for pay. Long distance ownership is possible, with financial servitude (to the degree that I find proper). Long distance play will not be considered.

Local play might be considered, but, only as it suits my fancy and only when it is beneficial to my life, directly.

'Willing to relocate': as in, I might travel for the right reasons. It could be arranged that we have a owner/owned relationship that is primarily long distance but where you come to me at tiimes, and I come to you at others.  I will not relocate permanently