About Me

I am a self sufficient woman in my vanilla life, but it's what I'm like in my private life that makes me who I am. I am a fun, silly, goofy girl, with a sometimes childlike, innocent view (I call it my little side) of the world.  This inner and sometimes outer childlike innocence does not mean that I lack intelligence, or that I am incapable of caring for myself. It's more just an overall enjoyment of life and a joy in the little things that make me happy.

As for how I see it in a D/s relationship it is the knowing that I can give up those societal constraints of being independent and capable and I can instead be the fun, silly, happy, innocent girl I feel like inside and share it with someone that can take the lead, has the capability to be the strong leader, and not only take care of his life but take on my needs as well and shoulder that without skipping a beat. 

No, it isn't a one way street here folks. There is a trust I'm talking about that comes when I know I can count on my Daddy's very ability to be there no matter what and in return the only desire I have is to be the best little girl I can be and make him happy in return.  It's a reciprocal relationship but it's based 100% on trust, and the commitment that is built through ongoing communication and respect.

Now, I might have that sometimes childlike, innocent side to me but it is only one side of who I am, not all of me. I am a package deal therefore if you want to get to know me you'll get to know ALL of me, not just what my little side likes and what my 'kinks' are. Yes, we're all on here to some degree or another because we share some outside the box desires in the bedroom but the easiest way to say this is: it's not that checklist of kinks that I find appealing, it's the experiences, the learning and the fun in playing with someone I trust, respect and can submit to with no reservations.  I want to find someone I can explore outside the box and into deep sub or little space with.  Until then it's all just talk.

In my daily life I'm a geek, a dork, a nerd, a 'not your average girl' type of girl. You know the one...you see her at a coffee shop with her nose in a book ignoring everyone around her because she is at the good part in the book (or she is just too shy to talk to strangers).  The only thing is, she's not ignoring everyone. She saw you, she just thought you'd know to walk over and take the first step. I'm too submissive/shy by nature to pursue or approach anyone, even if I can feel his natural dominance and masculine power across the room. I'll just sit there,  eye him under my lashes and have an inner monologue that includes his eventual taking control of the situation. It's an ongoing battle I have, thus I don't sit in coffee shops too often. Can't risk seeing him walk out the door never to meet him.

I spend a lot of time reading. The list is too long but as of the end of March the list includes: John Carter of Mars, and the Maze Runner series that are on the top of the pile (it's a large pile which actually resembles a bookcase). 
I also play Xbox 360 games and I'm addicted to a few RPGs and other games but I will always be a bookworm.

Some hobbies I have outside of the house include hiking, camping, kayaking and riding my quad (although that might end soon after I sell it). I also like photography and try to take a lot of photos wherever I go. I'm not just a babygirl/little looking for a Daddy Dom. I'm a fun girl to hang out with. Oh, and if you like sports (NFL, NBA, and a few others on occasions) I'm a big fan and follow the seasons in fantasy sports and real games.  I'm well rounded in a bunch of crazy ways if I do say so myself. :)

About My Little Side

I DO NOT AGE PLAY (no diapers, I'm not a baby and I don't have a crib or other baby stuff)

I don't have an age I pretend to be and I can't tell you an age that I am when I am in my little space.

For me it's a more innocent version of myself where I enjoy looking at the world through rainbow colored glasses. I see only the good in things and everything is new and exciting. I do like to color and watch the standard Disney, Pixar and DreamWorks movies. I also like to dress in cuter outfits and wear Hello Kitty items or Disney things and of course I'm a big fan of Minnie Mouse. I also love the color pink so that's probably always being worn when I'm at home.

I do have stuffies and I ALWAYS wear cute panties under my clothes EVERY day and sometimes I can get away with wearing cute knee high socks (in Arizona this is about 3 weeks out of the year when it's not frying pan hot).

I am more girly girl when I am home or with a Daddy than in my work life (there are reasons for this) but I am and always will be a Daddy's girl. I am never in regular clothes when I am at home. I get home and I'm always immediately into some cute pajama outfit.

I'm very happy, shy, silly, and when I'm with Daddy (when I have one) I'm just a Daddy's girl (I said that already but it's true). I don't like getting into trouble and I like rules and structure. Yes, I like rules and I don't break them just to get a spanking so no I'm not a brat. I don't like him to be upset at me. I just want to have fun with him, not be in trouble.

Things to Know

* I'm not looking to be your online baby girl

* I don't play with people I don't trust enough to give my submission to...so no I won't call you Daddy after a few emails and I certainly won't be playing with you right away.

* No, I'm not looking to meet up, hook up or chat you up for the purposes of fixing whatever is missing in your life before you move on to the next girl. This means I don't have kik. (Thanks but no)

* I'm not looking for a Daddy that wants to share or be in a poly family. I'm not sharing myself and I don't want to share my Daddy.

* YOU aren't my Daddy so please don't message me calling yourself my Daddy. It assumes you have some sort of claim or that you have earned the trust of my little side and honestly if you call yourself my Daddy in an initial email then you have absolutely NO BUSINESS being anyone's Daddy. (SERIOUSLY! I'm not going to respond to you if your first thought is to immediately place yourself in the role of my Daddy, disciplinarian or whatever other role you see yourself as.)

*If you are married, separated or otherwise attached I AM NOT INTERESTED. 100% No, nada, no thanks, goodbye.

Thank you for reading and have a happy day!

The below writing is based on a recent conversation and on a few experiences I've had that have opened my eyes to the false and negative people I have let effect my heart and my capacity to see the good in someone

Honesty.

I'm not one that enjoys making mistakes or having my own faults shown to me but I do know that my knee jerk reaction to perceived behaviors is based on a very aggressive campaign of false people who have since passed through my inbox, my phone, my heart and my life without once trying to stop the damage done.

However, as I have written in the past (in my writings) I tend to hit an emergency escape lever when I think I might get hurt. While this might seem premature at early stages of communication (such as a few emails or even after a few phone calls), for me it has become almost rote at this point to pop the hatch and jet early in an effort to eliminate true hurt later on.

Now I realize this is a bit like self inflicting the pain before it ever happens, and I do realize it might not be the best path but with so many bad examples to fall back on it is hard to see good sometimes.

I'm good with expressing my positive feelings with someone but not my misgivings, my concerns, my hurts, my faults, my fears, my learned reactions based on bad treatment and my own mistakes. With those I just want to run in the opposite direction and exit the situation with the least amount of damage possible.

I also question the value I place of my own self which is why I question the authenticity of almost every communication.

So, to all the fakes, the wannabes and the guys on here who have played on the emotions or the hopes of others on your "personal journey for sexual fulfilment and experience".

One day you are going to find a girl you actually want to get to know for more than your own selfish reasons and she will be so scarred from guys like you that she won't believe a word you say and no matter how REAL you are, you'll never truly know her and her submission will be conditional. THAT is what you do every time you play the games you play. You burn away pieces of us as you play your game and you throw them to the wind as you move on to the next, easier target and you leave the ashes for the next man to try to clean up.

Do you wonder why you're still single?

I know why I am....I don't trust men like you.

Which is why you didn't get past my email or phone. You weren't worthy of more and you may have burned small pieces but I'm doing the best I can to save the most important parts of myself for someone who is worthy of holding, mending and making me stronger.