I wanted to hear "I love you", one more time. 

To feel special again, one more time.

Neither will happen, I'm running out of time.

Why is it so many of you who call yourself dominant don't understand the difference between D/s and BDSM? 

As of Monday, May 17th 2013 I will be taking a break from this site. I have no idea how long or if I'll ever be back. God bless and I hope you all find what you're looking for.

''There is no greater sorrow than to recall a happy time in the midst of wretchedness.'' 

Dante Aligheri

Once upon a time....hmm...that pretty much sums it up.

What is it about a rainy night that makes you feel more alone than usual?

Happy Holidays to you all and may 2013 be good to you!

If you look back, you'll soon be going that way.

Look for the one you seek with your heart, not your eyes. 

Nothing is forever, bad times or good. You just have to learn to accept what is, don't lose hope and be able to let go and move on. Easier said than done.

What a strange summer this is turning out to be. Thus far, I am not amused but ever hopeful it will change for the good soon.

I use to believe in eating all natural foods until it occurred to me that a lot of people die from....natural causes.

I am amazed at the number of "admirers" I have. And what's more amazing is that I've never spoken to about 90% of them! Some of you people are really weird!

Have you ever realized the importance of the word "if"? Just two little letters and they have such a profound impact on our lives. 

Brisk, rainy day here today. Perfect for home made soup, napping and......

Twonks seem to be running amok lately. One asked if I had ever had bed-wetting issues as a child and another blocked me because I said I was conservative when it comes to kink. Mind boggling.

Fellas! (Please note I didn't use the term "gentlemen" since a gentleman wouldn't do this).
If you insist on posting pictures of your wee wee then please do those of us who happen to run across those pictures a favour and at least post something worth looking at.
If your pubes are longer than your little friend do you really want the world to see that? I just shake my head when I see a man obviously sucking in his belly to make his wiener look longer. Or his pubic area is so unkempt it could be braided.
Thank you for your consideration for my eyeballs.  

Why do so many of you who claim to be of the dominant/master variety refer to yourselves in third person lingo?

If there is one thing life has taught me lately it's that there are no knights in shining armour coming to my rescue.

If within the first five minutes of speaking you inquire about my finances the conversation will end. I'll save both our time, I have no money. And even if I did I would not support a man. Some of you guys are unbelievable!

Interesting observation. Approximately 90% of you when asked what caused the break up with your last sub/slave respond with "She moved" and for the following reasons.
1. She had to move because of her job.
2. She had to move to care for a sick relative.
3. She had to move due to family issues.
Now I have to wonder about this. Where was her dedication to you? Or did she really scram because you weren't a very good Dom? Or maybe you all had the same sub and she just moves around a lot. 

I'm unashamedly stealing this concept from another profile and from an old country song. Take care not to overlook the orchid when looking for a rose.

18 yr. old Masters. Seriously???

Dreams are funny things. They wither and die. They don't always come true. They change. But yet we're told to never stop dreaming. 

It boggles my mind the number of so-called Dominants here that would accept a surgically altered man over a real woman who is overweight. That is just messed up. 

If you call yourself a "dominate" male, I doubt we'd be compatible. And if you can't figure out that sentence then we're really not compatible.

Although I'm often perceived as a strong, confident woman. I have come to realize there is a scared little girl inside longing for someone to stroke her hair, hold her and let her know everything will be ok. 

This is something that happens here all too often.
Deja Poo : The feeling you've heard this shit before. 

I want to feed all the hungry children in the world and save all the abused animals while wearing my Genie bra and having gotten rid  of all of my unwanted hair. Damn those late night infomercials!

It's a chilly, rainy night and I am lonely. I wish I were the kind of person who derives pleasure from 'play'. But to me, this is not a game. I have engaged in casual play before but it was meaningless and I felt so empty afterward. I'm about far more than temporary gratification. So for now, I'll just sip my tea, listen to the rain and hope and dream of 'someday'.

I've been asked countless times what my fantasies are so here goes.
I want to be flogged by David Bowie.

Why do so many here have more than one profile? To me, that screams duplicity. Here's a clue boys, if you feel the need to make more than one profile in hopes of attracting more prospects then I think it's time you do some personal reassessment. All the other names and typing won't change who you really are. Gawds...how pathetic.

Although I think the internet has been a boon for communication and education. I also think it's been a bane when it comes to personal relationships. Gone are the days of taking time to know someone, of speaking in person and looking into their eyes. Instead we rely upon one's text as a judge for compatability.If we don't like their few words, we delete them and move rapidly to the next "font". No wonder so few people connect on these sites.

Mo maistir,mo ghra....beidh tu riamh a fhail dom?

Attention Lesbians!

Although I am oddly flattered to be found attractive by both sexes, I am not now, nor ever have been interested in women for anything other than friendship. So please have some courtesy to accept it when I say "Not interested". Trying to impress me with your fake genitalia will not change my mind. I prefer the man in my life to be just that ; a man.

"Where are you, my beloved? Do you hear my weeping From beyond the ocean? Do you understand my need? Do you know the greatness of my patience?"
Kahlil Gibran

I respectfully request that if you are a smoker ,please do not contact me. I detest smoking and if you are submissive to a cigarette that tells me you have not mastered yourself and therefore have no chance of mastering me. Thank you.

I never thought I'd be one of those 'mature' people who reminisce about their younger years but alas it's happened. I miss the 70's. Life was so much simpler then, we were not technologically addicted as we are now. People had to talk to each other; no text messages or e-mail. But then again were it not for technology you would not be able to read this and I could not have posted it.
I remember when L'eggs pantyhose were the rage and now it's IPads, notebooks and smart phones.Music was better then too, none of this thumping,rap crap that kids listen to now. And I admit, I liked disco!! And what is with boys wearing their pants mid-buttcrack?? Do parents actually condone that?
In the 70's people mattered, not data, trends,goals,statistics.We could learn a lot from days gone by.
 
You know, being 'mature' has it's perks. I've earned the right to be cantankerous. Yes, I miss the 70's. 

Too bad there isn't a GPS for life. I'm lost on the journey and don't know which way to go. The road behind me is gone so there's no turning back.

I heard something interesting today. The statstics on domestic homicides are pretty high when there is a big age difference between the couple.
So you older guys who think you need someone a lot younger than you should think about that!

I had a taste of 'it' recently. Like a sip of a rare wine. The warmth spreading through me, igniting a fire I thought was long gone. But so nice to know that ember still burns deep. The screaming hunger to serve and please went unfed and left me wanting more...so much more.

I have to wonder why purported dominant men on this site post pictures of their bare butts. Are they trying to tell us they are just asses?

A rather obtuse individual told me the other night that I don't write like a submissive. I admit I paused to think about that but only for a second then enjoyed a good laugh. How exactly is a submissive supposed to write? Oh you silly dumbinants. And no, that wasn't a typo.

I have a new pet peeve. Gentlemen (and yes I realize I am using that term loosely) why do you post pictures of your chest and belly? I would surmise that if you are human, you are physiologically correct and therefore have the aforementioned  body parts without your sharing that.
For me personally, I prefer to see what's between your ears.

Over the years I have heard countless opinions on who claims whom. Some maintain that it's the Dom who claims the sub and others insist it's the sub who claims the Dominant. I feel it's mutual. This is a very special relationship unlike any other. Symbiotic in it's own regard as each feeds and is fed by the other. Both parties being equal.
After all, if the needs and wants of either party are not being met then there is no balance and it's failure waiting to happen.

Although we are a technologically advanced species we have a long way to go in the evolution of humanity. We are biased towards people because of their religious beliefs, their ethnicity, the size of their bodies, their sexual preferences, what brand of clothes they wear and so on. I find it sadly amusing that those act this way have rarely if ever taken a long ,hard and honest look at themselves. Perhaps if they did, the world would be a better place. I don't see us evolving to that point in my life time but I can pray it does for future generations. Or is it already too late?

Today, I donated blood. As I watched  it flow into the bag it amazed me how important and life-saving something so simple can be. So I encourage any of you that are able to donate to do so. Especially those of you with negative type blood. We're special!

Well today is my birthday. I don't know how I feel about growing older, nothing I can do about it. I don't feel my age, am told I certainly don't look my age. What does someone my age look like anyway? Deepak Chopra once said "We age because we're expected to". I am fond of doing the unexpected!
I read some of the male profiles here and it seems a lot of men in my age bracket are ashamed to list their age so they add '99' or describe themselves as "older". Older?? Come on guys, this is the best part of our lives. Enjoy it! I am!

I was told I needed to write something happy in my journal this week so here goes.

I'm happy to say I think it's incredibly stupid for supposed Dominants to post weenie pics. Seriously guys, is that how you want your dominance judged? If so, some of you need to kneel and submit as you are posting poor specimens of "virility" if you catch my drift. Hmm...I do feel happier now having said that!

there are worse things than being alone
but it often takes decades to realize this
and most often, when you do...
it's too late...
and there's nothing worse than...too late...
Bukowski 

Are you a Shoo?
If the first thing you want to talk about is what turns me on. Shoo!
If you're a male submissive,male slave, or male switch. Shoo!
If you're incapable of having an intelligent conversation. Shoo!
If you want to show me pictures of your dangly bits. Shoo!
If you're married or involved. Shoo!

If you think a toothbrush was made only to clean bike parts. Shoo!
If you believe you are a vampire,werewolf or some other non-human entity. Shoo! (yes folks, I've actually had those types contact me).
If you're just here to scam, play games or get a little online or phone action...well I think you get the idea. SHOO!

A night for contemplation and reflection. So many "whys" and yet no answers come. I guess sometimes it's ok to just be.

What happens to the Phoenix when she is too weak to rise from the ashes once more?

Although it's a chilly night, I felt a warm breeze caress my cheek. Was it you?

It has become evident that I must make my preferences a bit clearer so here, goes.

1. If you're still pining over your ex, I'm not interested.
2. If you keep your fingernails long so you can pick your teeth in public with them. I'm not interested.
3. If you think a napkin is to keep your lap warm, I'm not interested.
4. If you have the table manners of a pig at feeding time, I'm not interested.
5. If you're unfamiliar with the term "personal grooming", I'm not interested.
6. If you have facial hair and it is basically devouring your face , I'm not interested.
7. If you have a picture of your genitals on your profile, I'm not interested.
8. If think the 'lifestyle' is all about toys and sex, I'm not interested.

Thank you for you cooperation.

The deadliest bullshit is odorless and transparent. --William Gibson

(and sadly a lot of it is here on this site)

Hi there!
Here I am being helpful again.This message is for the"So-Calleds".
Dominate is what you do (or think you can).
Dominant is who you are (or think you are).
This has been a public service message.
Thank you!

If I have blocked your e-mail it means one of the following.

1. You creeped me out

2. You have irritated or offended me 

3. I am not interested in speaking with you further

4. All of the above.

What it does not mean is.

1. I want you to keep 'viewing' me

2. I want you to contact and bother me under another name

I hope I have cleared up any confusion on this matter.

Thank you!

Someone asked me the other night how would I recognize my true Dominant. My answer? I would look into his eyes and he would look into my soul.

Not long ago, a friend told me that I have the heart of a Nomad. He said that I am so afraid of being hurt that I don't stick around long enough to see if I have found the right Dominant. After thinking about this, I think he's correct. I do have a strong flight response. Why is it the very thing I yearn for, frightens me? Submission.

I'd like to thank all of the really nice men who have contacted me here. Whether is was a single message or ongoing communication. You have given me smiles, laughter,encouragement and hope and I am indeed blessed to have crossed paths with you.

Why do so many on here state that they are looking for a strong woman with a mind of her own and yet when they are presented with one they are either baffled or their ego is threatened? At the risk of sounding arrogant, I admit that I am above average in the intelligence department but I certainly don't use it make anyone else feel inferior. However,I find it offensive that so many so-called 'Dominants' are of the misnomer that submissives need possess below normal intellect in order to be a submissive.

So far on this site I have been called a "prude" because I speak with decorum. Been called an "intellectual dom" because I think. My natural inclination as a submissive has been questioned because I have a "strong personality".  I found this quote on a profile that I admired. Is it true? I can only hope.

Is there such a thing as going too far?

In my short time in this 'lifestyle' I have seen some things that I wish I hadn't. So I have to wonder about those who are deeply involved in kink and those who are into extremes.

I liken this to an addiction, after a while a spanking doesn't get you there so you progress to caning, cropping. Then that doesn't work like it did so it's whipping then cutting and so on. Where does it stop or does it? Please don't misunderstand, I'm not judging, I just find all this fascinating.

Quick addendum here: I'm not referring to myself in this. I am extremely conservative when it comes to kink. Thanks!

I spoke with a slave the other day whose Master had suddenly passed away. They were never married and the state they lived in did not recognize common law marriages. Her Master had kept putting off making a will so when he died, his slave was left with nothing.

This made me wonder about the profiles I see where the 'Master' demands that all of the slave's assets be turned over to him claiming that a 'slaves owns nothing'. So what happens when the relationship ends? Like the woman I mentioned before, does she end up homeless and destitute?

If any submissives/slaves are reading this, I sure hope you have better sense than the girl I spoke to. We tend to think with our hearts and not our brains at times but this is important. Ask yourself this. What would happen to you if he suddenly died or released you? Do you have a back up plan just in case? 

And shame on the irresponsible Masters/Doms who don't think of these things. The girl I know is now lost, the bond is broken, her heart is broken and she's financially destitute. Makes you think doesn't it?!

Ok, I confess to looking at a number of profiles and I would like to offer the following suggestions to the men. I know this affects both genders but I'm not looking at or for women so here goes. Just some suggestions.

1. If you have no teeth,get some. If you have teeth,take care of the ones you have.

2. If you're bald or bestowed with 'clear hair', embrace it and lose the hair pieces. Women are the exception.

3. The unshaven,unkempt look went out with 'Miami Vice'. If you have facial hair at least keep it well trimmed (women are the exception here too). That goes for nose (in or on),ear hair and the unibrow look.

4. Do you really want the first thing for me or others to see when we click on your profile is some woman's bare behind? Ok, so you've managed to spank at least one person in your life. Big woo!

5. What's with the cell phone in the bathroom photography? Have someone, even a stranger take a pic of you.

6. Apparently some of you read the best way to attract a woman is to have a dog. Hence the pics posing with Fido. Wrong.

7. Check your background before taking the pic. An unmade bed or junk piled up behind you says a lot. 

8. Why do you find it necessary to post pictures of your genitals or you fondling them? If you feel that's the most important part of you and what you have to offer then.........Blah! I'm not interested.

Good luck in your search and I hope these tips have been helpful.