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Do You enjoy extreme breathplay with a willing victim? Do You want a wouldbe milkslave You might mount while she's hooked to Your milking machine? Do You want an almost virgin asshole and to nestle in a tight pussy? Does Your perfect sub or slave want to please You in all ways with her body and also cater to Your needs in the Vanilla world? My cravings grow larger and deeper. I yearn to be cherished in the way only a Sadist can do that. He will leave many marks but none where the everyday vanilla world will see. Some marks that are permanent will be invisible to all eyes but they too will be just as real. In public He will be the perfect gentleman and those who see us together will wish for Him to be theirs. Away from their eyes He will teach me to do things i may never imagine doing now. He will modify my holes to be able to accommodate whatever He wishes to put in them. He may modify my cunt lips if His desire is for long ones. He may lengthen my nipples in order to make them like a cow's teats for milking by hand. He may at the drop of a hat require me to service other cocks but only under His strict supervision. He may also require me to accept their hungry mouths at my udders for the milk that is in them. i will gladly obey. i understand punishment and discipline is a teaching tool for my benefit should i fail any of His expectations in my behavior and i will always thank Him afterwards for giving me the gift of that punishment or discipline. i will be His and only His. His modifications for His pleasure are just that. They are not permanent damage. This Sadist I have yet to be claimed by will never break my body or cause permanent damage. One does not break Their toy if They are intelligent. The Sadist i seek will grow to understand me and treat me gently when necessary. That will be a strength. It will never be a weakness. He will challenge me mightily but will not break my spirit even as He molds me to embrace His wishes for what He does to me. He also is anchored firmly in reality. There is no desire to endanger my health either physically or mentally. If i am truly uncomfortable with something, it may still happen but it may not. O/our contract of ownership will be as close to legally binding as possible. If He is far away then i will move to Him no matter where that is. Although i may have to function on my own for periods of time in the vanilla world, my life will revolve around Him and His expectations for me in every way. Are You reading this? If You are please contact me. Okay i hope i got Your attention because those are things i do now or would like to do, and as the man in the commercial says, "But wait! There's more!!" Yes there is more. i'm a 3 dimensional woman with many facets. The way i write my pronouns is no mistake or meant to impress. i dig the lifestyle but i also love to cook, read, have intelligent discussions and to tell or be told really bad jokes. The bad ones crack me up when most people just shake their heads. i am not interested in the least in polyamory or women. i am a one-man woman. i hate being lied to and i am fiercely loyal. i have no patience for game players or those who judge. i am Jewish and if i can find someone who is also Jewish that is preferable. i can be Your best friend and greatest secret keeper. i'm not interested in a sex-only, friends-with-benefits or fuck-buddy relationship. my father is gone and buried so i already had a Daddy thank You very much. If that is Your kink, please move on. i cannot express how much it turns me off. If You are married or casually dating please move on because i will not chat with You now or ever. If i say You are too young for me please do not try to prove my point by arguing it. Jewish women are NOT exotic and if that is how You feel, then leaving me be will be greatly appreciated. i am looking for real, serious, TPE, LTR, contract and all. Bdsm is a vast and interesting subject and lifestyle but realistically many do not understand it. W/we have to be able to function in the Vanilla world as well. The One i crave to find will want a relationship that to all outwards appearances is functioning as Vanilla when appropriate. If these are the qualities You want in the one You lock Your collar onto please let me know. If that is You then i willingly submissively present myself to You for inspection. One of O/our greatest tools is our imagination and our mind. O/our imagination and mind are where most of O/our sexual drive comes from. i expect You to use them both. i love kinky stories. The kinkier the better. Tell me a story or stories that show off Your dark side. The stories do not have to be about me. If You want me to turn into a quivering puddle then flex Your storytelling muscles and show me just how twisted Your mind really is. Should You decide to send me a message please don't send a Hello or How are you message. Send me a message that gives me a reason to want to respond. In other words send me a real message but not a rewrite of Your profile introduction. i guarantee You i will read that before i respond. If You are a young one and like older women that's great for You but please move on. i'm not interested in men younger than 45. You will not change my mind no matter how good You are in bed. If i interest You in any way and You are still reading this i encourage You to visit my journal. All writing and photos are mine and all copyrights belong to me and me alone. Any attempts to use my writings or photos for any purpose without my permission will be prosecuted to the full extent of the law. If you want to sell my intellectual property we can talk. If you just want to share it, ask. Otherwise KEEP YOUR GRUBBY MITTS OFF!!!!!!

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6/28/2016 8:09:27 AM
i bought some new toys. These toys will be perfect in a Sadist's hands to use on me. Now, if only that Sadist will come forward.

5/23/2016 7:46:04 AM
I'm so very interested in some intense training for several days to know if what I crave is not just wishful thinking. I want to do this in real time and soon.

1/20/2016 10:24:32 AM
There is a large part of me, the slave/property/masochistic part of me that knows I need to be sexually tortured. To be punished for being a very bad girl. To be told over and over what I truly am and to be made to feel/regret for wanting/and then to love the pain being inflicted on me and to beg for more and then even more of it. There is no psycho-babble necessary as to why I know I need punishments for being a very bad girl. I have not done anything absolutely horrible in my life to atone for. Being a free and uncollared girl allows for any number of infractions on a daily basis. And then there is the other 'Vanilla' part of me that cannot fathom why I want this and will rebel strongly should this happen. I say SCREW the Vanilla girl and show her what she's missing!

1/18/2016 12:40:40 AM
Chapter 5 She desperately wanted him to leave her alone. He knew that. Part of his job, a very large part of his job, was to break them. It started with making them understand that there was no room for modesty. It started with controlling their very ability to move and then to control their bodily functions. He controlled what went in and out of every orifice and when. Once that became ingrained there was nothing he could not control. He knew she was still trying to figure out how she knew him. He'd been around her for a few years but only peripherally. He'd made sure to be in her life just enough so that when this time came it would nag at her and keep her concentrated on searching her memory bank. All in good time. After breakfast was done he brought her into the bathroom and allowed her body to release everything while he watched her turn beet red from the embarrassement and humiliation that this usually private moment was being observed. The toilet had a bidet function which washed her after it finished flushing. "Stand up. Good, very good. There are some people who want to meet you and we can't have them do that until you're completely clean. I'm going to remove your strait jacket. After I take it off you will put your arms to your sides like a good girl. Understood?" She nodded. He so wanted a reason to punish her. She refused to give him one. "Stand there. Do. Not. Move." He reached around her waist and put a thin belt around it which he locked in place. The belt had wrist cuffs that soon secured her arms to her sides. She was lifted into the tub because the spreader bar made it impossible for her to climb into the tub on her own. Then a collar was locked around her neck and she was fastened by the D ring on it to a chain welded to the wall. "Now, time to scrub you clean, inside and out. Ready?"

1/7/2016 5:46:24 AM
Chapter 4 Slowly he rubbed her stomach in a circular motion exerting slightly more pressure each time around. She tried unsuccessfully to hold back her tears crying silently. "So glad I don't need to gag you to make you understand the beauty of silence. Although" He paused. " No one can hear you who isn't supposed to anyway. Nonetheless I will make sure to get you screaming at some point. In the meantime I do so enjoy your being quiet." She'd be damned if she was going to let him win. She'd bide her time until she could make an escape. She had to. Her husband, parents and siblings were grieving for a stranger. She needed to get to them and tell them she was alive. How or when wasn't important. She just had to wait until it was safe. Until then she would do everything in her power to survive and that meant doing anything he wanted." Now then, I see your belly getting bigger. Yes, you will be quite a sight in the coming months. Quite a sight indeed. Let's get you to the bathroom and clean you out and up. You've a busy day ahead of you. No time to waste."

1/2/2016 7:41:29 PM
Chapter 3 He would feed her a forkful of food and when she'd swallowed give her her choice of water, juice or coffee. She signaled her choice with eyeblinks. One for no and two for yes. While he kept her mouth busy with food and drink he talked. "How you came to be here will become known soon enough. In the meantime there are some ground rules. Obey them and your stay here won't be overly painful. Disobey them and you will wish you'd not woken up today. Trust me on this. Let's see, where's my, oh here it is." He began to read aloud. "Female: Causasion. Hair color: Brunette. Eye Color: Brown. Skin tone: Olive. Country of origin: United States Historic heritage: Russian, most likely peasant stock. Height: 5'3" Age: 23 years Number of pregnancies: 0 Age at first menstrual cycle: 14 years, 10 months, 25 days Last period: 21 days ago Does cow have periods every month: Yes Next ovulation: Anytime Udder size: 36D Waist: 28" Child bearing hip size: 35" Teat length: 1/4" Cunt hole: Tight Shaved: No Asshole: Virgin Tattoos: None Piercings: None Birth marks: None Scars: Some Brandings: None Other markings: None Smoker or nonsmoker: Nonsmoker Drinker: Very occasional Drug use: Prescribed pharmaceuticals mainly but occasional recreational user Previous status: Married Current status: To be sold Contracted for sale by: That you will learn soon enough." He put down the laundry list of her statistics. Now. You are here to learn and be prepared for sale. We can do this the easy way or the hard way. I personally prefer the hard way but I'm guessing you will prefer the not so hard way. It will be up to you. Since you have finished breakfast let's get started shall we?" He unlocked her ankles from the chair legs and reattached the spreader bar. As she was made to stand, the intruders seemed to not want to leave her body. After she was fully vertical, a belt between her legs was added to her straight jacket and the dildo and plug were seated deeply within her and locked in. She started to feel the beginnings of intense cramping in her belly. Her food had been laced with laxatives and her drinks with diuretics. Her captor began to smile when he saw the discomfort she was in.

12/31/2015 8:49:47 PM
Chapter 2 Carefully he helped her to sit up and put her feet on the floor. After unlocking the ankle cuffs he relocked them to a 1 foot spreader bar. There was a door she only now noticed because the padded walls camouflaged it. He took her to it and opened it. She saw a toilet. He helped her sit so that she could relieve herself. Afterwards when they were back inside the padded cell and the door had been closed a table seemed to have suddenly appeared. It was set for one. As she got closer she noticed a dildo and butt plug attached to the chair she was to sit on. They were at full attention and looked to be fully lubed up. "Here, let me help you to sit down. I have some things to discuss with you and I want your full attention" She was positioned over the intruders so they could enter her body. A slow steady pressure on her shoulders pushed her fully onto them. It hurt quite a lot but only a few noises escaped from her mouth. The spreader bar was removed and her ankles were locked to the front legs of the chair. Still locked into the strait jacket she could only sit still. On the table was a very nice full breakfast. "Good girl. You are doing well. I will feed you and tell you anything I think you need to know. When I ask a question I expect an answer. Otherwise you will not speak unless directly spoken to. Is that understood?" "Yes Sir" "Good. Very good. We should get along just fine. You must be very hungry."

12/30/2015 10:55:32 PM
Chapter 1 He sat next to her on the bed watching her stir from her long sleep. "Shhhhhh, don't try to move. Just lay there and listen." She tried to move anyway but it was pointless. She was completely restrained in what looked to be a cell. White padded walls, floor and ceiling. Everything was white. She was strapped into a straitjacket and it was padlocked closed. Her ankles had leather cuffs on them that were locked together. It wasn't physically uncomfortable but she had no idea why or how she came to be in this place. The man looked familiar but just barely. "Shhhhhh" he said again as he put his finger to his lips. "Your house was burnt to the ground last night. Everything is gone. Including. You. A body was discovered. A woman. I put her there and drugged her so she never felt a thing before she died. The fire was so hot that she can never be identified. Your funeral is tomorrow at 10 am." This isn't happening. How can it be? She isn't dead. Who is he? Why does he look so familiar? Think. Stay calm. You can get out of this. "Okay, lets's get you fed and then prepared for the day shall we?" He was way too cheerful. What's happening to me? These words took place in her head. She didn't dare say them out loud. His smile did not extend to his steel blue eyes. She understood that the shhhh was not a request.

12/30/2015 10:13:13 PM
I wonder what I would be like if I were kept in a room, locked away from the world for months until molded to be whatever I am wanted to be. What name would I answer to? Would I ever see the outside world again? Would I have been smuggled to another country where no one knows I ever existed and no one will look for me?

12/30/2015 9:22:23 PM
My cravings grow larger and deeper. I yearn to be cherished in the way only a Sadist can do that. He will leave many marks but none where the everyday vanilla world will see. Some marks that are permanent will be invisible to all eyes but they too will be just as real. In public He will be the perfect gentleman and those who see us together will wish for Him to be theirs. Away from their eyes He will teach me to do things i may never imagine doing now. He will modify my holes to be able to accommodate whatever He wishes to put in them. He may modify my cunt lips if His desire is for long ones. He may lengthen my nipples in order to make them like a cow's teats for milking by hand. He may at the drop of a hat require me to service other cocks but only under His strict supervision. He may also require me to accept their hungry mouths at my udders for the milk that is in them. i will gladly obey. i understand punishment and discipline is a teaching tool for my benefit should i fail any of His expectations in my behavior and i will always thank Him afterwards for giving me the gift of that punishment or discipline. i will be His and only His. His modifications for His pleasure are just that. They are not permanent damage. This Sadist I have yet to be claimed by will never break my body or cause permanent damage. One does not break Their toy if They are intelligent. The Sadist i seek will grow to understand me and treat me gently when necessary. That will be a strength. It will never be a weakness. He will challenge me mightily but will not break my spirit even as He molds me to embrace His wishes for what He does to me. He also is anchored firmly in reality. There is no desire to endanger my health either physically or mentally. If i am truly uncomfortable with something, it may still happen but it may not. O/our contract of ownership will be as close to legally binding as possible. If He is far away then i will move to Him no matter where that is. Although i may have to function on my own for periods of time in the vanilla world, my life will revolve around Him and His expectations for me in every way. Are You reading this? If You are please contact me.

12/27/2015 7:23:36 PM
i wonder what it would be like to be somewhere so isolated there is no way to leave. Perhaps it is a property with 10s or 100s of acres. i may roam it freely but cannot get close enough to the front gate should any who do not know i am there drive up or on to the place where i am being held. Perhaps i am locked in with just enough length of chain to use the bathroom, get to my bed, use the kitchen and livingroom but not enough to reach a door to the outside. No one who is not supposed to will be able to hear what goes on indoors or outdoors here at any time. No computer or phone to get the outside world's attention ever again.

12/26/2015 9:41:06 PM
To find a Man to serve who will take me and He to both of our lightest and darkest kinks without hesitation. That is my wish for the newest year. To find the One who is real and able to take me to and over the edge. The One who has the ability to make me into what i was put here to be. He knows how to do it and cares not for polite societal mores. The taboos He knows W/we are both ok to break this One considers not to be taboo at all but merely the height of true submission. Does He exist? I know He does. Will He read this and contact me? i can only hope and wait. When He reads this He will most likely ask me questions and answer my questions that tell us both, He is who i am looking for.

12/7/2015 10:11:46 PM
I am greatly interested in being locked away and treated as a breeder even if a pregnancy won't happen. Locked into a breeding table with holes for my udders to go through and milked. I have no choice about how many times I am bred or to whom. I am let up only for bathroom breaks if you choose and for stretching, bathing and daily walks. Feeding and watering me while strapped down or letting me get up is something you will decide. I can see not being acknowledged directly during these times and hearing myself discussed openly by any in the room.h and milked. I have no choice about how many times I am bred or to whom and no choice as to how often I am artificially inseminated to be kept pregnant.

12/7/2015 10:05:40 PM
I would really like a Sadist to play with me who will order me to thank him for hurting me.

3/8/2015 11:34:34 AM
WARNING: The following is a rant of built up frustration with many but not all. If you actually do want someone who is real and intelligent, whether it is me or someone else please remember the old but true saying, 'You never get a second chance to make a first impression.' Those of you who are reading this know I am intelligent, I write and edit carefully even if I do not see it until later and if we interact even a little bit you will soon realize that I am real and have a mind. I also posted a picture that is not scary. Why then would you not take the time to check your spelling and send a picture that at least tries to show you at your best or close to it? I realize a lot of people for some reason or other do not spell well. If you already know this about yourself then turn on autocorrect or spell check. There is nothing sexy or attractive to me about having to decipher what you are trying to tell me about anything. Phonetics are a good learning tool but a message written in phonetics will not make me want to converse with you. If every other word is misspelled it definitely will not. If your picture looks like you just wanted someone to see what you look like but it seems you made no effort and your message shows you made no effort, why would I or any other sub or slave trust you to keep them safe from harm?

2/15/2015 8:16:22 PM
I'm curious about and wish to be enlightened as to what is a Victorian and/or Edwardian household in the Bdsm lifestyle.

2/8/2015 1:33:46 AM
So.....just out of curiosity what is it with all the 'men' who think beastiality so darned exciting? Is it because they aren't big enough between their own legs to please a real woman or is it just a humiliation thing? Why would I want a dog or better yet a horse when I could have a real man? I just don't get it. Someone please explain.

1/9/2015 2:36:34 AM
I recently became aware that someone sent a naked from the waist down picture of a man as an attachment to a man in an email from me. If anyone has or has had this happen to them from my account please let me know. If you are the person who did this, SHAME ON YOU!!!!!! For any who have yet to figure it out, I am a female. I do not send explicit pictures to any on this site I do not know and I definitely do not send naked pictures of any part of any male anatomy!!!!!!

12/26/2014 4:47:35 PM
Are any of y'all that are on here professing to be the man for me truly serious? Do you think it kind and honorable to get a sub to let her guard down and share very personal thoughts about her life, kinks and deepest desires both Vanilla and BDSM only to get metaphorically flogged in her heart and soul? It's not funny and it's not right. Not right at all.

12/26/2014 5:14:49 AM
i don't know if someone showing their vulnerable side to You is sexy, scary or pathetic. i screwed up the courage and laid myself bare to You. i'm glad i did but now i am naked and alone. Completely exposed. Liking someone.....remember i said liking, not loving is a risk i've not truly allowed myself in a very long time. i now haven't heard from You in awhile and, although i am very glad i did it, i'm scared because i am very sure You probably think me pathetic and want nothing more to do with me. i want You very much. Is it being treated badly that makes me want you all that more? Is that my masochistic side? i certainly hope it is neither, because that would truly make me pathetic. i do not do well with silence of this kind. i want it to be my imagination but i fear it is not.

12/10/2014 6:09:17 AM
You tell me that W/we can discuss any and all things sexual without fear of reprisal but when i share with You my fetish list from which is comprised things i am interested in and like and want to do or i like or am curious about and know there is no way a majority of them will ever become reality You reject me for them when W/we both know You have sadistic tendencies and i am truly a sub who is willing to consider Your collar. You ask me when W/we meet in person about my last breakup and i tell You it is too painful to discuss. Then when i do tell You about my last relationship You run away because You choose to misunderstand my feelings for not wanting to be in the same place with him and of feeling sad because i know where he is on holidays with wanting to be with him. i want distraction for those holidays because i want to make new reasons for not being sad and feeling embarrassed for wishing i was somewhere i would only feel uncomfortable. It's not so much him i want to be with as it is his family who accepted me flat out and always made me feel welcome. When someone messes with you in ways too painful to explain it does not mean you want to be with that person. It may mean that you want to not have to feel the pain and shame anymore even if it is dimmed but not completely forgotten. When i say that i have a rental agreement with my ex it does not mean he lives in the same building. It means i have a rental agreement with him. I stand feet apart from him and do not see him pick up my rent checks unless there is a need for it. There is necessary communications with any landlord/tenant relationship. When i tell my protector who is, by the way, more of a big brother than anything, that i met someone it does not mean i violated the things You wish to keep private. It means i told him i met someone i like who is Jewish, nice, attractive and attracted to me. It means that it is someone i want to spend time with. He is protective of my safety, not my activities 'behind doors' as You put it. i told You i was afraid You would disappear and You said You would not. i want to trust my heart to someone and wear a collar worthy of me. i do not want a psychopath or a batterer to be able to live the life i know i am meant for. i want a sane amazing man who only wants me. i want to love and be loved. i want to be able to take care of my Man. i am above all honest and the fetish list and what i chose to share from my last relationship is pretty honest. i didn't even scratch the surface when i told You what i did about him. i didn't tell You much about the actual breakup and what he took from me during it. Maybe if i had it would feel less threatening but You won't even talk to me so i cannot. Oh yes, and as for the fetishes............written down some of them are pretty enticing............in practice they could be overwhelming to contemplate.............i like to write..........i am in complete control of my universe when i write............speaking some things aloud, would make me shy away from them. Also some of them i completely forgot about. Like i said............You won't even talk to me so how will You know.

12/9/2014 7:05:56 PM
Oh where or where are all the real men? Oh where oh where can they be..........?

10/22/2014 10:54:06 PM
Why is it that if a woman on this site bruises a fragile male ego by telling him she does not want him, she is told she is just another fake and then blocked by him? What's the matter boys? Real men buck up and move on. They do not hold their breath until they turn blue. A female doesn't want you? Bummer. Grow up will you? You cannot insult me by telling me I am a fake because I am not. I'm as real as they get. Put that in your pipe and smoke it!!!! I have nothing to prove and don't plan to start trying to!!!!!! Not submissive enough for you? Tough titties.

8/10/2014 3:12:46 PM
Are You That Man #17 "Wheel her to the shower room boys. I want her clean inside and out and make sure her cunt is smooth as a baby's bottom please. Clean her up when she's naked instead of working around everything like you did with my last creation. Laziness like that decreases her value and my customers can tell sloppiness every time. Revenue falls off and refunds are demanded. If you disobey me I have no qualms about hurting you permanently in ways you will not like. Count on it!!!!" "Yes Sir", the two young men answer in unison. This routine has been repeated at least once a day for the last 3 days. Guests/Customers are the membership He is selling live streaming to. They come here presumeably to play poker and have fun. They are also here to make sure i am not some computer generated figment of His imagination. While here they are allowed to do a few things to me that they've only dreamed of doing. Another perk is that He has so much property everyone goes home very very satisfied in every way. Two more days and everyone with live streaming priviledges will have been able to inspect me up close and personal.

8/9/2014 10:33:57 AM
Are You That Man #16 As the night wore on it became clear who was really there to play Poker and who was there to see His newest creation. The guests who did not come to play cards, played with me. They kept my mouth busy sucking as they filled my belly with their cum in exchange for feeding me food. The sadists used their cigars to scar me. i am not permitted to object to anything and couldn't have anyway. He delighted in all the burn marks after His guests left. Slowly the crystal speculum was pulled out. "Oh my goodness. Look at all these ashes." It made Him extremely hard and because I am no longer able to satisfy His cock with my cunt and my ass, my peehole received a rigorous workout. "That was lovely, but before I'm through that will be useless too. My next creation-to-be will arrive soon. She has no idea her husband sold her. I plan to have a lot of fun with her and you will watch me once I've stretched that last hole beyond use. Someone from the house will be by to clean you out sometime soon. Sleep tight. More guests are coming tomorrow." With that said, large plugs were inserted and secured into me. i'd not been allowed up to use the bathroom which He knew. i was to sleep in the Poker room in the position I'd been in all night. The one concession to my comfort was a blanket and pillow. He tucked me in and then put muzzle gag on me, turned out the lights, shut the door and locked me in. i could hear Him whistling while He walked away.

8/8/2014 8:03:19 AM
Are You That Man #15 Right before the guests were allowed into the cigar room there was one final touch missing. After it was finished the doors were opened. The final touch was a crystal anal speculum that was inserted in my already gaping asshole. The speculum provided a way for ashes to go directly into me when cigars were tapped on the sides of it or when ashtrays needed emptying. When He started fiddling with this one last addition to his tableau, He took about 20 minutes making sure to open it enough to cause me great discomfort. "Can't have the carpets burned from stray ashes now can I? By the way, since there are no trash cans in this room your ass may be filled as the night goes on. No worries. I always empty the trash before bed. This might include a few very large enemas. Can't have you getting nicotine poisoning."

8/5/2014 8:20:28 PM
Are You That Man #14 The door to my cell opens and two men enter. i have learned only to speak when given permission so i watch. No one speaks to me ever, it seems, except for Him and they are no exception. "Okay let's get her ready." my right wrist is unlocked from the bed and the cuff is taken off. A 6-inch hard leather posture collar is produced and snugged around my neck and a leash is attached. Next, my arms are inserted into soft leather arm binders behind my back and laced up and my ankles are cuffed and hobbled with 1 foot of chain. They leave on my nightgown but because of the arm binders my tits push out against the fabric proudly. We walk down one hallway after another then up one flight of stairs and then down another hallway until we come to the main part of the house which is bustling with activity. "There you are. Good. Ok, go into the cigar room. C'mon, I don't want to be punished like the last time everything wasn't ready on time." i'm led over to a padded board that slants at a 30 degree angle. my arms are released and my nightgown is removed so that i may be laid onto it on my back with my head down and the rest of my body inclined upwards. my collar is locked in place by a ring on either side of it so i cannot slide down. Then an o-ring gag is inserted into my mouth. Dowels with eyebolts on one end are attached to my nipple rings and soon they are assembled so that i am supporting a small table. my feet have been put into shoes that when raised up become lighters for lighting cigars. The rings on my cuntlips have straps attached to them so that the lips are stretched which opens my cunt hole wide. The straps are attached to the ankles of my 'shoes' and my legs are raised and locked into stirrups. my hands are put into gloves that form into cups to hold cigar clippings. Then my wrists are also locked down. "All ready for us?" i perk up. He's here. "We just have one last thing to do Sir." "That's fine boys. I like to save this part for myself. This one is very special to Me." They leave and for a few minutes W/we are alone. "You look very nice tonight. I realize you haven't eaten in awhile. i'm having some friends in tonight who are big fans of yours. This is a high stakes poker game. They have all paid $100,000 just to be here. The table you are supporting will have food on it. Whenever one of My guests wishes to, they will come over here and feed you something from it. They may require you to earn it by sucking them off beforehand or thank them by sucking them off afterwards. By the end of the night your belly should be very full. That ring will be taken off when you eat food and put back when you eat cock. Oh yes, those finishing touches you heard Me talking about?" He works His fingers into my cunt hole and rubs my clit to get me nice and wet. When He is satisfied, cigars are pushed in, one after another until no more will fit. Whenever a cigar is pulled out and put in someone's mouth they will taste me while they are smoking it. More of them will be added as the night goes on so that my hole is always full and not a single one has a chance to fall on the floor.

8/5/2014 10:18:26 AM
Are You That Man #13 "Welcome back." Where am i? It's all fuzzy. "Sleep well?" "Thirsty" i mumble. "Here you go. Drink this." He cradles my head gently while i drink. "Hungry? It's been a few days since you ate." I nod. He feeds me jello and broth.There's a mirror across from me. i'm on an old iron bedstead with a beautiful antique quilt, a soft mattress and pillows. my right wrist is cuffed to the headboard. Otherwise i am able to move freely. Someone did my hair and makeup. i'm wearing a pretty cotton nightgown over my bare body. "Do you need to use the toilet?" "Yes Sir. Please may i?" "You may. Let's get you unlocked and then I will carry you. You're still too unsteady." my wrists are cuffed together. my ankles are cuffed and hobbled. W/we both know i won't struggle or try to leave. It's more of a formality to remind me of my station. He picks me up and cradles me like a child. "O/our guests will be here within the week. you must be ready. He stands and watches while i relieve myself. He wipes me. Then He brushes my teeth for me. i long ago gave up any pretense of modesty. After i'm back on the bed and my wrist is recuffed i lay on my back with my head off the bed. His cock finds its way into my mouth and i thank him properly for my supper and trip to the bathroom. my nightgown is pulled up and my cunt hole is inspected. "Yes. It will do." i don't ask and He doesn't tell. my holes are no good anymore for regular fucking. i've been trained well. my body has been transformed. Whatever He has planned for me will soon be made clear. i am content to wait.

8/3/2014 8:25:32 AM
Are You That Man #12 "Hello there. How was Your trip? Uneventful I hope." "Yes. Very boring. I took the scenic route." "Was Our passenger well behaved?" "Yes very, considering she's been in there 2 days. She must be more than ready to burst. The water put her to sleep. Barely a peep. The mic I installed in the trunk let me hear every noise in my earpiece. I know for sure she's still breathing. We need to get her out, cleaned up, fed and locked in her cell. The guests will be here in a few days. Time to put on the finishing touches to my creation. she's the guest of honor, and the entertainment. We will stream for select members and sell videos to the rest." "What did You decide to charge for streaming privilege?" "Ten grand for the privilege, and twenty dollars a minute. I limited it to 50,000 of my most reputable membership. They also get a limited edition boxed set of all her videos with that."

8/3/2014 7:34:16 AM
Are You That Man #11 After my breakfast which included a bellyful of His cum He points to a trunk in the corner. i do not remember seeing it before. "Do You know what that is little one?" i shake my head no. "That is what I will be using to transport you to my compound.There are air holes so you will be able to breathe and a 3 gallon water bottle with a straw attached to drink from. Go into the bathroom and give yourself enough enemas and douches to clean yourself out. When you are clean and empty come here and present your backside to Me." i get up. i now am forced to waddle because my holes are so wide. When i present myself He inserts two plugs into me and locks them in "I do not want a mess in there. GO!!!" After i get in and lay in the fetal position in order to fit He clips my cuffs and collar to D-rings that are welded into the inside. It is so cramped there is no way i could move anyway. My head has been positioned so the straw stays in my mouth. After closing the lid i can hear Him padlocking it shut. "Here you are boys. All packed and ready to go. Make sure you put it in My car this side up please." "How far are You going Sir?" "Oh, quite a ways. I'm going to take my time. It's at least a 2 days drive. I may take a few extra along the way and see some friends. Be very careful with that trunk. It's fragile and holds special cargo. Very, very special."

8/2/2014 10:52:38 AM
Are You That Man #10 "Good morning little one." Who is that? "Keep your eyes closed and open them very slowly." Who is that? "Come on little one you can do it." Who is that? Whoosh, snap, crack. OW! "Do you not recognize My voice? you are not dreaming." Slowly the fog is lifting. He's back. i open my eyes slowly. The light is blinding but i start to make out shadows and then shapes. i am in a tub filled with warm fragrant water and He is bathing me and massaging my limbs and hands and feet. "I made sure your arms and legs were worked on while you slept so they wouldn't atrophy. you were strapped down for 3 weeks but your holes are ruining nicely. After breakfast there is much more work to do. you have been My greatest project so far, and My most lucrative. you will continue to be later as well. My members keep asking for more. It will be a shame when I have finished." He is feeding me breakfast off His cock. i eat hungrily.

8/1/2014 9:52:33 PM
Are You That Man #9 Where is everyone? No one has come in so long. The stretching i took the other day left me with my holes locked open. A catheter and a colostomy bag were inserted and i am being fed intraveniously. Black contacts are in my eyes and a muzzle gag is over my mouth. No one can hear me who doesn't want to but i have still been silenced. White noise is all i hear played through the ear phones for hours and then tapes of His past parties. Hours? Or is it days? Of one and then the others. He said He might keep me for years or only weeks when W/we started corresponding. He tells me they are still looking for me. Runaways and women with no families are instant gratification. He likes the ones who are looked for better i can tell. His grumbling about how much trouble i am can be effective but it is for show. i cannot move. i am bound in a straight jacket and canvas duffle with holes for what has been inserted. The bed i am belted to is comfortable and the pillows are just right. Feeling like i will never see another or feel His touch is what is driving me to distraction. i sense when others finally come to take care of what needs to be done. The holes are opened wider and relocked, all 3, and my contacts are relubricated and changed when necessary while i sleep. No one speaks to me. This is true torture. He has begun His final conditioning.

8/1/2014 2:37:19 PM
Are You That Man #8 i'm back in my room and i just woke up. It's pitch dark. A week ago i was taken to the 'play' room. i call it that because it is where They play with me and i find out things about my body i never knew is possible. my cunt hole has been stretched to take 4 fists and arms at one time and my ass is open wide enough for 2 fists and arms. He is pleased. my lips hangs down 6 inches now without any weights. my nipples have stretched to 3 inches and they are always hard. i wouldn't try to escape if i could. i would live in seclusion if i did because of how He's modified me. my enemas now are 2 gallons. if it is possible i will hold more. One gallon douches are being worked up to. This week, my peehole was fucked at least twice a day. As He was whipping me one day i was told my peehole wouldn't have to be fucked if my cunt and ass weren't so stretched out and grotesque. i apologized but it only got me more lashes. During my time in the 'play' room i asked Him if He knew a list of people i used to know. He said yes they all spent time with Him over the years as i am now. i always wondered and now knew that who i met online was actually the last one i remember talking to or seeing.

8/1/2014 11:29:23 AM
Are You That Man #7 The days and weeks have all run together. i never know if it's night or day. i am locked in a room and there are no windows. i was told this room is 2 stories underground which means no noise will get out and no one walking by will have any idea what this grassy area really covers. i am allowed to use the bathroom which has no door, but there is a camera to watch me. i am recorded constantly by cameras. My ankle cuffs have a 5 pound iron ball and chain attached to each of them so my movements must be measured and deliberate. i cannot move fast nor can i even hope to get away if i change my mind and decide i want to escape. Every time He comes to me, it may be once a day or several times a day, i am drilled over and over again. The questions do not change but i have no idea if my answers do. He ticks them off on that clipboard of His. They are questions about my hard limits and what i asked of Him when i contacted Him through His advertisement on the underground website i heard about from some people i met online. This type of website is so underground you must answer an amazing amount of questions before anyone will talk to you. Are my answers the same? i have no idea and am never told. i do know that each day is filled with the pain i asked for. i have never been a pain slut, a thrill seeker or an adrenaline junkie. i always knew this experience must be filled with pain. i just knew that. He has agreed to accept my hard limits but He will continue to push them. i am allowed my safe word for only those items i specified and if some others come up He will listen and decide if i forgot about them or am just trying to push Him. So far He has been flexible and i am grateful. He is not unkind. He is a businessman and i right now am His business. Videos are constantly playing of what i have been doing and what has been done to me. These, He tells me are the same videos He is making a lot of money from right now because His members love them and want more. They cannot wait to find out what will happen next. He keeps me informed about how much i am earning for Him. i want Him to make money. i asked Him in my contract to do this as my way of paying Him back for allowing my dream to come true. i had no real idea what i was getting myself into but until it is time i want it to continue. i have been wanting this for soooooo long. He is waiting to invite His guests until He is sure when He should. i will know when He does. But not until right before.

7/31/2014 8:51:22 PM
Are You That Man #6 It's dark. Where am i? i cannot move. my ankles are cuffed and locked to a spreader bar that is locked down to the examining table i am on. A leather waist belt has been put on me and my wrists are cuffed to it. He locked a collar on me and it is keeping my head still because it is chained above my head to the table. Why do my cunt, ass and peeholes hurt so much? A voice talks to me through speakers in the room. i am surrounded by His voice. "I see you are awake. the drugs should be worn off completely very soon. you are wondering where you are and about the pain in your holes." He seems to always know my exact thoughts. i am careful what i think about because of this. A stray thought has often lead to breaks in my skin from His bullwhip. "I decided to speed up ruining your holes. you have graduated over the weeks to 6 inches in your not-so-pretty anymore cunt hole. you now are wearing 8 inches and the dildo is now 16 inches long. your ass has been sporting 3 inches and it now is getting accustomed to 4 inches. That plug is also 16 inches long. It is time your pee hole stretching begins. I was able to put a 3/8 inch catheter in it and soon it will be stretched to fit the largest cock i can find." The reason i contacted Him and the contract i signed is now being completely acted on. No one would have seen me leave. He made sure of that i am confident. He did bring my pet. my precious boy was not left to starve or die of thirst but i will never see him again. His new home and people were guaranteed to be kind and vanilla animal lovers. The door opens and i am blinded by the sudden light. "Hungry?" He offers me His cock which i eagerly suck until it is empty of His cum. As a reward i am given bacon, eggs, toast, orange juice and yogurt. All of it i must take from his fingers or eat off His cock. "We have a busy few months ahead of U/us before W/we are done. Let's get started. This will be quite a lot of fun for Me. Not so much for you."

7/31/2014 7:19:55 AM
Are You That Man # 5 It has been 6 weeks since He entered my apartment and i signed my pact with the Devil. my enema torture is getting worse. The recipes more painful and larger .i am up to 6 quarts of liquid and 1 hour of hold time. The plugs and dildos are wider. i am now wearing a 3" wide 12" long dildo in my cunt constantly and a 2" wide 12" long plug in my ass. Also constantly. my cervix and colon have long since been permanently breached by them. He is stretching my holes and will continue to do so until the widest plugs fall out. There are holes in them so that i may go to the bathroom with them locked securely in place. i must ask permission to do so and it is not always granted. my cunt lips and nipples were pierced the first night and again 4 weeks later. The first piercings managed to heal in record time and i now sport 4 large sets of welded shut rings in my outer lips and the same in my inner lips. my nipples have been stretched so that i have 2 large welded rings in each one. my nipples are now 1" long and my outer cunt lips hang down 2" easily. Weights are worn constantly on all rings and are increased in heft every few days. i wear no panties so the weights are moving almost constantly. i wear a special bra designed for ultimate discomfort. He visits me regularly and each time it is torture. He is turning me into a freak. He is turning me into a pain slut.

7/30/2014 8:46:31 PM
Are You That Man #4 my email has been filled with videos of me going about my business. Videos of what i have been ordered to do in all different places and with different men. My voicemail has filled with hearing myself talking to everyone from my mother to any number of different people. i unlock my car to find logs of my comings and goings. i need no convincing of His reach into my life. Several times a week and frequently several times a day a word is whispered into my ear unexpectedly and i immediately obey whatever it is i am ordered to do no matter the time. It is either that or bear the brunt of His dissatisfaction. my body is covered under my clothing with marks. i wear them proudly and He knows it. He is careful to make sure i am never late for anything to keep attention to my activities at a minimum. At some point i will be missed but not just yet. He is waiting and the waiting has me on pins and needles.

7/30/2014 8:26:42 AM
Are You That Man #3 Naked i stand before Him with my eyes averted. i look up with my head still bowed enough to see His leather mask. His mask makes Him look menacing and anonymous at the same time. His clothing nonde. i will not be able to recognize Him if i try. Ever. It feels like hours. i alternate between standing, on the floor knees folded under me arms outstretched in front of me or lying prone on my belly as commanded. All the while He asks me questions and ticks off the answers on a clip board. I feel a sting in my right breast. It is a tracking device He tells me so i can be found and monitored always. Every one of my movements will be known to him at all times. At any time anywhere i may be told a code word and i am to do whatever is ordered no matter where or when. i am told that cameras have been hidden throughout my apartment. "Do not try to find them or dislodge them" He orders or my punishment will be fierce and swift. He puts a bug into my cell phone. If i ever speak of him to anyone or tell someone about Him through text or email i will not get what i seek because He will take me out quickly and without anyone knowing where the silenced bullet came from. "Now, into the bathroom. Assume the position. you will be clean inside and out. MOVE!!!" i scoot as fast as possible trying to avoid the flogger He produced out of nowhere.

7/30/2014 12:39:33 AM
Are You That Man #2 i come home and unlock my front door. Then i unlock my apartment deadbolts and doorknob. i flip the light and go in and call for my cat. The light does not go on and the cat does not come. A hand is around my neck squeezing and the other arm pulls me close from behind. "You will not scream or run if I let go do you understand? There is nowhere to run. Do you understand Me?" i nod, so frightened i almost wet myself. "Good. Now. Walk up those stairs and strip or you will not like the way I do it for you. When you are done you are to remain standing with your eyes down. DO. IT. NOW!!!!!!"

7/29/2014 7:10:57 PM
Are You That Man? You start by putting a GPS device under my car to know where i am. i find a note on my windshield in an envelope i think may contain a parking ticket. In the note You politely demand the keys to my apartment and tell me where to put them for You to find. i willingly do that for You so that Your job watching me is made much easier. Even if i struggle when You take me, W/we both know it has to happen.

5/24/2014 6:20:21 PM
I long to be leaving from one place and on my way to the next but never get there because I am grabbed and thrown into a vehicle and taken to the unknown. I have no idea where I am but I will never be returning from it. Things are done to me that are both incredibly enjoyable and unbearably painful in the name of retraining my mind to accept my new fate. No one witnessed my abduction so no one will know I am gone for days or weeks. Unbeknownst to me I was being watched. My pet was taken with as a humanitarian concession but otherwise there is nothing else familiar here.

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MsMaeve
 
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