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I love life. I love to laugh.
I love to be loved.
I enjoy reading, working with animals, and tire swings. I love debating things... then arguing them... then running away cause I hit someone and know retaliation is going to hurt.

I've done a few extreme sports, and eventually want to try the rest, and even become good at them. ^^ My current hobbies are paintball, writing/doing audio bdsm, csgo, and board games. I also love poker and pool, and talking about random things.
I am looking for someone who loves to cuddle as much as they love to go out and experience life, in whatever form they can find.
I love new things, new people. As for the kink... I am not too worried about it, so long as it is nothing too extreme, and you are open to new things. We can work the kink out.
This time around I'm looking to be on top. But don't message me calling me your Mistress, that insures I never will be. And is super annoying. Have a backbone and be able to joke and tease. Just also be able to deal with the consequences of that teasing.
I am an anti-theist. This means I believe religion is actively harmful to society. If your faith is strong and true, I will never be able to understand you, or you me.
1/4/2012 1:41:46 PM

Today is without a doubt the happiest day of my life. I laughed, I cried, I was emotional in a way I didn't know I could be. I just want to remember it.

12/27/2011 1:37:37 PM

Waterboarded my friend last night. Well, there was no board, so I guess I should say I "simulated drownded him"

Maybe he will stop trying to convince me that I am a switch now.

Bastard.

12/24/2011 9:33:11 PM

It is the most wonderful, amazing thing, to have someone who has to embrace you, whenever they see you, even if they have just gotten out of a shared bed with you an hour before.

Anytime they catch site of you, unthinking, drawn as if by a magnet- as if sight must be immediately responded to with touch. Affection as instinctive as if mother nature had bred it in their DNA to instantly caress any part of your body they happen to lock their eyes on.

And if they start to leave a room, but for any reason glance back and catch sight of you- They are lost! They must return for a deep, face crushing against the chest hug before attempting to leave again.

Never any doubt, you have the knowledge that if you are cold, you simply have to find their gaze in the room and lock eyes. And they will be there, warming you with their body.

 

It is nice.

11/15/2011 8:25:07 AM

I keep trying to write a next segment to my playboy club story... but I always start by reading the first bit, and always get caught up on the horrible writing job and can't even force myself to read through it! ><

Maybe I will have to heavily modify the first bit before I can start on a second.

10/23/2011 8:12:17 AM

Don't mess with the cripple zombie!

Just volunteered as a zombie at the Run For Your Lives event. Everything hurts, and I can walk less than normal, but incredibly worth it and will change my profile pic just as soon as my friend wakes up and sends me mine from the event. 

 

I highly recommend this event to anyone next year- it is a ton of fun, a great way to get exercise, and just like paintball the people are awesome. This was the first one, but I plan on going to as many as I can, and once I am back on my feet running the whole damn thing, as well as chasing after people.

9/19/2011 6:45:21 AM

A few more days and I can go back up for a paintball weekend. Not sure if they will let me play in the crutches, but atleast I will get to party and see all my PB buddies I have been missing.

I really cannot wait, I have had such cabin fever the last two months- it will be refreshing to get out of Delaware and camp out for a few days.



9/16/2011 9:59:55 AM

Oooook, apparently I need to say something. If you read my story... While I love compliments and thoughts, I do not have any desire to see what it did to your anatomy.

Seriously. ><

9/10/2011 10:25:19 AM

I saw a commercial for the playboy club, and this is what popped in my head. Enjoy! Or hate on the bad writing technique. Proper editing and critique is always welcome.

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He walked into the club. A man just by looking at him who had connections, money, power.

I didn't know his name, but the manager gave us the signal we should be "nice".

He was 6'2 with broad shoulders, a powerful physique, and hands the size of a dinner plate. And that presence, that is almost a person in itself, with the way it grabs you and demands subservience. The dealers and servers fawned over him at the poker table.

 

As bunnies we enthusiastically surrounded him, our fluffy tails bobbing about as we ran our hands over his arms and cooed over the muscles we felt. He shooed us all away, with a promise he would play with us later.

Everyone laughed.

 

He ran his hand over my ass as I was leaving- nothing I wasn't used to, I giggled the silly giggle we are taught and shook it a bit as I walked away.

I am 5'2, my tits are big, my ass curves out over my tiny waist, and I have long brown hair that bounces with my boobs when I walk. I love the silly bunny ears that serve as my hair piece, and relish the jokes and attention the fluffy bunny tail on my ass brings.

 

I forgot about him for a bit, until I heard a commotion over by the bar- I turn my head and there he is. He had grabbed a blonde bunny roughly by the hair and was holding her with her face against a wall as he ran his hand over her body. Blondie was a good girl, who knew how things worked and made no fuss. She stood meekly as his other hand circled her neck and gave it a squeeze. His hand started to move downwards, over the curve of her breasts giving them a little squeeze and brush over her nipples.

 

I looked around and everyone was watching her humiliation, but no one was doing anything. The bouncers just stood around grinning and laughing, and the bunnies were watching like deer with their eyes wide open. A hush had fallen over the smoky room. Another customer stood up and he looked like he would intervene, but a dealer whispered something in his ear about who the man was and he abruptly sat down.

 

I turned my head back. The mans hand had drifted lower, slowly inching over blondies ass and than pulling back to give her a hard smack.

SMACK!

He hit the other ass cheek. She jumped and squealed, but made no further protest.

 

He seemed unsatisfied and tossed her away from him. She collapsed into a corner and was instantly surrounded by a group of bunnies trying to kill the man with their glares. He just laughed at them and looked around.

 

As he turned his eyes locked on mine. I was angry and glaring, and a smile curved over his lips as he walked over.

I opened my mouth,

"Don't you fucking d-"

I was cut short as his expression turned harsh and he grabbed my hair and slammed me into the wall.

He Tsked,

"That's not how you talk to me, little bunny... or bad things could happen."

His grip in my hair tightened and I made a little sound of protest, trying to push myself away from the wall.

 

He slammed me back, put his hand on my throat and started choking me via pressure points in my neck. I scratched at his hand around my throat but it was like prying at rock, he just squeezed harder and shook me by my hair until I started seeing spots and my grip on his hand loosened and my hands fell away useless.

 

I was almost limp now, and the only thing holding me up were his hands. He released his grip on my neck, and as the blood rushed back up I felt a huge rush, and it was like everything was dreamlike. I couldn't bring the will to struggle.

Free now, his hand started the slow drift over my body, over the curve of my shoulder and the side of my left boob. He picked it up and held it a bit before brushing lightly over the nipple.

His hand started to move away and than I heard him laugh. He brought his hand back to my nipple and I started to feel hot and embarrassed.

It was hard!

 

He leaned down and whispered in my ear.

"It's not cold in here little one, what has you so excited?"

As he spoke he was playing with my nipple, ending his question with a sharp twist.

I gasped and my back arched involuntarily, my hips jerking.

 

I was too embarrassed to say anything, so I just stayed quiet, and started trying to break away again. He simply held firm to my hair, and twisted my nipple harder until I stopped. I managed to move my head to the side, looking and praying no one had seen me responding to his treatment.

The other bunnies were watching, and I knew they had seen something, they looked confused and disgusted. The men in the room mixed from disgust to lust.

 

I started feeling panic, my heart beating and my whole body feeling sickeningly heated.

What would they all think of me?!

He didn't like my attention off him. He slammed my head back where he chose, and moved his hand to the other nipple, squeezing and holding it tight until I was whimpering. He released my nipple and his hand moved slowly... so slowly it was like a lit match being dragged down my side. He got to the curve of my ass and gave a sloppy grope, laughing at how indignant I got.

 

He pulled his hand back, and I knew what was coming. I tensed up.

SMACK!

It hurt so much, and I the little layer fabric they called a costume did nothing to absorb the blow. I bit my lip, and tears formed in my eyes, but I couldn't help responding to it. My ass moved into where his hand caressed it, before he pulled it back and hit again.

SMACK!

I bit harder, determined not to give him the pleasure of a sound.

 

SMACK!

The tears started coming out, running my mascara over my face as the humiliation got to me, and my face got even redder.

 

SMACK!

He hit again and again until I couldn't take it anymore. My ass was burning, I felt humiliated, but my pride couldn't hold it in anymore. I cried out!

 

SMACK!

 

I started begging him, "please... please stop!" Crying uncontrollably now.

 

I felt him draw back again and I sobbed... than his hand came back and gently rubbed my sore ass.

 

He turned my around with his grip on my hair, his hand sliding on my ass as it turned.

He brought it up and wiped the tears from my face, and smiled at me. My breasts were bobbing up and down with how quickly I was breathing, and I stared into his eyes, mine filled with fear and panic, and his calm and amused.

 

"I like you." He said softly, an evil smile spreading across his face.

"You will be fun to... break."

He caressed the word break as it came out his mouth, and I stared at him, hypnotized by my own fear and the strength behind his words.

 

He grabbed the little tuxedo collar around my neck and tied it off so the Velcro clasp wouldn't come undone. He took his tie off and tied it to my newly made collar, and started to lead me away. I came back to myself a bit and protested, until he grabbed me by the hair as well.

"You will be coming along... and I agree, the easy way isn't nearly as fun."

 

He gripped my collar tight and cut off the blood to my brain again, but this time held on until I blacked out completely...

 

 

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Might write at this more later, might not.

I have a short attention span.

 

9/10/2011 8:10:31 AM

If I viewed your profile, I probably saw a post of yours in the forums and got curious. Always nice to put a personality behind the idea.

8/25/2011 2:28:48 PM

Attempting to make pulled pork while in a wheel chair with the help of my handy lil brother who will soon be renamed "fetch".

Seriously I have to find an amazing Christmas present for him, seeing how much he's been helping me since I've been down.

 

And I really hope that "liquid smoke flavor" I couldn't find at the grocery store, but was on the recipe really isn't crucial.

8/13/2011 10:46:49 AM

O my wheelchair... how I hate you yet love you...

It's wierd, when I am out in public in this wheelchair, people treat me completely different- I am used to smiling at strangers, and being smiled back at, but now its like strangers are afraid to acknowledge my existance. It's as if by so much as looking at me they will be jumped upon and accused of staring at some sort of freak, as if their curiousity is so great they inside WANT to rubberneck the girl in the wheelchair, run their eyes over her to figure out what malady has put her so low, in such a humble place. And that in that very WANT they find a wrongness and so shy away from looking at me completely- unknowingly making me feel isolated and alone even when I am surrounded.

 

But by refusing to look me in the eyes you are doing something far worse then staring.

 

If this chair wasn't rented I would soooo  stick a bumpersticker on the back of it saying "In the eye not the back"

Or maybe something more catchy :P

8/27/2010 7:40:05 AM
I'm... moving out! With a kink friendly roommate at that- so weird screaming noises shouldn't end up in the cops being called- Might have to have a "who can have the craziest sounds coming out of their bedroom" contest at some point though.
As a result am crazy busy, picking up every shift possible at work.
8/16/2010 7:19:43 AM
And I thought BDSM left me feeling sore! Just got back last night from a weekend long paintball event in the top of PA, and everything hurts- and I can't get the blue out of my fingertips. :P
Off to work a double and leaving this as a note to self for next time- get the next day after off for recuperation as well.
Amazing time though, entering a paintball park 3 hours from home Friday evening, not knowing a single person but being welcomed by everyone. Within a few hours I was spending my time between two bunkhouses, drinking, joking and making new friends with great players from all over. Being the only female there unattached to a team, I even had a huge bunkhouse to myself.
Saturday was great, exploring and getting lost in the huge woodsball field, running in groups to complete missions and shooting/getting lit up. Only thing I would change is my greed for paint, and running around all day with 6 podpacks that weighed what felt like 30 pounds on my back. (have to admit, it did balance out my front though o.o)The night game we had after dark was great, especially when I was loaned a hand gun marker that looked like a pistol, that made running around and being sneaky so much easier. For the first time in my life I managed to barrel tag(where you sneak up on someone(or in my case brazenly run at them in a zig zag), tap them with the barrel of your gun and scream barrelltag) And got four at once... and tagging probably the most controversal player on the field in the balls at point blank range. This got many beers given to me after the game ended at midnight and the party started.
Now back to ordinary, not being shot at life. :(
8/7/2010 11:58:12 AM
SO mad at myself! Stayed out with a friend all night and woke up 10 minutes before my platelet donation appointment. So I rushed there without eating and 15 minutes before I was going to get my denuded blood back I started feeling spacey and light headed. Now they say I can only donate whole blood from here out. I am sad because I really liked going every two weeks, it made me feel good about myself and was about the only time I would let myself lay down and watch a movie.
Plus I was at the point where I knew what colors of the tape bandages they had in stock and could match my clothes to it, silly as that may be. =D
7/11/2010 4:23:15 AM
<(^-^<) Paintball! (>^-^)>
3/6/2010 11:08:32 AM
My computer seems to have come down with a nasty virus that makes my wireless so intermittent that even my yahoo wont work. This will teach me not to procrastinate on updating anti-virus software... once I manage to get said software running again when the virus won't let me connect to the internet long enough!
2/13/2010 7:09:38 PM
It's a crazy crazy world.... and a small one. I think I will be taking my pics off this site for a bit while I get over a small shock.
2/12/2010 8:45:22 AM
I am back!
To being a happy, optimistic, laughing and carefree, stress free person.
Sitting here at my computer, listening to music and happily swaying my head as i sing tone deaf to the lyrics I remember, smiling softly whenever a move makes me feel one of my bruises.
I have work soon, but I don't mind at all... I will go in, be happy and bubbly while I serve people, get good tips and come home still smiling.
I hope everyone found something as fun and soul refreshing as I did to do while they were snowed in.
As a side note, I have to comment on how much the stockrooms ad for valentines day made me grin. Gotta love how they reinterpreted the "be mine".
2/1/2010 2:51:41 PM
Ever get the feeling you are turning slowly but surely into a different person, and are not happy with it, yet just can't seem to stop?

1/24/2010 2:46:03 PM
I know, my eyes are closed in the one... for this i apologize. The pics are from right before a wedding I went to a few months back... found them in my phone and decided I really needed a new picture.
*edit*
Really, if you are so brain dead the only thing you can think to say to me is "o look your picture was taken in a motel room, you must have been doing something slutty"
I regret to inform you... your an idiot. Apparently in your single minded brain you can only see possibilities involving sex. Are you to unobservant to notice there are two beds? hardly what one uses for romantic encounters.
It's ok though, shows me who to put on my block list as too annoying to even mess with.

8/22/2009 11:00:23 AM
Vulgarity disgusts me. On a vanilla date, if the guy starts talking about his cock and the things he does with it, the things I should do to it... Bye.
Same rule applies in BDSM for me.
It really is not at all about the sex, and if someone does not have the self control to keep it in their pants and out of conversation, I will not be interested or attracted.
10/26/2008 12:16:37 PM
Got bored and tried on my holloween costume i have to wear to work tommorrow.
Put up some pictures for your enjoyment!
10/23/2008 9:34:26 AM
Sooo long time no update. Disappeared to florida for a few months, learned a bit of construction, learned to shoot a rifle (fun).
Couldn't get a job though down there, so back up to delaware I came.
Fun long bus ride.

Not looking for a serious relationship at the moment- since i just got back, and just got a new waitressing job a week and a half ago, I kinda need to get life working again before i give in to distractions.

However- casual fun and friendships are welcome.
No tempting me with more- is a bad thing and i need to save up for going back to school this time.
Turned 21 on the 19th!
Life is slightly more convienent.

6/11/2008 10:25:26 AM
Who knew finding a bar tending shirt would be so hard? After many days and many stores, I did finally find one though. My new boss must be a bit of a sadist I think, why else would he have me wearing a black 3/4 sleeved shirt with a collar in all this heat!

O yeah, I did get a job. I filled out an application last tuesday, came back  the next morning for an interview, worked a training shift that night.
Absolutely loved it. =)

And best of all, two or three months working there, and I am literally and realisticly relocatable- since I know I want to be a live in slave, and anyone I take interest in always seems to be bloody far far away!
5/30/2008 1:30:26 PM
ooo this ones gonna be long and bitchy. You are warned!
The annoying things that consistently crop up in emails. Please read and if any sound like something you write... Don't waste your time. :)

So... I am not racist nor do I have preferrences based on skin color.
(admittedly some shades are prettier though)
However when you send a message that is along the lines of "prepared to serve a black Master?", Or really anything where you feel the need to empathise color, I kinda get the feeling that you are.

Yes, I get a lot of crazy and weird emails. Thus when you send me one starting with "I know subs get besieged with emails, but hopefully mine will stand out..."
It wont.

"I'm not like most Doms"
I hate to burst your bubble, but you ALL say that. :(
kinda makes you like most of them though, don't you think?

"I read your profile and think we would be perfect for eachother!"
Just a really standard line. I have no problem with it though- except when you didn't read my profile. CM made this feature... It kinda lets me know if you did or not.
Didn't anyone teach you not to lie if you would be easily caught?
5/19/2008 3:59:01 PM
First day of my bartending class today. I have already come to despise whoever decided there needs to be a name for every possible combination of fluids and alcohol.
*brain hurts*
Ah well, once it is done, and I am proficient and have a lil experience, should be able to find work just about anywhere. Making me truly relocatable :)
5/6/2008 4:35:20 PM
So... webcams... they need to make better ones cheaper.
o well- distorts the face without any help from me =)
5/4/2008 8:36:28 AM
I had a lovely dream last night, somewhat fuzzy in my head but I will try to put it down.
I was out to dinner with a couple I had met from.. somewhere, purely as friends mind you. As we are eating I started to feel dizzy and tired, so naturally they are nice and help me to their car, where lil me passes out.

I start to come back, and am hearing birds chirp, It must be morning... I open my eyes, and look around. I'm on a porch, In a yard that can't be seen from the street, tied and placed in a kneeling position, wearing nothing but leather cuffs on my wrists and ankles, and a big red ribbon that turns into a bow right above my breast, so that the trailing ends cover them slightly.

Theres something in my mouth, a ballgag by the feel of it. And apparently the final piece of a thought out outfit, a nipple clamp with a short chain that ends in a envelope that is blowing around in the wind. It tugs at my nippple everytime a strong gust comes through.

I start to hear noise coming from the other side of the door- I look up, paniced. It opens and out steps a man in boxers and a t-shirt, clearly having just woken up. He looks down, and spots me. He blinks once or twice, then rubs his eyes sleepily, clearly not sure what to make of a bound, naked girl with a bow on his front porch.

A breeze whirls into the yard, running across my body, making me shiver, and the envelope starts to dance, catching his attention. He shrugs, grabs and pulls it off the chain attatched to my breast. I wince as he starts to read. He starts to grin, and glances at me with a wicked look from time to time.

He looks at me and says, "well arn't you the nicest present I've ever gotten!"
I just look back at him, confused, starting to get scared, and unable to say a damned thing, gag or no gag.

Then he opens the door, helps me up and starts leading me inside...

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I have fun dreams =)
After having that one though it's kind of more like a fantasy... and nothing wrong with that, who knows if its just for play or ends up being something more. ^^

This is why I have "couple" listed. Purely in case someone sees and thinks of a friend.
So if you have a Dom, or Domme friend who could use a present... who knows?
Send a cmail my way.
4/30/2008 7:17:28 AM
Previous profile was Flowered on here.
Wanted a name change, but saving the old one for the journals. It's fun to be reminded of what naive me was like. :)
anneboelyn
 
 Age: 45
  California