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Sunday night two new symptoms convinced me that I needed to go to the ER.I've just now ,Tuesday night,have returned.
They ran some tests ,seems I had some cancerous lesions on my liver lesions originating with my pancreas.
My Pancreas has stage 4 cancer....I have months to live.Depending on how I respond to palliative treatment .
The game plan is to slow it down and give me as much quality time as possible .
MY time here has been entertaining,contentious,volatile but never boring.I've argued with many of you,cursed a few of you......I've enjoyed all of you.
Remember me in your prayers and try to have a good thought when you think of me.
Mike |
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The complete bed rest part of my regimen is taking it's toll where my disability is concerned.I have structural back issues....so bed rest means I can get no exercise and can do nothing about my usually manageable chronic pain levels.
They are not manageable right now.As a matter of fact they are through the roof and driving me to a whole new level of despair.
But I will not allow myself to re-enter depression.I just recently declared that issue over and finally feel like my mind is sharp again and I'm able to smile....and along comes this,lol
Ten days in bed I'm through five,so five more to go and hopefully good bye virile infection and hello ability to exercise and get my back in order.But if the increasing pain levels are any indication it's going to be a hellacious five days .
wish me luck,I'm going to need it |
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I entered into a depression in January that was so severe I sought out help from a therapist and a psychologist.Things are going fine and I am taking care of the root issues that bring on my depressive cycle....but along the way I have started to wonder if I wasn't a hypochondriac.
Well the results of some blood work came back today explaining my lack of appetite and alarming loss of weight.....seems I have had a virus living in my stomach for a bit,Doc says it looks like we caught it early and that 10 days of massive antibiotics along with complete bed rest should have me back in health in no time at all.
Which will leave me free to continue the good work my therapist and I are doing.That work and those issues are completely unrelated to my current difficulties here....difficulties that I am done talking about.
As long as I am left alone I have no further cause for worry on that account.Staying off the threads for the remainder of the current administration should ensure that I am no longer in conflict with anyone.
Enjoy,play safe and have fun |
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I'm known on Fetlife as slavemike4U,if you have any interest or any questions please contact me there.....I'll be taking a vacation from Collarspace for a little bit.
Right now the site just does not work for me.....
Play safe and be nice to each other......lol |
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Depression sucks....you think you are coming out the end of it and something comes along to knock you on your ass and let you know that it's not quite done with you yet.
I've had depression cycles for most of my life they come along spend a week or two than move along(which I greatly appreciate,lol)well this one arrived in mid January and it's over stayed it's welcome ,by a long,long shot.It's still here,and it's still beating the shit out of me.
I've finally gotten proactive about it,since it didn't seem that it would leave of it's own volition I've taken steps to evict the bastard....but it's a process.It's two steps forward and one step back.
Guess tonights one step (a big giant step) back,hopefully I will take two steps forward tomorrow ;-) |
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Regular readers of this journal ( especially of my last profile) know I raised my son as a single father....he's 26 now and I am oh so proud of him.
Tonight he asked me if I would allow him to take me to Europe...Ireland down into Scotland on to London and finishing in Paris.
I have long wanted to go see Ireland,the land of my ancestors,but one thing and another(including being a single parent) I have never made the trip.
Making it with my grown son(who is still willing to spend time with me,lol) is over the top .
My only issue is him taking me,that's not how these things are supposed to go.I have never let that kid pick up a check in my company...to all of a sudden sit back and allow him to take me somewhere is hard....real hard,but I certainly whatever decision I make can not reject such an offer out of hand.
What a kid ;-) |
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Help,I've been moderated and it seems I can't get unmoderated... |
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Well I thought I was supposed to come off moderation today,but apparently I'm mistaken....math is math but I'm confused....lol |
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Yippie,I come off moderation today......see you on the other side.As soon as the mods get around to lifting my ban.....lol |
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It's my birthday ad the weather has decided to shit,er snow all over me;-(
Necessitating a change i my plans for the day...oh well,somethings are't worth fretting about |
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The real reason I came back was that when you don't have a profile,and you are simply perving the site.All those cute naked ladies on the right of the space suddenly have clothes on.
Non members only see the prudish version of the ads...so in order to see hot little ladies that desire the cash in my pocket(not that there is that much)I had to re-join the site.
My leaving was prompted by a temper tantrum I threw at the moderation.I was in the wrong,but at the time I was just so pissed that it seemed like the thing to do...so years of member ship went down the drain.
My bad,and my apologies to the moderation staff,I drove those folks crazy with my trouble making ways and I apologize to them for that.
I'll try to make sure that this version of slvemike 4u plays nicer in P and R....pinkie promise ;-) |
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