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There are a lot of fake people here. I'm not one of them. Because so many of them happen to be male submissives, women here make you jump through impossible hoops to convince them you're real; I've grown tired of that and am mainly just looking for friends these days because I'm tired of the search and trying to convince a jaded person that I'm not yet another player playing games with her.
I
am a sincere submissive. I have more relationship experience in this
lifestyle than actual “play” experience, but at the same time my bdsm
long-term relationships have exposed me to quite a bit of experience in
the lifestyle as well. I have never been married, and I am currently
single.About
my experience: I have been a live-in slave for long periods of time in
the past. A number of those relationships started off as professional
relationships that eventually turned into personal slavery
relationships. I would say for the most part, all relationships I have
been in have been very positive experiences, from both sides. I have
been in relationships where I have been owned, and I have been in
relationships where we were just really close friends, but because I
was the more submissive in the dynamic, she was usually in charge.
I
have played as a dominant a few times in the past, mainly because of
the weird dynamic I have that most of my close friends are submissive
females. And from time to time, I’ve been manipulated (in a positive
way) into taking the dominant path to satisfy a friend who was having
trouble connecting. I’m usually not all that comfortable in such
relationships, and sometimes they can be funnier rather than intense,
although my partners have usually indicated enjoyment (it just seems
awkward for me). So I stick mainly with being a submissive because that
is where I am most comfortable.In
most bdsm relationships I experience, I tend to give over complete
control to the woman who is desiring such control. I used to be a known
female supremacist and an officer in a few organizations that catered
directly to that philosophy, but I’ve toned down a bit and tend to
focus on giving control to one person who deserves it, rather than
arbitrary individuals whose only claim to legitimization is gender.
I’ve
discovered there are a lot of players in this community (many more than
I used to run into in the past), and I’m usually not very comfortable
in that atmosphere. I don’t lie to attempt to get some women to believe
I’m a better choice than someone else. As such, I probably don’t get as
many opportunities as some other guys who are definitely out there
saying whatever is necessary to “score”. I don’t take this approach
because part of my very being is to please and serve the woman to whom
I am hoping to attract, and when I’m the real one gaining the pleasure
out of the encounter, I don’t tend to feel like I received much
pleasure myself as a result.Nothing
pleases me more than to see pleasure in the eyes of a woman I have
dedicated myself to. By pleasure, I mean anything that makes her happy,
secure and enjoying of life a bit more than before I appeared. How we
achieve that state, I tend to leave up to her, although I am not
someone who won’t go out of his way to do simple little things that
make her life a little less hectic, even if she hasn’t asked me to do
so. In numerous relationships, I’ve done such things without her even
knowing it was me that did it, only that something got done that made
things better for her. And again, that’s what brings me great pleasure.
About
me: I’m a writer. I write novels, plays, poetry, and short stories. I
have published over one hundred short stories in magazines ranging from
the extremely obscure to those that most of us know. I have written 12 novels so far; my
current novel project is a humorous Greek epic, something a little
different than that of which I normally write. Up until last year, I
was the opinion editor of a university newspaper, but that ended in
May, 2005. I’ve been an editor for several magazines in the past as
well.I
have an MA in political science, and I have everything but a
dissertation completed for my Ph.D. I decided not to finish
my dissertation, and I’m sticking mainly with my MA as my highest
degree. A Ph.D. makes me capable of teaching at the university level,
and after some soul-searching, I realized I was getting the Ph.D. for
vanity purposes only, as I have no desire to teach on the university
level. I’m a writer first, and that’s all I’ve ever wanted to do.
I am currently located in Stockton, pursuing another MA in communication.
About
my personality: I have a highly developed sense of humor that is
positive in every aspect. I do not believe insulting humor is funny, so
I don’t use it. There are few people in the world I cannot make
comfortable or eventually make laugh for long periods of time.
I
am extremely intelligent, but not in a condescending way. I believe
practically everyone is intelligent; it’s just a matter of seeking the
right form of wisdom within.As
for what I’m seeking: A dominant woman who believes I can benefit her
life in some way. That can be anyone from a heterosexual woman who is
seeking a partner to a lesbian couple that is just looking for someone
to be their slave (I’ve been in the latter type of relationship before
and understand it extremely well). A heterosexual couple isn’t taboo in
my book, but my experience in that capacity has been both limited and
negative as I’ve encountered either jealousy or domineering men that
feel a need for an alpha male mentality (pretty much cutting out the
Mistress in the relationship). But again, my experience in the last
example has been extremely limited.
To sum up: I am loyal and devoted to the person(s) that decide to bring me into such a relationship.
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