I often feel like I'm stuck between two worlds as I'm not 100% vanilla or 100% kinky. I'm learning to be ok with that because that's where I fall. But it's really frustrating at times as I grew up in a culture where BDSM has no place but I've been inclined to it for as long as I can remember. I had my first fantasy of being tied up and beaten when I was 13 but I still haven't experienced it for real.

So what does that make me? I'm not sure. I wish I could say with absolute clarity that I'm a submissive or a slave. I'm submissive but not passive. I'm caring towards those around me but I still have an ego and sense of self. I want to submit myself to the command of a dominant but I still want to keep my dignity. That seems like a lot of contradictions. But I'm honest, curious, and open-minded, which I hope is a place of substance to begin a journey from.

I'm an introvert and I can come off as reserved at first but I'm an open book once I feel comfortable.

My other interests are photography and tennis. I'm an amateur at both but I really enjoy them.