The result of hope throughout our strife

the culmination of my life

The circle awaits the words he'll speak

and the blessed reward I will reap

Not only did Rebl do me the honor of placing his collar back on my throat, but he also went to one knee, in front of dozens of friends, and asked me to be his wife. He placed a lovely blue diamond surrounded by smaller white ones that flow across the band on my finger, and I promised to love and serve him all the days of my life.

I am truly blessed.

Saturday I will, again, be making the most devoted and serene of commitments when I take NrthnRebl's collar for the second time.

I've been in the lifestyle, living full time, 24/7 D/s in one form or another for over 13 years, and it took 10 years of looking to find that "M" to my "s". I knew that successful Master/slave relationships were simply made by finding the right Master- one whose ideals, morals, goals, and life "fit" with those I held for myself- and in whom I could place my complete trust and respect. I wasn't looking for perfection, as I knew that EVERY relationship takes work, but I believed with all of my heart that I could give myself wholely with the right base. I found that with Sir and accepted his collar 2 years ago, almost to the day.

I also have learned that everything happens for a reason and in it's own time. When I was collared back then, we were unknowingly surrounded by very negative, hateful, energy-sucking users who masqueraded as friends. They brought so much strife and negativity to our lives and even attempted to drive a wedge deeper between us when life's problems became overwhelming. Our relationship changed drastically and the collar came off. It was emotionally devastating, but it was the right move, because at that point, my levels of respect and trust were nearly completely gone and I was not able to be the slave I should have been at ALL. I did NOT, however, give up- the collar was still on my HEART, and I made every day an effort to bring us both back to where we belonged- together.

The rotten people showed themselves for what they are and faded out of our lives. Gone were the bad influences. We slowly began to fight the normal every day problems as a team again instead of turning on each other. Paul's faith in ME grew because he saw that I continued to believe in him. My trust and respect for HIM grew because I saw the enormous effort he made to right that which was wrong in our lives. Good people who ADDED to our lives began to come into it. It took the words of one of those good friends to open Sir's eyes to the last unresolved problem and allow him to say what he needed to and let my heart go to the right place again.

And so... this Saturday at Hidden Obsessions, we will quietly gather our closest loved ones and perform the small rituals that make me his slave again. Paul will say the words and take my blood. We will re-light that same candle. On my knees, I will offer myself up completely as he places that much-loved piece of silver on my throat. And as we blow out that flame, I will thank God.

Amazingly enough (eye roll) I run into soooo many profiles by "Dominants" that specify that they are looking for inexperienced, new (read "clueless") submissives and slaves. Do they NOT realize that this sort of statement makes it VERY plain that they have no training, no experience, no confidence and most probably no ability? Seriously, if you need a sub so new that they can't tell if you know what you're doing, then you need to get to some classes or get a mentor before you hurt someone.

I got a really good laugh today. Seems this so-called Master really IS a "trip", because in his profile (where he claims to have had many women begging for his attention), he posted a photo of himself obviously sitting on his toilet. I wrote and told him that was a PERFECT photo to win him ANY girl's submission, right?

Looks like he immediately CHANGED his photo like a good little subby boy. Not only that, but he's having the latest of the thousands of 'kittens" in the area send me mails (I recognize the name from his profile) and sorry honey, you're not even worth me opening them. So he's obeying me, and she's trying to fight his battles? Oh... they must be switches.*laughs* These people really ARE a trip.

NAILS IN THE FENCE
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down.
He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.
He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.
The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, 'You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence.The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.

You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. But It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound will still be there.

A submissive or slave is a person who devotes his/herself to service and the happiness of of their Dominant. They find their greatest fulfillment in making the life of their Dom/Master easier and more enjoyable.

Why, then, does almost every communication from a so-called submissive contain a list of the services he/she wants performed on THEM instead of a list of what they can do for the Dominant? I especially enjoy the ones who offer to "let" themselves be used sexually in EXACTLY the manner they PREFER to be used.

Can't handle being told "NO" to your sexual advances when you're a lying, cheating married asshole? Don't like being faced with the truth about what a rotten excuse for a human being you are?

Simple- then don't write me. 

BDSM and D/s are built on the principles of honesty, trust, and integrity. If you're a liar and a cheater, you don't HAVE any of those qualities. That means you aren't a "Dominant" and you sure as HELL aren't the "Master" of anyone or anything- even yourself. In fact, if you're married and cheating, the REAL "Master" is that pathetic piece of meat in your pants, and YOU are the slave.

The Dominant I seek: 

He has charisma and swagger without arrogance.
He is attractive and intelligent, and takes care of his health.
He is capable and successful and has control in his own life.
He knows the value of hard work, and takes pride in a job well done.
He is a self starter who completes what he starts.
He owns a home (not with his parents) and a car and has a steady job.
His bills are paid on time.
He isn't actively addicted to alcohol, drugs, TV, sports, gambling, Nascar, hunting, or video games.
He is honest and has integrity.
He follows through with the promises he makes.
He is Dominant without being domineering.
He's open to new ideas and experiences.
He is protective and loving.
He takes his responsibilities seriously.
He expects obedience, but is kind and patient.
He is slow to anger and is not verbally, physically, sexually, or psychologically abusive.
His friends, family, and lovers know they can count on him.
He is not controlled by his base sexual urges.
He is creative and capable in S&M play.
He doesn't need to feed a bloated ego with constant searches for more partners.
He makes rational and proper decisions for himself and his family.
He isn't threatened by a strong, opinionated woman.
He takes responsibility for his actions.
He sets standards and boundaries for himself and others and sticks to them.
He has morals and personal ethics.
He strives to become a better Dominant and a better human being, and devotes himself to helping his submissive/slave grow and become a better person as well.