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  • I am an introvert.  I am not a social butterfly.  It requires a great amount of personal energy for me to interact with most people.  Many people draw energy from social interaction.  My energy is depleted by it.  That's not a bad or a sad thing, and it does not mean that we never socially interact.  It's just the way us introverts are

    .  I am shy at first, but I open up once I warm up to you.
  • I am not a selfish person.  Consciously, I am quite the opposite actually.  I am not very good at putting myself in other people's shoes however, so sometimes it doesn't cross my mind that I've done a selfish thing until somebody else calls me on it.
  • I have a logical left brain.  I enjoy puzzles.  My brain can get lost in a project for weeks at a time.  Sometimes its an electronic cat door with facial recognition.  Sometimes its a networked home theater project.  Sometimes its a kinky remote controlled electric stim project.  I can't really control what project my brain latches on to.  When it's a work project, my bosses are very happy anyway.  :)
  • I have an immense appreciation for creative right brained people.  I am constantly in awe of the vision, eloquence, and creative ability these people have.  They are like the yin to my yang.  If you're one of those people who can frame and shoot beautiful photos, or read and quote ancient and modern philosophers, or who can weave a tapestry beautiful in both its story and rhythm with words far beyond my level of literacy, then thank you for enriching my life with your talents.
  • I am not a Type-A personality.  I am not bossy or pushy.  I don't feel like I need to be in control of everything.  I am very good at going with the flow and following direction.  But I will never put up with being taken advantage of or being disrespected or attacked.  You do right by me, and we'll be fine.  If you attack me or those who are important to me, you will see my inner alpha emerge, and he is a beast.  You would not like me when I'm angry

    . (Don't worry. I have cultivated a much, much higher trigger threshold than Bruce Banner.)
  • I do not change directions quickly or easily.  Quite often in life I just go with the flow, because then I won't be changing direction.  It's just the flow.  But in times where I feel like there is a specific plan that I am following, and that gets interrupted, I do not shift gears very well.
  • My logical brain has trouble resolving incongruence.  Life can be quite incongruent sometimes.
  • I love to argue, but I'm not really that good at it.  My main talent in an argument is simply being right most of the time.  (I'm not trying to brag there.  I just tend not to jump into an argument if I'm unsure of my position.  Gotta pick the right battles if you're not good at arguing.)  Any good lawyer will tell you that probably counts for less than half the battle.  But I only love to argue with people who love to argue back.  Good, clean, fun debates where the give and take are more important than the resolution.  I won't argue with somebody who gets too bent out of shape over it.
  • I like to finish things.  If I'm 15 minutes into a bad movie, I still need to see how it ends.  I'm actually halfway through a book that I started reading 5 years ago.  It's a long book, decent read so far.  I was part-way through it when I learned we were pregnant with our first child.  So I put the book down, and started reading the pregnancy and parenting books.  Then I've been a busy parent since.  I will finish the book though.  :)
  • I am not a jealous person... unless I am insecure.  Fortunately, I am usually quite confident and comfortable with who and what I am.  Bouts of insecurity are rare, but they do happen.  I like to think the reason they are there is because if they weren't, I'd simply be an overconfident blowhard.
  • I once sat down and watched Shawshank Redemption for 12 straight hours on a TNT marathon.  Good movie, but no, I have no idea why I did that.  "I was in college" is my only best explanation.
  • I do not have very many friends.  I do not need many friends.  Just a few very close friends.  I have not been in very many relationships lasting longer than a date or two.  Partly because I didn't always feel the need to be in a relationship, and partly because whenever I was in one, I was good at it.  Long lasting relationships last a long time.  ;)  I am not a loner though.  I do need people.  Just not all of the people.  If you're a good friend of mine, then you're very special and very important to me and I miss you when we drift apart.
  • I hate it when people can't get your/you're(/yore?) and they're/there/their correct.  I hate it even more when I screw it up and don't realize it until after I do my post-posting proof-read.  One day I will learn to proof before posting.
  • I love to eat food that is not healthy.  Burgers and fries, chili, pizza, red meat, cheese, casseroles, fried rice, deep fried meat/cheese/twinkies, pasta of any variety - especially if it's stuffed with meat and cheese.  I can't cook, so fortunately I can dig fast food and bar food.  Savory is my sweet spot.  Sweets I only enjoy in moderation.
  • Addendum to the last point - I live in metro Seattle, but I do not care for seafood or coffee.  (Totally on board with Thai food though, so I'm not a total outcast.)
  • I have an ingrained fear of getting fat and lazy.  I do not let it dictate my every minute, watching everything I eat and fueling hundreds of workouts.  But I weigh myself every day with a target range in mind to make sure I do not end up fat and lazy.  I grew up with a father who couldn't play basketball with his son for 3 minutes without getting winded and needing to stop.  He wasn't a bad father.  But I refuse to let myself end up like him physically.
  • I take a long time to get to know somebody.  I am not an interviewer.  Knowing somebody's favorite food or color does not tell me who they are.  I learn about somebody by observing them.  Their actions tell me more about their character than their words.
  • I have a masters degree in my field.  I'm a smart guy.  But I work at a place with enough genius people that I sometimes feel like I was lucky to graduate high school.
  • I am emotionally connected to music.  I am nowhere near an expert in music.  I play a few instruments clumsily.  I've recently discovered I'm decent at karaoke with the right song, but I definitely won't be offered a recording contract any time soon.  More often than not, I don't actually listen to the lyrics of the song.  I ride with the tone of the vocal, the ebbs and flows of intensity.  The harmony and the discord.  The feeling is usually more meaningful to me than my interpretation of the lyrics... if I even have an interpretation.  It is a sweet spot when the feel and the words meet in perfect balance though.  Music is not a passion for me.  But it is often an emotional vehicle; food for my soul

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  • I take pride in being physically capable.  I am not a world-class athlete, but I hold my own in the world of adult recreational sports.  I am not the worlds strongest man, but I am strong enough.  I enjoy competition and challenges.  I would never build my own house, but I would feel comfortable with basic remodeling and improvement projects around an existing house.  When I am physically broken, I am annoyed.  I have had a rough couple of years with major cascading injuries, and minor nagging knocks and strains as well.  I do not feel 25 anymore, but I am very close to feeling 100% of 38.  Its nice to feel fully capable again.
QueenOuroboros
 
 Age: 20
 Las vegas, Nevada