I have very low self-esteem which means that I have grown up accustomed to 
pleasing others in any way they choose. Even if that causes me some discomfort or disadvantage. I am what Jordan Peterson calls "an agreeable person".

I'm used to being used, controlled, pushed around, commanded, directed and groped.

Naturally I accept being told what to do. I need to be told what to do. I like being told what to wear. Even if that includes soft female lingerie or rubberleather fetish wear

Experienced in being used by both sexes sexually. I do not feel I am gay but I feel it is my place to serve men and be used in any way they want pretty much.

I need to feel helpless, out of control. Blindfolded or hooded. Handcuffs or spreader bar.

Having objects, hands or fingers pushed into my mouth arouses me.

I crave some level of humiliation. If it pleases, being spat on or urinated on.

This is all normal to me. Please will you help me to find peace and tranquility?