12/22/2014 3:26:17 PM: Well its been such a year guess its time to get back in the swing of things. just found this place again so time to get on with life !!!!

11/5/2013 12:59:59 AM:   Been up and down lately seen this post on a journal from a friend   Before you self diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem,first make sure you are not in fact,just surrounded by assholes...  It makes alot of sence at this point and time of my life just makes me wonder when somebody will walk into my life with a smile and a laugh not other motives  I'm not weak,lonely or lost

8/19/2013 2:13:56 PM: well just got back from Sturgis, seen some old friends made some new friends jan/blue was very missed up there with the group.  Was a very speical place for her and she loved riding the black hills and rode the black hills she did !!!!We did a memorial run to her favorite place and it helped close a chapter in my life and is helping open up a new one as I knew she would want me to go on Knowing she will always be by myside an angel watching over me but allways in my heart but being up there riding remembering her happy face , the smiles she had at the places she love so much to ride to made me smile and realise that the heart can still love the past but its big enough to love the future too its was a bittersweet trip to take but a nessary one we left a little bit of her there in the one secret place  she love so much and i got to do it with the dear close friends that loved her so much but the best im hoping for in this new chapter that it will be just as good as the last chapter but nice thing about chapters in a book u can always go back and reread the chapters

6/27/2013 1:27:56 PM: Another day to go through relearning how to get though the day keeping my mind on things get up go though the motions seems with out much of motivation only just because they have to be done normally I'm a smiling happy joking type of person these days its a effort just to smile I do understand that this will past sometime but I have done some very hard things in my life but but never ran into something like this before

6/23/2013 5:14:50 PM: This has been a really messed up year back in March 2012 Blue was told she had cancer two operations she was doing fine till may 15th it was back an on May 18th she lost her battle to those that know us this was the reason why we havent been on I had lost my best friend 'best Sub ' Cancer Just Sucks so I will be changing My profile around when it feels right My heart is heavy losing her to that stupid sickiness but as she lived to be sub she fought the cancer as much