3/25/2014 7:56:08 PM: Have to say, I am remembering some serious face sitting. I miss it. I miss being pushed down to taste her, her hand holding my head there, her telling me what to do. Making me lean my head back, on a couch and sitting on my face. Telling me to tongue her asshole. All while she teases me, Amazingly hot. She orgasms, and my job is done, and so is my chance to cum...she lets me know maybe next time with an evil smile.

7/28/2013 6:44:50 PM: Continuing from previous journal entry/fantasy.     Another 3 weeks go by and I am still in chastity. During those three week My Mistress/Girlfriend was mostly nice to me. She would occasionally edged me until I leak but not orgasm...then put back in device. It's started to get so tense, sometime I would leak with out her touching me. Her moods did swing a little, sometimes she'd be happy and amused reminiscing about how much cum I ate for her. Other times she said she still was upset and mentioned my selfish behavior, choosing to relieve myself with the fleshlight instead of her and hoping I wouldn't be so selfish next time. I promised myself, this time would be different, this time I would not fall for her tricks. I wanted her badly and when she made it my night, I would succeed.    During these 3 weeks, she would date and sleep with her lovers as well as see her other submissives. She didn't always sleep with them and she always had a rule, that when she did get horny enough to have sex with a man, he was the only one for that day. So it made it hard for me to take advantage of her arousal, being that if she was horny she usually came home already satisfied. But On my release days, she was always came home before she went out. Which gave me my best chance.       So one day when I arrive home, like many others, she starts a conversation about me eating all that cum and if I enjoyed it. She knew I hated almost everything about it. From the taste to the texture to the smell. The only good part was that I had gotten to orgasm for the first time in over a month. Not wanting to upset her or loose the oppurtunity to orgasm again possibly by having sex with her, like i'd did the first time she asked I'd try and smile and say yes Mistress. Sometimes, she'd even make me say it back to her. Yes Mistress I enjoyed eating all that cum. Which would usually provoke a giggle and a 'good girl' from her. She even recorded it once and played it back over and over, giggling. While this embarassed and shamed me, it usually put her in a great mood, so it was worth the humiliation it caused me. She was so wonderful to be around when she was happy it was intoxcating to me.       So this time the conversation didn't end there. She told me the good news that today could be the day she decided to release me again. She warned me not to be selfish and to think about how my actions affect others. She instructed me to go put on a little frilly skirt and tank top she had selected for me. It was humiliating enough i wore panties under my clothes all day for her, but now I had to wear full womans outfit at home too? At least no one else can see me.   When I come down stairs she mentions how pretty I look. And she applies bright red lipstick.  Then writes cum eater with an arrow then on my chest above the line of my shirt. Then she writes something underneath my shirt that i cannot see and giggles as I look at her embarressed and puzzled.       She tells me she's made a date tonight and they will be here soon.  I am a little shocked because usually she does not bring her other men around. But mentions that she is saving herself to have sex with me, tonight if I am a good host tonight, So I agree to try my best. Then she starts that conversation telling me that she has her other subs and how she has and needs other men, that always makes me feel awkward but she loves to talk about. Telling me this is part of being her sub, knowing and accepting that information and details about the others. I usually try to phase out some of the more explicite details but Today she grabbed my attention though. She mentioned how it was unfair of her to be involved with all these other men and for me not to have the same opportunity. She said she wished to change that and bring a little more pleasure into my life. I was very pleased at the direction of this conversation and was straining against my device. She asked 'would you like to have the occasional date and see others?' I was hesitant, but hopefull. She reassured me that it was okay, to have needs, she understood them and just wanted to make things more exciting for the both of us. So I said, 'I would be interested'...She replies 'Wow aren't you a little slut, well good, then it's settled'.       Later that night, The doorbell rings and she instructs me to answer...I suddenly am fully aware of how I am dressed again. When i look at her to plead, she says 'answer the door, now!' My heart beating I walk to the door. I know she always informed her dates that she was in a relationship with me, I am sure she informed them also of the D/s nature of that relationship and some embarassing details. but I never had to face them and dressed like this, I could die of embarassment, what if I knew him?   I opened the door and there was a tall athletic man there, that I had never seen before, who looked at me oddly and Mentioned My he was here by invite of my Mistress, so I invited him In. Mistress was there waiting and I announced her Date had I arrived. Mistressed Smiled oddly and invited him to sit on the couch next to her and had me kneel at her feet. She the mentioned our earlier conversation about both of us not being selfish. I look on, not understanding why I'm still involved. When she floors me by saying,'Well, he's not my date he's yours. our earlier conversation about me dating other men, well, I wasn't sure you would agree, but when I asked if you wanted the same privillage you said yes. I thought you agreed, if I can date other men why cant you date other men? Stammering I said, Mistress, I misunderstood I don't want to date men. Please no. She Acted upset, but that evil smile was on her face...'I went through all this trouble to find you a date and you don't want him. I had to promise him things, I promised him he would have sex tonight!!' SHocked, that she was implying with me, I said 'I'm sorry mistress I cant. bring myself to do that, anything else please' she inquires 'At least you can give your date a Blow job for his efforts?' 'Please no Mistress' is all I can say, nervous this will end badly. 'You little prude, I don't see what the big deal would be, You've already eaten plenty of his cum, just the other day I remember you saying you liked it.' As she plays the re offing in front of him. My face turns bright red. pretending to be disappointed, but the smile on her face suggested otherwise she said, 'well if you are not interested, I will just have to do it myself. I want you to sit and watch what your missing out on.' She bound my hands behind my back and frog tied my legs. I sat there realizing this may have been her plan all along, getting me to give up sex on my release day. Then actually having to watch some other man please and be pleased by her. Watching her face as she enjoys herself. Whatching her body react to him. Her constant bliss as he works to bring her to ecstacy. Her acting as she never does with me, giving up herself to please him in return, working to reward him. While I get left with the toy again. It was really humbling. She would stare in my eyes as he thrust deeper. She was totally different to me. I sat there turned on and defeated all at the same time, watching this man please my girlfriend and in turn watching her work to please him back. Her face had a mixture of pleasure and pain when he entered her. Occasionally she would open her eyes and stare at me as she gasped for a breath. She told me this couldve been how i got my release, but that i was a selfish prude. She had me lay down on my back and straddled my face with her legs, as she got on all fours and made me watch him penetrate her, something i havent done since she first talked me into wearing this cage. Occasionally she would sink low enough that she was within an inch of my face, her pussy withing tongues reach. I resisted because plunging in and out was this mans cock, Which I was doing all I could to avoid. On one occasion he pulled back to far and it popped out when he thrust forward his cock rubbed my face. I could feel her gaze looking down on me as she laughed at the mishap. After a few more minutes that seems like forever she was playing with herself and climaxed. He pulled out again brushing my face. Then she sat on my face, dripping wet and asked if I could i liked the taste of her pussy. of course insaid yes. then she asked if i still tasted his cock and if that's why I liked it. She laughed as she rubbed herself all over my face instructing me to lick her. She then lifted herself of and She started going down on him to finish him off. she grabbed me by the neck and pulled me close to watch. Occasionally stopping and asking me if I wanted to taste him directly. Which I declined. She knew I didn't want to but loved seeing me squirm, knowing that I was powerless to stop her. She seemed to forget about me for a while and was really lost in her passion for sucking him off. She would occasionally come up for air and this time his cock would slip from her mouth, slapping my face leaving her wet saliva on the area it contacted. At first i thought it was an accident, but then the frequency and length of occurrence increased. She started pointing him straight at my face, telling me to 'get ready for my treat.' i made an awkward face and shifted my face away. She paused annoyed and grabbed my face, to say, 'I'm working hard hear to give you some cum, that you told me you enjoyed eating. Instead of being the eager little slut I love, you are making this difficult? doesn't look like your enjoying this so much.' 'No mistress.' 'Hmmm, so tell me the truth, do you really like eating cum? Did you lie about it?' 'Yes, um no mistress.' I stuttered. 'You either like it or not.' 'No I don't like it, yes, I lied to make you happy.' 'Do you think it makes me happy when you lie? Do you see all the trouble I've gone to to make you happy based on that lie? Do you think it was fair to your date? Or me?' 'Of course not mistress, I just thought.' She cut me off saying, 'you don't think, I am in charge I know what makes me happy and I decide what this relationship needs and when you tell me you like something and I want you to be happy, but its a lie, how am I suppose to reward you when you deserve it?!' She paused staring at me. 'I Also decide when to punish you and how, this is one of those times' She didn't take long to decide a suitable punishment. 'You really don't enjoy eating other men's cum? What do you really think of it?' 'No mistress, I hate it, I am envious of the men who you let orgasm. Then on top I hate the taste and knowing it was a man with the privilege of sleeping with you, just makes it worse. I want you to be happy and am not upset by multiple lovers, I just wish I could be one again.' ' I understand your desires, you know that i am not upset you don't like to eat cum, but that you lied to me. There are plenty of ways to change that, it's not a problem. But for right now you agree for lying to me, being selfish and not helping our guest you deserve to be punished? I will give you one chance to make it right tonight,suck his cock till he cums right now, no hesitation, no thinking just do it and all will be forgiven or i will think of another punishment. I starred at his cock, which she was still masterbating slowly, then back at her. This is what she wanted all along, to make me suck his cock. i can't. i will risk other punishment. 'i'm sorry mistress i cant do it, please punish me another way. just don't make me suck his cock.', i pleaded. she was angry, 'suit yourself! by the time i am done with you, you'll be wishing and begging to go back and take his cock instead.' Then as she was untying me she said, 'your night is over, i no longer require you tonight, yes that means you will not be released, i no longer am in the giving mood you may go. As for now i need to finish off our guest so I can start to plan how to punish you.' ' I need time think, but I think Maybe we'll start with one of your favorites which since acts refusing to eat our guest, I am now well aware of how you don't want to eat other men's cum, I think that's a suitable area to think about, if you cant act like a man, you will eat cum like a little sissy till you do, don't you agree?' She slipped it in there so quickly, I didn't hear 'to start to plan' what was going on right now? Did she already dismiss me? I sat there frozen not knowing what she expected of me. She held my face again, for a second, looking up at hers. She let go. Defeated again, i let the blood flow back into my legs and gather myself to stand up while saying, 'yes mistress.' That I had been so fixated on her hurt and angry look, I hadn't noticed she had returned to her task and had been furiously working her man and as I was finishing talking he erupted onto my face and in my mouth. As she pulled him closer to my face, making sure not a drop missed her target. Several thick spurts. I was stunned.. She snapped me out of it telling me 'wow, you are eager for forgiveness, but if that's true, not a drop should hit the floor no one likes a messy slut or you'll have to reasons for your punishment' and she scooped it off my face with her fingers and into my mouth. I was so confused and desperate to appease her anger I closed my eyes and eagerly sucked her fingers clean. she was running each one over my out reached tongue. telling me, 'good my little bitch keep that tongue out, you deserve every last drop, right?' 'yes mistress, anything to make this right.' 'that's a very good answer' she replied and then she ran his dripping penis over my tongue I licked the it clean before I realized what it was. I jumped back and looked up at his cock then her. She sat there smirking and said, 'yes, that happened, your lucky i didn't make you suck it, besides you deserved it, every last drop right?' I knew better then to any further and shrunk back down. She giggled and joked 'now that's a good sissy girl, I'm glad your taking initiative and showing me your an eager to make up for tonight. Are you sure you don't like it? I couldn't tell. Hmm, it may be tough to figure out how to start your punishment, I need a some time to plan your punishment. I will start tomorrow. Don't think your performance will make it any easier, you had your chance to suck his cock and be done with it. To late. Well maybe it helps a little, you really did seem to like it, doing that all on your own after I let you go. Maybe you just need time to admit you love to eat cum. I will sleep on it..' She then goes to clean up, says goodnight to her man as be leaves and goes to bed. Leaving me unreleased with the taste of her lover in my mouth. I didn't dare complain. I sat there wonder, what she meant by start my punishment? Hadn't it started tonight? She made me eat his cum right? Did i just take his cum for no reason? Wondering what she had planned I barely slept at all.

7/23/2013 9:30:04 AM: Continuing from previous journal entry/fantasy.     Another 3 weeks go by and I am still in chastity. During those two week My Mistress/Girlfriend was mostly nice to me. She would occasionally edged me until I leak but not orgasm...then put back in device. It's started to get so tense, sometime I would leak with out her touching me. Her moods did swing a little, sometimes she'd be happy and amused reminiscing about how much cum I ate for her. Other times she said she still was upset and mentioned my selfish behavior, choosing to relieve myself with the fleshlight instead of her and hoping I wouldn't be so selfish next time. I promised myself, this time would be different, this time I would not fall for her tricks. I wanted her badly and when she made it my night, I would succeed.    During these 3 weeks, she would date and sleep with her lovers as well as see her other submissives. She didn't always sleep with them and she always had a rule, that when she did get horny enough to have sex with a man, he was the only one for that day. So it made it hard for me to take advantage of her arousal, being that if she was horny she usually came home already satisfied. But On my release days, she was alway came home before she went out. Which gave me my best chance.       So one day when I arrive home, like many others, she starts a conversation about me eating all that cum and if I enjoyed it. She knew I hated almost everything about it. From the taste to the texture to the smell. The only good part was that I had gotten to orgasm for the first time in over a month. Not wanting to upset her or loose the oppurtunity to orgasm again possibly by having sex with her, like i'd did the first time she asked I'd try and smile and say yes Mistress. Sometimes, she'd even make me say it back to her. Yes Mistress I enjoyed eating all that cum. Which would usually provoke a giggle and a 'good girl' from her. She even recorded it once and played it back over and over, giggling. While this embarassed and shamed me, it usually put her in a great mood, so it was worth the humiliation it caused me. She was so wonderful to be around when she was happy it was intoxcating to me.       So this time the conversation didn't end there. She told me the good news that today could be the day she decided to release me again. She warned me not to be selfish and to think about how my actions affect others. She instructed me to go put on a little frilly skirt and tank top she had selected for me. It was humiliating enough i wore panties under my clothes all day for her, but now I had to wear full womans outfit at home too? At least no one else can see me.   When I come down stairs she mentions how pretty I look. And she applies bright red lipstick.  Then writes cum eater with an arrow then on my chest above the line of my shirt. Then she writes something underneath my shirt that i cannot see and giggles as I look at her embarressed and puzzled.       She tells me she's made a date tonight and they will be here soon.  I am a little shocked because usually she does not bring her other men around. But mentions that she is saving herself to have sex with me, tonight if I am a good host tonight, So I agree to try my best. Then she starts that conversation telling me that she has her other subs and how she has and needs other men, that always makes me feel awkward but she loves to talk about. Telling me this is part of being her sub, knowing and accepting that information and details about the others. I usually try to phase out some of the more explicite details but Today she grabbed my attention though. She mentioned how it was unfair of her to be involved with all these other men and for me not to have the same opportunity. She said she wished to change that and bring a little more pleasure into my life. I was very pleased at the direction of this conversation and was straining against my device. She asked 'would you like to have the occasional date and see others?' I was hesitant, but hopefull. She reassured me that it was okay, to have needs, she understood them and just wanted to make things more exciting for the both of us. So I said, 'I would be interested'...She replies 'Wow aren't you a little slut, well good, then it's settled'.       Later that night, The doorbell rings and she instructs me to answer...I suddenly am fully aware of how I am dressed again. When i look at her to plead, she says 'answer the door, now!' My heart beating I walk to the door. I know she always informed her dates that she was in a relationship with me, I am sure she informed them also of the D/s nature of that relationship and some embarassing details. but I never had to face them and dressed like this, I could die of embarassment, what if I knew him?   I opened the door and there was a tall athletic man there, that I had never seen before, who looked at me oddly and Mentioned My he was here by invite of my Mistress, so I invited him In. Mistress was there waiting and I announced her Date had I arrived. Mistressed Smiled oddly and invited him to sit on the couch next to her and had me kneel at her feet. She the mentioned our earlier conversation about both of us not being selfish. I look on, not understanding why I'm still involved. When she floors me by saying,'Well, he's not my date he's yours. our earlier conversation about me dating other men, well, I wasn't sure you would agree, but when I asked if you wanted the same privillage you said yes. I thought you agreed, if I can date other men why cant you date other men? Stammering I said, Mistress, I misunderstood I don't want to date men. Please no. She Acted upset, but that evil smile was on her face...'I went through all this trouble to find you a date and you don't want him. I had to promise him things, I promised him he would have sex tonight!!' SHocked, that she was implying with me, I said 'I'm sorry mistress I cant. bring myself to do that, anything else please' she inquires 'At least you can give your date a Blow job for his efforts?' 'Please no Mistress' is all I can say, nervous this will end badly. 'You little prude, I don't see what the big deal would be, You've already eaten plenty of his cum, just the other day I remember you saying you liked it.' As she plays the re offing in front of him. My face turns bright red. pretending to be disappointed, but the smile on her face suggested otherwise she said, 'well if you are not interested, I will have to fullfill the promise myself. I want you to sit and watch what your missing out on.' I sat there realizing this may have been her plan all along, getting me to give up sex on my release day. Then actually having to watch some other man please and be pleased by her. Watching her face as she enjoys herself. Whatching her body react to him. Her constant bliss as he works to bring her to ecstacy. Her acting as she never does with me, giving up herself to please him in return, working to reward him. While I get left with the toy again. It was really humbling. She would stare in my eyes as he thrust deeper. She was totally different to me. I sat there turned on and defeated all at the same time, watching this man please my girlfriend and in turn watching her work to please him back. Her face had a mixture of pleasure and pain when he entered her. Occasionally she would open her eyes and stare at me as she gasped for a breath. She told me this couldve been how i got my release, but that i was a selfish prude. She had me lay down on my back and straddled my face with her legs, as she got on all fours and made me watch him penetrate her, something i havent done since she first talked me into wearing this cage. Occasionally she would sink low enough that she was within an inch of my face, her pussy withing tongues reach. I resisted because plunging in and out was this mans cock. Which I was doing all I could to avoid. On one occasion he pulled back to far and it popped out when he thrust forward his cock rubbed my face. I could feel her gaze looking down on me as she laughed at the mishap. After a few more minutes that seems like forever she was playing with herself and climaxed. He pulled out again brushing my face. Then she sat on my face, dripping wet and asked if I could i liked the taste of her pussy. of course insaid yes. then she asked if i still tasted his cock and if that's why I liked it. She laughed as she rubbed herself all over my face instructing me to lick her. She then lifted herself of and She started going down on him to finish him off. she grabbed me by the neck and pulled me close to watch. Occasionally stopping and asking me if I wanted to taste him directly. Which I declined. She knew I didn't want to but loved seeing me squirm, knowing that I was powerless to stop her. She seemed to forget about me for a while and was really lost in her passion for sucking him off. She would occasionally come up for air and this time his cock would slip from her mouth, slapping my face leaving her wet saliva on the area it contacted. At first i thought it was an accident, but then the frequency and length of occurrence increased Not finished

7/19/2013 7:25:10 PM: New fantasy, I have been fantasizing about being held in a chastity device for 2 or more weeks by a girlfriend/mistress...being teased and promised I can fuck her pussy,(sorry for crude language), then being a good boy and doing whatever mistress wants for those two weeks or more. Waiting,begging and pleading for that day to come.   Then when the date comes, Mistress shows me the fleshlight, which she has fastend to something waist high, like a table, using rope or tape or something to keep it from moving. Then being told,'there's my Fleshlight 'pussy' as promised, you have 5 minutes till the cage goes back on, fuck away' Then pathetically trying to fuck the flesh light till I orgasm while she watches and laughs. Maybe Canning or paddling my ass when she thinks I am close, to keep me from orgasming.After failure to orgasm locked up for another 2 plus weeks.  After a while, I become almost impossible to last when i get the chance. I fuck away and It takes less then a minute.  I finally orgasm and I'm relieved. She laughs at my joy, tells me to clean myself and the Chastity device is Immediately put back on. Then my happiness is fleeting, She tells me to clean every last drop out of the fleshlite with my tongue, if I want to get out again. As I attend the flesh light, She jokes about her other slave not doing a good enough job, there may be some extra sperm in there from her play date before this one. All I taste is cum, I can't tell if it's just mine and she's fucking with me or I'm really eating someone elses cum for her. This makes the task that much harder to swallow, so to speak. Knowing I hate the taste of cum and seeing my occasional gag, she asked If I'd liked eating cum from her 'pussy' referring to the Fleshlight. She looks at me and I can't hide the humiliated and disgusted look on my face,  She probes further saying, 'awe my poor cum eating loser, would you like it better if you could taste me, Hmm? If it was My real pussy that you're eating cum from?' Obviously I answer 'yes, very much!'...she smiles very evily, tells me to 'be a good girl and finish up'.  I let the gender mix up slide as I just wanted this over with. She waits until I am done. She then mentions being so turned on by watching me fuck her toy pussy and eat my cum, that she wants to get fucked for real, to bad I am limp and in chastity...Time to visit one of her studs. Then maybe she will let eat the cum from her after all. She Goes out.I dont know where she went or with who. But she wakes me when she returns, and she asks,'do you still want to eat cum from my pussy?'I hesitate, knowing that if she means right now the cum isnt mine. Not giving me anytime to think it through She Threatens,'you don't have to, but don't expect to go near me again if your not willing to. So I will ask one more time, then forget it, Do you still want to eat cum from my pussy? and answer me in a full sentence, I want to here you say it.'I swallow my pride and and happily take the silver lining of at least getting to really taste her and reply by saying,' yes Mistress, I want to eat the cum from your real pussy, please'Satisfied she flashes that evil smile again...she lies down and exposes herself to me, she tells me 'good boy, slowly work my way up from her feet, with my eyes closed.'I oblige, but as I approach her thighs, i can smell condoms and slow down dramatically, I must be close. Then the thought hits me, if she used condoms there should be no cum inside, I push forward. She senses my revelation and tells me to open my eyes...as I gaze at her, all exposed, my face an inche away from tasting her, she looks clean and no creampie visible...I smile, Finally My reward.When i try and advance, her hand is on my head holding me back, in her other hand she produces 2 condoms with semen filling the tips. That evil smile flashes again.She Says,'Not down there, this is the cum from my pussy, I saw how happy and eager you were earlier and decided to save it for you. You are to eat every drop from inside them and if you want to taste me, you may lick the outsides. Now be a good girl and open your mouth'I stammer as I try to protest, 'I'm a boy...I mean man and that's not what I meant when i said I wanted to eat cum from your pussy! I meant my cum!' Her temper  flashes across her face, But spoke steadily and firm, not raising her voice 'First, I'll call you whatever I want, and you are certainly no man, real men fuck real pussies, not toys. You didn't have to humiliate yourself with a toy, but you choose to fuck it each time instead of showing any self control and waiting for my real pussy. Which i would have let you fuck like a man,but you choose the toy and When my Stud fucks me, he gets to leaves the cum there. They don't eat it themself like a Little sissy girl.  Now you listen to yourself demanding to eat cum and tell me, which category you fit in, little girl or man? Remember this is what you wanted earlier, to eat the cum from my pussy, like a little sissy girl, This cum clearly came from my pussy. A real man put it there and I'm no little girl, I am your Mistress and I was thoughtful and saved it for you and If you want to get out of chastity again in 2 weeks, maybe you'll play your cards different and you wouldn't be upsetting me! So for now, you'll do as your told like a good little Girl, that you chose to be tonight!'My tail between my legs, I concede before it got worse. Defeated I apologized and open my mouth, and she emptied the contents into my mouth one condom at a time, dripping some on my chin and face in the process. She laughs and scoops it back in.Then says, 'I'm going to shower, be a good boy and have them entirely licked clean on the inside when i get back. Don't miss a drop' tossing the mostly empty condoms on my face and walks away.I'm left mentally exhausted and do as I'm told. trying to take solace in the fact I can taste he slighly on the outside of the condom.She comes back, inspects the empty condoms, then with a big smile, She kisses me on the cheek and says,'You see not so hard to be a good girl, I know this week didn't go as you planned, next time it will be different, you will see.' I replied Thank you mistress and was allowed to cuddle next to her. But before I fell asleep, i thought I caught that evil smile again, but it was dark and We drifted off.I dreamt of next time. When I woke, I prayed it will be just like it was in my dream, but that evil smile left me uncertain. I'll just wait and see.I get a little into my fantasies, lol.

6/29/2012 12:39:33 PM: The other day My friend came over to play. She is a female dominant. She made me dress as a sissy maid, see My pictures and she paddled my ass red! Also my pictures. Next time she said she will bend me over and fuck my ass hard. Revenge for being fucked hard before. she texts me all the time how she owes me rough one!