Many say "Honesty is the best policy" but I learnd that not in all cases.

I have been seeking the "One" for probably more then 30 years.

Growing up in Israel in the 70's and 80's was hell for a young man realising that his sexuality is so totaly different from what is expected in a country based on military for it's survival, in a society where becoming a warier is the ultimate goal of every young man before joining the military for the 3 year obligatory service.

So I did my part, I was a combatant soldier, fought in the 1982 Lebanon war, got wounded, served the full 3 years and reliesed with flying colors, while deep in my tormented soul i was craving for Female domination, humility and surrender.

My girlfriend at the time, from the age of 15 onwards, my first sexual partner, was a dominant by nature, she trained me how to beg for relief, how to do her chores in her parents house, problem was that she also started demanding things I didn't have at the time....Thats when i started stealing from my parent to satisfy her greed, money, perfumes, jewelry and such.... and when i realized a line was crossed i begged her to stop blackmailing me she left me.

Problem was she lived next door... and I could see how she would date others and it broke my already cracked heart.

Work in Progress.... will continue soon.