I recently looked up the word awesome in the dictionary. I was very surprised to find a picture of myself there, I should be honored and humbled. But I couldn't stop thinking about how accurate this dictionary actually was. I mean I knew I was phenomenal. But it's so rare that anybody else seems to acknowledge this. I can honestly say I truly enjoyed the accolades. There's the old saying I'm perfect in every way and above all I'm humble. Well I'm honestly not perfect in every way and I try not to be  humble most of the time. When I screw up I want to know it so I can make it better and when I'm doing well I want everybody else to recognize it. Not because I want to flauntlt my greatness. Because it seems to be that when I'm outstanding and perfect nobody seems to realize it like it's just simply something expected of me. But if I f****** once everybody in the world knows about it.

I believe in God. I believe that God is my strength. I believe that if God is with me I cannot be defeated. But if God is not with me how can I truly win? I believe that BDSM it's very likely a manifestation of insecurity.

The people who are most likely to brag about their greatness are usually the most insecure the people that are usually the most controlling are usually the most insecure. I personally like the exaggeration of authority and control. But the true person who has the authority and control of you is and will always be you. I believe BDSM is about having faith in someone else's ability to lead you. And I believe that to be able to do that you first have to be very secure in your own person. Or you will always doubt what it is that you are doing. And I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing I think sometimes you should doubt. I believe in the seven pillars of BDSM safe sane and consensual. And I believe that the best way to experience this on a deep level. Is to envision it for yourself exactly what you want and the parameters of how you want it I believe that if you can envision it the world itself will reshape itself to your thoughts. And you will create what you envision.