***Not here for play sessions or to play tour guide. Please do not contact me if you are looking for your unicorn, live outside of Southern California, are married and looking for 'discreet friends' or believe sending a brief email saying you want to fuck me means I should send you my phone number and face pics. ***
I'm still exploring and expanding my interests in BDSM and ways to integrate both the vanilla and D/s interests in my life and would like to find someone who is also looking for the same balance.
I never would have thought that I'd want a "Daddy Dom" but have learned that's exactly what I need. For me having a Daddy isn't about age play but having a nurturing disciplinarian in my life. So far my experience with submission has mostly been sexual. I am curious about adding more to that being molded into his perfect girl or maybe scheduling my day/week with his input and than being held accountable for the things I did/didn't get done, given tasks to accomplish, etc. and possibly bondage. The desire to be completely owned is there...but so is a fear of losing my sense of self.
I have found that submitting to submit is unfulfilling. Submitting to someone I respect and trust is addicting and more intense than I ever would have thought it could be. I have learned that with trust I can be scared/nervous about trying something new yet feel safe and protected at the same time. I never would have thought that feeling the sting of the belt could be entwined with tenderness. I'm not an exhibitionist or into public play; I keep my interests in BDSM private. I don't enjoy being punished but believe discipline is important. I learn from my mistakes and try not to repeat them.
I'm not looking for play sessions - to be able to submit I need to feel a bond/connection to the man I submit to. I have no desire to be a baby factory or to be milked, as my tits are large enough as it is, thank you.
On the vanilla side I like lots of different things a snapshot of my interests are: traveling, bookstores, museums, galleries, theme parks, roller coasters, the zoo, movies, theater, photography, reading, music, etc.
I am 39, live in San Diego, 5'4, 175, blondish with blue eyes. I can be many things for the intuitive, intelligent and strict man that will make me his property. While I prefer men with experience I'm looking for a Daddy closer to my age than that of my parents.
I checked the "Willing to Relocate" box but leaving San Diego would be difficult and only for someone amazing.
Please know/understand the difference between the terms "dominant" "dominate" and "domineering."
