Hmmmmm Wonder how many have found the new site?

Last email..."Are you interested by bimbofication?" the guy asks. LMAO Add that to the NO list.

NO K9, NO GANGBANGS, I DON'T WANT A SUB, I DON'T WANT A BI GUY, NO CUCKOLDS...AUGH!!!!!

Proud of myself tonight...trusted my "gut instincts" and made the right decision.

Do Doms want weak subs? Is it needy girls you want?

Today is a NEW day! I came to rock this life and I will no longer allow anyone to hold me back let alone myself. I will be my own best friend, not my own worst enemy. I will acknowledge who I am and what makes me the happiest because ultimately that is what I am destined to do and then let my light shine for the benefit of others. Anyone who wants to ride along better be ready to rock it with me!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Having lost both my parents each of the last 2 winters it sure is a shitty time to end up single again. sigh

Life is too short to mess around not getting the most out of life. This new year will be about focusing on what really matters. 

Why do I keep trying to date vanilla men only to be bored and frustrated???

It's a new day. Day one post break-up. The sun is shining. I feel a definate sense of relief along with hope for the future. It's not that I have no sadness, I certainly do. Our commitment to stay friends helps. I am grateful for what I learned about myself and excited to check out the next chapter. 

i'm feeling like i've reached my breaking point. Trying to decide if its just emotions at the moment or? i hate this. i am so sick of giving my all and having my heart ripped to shreads over and over again.

Still hanging on/in...i know good things come to those who wait and nothing good comes easy but it's so damn hard!

i want to keep trying. It's who i am. i never give up. i don't quit. He has me in such emotional anguish i can't think straight. i don't know what to do. i don't know how to figure it out. i can't love him anymore than i do. The eternal question is i suppose, is love enough? i know the answer but still am at a loss. i'm not asking for help. i know i have to find the answers myself, not from strangers.

In need of a LOCAL play partner.  I am in a vanilla relationship and he approves.

or it's my submissiveness being tested to the max

Just when i think...i now fear yet again...i may have gotten myself in trouble...when will i learn

It's gettin' chilly out, i have started stocking up on firewood. Now the question is...Who's gonna light my fire this winter?

What's up with the guys & the eeeennnndllleessssssss online messaging??? AUGH Get real or go away! SERIOUSLY...be MEN!!!

Ya got to go through hell before ya get to heaven....

To clarify last entry. The guy was vanilla...he didn't have the crave for BDSM. Wasn't his deal.

After a 3rd weekend we mutually agreed that we weren't a match. I am definately to kinky for him. A wise friend who knows me well had met & liked him but said he was too ordinary for me. He seemed willing to try but the crave just wasn't there.

i am so glad i didn't try to hang onto Mr. Wrong because the next day i met a great guy. This will be weekend 3 of spending time together & it will include two bicycle rides. i am eagerly anticipating the next 3 days! Be beautiful A/all!

Better to find out sooner then later, we weren't a match. Many positive things but a couple dealbreakers there was no getting past.

i have met a very interesting man. While i am far from being collared we have decided to explore a relationship. i am feeling it's going to be a great adventure.

Subs...If a "Dom/me" tries to tell you what to do before a meet and via text, talks about things that would compromise your health (like fuking your ass & then your mouth), doesn't ask if you have health issues they need to be concerned about they aren't real!!!! we need to listen to our instincts and trust them. i just did so with a potencial & the real person showed himself. Had i not listened to myself it could have been real trouble. Please be careful out there! Hugggs

i find it disappointing when a Dom claims to be very experienced and then has no interest in getting to know who i am. How can One control what He doesn't know? Isn't curiosity an important trait for a Dom? A good part of my interest in BDSM has to do with the adventure and exploration aspect of what makes myself and others tick. What good is it to lump people together, assuming all subs are the same? Everyone is unique and that's a good thing in my eyes. It makes life interesting. The Man for me will definately be intensly curious & have a great sense of adventure.

uncollared...nuff said

Mom went to heaven 12/7, almost 1 year to the date of her stroke. She passed 3 days after finally seeing her 1st great grandbaby that she waited so long for. It was a long year but it allowed us a long goodbye. My Man couldn't have been anymore supportive, I am so glad my Mom got to meet Him. She told me she could see in His eyes that He loved me. The loss of a loved one at the holidays reminds us all to value those we love because we never know how long we will have them.

I wish you A/all a blessed Christmas & a Happy New Year!

Happy Holidays to A/all! Hope Y/you are having a safe & blessed holiday season. I am still with my wonderful Man. My family is blessed with our 1st great granchild so that makes me a great aunt. My niece had a rocky birth both for her & the baby but both are doing well. My Mom is not well but hanging in and will see the new baby soon. I have much to be thankful for & I hope Y/you do too!

End of summer/fall has been great except for my Man gettin t-boned in my 7 month old car :( Worst of it is he was slightly injured. Car can be replaced, my Man can't. Hopefully his injury will be better soon! Later all!

LIFE IS GOOD! Havin a great time with my Man, been having new adventures of all sorts ;) hehe

I had nooo idea i could be so frickin' (or is it freakin'? hehe) so happy! my Man rocks my world in EVERY way.

Well a window closed but a door opened & i walked right in. A friend set me up with his brother & we are jumping right in. He's awesome!

Thank you for the messages of support from my friends & others. i am totally fine after learning his "reason"...it's lame. In the end it's his loss. It could have been great but we all make our choices. As always i learned something from the experience so it's all good!

After being askeed to let Him in i did. i was taken to the mountain, touched Heaven & then found myself kicked off a cliff with no explanation. I have a broken heart. What hurts the worst is not being told why, just being ignored.  Being ignored is the worst punishment in the world for me so i can't help but think i did something terribly wrong to be treated like this. i truely believed He was The One. Apparently He didn't think i was.

i spent an incredible 24 hours with an amazing Man this weekend. Until further notice (or hopefully forever) i will not be entertaining any offers to meet or chat with anyone new. Have a great summer! i know i will be!

I think i know too much

Yearning, craving, waiting, learning, understanding, preparing, nearing ever closer.

Update on Mom...spirit pretty strong & mind pretty clear but left side paralisis is permanant. Prayers for her comfort still helpful. Thank you to all those that have expressed concern for her. She is basically settled in a home in good care so I am workin & trying to have a life again.

My thanks to all those praying for my Mom. Please don't stop praying.

Winter suks. My Mom had a stroke 12/10. I totaled my car 12/31. Life continues to be quite an adventure!