2/1/2008 5:04:58 PM: As soon as I heard the click of the lock on the chastity device, I realized I was in trouble. Because Mistress wasn't going to sit back and let me rest in my chastity. She intended to tease me unmercifully for that first week. Her hands were rubbing my body seconds after the belt was locked.    Every night during that week, I was forced to eat her pussy while she slapped my   ass with a riding crop. She would reach up and twist my nipples, and my cock ached in its prison.     After 4 days and nights, I was getting desperate. I asked to be released. She  only teased me more and more. I begged. She laughed.  On the 6th night, she asked me to her apartment and said she had a 'special treat' in mind. I hoped that I was getting out a night early for 'good behavior'. When I walked in, she had all the lights out, and just candles burning around the living room. A chain was hanging down in the middle of the room with handcuffs attached. She yelled from the other room that I was to strip and put my hands in the cuffs.   I stood there for a while, nervously wondering where Mistress was and what was  going to happen next. After a few anxious minutes, I could hear her walking out of the bedroom... in heels. She walked up behind me and told me how much she had enjoyed the past week. She said that she demands having complete control over a man. She said it is the most intensely pleasurable domination experience and this is how she lives her life. Then she said one more thing... 'it will never end.' I shuddered. I wanted it to end now. I was desperate for release. This wasn't fun anymore. I stammered, 'I don't know... it's hard, you know...' And she said, 'Shhhh...listen and obay me...' I listened as she walked closer to my back and reached her hands around to my chest. Her hands rubbed around my chest, playfully teasing at my sensitive nipples. As she came closer, I could suddenly feel two very distinct, cold points on my back. With a thrill I realized it was leather -- leather covering her beautiful breasts.    I had always had a leather fetish. I was pleased but now convinced. In fact, picturing her in leather only made me want release all the more.  Then I felt a cool, wet object against my ass. Suddenly, I realized what she was doing. She was wearing a strap-on! She grabbed my nipples and twisted, touched the strap-on dildo to my ass and started rocking her hips slowly, just hard enough to apply pressure but not enough to penetrate. I moaned. 'Do you like that?' She asked. 'Do you want to feel even more?' Of course I said yes, I begged for it. I had always wanted to try this, and it looked like I finally would. She pulled me closer, and I felt her leather teddy against a large part of my back now. It was getting warmer as our bodies pulled together. The dildo was pressing against my ass.   'Please...', I begged... 'Please! What do you want from me?'  'Another week.' She replied firmly.  I was out of my mind with passion and desire. The sexual Femdom of my dreams had  me under her spell. I agreed.  In response, she entered me slowly, gently. She twisted my nipples gently as she pulled out, then entered gently again. I rocked my hips in the rhythm as she slowly, deliciously, wickedly rode me.   I moaned slightly, and became aware of her moans even louder. As her moans grew louder, the rhythm grew faster, slightly less gentle. Suddenly, she arched her back and cried out in orgasm. My cock ached, desperately looking for erection, for release. She ripped off the strap-on, unchained me, laid me down and rode on my face. I ate her for nearly an hour, smelling the leather mix with her scents as she had orgasm after orgasm.   When she was finally done, she climbed off, looked me in the eye, kissed me gently on the lips and said... 'Have a nice week.'

12/21/2007 5:52:18 PM: i have learned not to worry about controle but to honer its coming with all my heart.

12/2/2006 6:16:45 PM: My fantasy begins after several weeks of enforced chastity. I have been trained in many things up to this point. Well it’s a Friday evening I just got off from work and pull up to Goddesses castle I must knock before entering I knock and I hear say enter. I open the door knowing I may not look at her. There is a stair well leading up to where she is. I undress this is required I am not allowed to where clothing in her castle. I fold and place my clothes neatly on the floor never looking up. I immediately drop to my knees. so far this is a normal day. Then I ask politely Goddess may I please enter. She says you may. I crawl on all fours up to the last step where she is standing. First I kiss her right boot then her left then I kiss her left hand I am not permitted to kiss her right one. So far this is a normal day she bends over me and places my collar on me this time it is tighter then normal but I did not say anything or even think much about it. She then places my leash on the collar. So far this is a normal day. She leads I crawl and follow but instead of leading me to the kitchen to cook her dinner. She leads me to her dungeon. And in her dungeon she has many things rack suspension devices and every whip and Patel and tools and toys ever created. But her favorite is a chair it looks kind of like an old time electric chair there are many straps and restraints attached to it. She demands that I get it in. I say yes Goddess. She begins to strap me in all this is new to me I am completely restrained I cant even move my fingers. I can see her beauty and feel her overwhelming power. She is wearing skin tight latex she reaches to her neck and grabs a chain from around it is a gold chain and on the end of it are 2 keys she then tells me that she only wares keys around her neck for slave she considers worthy. I say thank you Goddess. She then reaches down to the chair there is a lever there she pulls it down then places her hands on my knees she pushes them apart with a fast thrust and you can hear a click it’s the lever going back to the locked position. Then she removes the keys from her neck she unlocks the chastity devise and removes it. I am overwhelmed thinking I have earned an orgasm I get hard instantly. She plays with it in ways no one ever has I feel the excitement building up in me. But there is a wicked smile on her face. I am about to orgasm she stops she knows aim ready to cum. Now she has a look of enjoyment with one flick of her finger I almost cum she looks at me and says no you will learn control. She keeps doing this over and over it seams like for hours. But it is only a few minutes. I scream out Goddess please may I cum please Goddess. This made her angry she stands up walks over to the wall where all her toys are she grabs a small paddle and a ball gag. She straps the ball gag on me. Now I cant speak. Then she speaks very loudly angry at me and smacks me between the legs and says one word YOU smacks again WILL smack NEVER smack ASK smack ME smack TO smack TO smack LET smack YOU smack CUM smack. She places the paddle on the floor and begins to play again my body twitches even before her finger touches me. I am in tears crying she smiles at the tears and says good boy that makes me happy she continues for ours dong this I have submitted at this point and in a mindless frustration. She then stands and grabs some ice and place it between my legs I shrivel up and then she places the chastity device on and locks it. She then places leather cuffs on both hands then in the center I am chained to the collar she un straps me from the chair I fall to the floor she smiles at me and she asked who is your Goddess I say in a trembling voice you are my Goddess and I thank you for allowing me to serve you Goddess 

10/21/2006 11:20:42 PM: As each day passes by I learn, I know on this site there are very few real doms there are those that seek revenge on males any male that comes into there path. Then there is you lonely guys pretending to be female just so you can talk to a women. Then there are those women that are just flat out self-centerd they are pathetic. But then there are those who are kind caring and polite those are the ones that deserve respect. And I thank you and you know who you are 

8/11/2006 5:10:53 PM: today i recieved to wonderfull emails thank you verry much.1Such a precious spirit you are and you've a wonderful energy and aura that can be felt too which is so very special - that makes it all the more important to be discriminating in your search as many dominants are not deserving to have such a soul in their life or service I hope this note finds you happy, healthy and well :-)2Have you found what you seek? I should think Dallas would have a wealth of true Dommes.Good luck. I read a bit of your journal,and felt sad that your experiences were so unsatisfying.