I reckon it's time that i update this thingy. I've been on here a lot of yrs. Im a brat. I playfully push buttons. Im also a slave. Both need structure and guidance. Both need attention. Both need to know they are protected and that their well-being is top of his mind. Im married to a vanilla. He's a good man, he just has no idea  what this lifestyle is bout. After many yrs together, he still thinks it's bout kinky sex and abuse. He just can't see the beauty that can be there. The bond... the trust. I'm not looking to leave him. Im not looking to be your play thingy on the side. Im looking for someone online to take me under his wing. Give me tasks... help me put a little bit more control in my life. I have the mindset of a little and a slave... and I'm the boss. That's just not right. I need help. If you only want to play, go away. Plz don't waste my time or yours. Let's see what kind of adventure we can start.