1/14/2018 1:10:57 PM: HAPPY 2018! I haven't had time to revamp my profile or do any current journals in awhile. I thought I would share some mental thoughts today. I've had so many guys message me about how frustrated they are with this site. Many complain about the FIN Dommes ( no such title, just coke whores ) who have ruined the experience etc. I speak about this in my earlier journals and try my best to give some good information to use. CollarME now known as Collarspace has changed a lot, I agree.  I still believe there are good people here. Every single person isn't out to get what they can or ruin lives. Saying that, Lifestyle Dommes like myself have to deal with the same issues. A lot of men here do the same thing they themselves complain about. Men will say just about ANYTHING just to get your attention and then turn around to be a complete liar and just here for kicks or pass time. I just don't get it anymore. Maybe this whole thing with 'Fake Dommes' was to counter the men who also play games, you have to see it from both angles. What's really funny to me tho, being in this lifestyle for 16 years, you know the game when you see it, but these men will SWEAR their serious and BAAM days later it's revealed they weren't. So who are you kidding, yourself or me? :) honestly, it has gotten completely out of hand now. Good luck to you all. Have a blessed New Year! Ms. Ebony 

3/2/2017 7:22:10 AM: Imma make this a quick one. Had a few people doubting me and had to shut down the haters. Been into Kink since I was 19 and have nothing to prove to miserable people however I need folks to know there's nothing fake about this Black Domme Bitch. I'm not a picture Queen and will never be. Carry on. Ms. Ebony The Original

2/12/2017 10:42:17 AM: Got the feeling to type in my journal today. It never seems to amaze me anymore the lengths men go on this site to speak with you or try to get under your skin. :-) Guys create profiles, allow them to sit a few months, then contact you PRETENDING they've never spoken to you before, when the whole time I can tell it's the same dude that hit me up on another account that I've blocked. It doesn't take a SUPER GENIUS to figure it out. I've been on this site ( of course when it was CollarMe ) since 2002. I've had only TWO profiles. This one and the one I had for years. Why do I need to have multiple accounts, when I can do everything I need to do from this one? I'll never EVER understand why people have the need to do this 'dated' tactic. All it does is say a lot about them and their REAL INTENTIONS with you. You're steady trying to see if the person is going to say the same things, give you the same information or whatever is going on in your head. What's worse is the men who do this are GROWN MEN! Men over the age of 40 playing games online. Pretty sad. ( at least I think so ) It's some good men here and women. You can always tell by the things he say even in his first note to you. I've been online since I was 18 and been into Bdsm since I was 19 and I can tell a troll MILES down the hallway. You can't get under my skin, you will not disrupt my good karma and all you are doing is wasting your own precious time. I'm nice to everyone here, so me sending you a kind note isn't a waste of my time, it's just common human decency. If you're bitter, cynical and been burned and need revenge, I advise you to find a hobby. You need to find those 'Fake Dommes' that need your money to pay her rent payment or drug habits. You're completely wasting your time bringing your ill intentions towards me. I feel very sorry for those of you who sit home all day online wasting other people's time. No I don't believe it will end, but some of us know BULLSHIT when we see it. So don't get upset because we call you on it. That's all. :-) Life is good here on the UWS of Manhattan. Nothing any troll/flake/liar/game-player/cynical bastard can do to change that. God Bless you all! ( even those of you with multiple accounts trying your best to unearth whatever it is you working towards ) <3 With Love, Ms. Ebony 

1/11/2017 9:25:42 AM: While working from home today, I had to come back to my journal and thank all the nice people who sent me private messages about my loss. Your words truly helped me. I mean it! It's amazing tho, I'm at peace with my babies passing. Him and I always talked about the universe, the after life, where do your soul go and such and I know my sweet heart is flying high discovering other universes, planets etc. I cried so hard the day I found out he died. I cried even harder the next day, and then it suddenly stopped. I believe he came to me in some form and told me to stop all that DAMN crying. He hated when I called him upset crying. He would always tell a joke or do something kind to make me feel better. He was truly my soulmate, but the physical part wasn't there, but the LOVE FOR HIM WAS! I have yet to meet a man quit like him! ( not saying they aren't out there, I just haven't met them ) I know there's good people on this site. I have been lucky to meet many of them. Don't give up because you come across 200 assholes. It's okay. Maybe that 205th person will be someone you will cherish for many years to come. Don't let the bad seeds ruin it for you! I surely don't. I get so many MALE SUBS who claim to be this or that, or they want to do this or that, or bla bla bla bla bla! However, he's telling my girl friend the same exact BULL and all we do is compare notes and hit block! ( no time for foolery ) I'm too old for that. :-) Good luck Kinksters! Have fun this lovely year! Meet that special someone and bring them close to your heart! Remember Bdsm/Femdom/Kink etc isn't just about SEX, getting off or FUCKING MONEY. It's so much MUCH MUCHHHHHHHHHHH more then that. Stop watching these fake porn clips believing that's all it's about. NOPE! Those people are being paid to PRETEND they are sub or domme etc. But that's another story. :-) Love Hard, Work Hard, Push Hard and having a FREAKING FANTASTIC New Year Dear Friends, With Love and Extreme Kink Ms. Ebony THE ORIGINAL MS. EBONY circa 2002; before everyone used that name! Baddest Black Domme in NYC Metro ( better ask somebody ) ;-)

12/31/2016 3:28:19 AM: My heart is broken. I've had a amazing end of the year. Seems everything has came together and I truly feel connected to the universe. Life is truly happening for me now......Yesterday I found out one of my dear friends passed away on Christmas Day. It truly took me by surprise. I wasn't expecting to hear the news at all. I have tears in my eyes now as I type this. My friend is gone. It's even more painful to share here because I met him on this very website over 10 years ago. This is why I know personally there are good people out there, on this site. I still have the old email he sent me when we connected on here. He was a kind gentle soul who would do anything he could to make you feel special. We had a physical relationship at first, but it blossomed into something more special then that. He was my TRUE FRIEND and knew who I was deep down. I remember when someone started a slam page on this site about me and he saw it. He called ma laughing because he knew that person didn't know who I was because what he typed was lies. He would always know what to say to me to bring joy into my heart. He was never jealous and always encouraged me to enjoy life ( just give him details later lol) My dear friend is now above looking down on me wishing I find happiness. This one truly hurts. My heart is broken. My friend baby love is gone. RIP My Dear Baby, Thank you for teaching me so much and being there when I first started learning who I was. I SCREAM LOUD MY LOVE, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU!!! We will one day meet again.  <3 <3 <3 Ms. --------------