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****my profile is outdated but Im holding off on updating because this site has been so wishy-washy and I dont know if or how long it will even be around. I have another profile on fetlife under the same name. Anyone is welcome to message me there as well as here.
** it has been so long since having the privilege of being in the presence of a true Goddess. To serve, worship, obey and take my place at Her feet. Though i can only blame myself for my situation, for opportunities squandered, i am making a vow to learn from my mistakes and to improve myself as a submissive as well as a person in general. Insecurities, immaturity, jealousy haunt my younger days and though it came at a heavy cost, i have learned from it, put it behind me and hopefully get another chance to prove my worth, to find a true Goddess to dedicate myself to. To be enthralled once more and to fulfill my destiny of not just servitude but complete mental and emotional slavery to a beautiful, superior Goddess who deserves everything i could offer and more.***
About me.. im honest, thoughtful, genuine and obedient. Have been submissive since i was very young. First discovered the lifestyle at around 12-13 when i found a BDSM bulletin board on Prodigy. Yes Prodigy, anyone under 30 probably has no idea what im talking about. Lets just say it was pre-America Online, when the internet was fairly new and insanely slow! At 14, i learned how to RP and began serving Mistresses online. Was always very curious to try rt but save a few random femdom experiences, my shyness kept me primarily cowered behind a computer screen until around 18 when i finally served an Actual Mistress for the 1st time in rt. So in person I have served off and on for close to 15 years. When i first begin serving a Mistress i have quite a few soft limits which will stretch and dissipate as i gain trust in my Mistress. Hoping someday the right Mistress could convert this sub into a slave, although unlikely, I would need to have not only absolute trust in my Mistress, but to truthfully love her as well. To put in a better context, in my 34 years, i have only known ONE Goddess who couldve totally enslaved me with absolutely zero limits. Though i am not very active my search, i am however open to finding my Perfect Goddess.
**this profile is a work in progress**
WARNING Any institutions or individuals using this site or any of its associated sites for studies or projects - You DO NOT have permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any or forum both current and future. If you have or do, it will be considered a violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications. It is recommended that other members post a similar notice to this or you may copy and paste this one
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I am so tired of seeing journal entries of "Goddesses" who are "so tired of fakes!"
Really? You're tired of fakes? Back in 2003/2004 nobody was journaling about being "tired of fakes" in fact, then you would be hard pressed to find a Domme under 30 and nobody was perpetrating, putting up porn actress' photos. And to this day I dont see any of you at the local munches/parties/events. You're more than welcome, and you might have a good time.
Where the fuck were all the young beautiful Goddesses at back when I was a 20 something? Shit, I might have had a financial domination fetish and didn't know it. Why? Because it didn't fucking exist, or at least it wasn't anywhere on anyone's radar. Which is fine, I'm not anti-findom, just funny how something that nobody heard of is now the most popular fetish. Why that and not something else like i dunno, corduroy fetish or vacuum cleaner fetish? As for me.. As a Slave, I served my Mistress/Owner financially without having to jack off while i did it. Why? Because i was a fucking SLAVE and that's what the fuck slaves do.
I love a Goddess who supposedly lives 10 miles away from me saying she won't meet up but wants a 24/7 slave "eventually" and she's asking me how does she know i'm not a fake. Well, how about give me a time and an address, we can meet and chat and see if we clique. That's how. <
::click:: end of conversation.
But you know what? I'm not tired of all the fakes. I love all the fakes. Because for every 10,000 fakes peeking into this lifestyle, I figure one real Domme will peek in and actually enjoy herself. |
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This site is so ridiculous. I come on more for laughs now than anything else. Still, part of me hopes...
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It's been nearly 2 months since an unfortunate procedure as a hospital patient has left me changed. (To what level of permanence, i am unsure.) The removal of my catheter has left me not only very different in looks, but unable to feel arousal or obtain an erection. This has me obviously reconsidering my plans of not dying a virgin. Also, my participation in this lifestyle. Will i love it like i used to?
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Is it just me or has there been a noticeable spike in new fake/bot Domme accounts opened in the past 30 days? |
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DomCon blew my mind! So happy i went, talk about sensory overload! |
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Who will be at DomCon in May? Msg me! |
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I've seen a couple "Dommes" specializing in "ignore sessions" lol.. really? "I'd like to book an ignore session please.. Hello??.. I said i would like to book an ignore session please...hello?? oh.. we just did? Umm ok How much do I owe?" |
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I'm proud to say i found a Mistress to serve. After sending Her $1000 to prove i am not a fake or a time waster, She has accepted me as Her slave. I haven't seen a pic of Her yet but She assures me She is gorgeous. She is 5'9'' and 62 lbs, and although Her profile says she is 3,632 miles away, She also assures me that is inaccurate and that She really is close by in Los Angeles. I can't wait to meet, take Her for a cup of coffee and discuss our interests to see if we are compatible. I'd like to do that ASAP but She says i need to send another $1000 to show i am really, REALLY serious, so as soon as i get my next paycheck we can go on to the next step. I'm really excited and have the highest hopes for this to be an amazing LTFLR! Really I am giddy with excitement and wonder how on earth did i get so lucky? |
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Why do I still get excited when I get a new message when 99% are from robots telling me to sign up to some website? I'm a bit tired of this misconception that because I classify myself as a submissive that I will now down or lay down for anyone or anything. I choose who I submit to and only bow to Her! Except for that one special person I am beneath nobody! |
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What's with all the "HI! Want to have sex right now/tonight..." messages? Wonder if these are targeted only at sub males, males, or if everyone gets them? |
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I'm a bit baffled by some of the duplicate profiles here. "I'm a very young lady who just moved here with my 65 year old husband." I've seen this in like 10 different profiles. The laziness of these scum artists... I mean scam artists is ridiculous. If you're going to run a scam, at least put in a little effort to make it believable! |
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I know some guys get down when they get rejected by a girl. Try getting rejected when all you want is to serve Her as a submissive/slave.. |
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I totally get the idea of chastity being a turn on for both Dommes and subs. It is an excellent form of power for One to hold over another. It's not particularly a fetish of mine though it's not a limit or even something i necessarily dislike, and if my Mistress would get pleasure in keeping me in chastity i would be happy to comply and would get enjoyment/satisfaction in Her pleasure. What i don't get is the chastity devices. I mean I get it but i just am very skeptical as to the sanitary condition of having one of these devices locked in place. The question that immediately comes to mind is how does one pee without immediately becoming a cleanliness issue? It just seems that it would highly increase risk for bacteria and infection. Also from what i have read it is very possible to cause nerve damage and that a side effect of wearing a chastity device for long periods causes the penis to shrink. Is the device that important to the Mistress' pleasure? Every Mistress i have belonged to knows me well enough to know they could just command me to not touch myself and i never would without Her permission. Wouldn't that be more of a turn on knowing that it is Your verbal command keeping Your slave in chastity and not some piece of plastic locked on his dick? If the device is required to enforce the Domme ' s demand for chastity then that sounds like Her submissive needs more obedience training. Every Mistress that i have and would be willing to submit to has had my best interest at heart and any Mistress who would risk infection and possibly permanent nerve damage is not someone i would ever find myself belonging to |
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I've seen some journal entries on a few Mistress' profiles complaining that there is recently some lack of "pay piggies" on this website. Seriously, i doubt this is true. What is more likely the case is that there is an abundance of financial Mistresses, and with that abundance there is much more competition. The financial slaves are still here, they probably just found a Mistress that they enjoy serving more. I am a bartender, if my bar is empty, i don't complain that everyone in this city stopped drinking, I just assume they are drinking somewhere else. Other bars are probably having a happy hour or some specials or are providing some entertainment like music, dancing, pool tables or karaoke or something drawing them away from my bar and into theirs. Maybe You should take this into consideration, offer some other means of domination other than strictly financial. Then again maybe i am wrong and these Mistresses are right. Maybe these "pay pigs" are disappearing. Some of U/us have been here and in the lifestyle long enough to remember when there weren't any profiles for pay pigs and Financial Mistresses. 15 years ago or so Y/you couldn't find a profile on CM seeking financial domination or financial servitude. Maybe it was just a really long fad. Seriously i doubt it, i think my first theory is much more likely. Either way it's a good thing. A little competition never hurt anyone. Well just those who can't compete ;) |
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She texted me:
"Your adorable."
I replied:
"No, You're adorable. "
Now She thinks i like Her. All i did was point out Her typo. |
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Can't thank Lady Raven enough for befriending me, giving me guidance and someone to confide in. God, what a smart, kind and amazing Woman. A true Goddess indeed. |
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Let me reiterate again that i'm no dummy, if your a fake, lying scam artist, keep it moving. Save yourself some time. You all know who you are, with your 1 pic and profile claiming you want r/t. i will not join ANY website for a month to prove myself! Jesus i'm surprised anybody falls for this shit.. actually no i'm not. Anybody dumb enough to go for that deserves what they get, and that's the only reason i'm not naming names, but forewarning next one who tries me is getting called out. Sorry that didn't sound submissive but i dont submit to crooks and scam artists (probably men) and not to men in general.
Ps. Fyi anyone who says "coz" is not in the U.S. Anyone who claims to weigh less than 70lbs is not in the U.S. |
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Read an interesting article about the legitimacy of financial domination in the BDSM community. This site is a perfect example of how it blew up while financial domination has existed forever, its popularity has skyrocketted in the past decade where if you were looking on CM in the early 2000s, seeing "moneyslave" in a ProDommes ad would be few and far between, where as now it's everywhere you look. i've personally dabbled with financial servitude online, and found it unfulfilling but i'm nobody to judge anothers' fetish(es). Also, i have reached a point where online servitude gives me no satisfaction where 10 years ago i would have said otherwise. i've had mixed feelings because it stands apart from the rest of the D/s world and because of its simplicity it has attracted many "fakes" who, without financial domination/slavery, would have nothing to do with the D/s lifestyle. This is true on both sides, bringing in new "FinDommes" with little to no R/T BDSM experience, seeing it as a get rich quick scheme, some of whom in reality couldn't "dominate" an unruly beagle pup. Also many so called "moneyslaves", who really are only interested in serving their own interest of getting off, willing to throw $100-$500 at whichever attractive "FinDomme" happens to be online at the time and then 10 seconds after they cum they regret doing so. Or even lower down the sewer hole are the ones who try to "string a Domme along", attempting to b.s. their way to an orgasm making promises/pretending to be in the process of sending $$ hoping to carry the conversation on long enough that they get off. These are the people that the D/s community can do without, on the flipside, I'm sure financial domination has brought in some great additions both Domme and subs/slaves. A lot of what I said I ripped off straight from the article I just happen to agree with what was written. I was going to add more but this is already too long, however if you'd like to take this discussion further feel free to message me at anytime :) |
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i'm beginning to realize many "Dommes" who's location is simply California, with no city listed, are not only not in California but not in the U.S. at all. |
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i don't know why my pics turn sideways when uploaded. i've tried turning them sideways before uploading, and still end up with the same results. If anyone has had a similar experience or has any ideas how to correct this, PLEASE msg me. Otherwise i suppose i will just have to take new pics... sooner or later |
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WARNING: Any institutions or individuals using this site or any of its associated sites for studies or projects - You DO NOT have permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current and future. If you have or do, it will be considered a violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications. It is recommended that other members post a similar notice to this or you may copy and paste this one |
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This somehow slipped out of previous journal entries... intelligence in my Goddess/Owner is paramount!! I would/could not surrender myself to Any unintelligent Mistress.I prefer my Superior to be just that. I maybe somewhat feminine in in the fact that I find intelligence sexy. |
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This can be such a tiresome, frustrating ordeal..Trying to find not even "my perfect. Goddess" but even just a compatible Mistress who i could attempt serving on a trial basis.. My standards are very high (starting to think unreasonably). I understand the majority of "beautiful" Dommes are on here and do this primarily as a means of getting money. Of those, some are actually dominant, some play the part. Of the ones that actually are dominant, some do not enjoy or wish to actually live. "the lifestyle". However some do. Here in lies my conundrum, I understand I am neither the billionaire or the "dreamboat heartthrob." Also, I'm not a deadbeat, nor consider myself hideous.. Compared to most "subs/slaves" especially on CM, I'm quite certain I am more honest, genuine and have more to offer a potential Goddess as a long term submissive. While I don't claim to be a "moneyslave" nor list financial domination as a fetish of mine, when collared I have every intention on spending $ on my Domme/Owner, as it is in my duty/nature as a true submissive to make Her life better/easier/more convenient using all means possible... This being said, what I seek is a r/t potentially long term relationship. I am 100 percent aware that there are many scammers on this site on both ends. So fair warning, I'm no dummy and will not be scammed and in turn promise I will not scam you. So in closing, if you believe yourself to be a beautiful, authentic, dominant goddess... And you feel what I have to say/offer is reasonable, please feel free to message me at your convenience.. Thank you. |
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So earlier today ( technically yesterday), I went on a rant about the fake "FinDommes" who besides not being actually dominant, are putting on an act , some worse than others while I meant every bit of it, looking back, it seemed too one sided.. for every fake "FinDomme" I'm sure there is 20 or more fake "moneyslaves". These phony cash slaves, money pigs, human atms or whatever other bullshit label they try to give themselves are not slaves at all, they are not even true subs. You all know who you are. You are the ones that promise this and that, claim to be wealthier than you really are, and have the odasity to call yourself submissives, when all you are doing is leading Domme's on, using any combination of words/promises in order to fulfill your own needs/wants (primarily just to get off) at the expense of these Dommes who are supposed to have their wants/needs met first. What your're doing is not only "topping from the bottom", its worse than that, its lying , leading them on and the worst thing is you are chasing good Mistresses/ Goddesses out of not just CM, but the lifestyles all together. You destroy Their faith in the few of us good subs/slaves that do exist. So all you fake slaves do the rest of us a favor and rent a porno or something, get off some other way where youre not hurting legitimate Dommes, subs and the lifestyle as a whole. Do U/u
s all a favor and pull a bill carradine..drop dead jerking off, its all you're good for.. Ok end of rant... Also to further explain my earlier entry. I mentioned that I am not a moneysslave.. I'm not I am a submissive who embraces many aspects of serving a true Domme. That doesn't mean that if/when I find myself collared I will not serve my Goddess/Mistress by finamcial means.. Especially if I find the right Goddess to offer my self not only as a submissive but as a slave. Under those circumstances it would be only natural She have some control in my finances. It is a subs duty to spoil his Owner. I only meant that financials domination isnt a personal fetish of mine. I hope soon to serve/be owned physically, mentally, emotionally and yes financially.
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Meeting a Goddess tonite for the first time from CM.. And for the first time at all in many years. So nervous/excited, taking a first step in becoming collared...something that is long overdue but since I actually began pursuing ownership again, things are moving remarkably fast! Anyway hope not to be a disappointment to a beautiful gracious Goddess who is giving me an honest chance. |
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So I'm pretty new to this site. So far I like it , at least more than others. Have already found a potential Goddess who I could totally see myself serving/belonging to. That being said.. at the risk of sounding rude, quite a bit of Dommes here (especially the younger ones); seem to specialize in FinDomme... That's all well and good, I fully understand and accept it as a legitimate fetish. However... if you plan on that being your bread and butter, I warn you that you quite possibly have a frustrating possibly disappointing road ahead of you. I can't speak for "moneyslaves" as I am not one. But I'm willing to wager most have a little something more in mind then giving away their money for the sake of being called a loser. The point I'm getting to is this, I'm sure some of you FinDommes are naturally dominant and provide exactly what you say and what others seek. However.. some are thinking this is an easy money maker, just play the role of a bitch and men will throw money at me all day.. if that's you, I recommend you look deeper into this lifestyle, see if it fits you,; if you can handle it, and probably get some new tricks up your sleeve so to speak... because I again I can't speak for others, but when I come across a profile where financial domination is the only specialty being offered. I equivelate that to being a lazy Mistress. Again no offense to those who are genuine. To those playing a role, thinking you can succeed in this when you haven't an ounce of dominant blood in those veins... I see you. I see you for what you are and I'm sure others do to. I don't mind, you aren't what I'm looking for anyway, you may fool some but only for so long before they take their needs to someone else who can meet them. Again sorry for this rant, I know it wasn't very submissive of me, but I feel like a lot of people here are probably thinking the same as me and I feel better for doing so. To all you legitimate Dommes, love you all keep up the (bad) work;) |
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If you happen to browse through my.interests, you willing likely notice lots of hard limits. I'm a somewhat mild submissive however when/if trust and love is gained in a meaningful relationship, hard limits can turn to soft limits;) |
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| Age: 25 |
| Crystal City,
Virginia |
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