4/15/2024 3:00:29 PM: I don't seem to flinch at the sight of individuals demonstrating their pain threshold. I am now curious if the intensity of the pain passes a threshold where to them it is a climax of pleasure. I absolutely love imagery of the femme fatale mixed with sexual curiousity. The presented breasts, the extended heels, the red lipstick the curvy dresses the kneeled man.  Again still think dungoens are just shit furniture, IKEA is doing some amazing things lately so no need to be cheap. but you can't beat a little dress up in public to demonstrate your devotion to one another.

4/13/2024 2:07:50 PM: Year's ago I went to this intriguing open lecture from a historian who published a book about sexual novelty. He described meeting people with what seemed like an unusal fetish but could be linked back to a childhood encounter. I guess my early encounter links back to my childhood, seeing my mother neglected, disatisfied in her one relationship.  She is one of those Christian women, who has been with one man here whole life and put all her hopes and dreams into one man that shattered her expectations of a happy life and marriage. I guess I lived part of her experience, which is why I am extremely independent always pursing a life goal, always helping others. 90% of my life has been helping other people and I honestly can say if I was hit but a bus, my last thought would be I have helped thousands of people. Just self-reflecting I don't think my sexual fantasies are in the BDSM remit.  I think leather is overrated.  Owning a BDSM dungeon is just bad furniture and B&Q rope.  I just like the idea of three people, entering a space and saying fuck what other people think, what do you want to try and what do you enjoy and leave the rest behind. I am sure there will be some who will show judgement and these are always individuals ignoring the cavities of their own life filling up with shit.  Life really is too short and I would rather in my public life carry on as I am and in my private life explore who I am.

4/11/2024 12:52:16 PM: People in California are really professional when it comes to BDSM. Their portfolio of pleasure seeking is very polished. Creates a not so fine line between actual BDSM and people who need to disconnect their webcam and wait for AI to delete them.

4/7/2024 6:50:36 AM: Still looking but not impatient, actually rather grateful plenty of me time and busy with work. I have to admit I have had a few people show an interest and I have had to admit I am not attracted to them. You can tell by a picture, eve if you tried it would not last. Still looking for someone outdoorsy. Still looking for someone in London but I travel a lot so flexible. Finally planning a little annual leave and Ireland is happening. I kind of would like to meet someone interesting, avoiding PE teachers, men who work in ICT (snore) there has got to be some pleasure seeking interesting specimens so I will wait but will not hold my breath, will explore the world and my own potential and if you happen to pass by great if not, I was not holding my breath.

4/1/2024 12:16:25 PM: Just had a man from the USA offer to serve me in real time, but does not want to show 1 poxy picture of himself. Guess what button I pressed next!   'BLOCKED'