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Greetings
My name is Anja. Welcome to my profile here on Collarme. Let me start by saying that I have had two former user names here. nella and ARS, so if I got to know you under those names, I am the same person.
Ok what can I say about me. I am a Gorean free woman, the free Companion of a wonderful man, (Aswad here on Collarme) I love him dearly and I would never leave him. Before I was Aswad's slave, but he freed me to stand by his side. It is my hope to be worthy of this honor, that I will behave in a way which will reflect well on my Companion until the time, if it ever comes, that he chooses to enslave me again. But free or slave, I am his.
As for a bit more about me personally. I come from a small town in Norway called Jevnaker, I met Aswad when I was 16 years old and have been with him ever since. We begun our journey as Top and bottom, then became Dom and sub, until we both became interested in the Gorean lifestyle and became Master and slave. I have been submissive my whole life, I remember playing servant or slave for my dolls when I was little, or pretending that I was set to serve and wait upon a sick relative. When I became a bit older I got an interest in BDSM. It was however first when I found the Gorean lifestyle that I felt things really falling into place for me. Now Aswad have given me the honor of freedom, but I am still submissive to him.
My main interest in life have always been the occult, magick and the supernatural. I am a dedicated occultist. I am a Chaote, a practitioner of Chaos magick, though I specialize in Energy manipulation and witch craft. I became an occultist when I was 10 years old, though I come from a family line with many pepole with psychic abilities. My mother is a healer, and I have learned so much from her. I am also interested in Martial Arts, then the spiritual part of it mostly, yoga, pilates, alternative medicine, religion, Zen, mythology, Spirituality and New Age.
My other vanilla interests includes. Fantasy, horror and science fiction, RPG games, goth lifestyle, belly dance, life extension, transumanism, robotics, cybernetics. I have Aspergers syndrome, a sort of mild Autism, and one of the symptoms of that syndrome is an all compassing interest which dominates ones life and is the only thing which gives life meaning. For me that interest as you can see is everything supernatural and paranormal, both in fact, and fiction.
My main interest when it comes to BDSM (I am into BDSM in addition to being a Gorean. Being a Gorean the way I see it have nothing to do with BDSM.) is Spiritual BDSM. To use Dominance and submission as part of religions ritual. I am seeking a Spiritual Dom, I would never leave Aswad, but he have allowed me to seek this. I have some training in Spiritual BDSM. My biggest interest in this field is the system and philosophy presented in Raven Kaldera's Dark Moon Rising: Pagan BDSM and the Ordeal Path. This is one of my favorite books. And to practice Pagan BDSM and serve another Pagan as a Spiritual submissive would be a dream come true. However all kinds of Spiritual BDSM is interesting for me.
Religion means allot for me. I think that all religions are a different language to speak with the Divine. As such I consider myself to be multi religious. My main focus is Paganism, but I also like to go to Church or practice in other religious rituals. I think that the important thing is to develop a relationship with the Divine, not what one call the method in which such a relationship is formed. I love to talk about and learn about religions and various rituals and religious customs.
I would love to meet other pepole with the same interests as me, I would more than love to meet others interested in Spiritual BDSM.
I thank you for reading this profile. If you have any questions just PM. I wish you a wonderful day and bright blessings.
I wish you well
Anja
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Greetings So I have posted a bit on Collarme lately but I must say that I am disappointed, where is all the Goreans? There used to be a active, thriving Gorean community on Collarme with a few dozen active posters and even more semi regulars but now there is hardly two posts a week. I mean there are months old topics on the front
page. I think that is a shame for to me the Gorean board was the most interesting part of Collarme and I miss all the great debates we used to have. Now yes at times the posters on the board would infuriate me, and I definitely do not agree with all that where being said, I guess as what my hubby Aswad call a progressive Gorean I tend to be a bit at odds with the generally held opinions of other members of the lifestyle, I still miss the activity of the forum though, it is like a graveyard now.
I am even more sad that the Gorean forum on Collarme, well first the various Gorean posters and then when there was a Gorean forum the board itself was what lead me to the Gorean lifestyle, I would have missed out on so many important things in my life for good or bad if it had not been for that forum and seeing it in such shambles almost bring tears to my eyes, I want the Gorean boards on Collarme to be back to what they was, active, bustling, interesting, sexy, infuriating, insightful, challenging and fun. I want back the sense of family I always got when logging into Collame and venturing into the Gorean boards, so if any of you former Gorean board Collarme posters see this, please, please, please come back to the forum and let us resurrect it like a phoenix from the ashes or like a zombie from a grave. I wish you all well |
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Greetings
I just wanted to post a list of books for those who might be interested in Spiritual BDSM. There do not exist all that many books on this topic, however there are some. Off these books Dark Moon Rising is my favorite, but all of them are good. Here is the list. :D
*Dark Moon Rising by Raven Kaldera
*Kink Magic by Taylor Ellwood
*Spiritual Transformation through BDSM by Sensuous Sadie
*Philosophy In the Dungeon
*The Magic of Sex & Spirit by Jack Rinella
*Radical Ecstasy: SM Journeys to Transcendence by Dossie Easton and Janet W. Hardy
*Rites of Pleasure: Sexuality in Wicca and Neo-Paganism by Jennifer Hunter
*Sacred Kink: The Eightfold Paths of BDSM and Beyond by Lee Harrington
*Modern Sex Magick: Secrets of Erotic Spirituality by Don Kreig
*It's Not about the Whip: Love, Sex, and Spirituality in the Bdsm Scene by Sensuous Sadie.
*Sacred Pain: Hurting the Body for the Sake of the Soul by Ariel Glucklich
*Pagan Polyamory: Becoming a Tribe of Hearts by Raven Kaldera
*Carnal Alchemy by Crystal Dawn and Stephen Flowers
I hope you have found this list useful. If there is any questions do not hesitate to mail me. I love to talk about Spiritual BDSM so I be more than happy to answer any questions you might have.
I wish you all well
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Greetings
The Gor Saga written by John Norman have spawned both a lifestyle and an
active roleplaying community, both in the form of chat and on Second
Life. The problem is that many of the roleplayers do not seam to
understand that they are not their characters and keep the difference
between fiction and reality straight. Let me make a few lovely examples
here of my own experienced with these roleplayers. Now keep in mind
that I have been playing various from of RPG's for over 12 years, and I
have never, ever come across shit like this with any other RP setting.
Well since I am a Gorean I decided to join a Gorean chat. I made a kajira
(slave) character and headed to the chat room. Upon arriving my
character, I have forgotten her name made the usual kneeling protocol
and muttered a few Greetings Masters. Immediately I am PMed by another
player, the girl instructed me to greet each free character by name.
Well I answered her, how do my character know what the various pepole
in the room are called. The other player answered by saying, just look
at their names in the chat window, the capped nicks are free. Raising
an eyebrow I said, so everyone go around with World of Warcraft like
name tags over their heads? Are we not in a tavern on Gor? Is this not
a roleplay, my character is walking into a tavern, she is not sitting
on a computer chatting. The other player agreed that it was an
roleplay, but still insisted that my character somehow magickally knew
everyones names, she also told me that I had to be new at roleplaying.
Bloody idiocy, ever heard about the 4 wall? Oh well I guess everyone on
Gor have name tags over their heads, or perhaps they have those AA name
things pinned to their shirts.
Oh let us try again, so I joined another chat, with another character.
This chat worked well for a while, but then one player came it, he
acted in character, sat down by the fire touched and interacted with
the other characters and was clearly not in OOC. Then suddenly he says
that he had been diagnosed with incurable cancer and was going to the
various chat rooms and forums he was a part of making amends and
setting things right with everyone he had a conflict with. What he
hell! How do one respond to that, was this in character or out of
character? Obviously for this man there was no difference.
By this time I sort of game up on Gor roleplay. However I have chatted
with some Gor roleplayers before and obviously most of them have a very
hard time separating what if fact and what is fiction. Is Gor roleplay
a big leach which suck people's intelligence out of them? I have met
grown men who tell me that they are Goreans, and that they own a tarn
and killed two slaves yesterday. When I ask more about it I just get a
blank stare and an insistence that he really is a Gorean. I have spoken
with one Lady on Collarme which is a roleplayer, and while she is nice
enough she manages to say some amazing things, let me give you an
example on dialog with this woman, note as there is some time since
this conversation this example is not word for word.
Me: Roleplay is not real, When I play Vampire the Masquerade that do not
make me a vampire, hell I am currently playing a male vampire policeman
in an RPG I am involved with. And that do not make me either a man, a
vampire or a policeman.
Roleplayer Lady: One should honor policemen and not pretend to be one.
Me:
I am not pretending to be a policeman, just like if I play a Gorean man
with a big axe in a Gor roleplay I am not pretending to be a man.
Roleplayer Lady: I would not defer to you if you pretended to be a man.
Hum...right anyone else get the feeling that this Lady did not have her feet firmly
planted on planet Earth. Roleplaying is not pretending, it is playing a
role. And besides even if it where, how exactly is pretending to be a
200 years old looks like 19 girl with looks with would make a
supermodel cry in shame who is held as a slave on another planet ruled
by giant insectoid aliens any worse than pretending to be just the same
just take away the looks and give a penis? Hell pepole Gor is science
fiction, it is fantasy. The Gorean lifestyle draw inspiration from the
philosophy presented in the Gor books however real life Goreans do not
think they live on actual planet Gor. That is roleplay, it can be allot
of fun, it is creative and one can even learn something from it. Hell I
have learned allot from the various roleplays I have been involved
with. But ultimately it is fiction.
Now you might be sitting and asking yourself. Why do Anja care what some
idiots with a limited understanding of reality say or do. Well for the
first I think it is negative for the roleplaying community. After all
that is the one bone so many have to pick with us, the oh roleplayers
do not know fact from fiction, oh no, oh no this is dangerous reaction.
Well we should try to separate ourselves as much as we can from those
prejudices, and pepole like the Gorean roleplayer idiots do not help.
The second reason why this annoy me is that I would like to play a good
Gor RP but all I find is reality confusion, the third reason is that I
am a Gorean and I hate it when these idiots call them self Gorean and
make the entire lifestyle look bad. To repeat it, real life lifestyle
Goreans do not in any way, shape or form believe that we live on Gor
and fly on tarns, no matter how cool that would have been. We have
taken some ideas and concepts from the Gor books and applied them in
our everyday lives. The fourth reason why I dislike the typical Gorean
RP reality confusion is that it creates unnecessary drama and
heartbreak in those involved. Let me give you a fictional example.
We have one 45 year old housewife from Huston, she get hot over the Gor
books and join an RP. She creates the delicate, looks like she is 16
dancing girl Unni and start playing. Soon she meets Master Orlog, a
tarn flying, sword wielding Torvaldslander to which Unni becomes
enslaved. For months the two roleplay and the housewife identify so
strongly with Unni that all sense of reality disappears, she fall in
love with Unni's Master Orlog and all is butterflies and pink bunnies.
Then the housewife decides to ask who Orlog's player is, by now she is
so lost in this shit that she somehow think that Orlog's player must be
just like the character and that he is her Master. However imagine the
housewife's shock when she discovers that Orlog's player is a 30 year
old woman from Wasington DC. The housewife feels betrayed, she being to
send emails to Orlog's player screaming about how she had betrayed her,
how she is false and generally stalk the other player on the internet
like the insane twit that she is. Orlog's player however do not
understand what is going on, she only played a character and she gets
quite upset by the other player's rage.
Now both parties involved here get upset and have their feelings hurt. The
housewife because she believed a fantasy so strongly that she is
devastated when she find out that it is just that, a fantasy, and the
30 year old girl from Wasington which just wanted to play a RPG game
and who do not understand all the hostility suddenly directed towards
her. It is a shitty situation and it could have easily been avoided if
the housewife had kept her feet on planet earth and realized that
rpleplaying is fiction.
To finish off this blog entry let me first apologize to anyone which might
have been insulted by my words. However if you are angry after having
read this, then chances are you needed to read it, you need to be able
to understand the difference between fantasy and reality and if you can
not manage that than you should not be roleplaying at all. Second Life
Gor do not make you any more a Gorean than playing Space Invaders make
me an astronaut. Hell if we are going to go by the logic of these
roleplay Goreans then you become everything you roleplay. If that is so
then I am several types of mages, a vampire, a elf, a golem, a Stargate
Wraith and quite a variety of different critters all in one plump
package. And come to think about it since I have been playing quite a
few male characters up through to roleplaying career I can expect a
cock to erupt from my pelvis Bible Black style any time now. Get a life
pepole, if you want to be Goreans then read up about the lifestyle, if
you want to roleplay then do so but for crying out loud keep your feet
on the ground and return your head to planet Earth when the game is
done.
I wish you all well
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Greetings
To me Spiritual and functional are the same. When I sub for someone it
is a Spiritual act, pain play lead to different states of consciousness
which leads to a closer connection with the Spiritual. However it is my
mindset which makes BDSM Spiritual, just that when I cook that is a
Spiritual act to, and then to it is my own mind who makes a mundane act
Spiritual. I see the blending of the foods as alchemy, the rising fumes
as a way to communicate with the Gods. Our minds can make anything
Spiritual. I think it is closer to say that when you are a Spiritual
person, everything you do, every practical thing you do becomes a
ritual and becomes Spiritual.
The off course one have BDSM done for the sole purpose of Spirituality.
One can have a relationship where the Master is the priest and
communicate with the Divine, and the sub or slave when serving the
priest, serves God or the Gods or whatever is being worshiped through
Their priest. One can have a relationship where the sub or slave is a
magickal tool for the Dom, his or her body becomes the altar, their
Energy, their skill with the occult becomes tools for the Master to
use. Or one can have a relationship where the sub is an assistant or
apprentice in the practice of the Dom, learning and expressing their
Spirituality through service to their Master or teacher.
Or the act of BDSM can itself be Spiritual, whippings and pain play can
be a wonderful tool in magick, sex magick can be practiced with a BDSM
flair. Or one can just see the whole thing, the act of surrendering or
the act of dominating as a way to express one self in Spirit. There is
so many ways one can use BDSM as a Spiritual discipline that I really
understand those who call BDSM a Spiritual practice.
I wish all well
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Greetings
I guess some of you which are visiting my profile might be wondering why there is no text, no pictures no nothing on it. Please let me explain.
I was a kajira, now I have been freed and is Aswad here on this forum's free companion. Now this is quite an honor, but I am still struggling to come to terms with being free. Part of me so long to be back in Aswad's collar and part of me burst with pride that he have made me his companion and will make me his wife. I do not know how I wish to present myself to this community yet. I will soon have a profile up.
For now know that I am a soon to be 28 year old woman. I have someone in my life. I am also a sub, but I need time to sort myself out before I can play with anyone. I hope you understand and forgive the lack of a profile.
I wish you well.
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| Age: 21 |
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