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(For all those who have said they read my profile) I am Married to Lord Chaos. Anything here that I see he sees. There are no secrets.

As one door closes another one opens. Not looking.



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3/27/2018 6:52:44 AM
My  Dom and I are looking for third to join us occasionally.   Usually somewhere between 11:30 and 1:30ish in the afternoon.  
We are looking for a female,D&D free. Non smoker. We use condoms. Somewhere between fit to curvy. Age 30-45 

He is Sometimes on here as fierce one. He is in his late 40's, 6'2'  rocking hard body and likes crops and a buggie whip, but has other toys and is wonderful at keeping the flow going. 

I will host. Lets start chatting on here them meet for coffee.  

8/22/2010 9:01:31 PM
Had such a nice time at the munch @ Fastbreaks. A great bunch . I had my first play date in front of a lot of people. I have played with couples before and when we started there were only 5ish people in the room and the others were mostly engaged..omg ..my butt is soar and all I can do is smile like Eliza Doolittle after she came back from the ball. ( the marks even look like a smiley face) Im still on a sub high. 

6/20/2010 6:38:15 PM
Had a great time at the munch in Lewiston with the exception of the music. Couldn't hear well. I so enjoy getting out and being around the people I chat with. There all good people.

Im nervous as hell about pulling up stakes quitting my job and moving 1 1/2 hours away from friends and family. Made new friends easy and the munch is closer. Things will be better if I can land a job before moving.

6/1/2010 6:39:03 PM
Had the first playdate with the BF after months of dateing in the nilla sence. Not to bad.

There are lots of differences. He likes his pets free roaming im sure to insite terror. I like not to be able to move an ince. It takes escape and hope right out of the equasion.  You are at the mercy of whom welds the flogger...Ah yes there was a lovely thick hand made flogger beautiful made by the BF.he did a change up withthat the dragons tongue and a cane. (the last two have been known to scare me..lol) The tongue licks my skin and I yelp wishing it were comming to an end wondering  then the flogger ...AHhhh a sigh it thumps and stings so lovely. Then the cane tapping where the dragons tongue bit..

My mind flashed back to "Flash Gorden" when princess Aura was tied down and whipped that was so hot for the 80's..
 
I get acussed of topping from the bottem alot..Im a switch ...Still top when asked. at 40 I know what I like Mind games, tight bongage, pain and maybe if im real good treat me like your wench ..mmm a pearl necklace..not for me good to the last drop.  I should add that I don't expect to like everything but I do expect the Dom to be stronger or one step ahead of me. I like my BDSM like a chess matchI may only be bratty because I need some attention.





5/27/2010 4:44:20 AM

well h hope this get better they can't get worse..well they can I just hope they don't.
 Todays drama is unfoldingI want to move 1 1/2  house away and the ex who doesnt want to see my imp even though he lives 15 minutes away wants her now. Im dateing a Dom who is uber family and has a great nilla side and two imps of his own. I dont want her to leave and dont want to move with out her.  Im going to sugest he take her for the summer and do what I do. She needs to go to the doc once a month and a tuters  twice a week.
my heart is breaking.


5/23/2010 6:10:45 PM
Had a quick visit to visit Darkcrafter and whisper. OMG such a fun time He introduced my Lord to dragons tongue. (not sure that was a good thing)..lol I have a few lovely wrap around marks that I looked at this morning and smiled at. I love the flogger give me thud over large sting every time but it did hurt so good. Got to spend more time with them.

5/19/2010 10:27:05 AM
Well today didn't go as planned. Was looking foward to topping with the help of my BF Sheree Whos mostly villa but loves helping me tie up and torment my ex. He couldn't get away either from work or the girlfriend. (I told mine what I was doing)  So she and I did the next best thing...We went shopping and to lunch. I so need a Dom thats stronger willed than I. I need to be pushed and made to feel safe after.

5/18/2010 6:46:19 PM
Lets keep in mind that I have mowed lawns now a total of 3 times. One of thoes on a riding lawn mower. Dads in a tizzy because his grass is a few inches taller than every one elses on his block and my cousin can't do it.

He told me at 18 when I was doing it   wrong because I wasn't going in circles..I liked stripes..lol

He won't leave the house to have breakfast with me but will grab his cane and slowly desend the stairs to make sure I can start it.
After he pinches my fingers in the handle and starts it I ( still swearing and sucking on my finger) walk him back upstairs. I restart the Arian  nice machine started right up. then what seemed every few minutes kept stalling I was having a fit. Aparently I was having trouble holding the handles together. Next time I bring duck tape.I kicked it and heard a knock on the window.  I glaired  at dad ( im sure he was laughing his ass off) It hates bankings and anything non flat. I was pissy and hot by the time I finished kicked it one final time  ( i'll show you)  and went up stairs and downed a beer in front of my Dad at noon. I know my dad is dying but lately hes been heavy with the complements and buying me a lot of stuff and I know I did a bad job ..I will do better next time..but he said thankyou and told me it was pretty good. About the beer he only said don't drink it so fast ..I will get better at it ..

5/18/2010 6:03:05 AM
Ok getting nervous now.  I top maybe once every 2-3 monthes. Its not real topping because I do what he likes thankfully very little guess work. I change up stuff add little things. Like the addition of my slightly less than Nilla friend.

So today is cleaning, making sure the ropes arnt tangled knowing where the keys to the locks are, finding the riding crop (i know where my pretty antique rug beater is).

I want to make this special because although he is an ex he has always been very good to me. He taught me to switch showed me knots and the right rays to do things. Taught me the art of deception and mind fuck. I will never be as good as he is. omg even though somewhere in the back of my brain I know I will be alright he has me scared the entire time.
Reading back this kinda sounds like its the last time. It may be Im moving in with the BF in a few short monthes. It wont be as easy to set up a date to play. Between work and the Imps not to mention the cool SCA stuff that just starting to go on. Fighter practice on saturdays followed by a pot luck.BDSM is a big part of my life and I don't know where it will fit in once I move. All I know if im not topped every 2ish monthes I start behaveing badly, depressed, its like a reset button to my head.

5/16/2010 6:55:22 PM
I am so excited and can't wait for Wednesday to get here. I switch from time to time and its gonna happen again..Muhahaha. Best of all my bestest friend will Co Top with me. 

 
She and I have two different styles. She likes servatude ..hobbling making them do chours, kissing boots. Im a sadistic child playing with a new toy. I love the look on his face when I put cloverleafs on him. " Oh does that hurt" ..lol I nearly get high on the power trip. Its so different from the feeling I get from submitting and being flogged till I can't stand. My mind runs with the possabilites.

He is a wonderfull switch that has taught me quite a bit. We must be doing ok he keeps asking for more.

5/15/2010 7:29:33 PM
I went dancing tonight with my bff Sheree.  I had so much fun. Both dancing and wondering how I survived my youth. Gone is the cigerette smoked filled dance floors and tonight I had 3 beers instead of pitcheres I once sheared with an ex and the formentioned in our 20's..lol I remember her opening the moonroof and we were watching the pretty snow on the drive home. Tonight I just danced and had a lot of fun,

5/2/2010 6:30:41 PM
I tend to second guess things when left to my own devices. I need My dark lord to hold either side of my head in his hand look down and tell me things are going to be alright and Im stronger than I realize. I have 2 monthes to find a job. I have already started putting out resumes. Im good at what I do and more important I care about thoes that are my charges. Jobes have mostly just fallen into my lap. This time I need to put out some effort.
This is the right things to do for my Imp and I.

4/12/2010 2:45:26 PM
I updated my resume and am getting ready to send it out. Im wondering how early I should start if I can only start the new job im the first week of july.  I Love my work with Alzheimers  residents and am very attached to thoes I care for..but..Im thinking maybe a move to a doctors office might be a good change.

4/6/2010 6:11:49 AM
I did things all backwards with my Dark Lord. Usually I meet someone on line chat for a long while, then meet for coffee, then have stolen hours of fun and if things look promacing on the nilla front introduce to friends and family. 

With him we chatted and I had to meet him. He is awsome for my nilla world and now the problem is finding time to play and build trust. 

The formentioned way of meeting someone builds play trust. We are moving in together maybe ( crossing fingers ) into a new house in June. (gotta outfit the bedroom for playtime).

Im thinking a 50's household during the day and kink whenever the house is epmtyed of our 3 Imps.

Thats my goal and Im sticken to it.
Mith

4/3/2010 5:49:52 PM
Had a blast at Gulf Wars in Mississippi. OMG a week of dressing like a wench, servant  and cortisan was most fun. Didnt get to take as many classes as I would have liked but made up for it with a few late night parties. I love drumming and dancing. I met so many cool people who I do hope to see again.

3/12/2010 4:08:53 AM
Today is the day. My Lord and I are packing up the van and trailer for Gulf Wars. I have never driven past NY should be intresting. I am excited a whole week of dressing like a wench in pretty dresses, Taking classes shopping and at night drinking mead by the fire listening to drumming and song.

3/6/2010 7:14:26 PM
Just did the 3 month decant of my first batch of mead in a great while. I wont be able to take it to Gulf Wars. But we have others we are bringing down. Kinda funny Im alone here doing it. the cyphon spit the honey necter back at me and down my chin on my clothes.  So hard to stay clean and non sticky.

Lots of firsts..First week with the new BF. Its the formentioned trip to Gulf Wars and his friend and our 3 Imps will be comming.

We move in with him in June. I fell out of sorts because I play less than when I was a guest to a Dom or 2. He treats me as an equal but I yearn to be his wench awaiting his bidding. I still can't see my life with out him so it must be a fair trade off .

2/10/2010 5:31:12 AM
Gearing up for Gulf Wars.
 We are trying to have all going have at least 4 outfits a warm cloak. Strangly enough its all comming together.
I haven't driven past New York so thats going to be a shock in itself. The am used to day events of a few hundred people and there will be thousands..Ok that will be cool. I wonder if there will be stocks. I know the mead I brewd wond be ready but we have some reserve that we will be taking down.
Need to make lists.

1/9/2010 2:41:19 AM
Its my weekend to work..blaa I will be looking foward to 3pm . Thats when I make my first batch of mead in 10years!!!Gonna do my first few batched with a good friend and Mead God so I can remember all the things I have forgotten. The SCA group I have joined loves it. I won't have a batch for Gulf War but I will for the summer. I am so happy I am back to being a Tavern wench..Silly  I know but I love the white muslin and tight boddice. being forcesd over a table at closing ..

1/8/2010 5:36:56 PM
Lots of changes some real scary. I've done what I call playing. The 1 to 3 or sometimes longer afternoons of bdsm fun. Now gearing up for a more 24/7. My friends and family wont be more than an hour away. As a CNA I can get a job anywhere..He's wonderfull with my imp and I ..so why am I so nervous.

12/2/2009 6:13:46 PM

My Imp and I venture to my dark Lords every other weekend and play house with his two.
 
It struck me over thanksgiving while the Imps and I were peeling veggies I'm so happy to be here. We talk of "hypotheticly moving in ..in June. Its a running joke now because even though im scared of giving up my safty net of a quiet sleepy town set between many lakes and blueberry fields with nothing open after 9pm.
I can't see my life with out him. He treets me like a princess


11/29/2009 5:45:03 PM
My dark Love came over for the night Saturday. It was such fun. Dinner, a rather good flogging than out to the movies to see New Moon.  It still has me smiling thinking about it.

10/28/2009 7:03:36 AM
I was immursed in the SCA's Uncivil war last saturday.. It was a blast even with the down pouring of rain. The men and a few women fought in armor for nearly 3 hours. I stood with the ladies and other spectaters under a tarp.. I am so glad I have a hooded wool cloak. The mead started flowing and the meal and merryment ensued.

Life is good. I call this hobby and my Lord my snowglobe world. I'm at pease and content here.

I left my happy world and stopped by my fathers on the way home to find him in terrable pain. he had driven alone  which he said he wouldn't do and fallen when he got out.  He snaped the ball off his sholder . Choosing to look at the better picture. He will have surgery to fix and have a nurse there every day for 6 weeks. Not as bad as it could have been. I am more afraid of him passing out while driving with all the meds he is on for the big C. I took his keys and he for once didn't fight me.

10/17/2009 1:48:35 PM
OMG I can't beleave how much things click. Hes sweet  with a dark side  very patient. with the imps (his and mine) and me.  I think I have found *gasp* the "l" word. We have met each others friends nilla and kink..so far so good. I am very happy.
Gonna go to the SCA's Uncivil war next weekend should be fun I think I may be a scottish lass.

10/3/2009 4:37:23 AM
No one at work requested this weekend ..So I grabed a per-diem person to cover my hours and am going to spend the weekend with My Dark Knight. I can't wait it has been my happy thought all week at work.

9/27/2009 5:56:03 PM
Ok had another good day with my Knight. Spent the day with him, met his friends, and  our kids even get along. OMG he even makes kickass floggers. Cuddles I can talk to him and he is so sweet. Cant wait to see his  *cough* other side in more detail.

9/19/2009 7:39:07 PM
I broke all my own rules. It started with a nice email, had us chatting. I never ever agree to meet someone in a week aa month at least to see if there are any red flags.  But I did meet him. (I did let people know where I was and called them at the end of the date) The Dom could very well be my Knight and I havent even seen him in armor or fighting yet. All I know is I want to see him and will take it slow...yeah I know..lol ...I want this to be real.

9/12/2009 6:04:13 AM
Gonna go to an SCA event today at Fort Knox to check things out. My inner wench has gone south it seems and even though I have at least 5 different outfits I don't feel like dressing up today. 

Im thinking as Im drinking my morning coffee it may be because Im Lordless at the moment. Skiping  around in dresses is so much more fun when you dress up to please.

Ok everone is ready My BFF just called Her Imps are ready got to make sure mine is and head out..Great thing about the SCA is its family base..well till the after 9pm drinking and singing of  songs start.

That was one of my fondest memories. Sitting in a hall after a feast, sipping a goblet of mead and  hearing minstrils sing then the dancing..Sigh ...I think I took a wrong path some where and just need to find my way again.

8/26/2009 10:02:33 AM
I don't think I want to meet new people right now. Chatting is fine.

Out of state isn't local neighter is over an hour away.

Dad feel or passed out shopping today. I had gone down to do it for him. He decieded that he couldn't call or wait for my next visit and he fell.  He still didnt call till he drove himself home. I want hime to sell the house and move in with me. He wont do it and I don't think its fair to uproot my Imp from her school and make me quit my job to move in with him.. Also there isnt enough room there one of us would be sleeping on the couch....And Im sure we would kill each other insuch a small enclosed space. ..........Sigh* I think I will have to take his keys.

On a good note school is starting!!!
and I had my second nilla date with the same guy in a week. I have been having a hard time finding a person that wants to share my life and be nilla and kinky. I'm gonna follow this path and see how far it goes.

8/19/2009 8:49:41 PM
Had a "movie date"with a Dom whom I'd only met once before. Quite an evening full of pleasant surprizes.
 
1, first meeting I thought he maybe to serious..not so..nice smile and great sence of humer.
2, leather belts are punishments or reward...I still can't secide he made them feel like both.

3, I didn't want to go tonight..was stalling because hes not someone I could bring home to meet the family...Well Im glad I went out tonight my butt is still delishously tender and I have a new start to what may be a great friendship.

8/15/2009 7:40:52 PM
My ex whom I'm still on fairly good terms with suggested that whilst I search for "the One" I might spend a few hours with his Domme. His reasons  very sound. We both She and I don't seem to leave the house and why can't we have a little fun till I meet someone. She is a lovely women and I confess I was nervous after all I though she was being nice because i was dateing her sub and he ...the brat used to torment me with lines like "behave or I wll lock you in chains and have her find you"
(yes it worked)

I had supper with her and we chatted I had only seen her a half dozen times over the last few years and have seen her work and been *cough* worked over and if nothing else comes of this I have rekindled a old friendship.  You can never have to many friends in this world. I had slipped into a rut . The only adults I talk to are coworkers and the residents I care for. I need to make a change.

7/25/2009 6:29:54 PM
OMG my Dear friend and Mentor of ten years plus just left. I feel better than a trip to the cyropracters office. It was an amazing 3 hours.
 The worst thing is having people in your apt house knock on your door. ( I didn't open it.)
 Ok maybe finding  out your developing a latex allergy and the ball gag is making your tongue and lips burn..lol 
The best thing is finding out vampire gloves can tickle and make me laugh. maybe not the desired result but I  was squirming. 
I so need to find someone with his qualities. Tolerates my sillyness,  firm and swings a mean flogger. I have got to beleave there is someone out there. I want a happy ending.

7/22/2009 6:38:15 AM
I was supposed to top this morning I was actually looking foward to it. While I get stress reduction, and incredable bliss and forfillment from being a sub I do like causing this one person pain and seeing him cringe. He is my ex. We are still  good friends and one of the 2 people I would trust topping me with no safe words.  When I started seeing him he intimadated me to the point I felt like I was walking on eggshells even though he is an aswome guy we were just  ill suited. He needs a Domme/ lover with a stronge personally "A type" I am more of a "sanguin" I love to please. And if pleasing him means causing him torment and pain  with a healthy shot of mindgames ..so be it.

7/20/2009 7:32:07 PM
I don't know what possesed me to get this but when I saw Barbarella on Net Flix I kinda remembered and had to see it again. It is cheesie but with cool costumes and kink all through it. Theres even a ristance fighter in a codpiece and chains. A fun evening though Im left to my own divicees..lol

7/19/2009 5:55:35 PM
My Gods ...Everyday I see complaints of scammers. I know there out there... well I got mine.



uhmmm, but life is right time for us is to know , i need ur
 
Help  with what pray tell

 well, if you had the usm of $187,987.34 and you boss fail to some of it to you since you made her your confidence and you are out of State to get your Gym and Anaerobic Center application guarantee form from the US Consulate and you have to pay some money and asking and she refuse to send it out and she busy asking for what you can get at it  like Bank details

LOL I thought I was safe in Maine


7/19/2009 4:58:46 AM
I finally got Dad to leave the house!!! I'm thaking the girls and him to an anamall park in Gray. They can feed the deer and I can imagion how I would fix up the enclosures more to suit me..lol

7/16/2009 6:41:36 PM
The sun hsa come out on my day off. The Gods must have smiled down on my. I took the girls (mine and her friend) the the beach. It wasn't as warm as I would have liked..lol the sun kept lurking behind the clouds. Only in Maine will you see people in shorts and pullovers next to some die hards in swimsuits.
After 3 hours I was warm enough to go in the water rumered to be 68degrees.  I must be getting old I dove swam laps and returned to bake.

It was a good day work responsibilites were put on the back burner. I have got to make sure I do that once every other week.  For sanity's sake.

6/21/2009 7:17:17 PM
Another day of rain. I have been a bit down (with good reasons as of late) but I couldn't stay home any longer. I took my Imp and her friend out to the Breakwaters  lighthouse and we walked on the beach looking for shells and sea glass. They were having lobster boat races. I love the sea airand how it refreashes you.

6/17/2009 6:27:14 PM

I went down to Dad's for his birthday with some lobsters. After loosing my father in law I'm making more of an effort to spend time with Dad.

Hes not a bad guy we just are just not close. I go down once a week have been for years. I clean, go shopping for him and we talk about about his health and the stock market.  I can't stand CNBC or CNN. They are not normal.
Gonna try to convince him to go on day trips with the Imp and I.


6/4/2009 7:48:01 PM
My world got turned up-sidedown tonight. My father inlaw ( I would never ad the ex) was killed in a sensless car accedent with stupid boys driving to fast. He gave my daughter and I the most valuble thing after the divorse...time. He would take her and when his son grumbled he would say " you let me worrie about him she my grandaughter"
He taught us gardening , told us what night to look out for shooting stars and didn't mind taking girls fishing. He was always there. My heart is breaking.

5/22/2009 6:19:36 PM
Here I am again I'm chatting with a Domme in the area about sessions attached to her wall, the cell, cage, there are so many possabilities She is hot and very talanted.  I have been blessed with being able to please her before. My problem: I am friends with a sub male. I didnt let things go further because I wanted a Dom and he smokes.  I started  dateing a switch. Learned about switching. The guy has broken it off with the nasty girl he was seeing. (she was mean to his parents and they are sweet)  The pluses to him are hes good with kids, good job, owns home. We both are dept free

I do get this power high topping him. I guess I need to have serous talks with him. I dought he could top me and I hope to be wrong.

5/16/2009 6:18:45 PM

I have only had real life  exp. I started a search for a Dom and have been made to feel like my online submission is lacking. I don't feel like online is real. Its a great starter for thoes like me with little time to date.   I can give ref. I have had lots of fun but I want now to settle down.  ( collar no ring..lol) I can support myself and my Imp I have no bills and will not date below me.


5/14/2009 5:46:18 AM
I had postponed my search for a compatable Dom when my Dad got sick with the big C. Well we have since found out its the slow growing liver kind. I'm happy knowing I will have years instead of monthes.

12/31/2008 3:08:15 PM

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