As each day goes by i get more and more disappointed with my search. The pool of TRUE MastersDomsTops seems to be dwindling everyday i truly hope that this is only happening to me and that real MEN are not becoming a species close to extinction.I suppose that as a virgin-sissy (never been with a man, real-time) i may not be the easiest subject or the most available option. i am somewhat paranoid in the sense that i am very careful about the people i give my personal info to, and the idea of an actual meeting scares the daylights out of me. In recent months, i have tried to overcome this fear by exposing more of my personal info online for people to use, abuse and spread. Clearly this is not enough but i am really making an effort to relax my defensive mechanisms and to take the next step. i admit that my personal, vanilla life DOES get in the way most of the time but i am not there financially or otherwise (i am not out to ANYONE close to me - family, friends, coworkers etc). Some people understand that, some do not...Some sissies have nerve, some do not...I am truly, honestly looking to take a leap of faith and i firmly believe that a VERY STRONG Master would have no problem forcing me out of my shell. A real MAN that would see beyond the exterior and focus on what is inside, what my potential is and what i would offer at the end of the day....is HE out there?...am i worth it?...not sure on either count, but i will keep trying...sissy Alana