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Evilprincess2819
Last update: 9/24/2016 Currently owning and owned by: EvilPrincess2819
Updated my relationship outlook and age (seems it doesn't increment automatically). Currently looking hoping to find people that are interested in actually getting to know each other. So many people looking to rush into things or finding ways to sabotage themselves.

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I finally decided to satisfy CollarMe's need for visual stimulation. That's just a small part of what's in my collection. The tube in the middle of the first photo is one of my little custom jobs.

A FAQ about me (warning I'm sarcastic, deal with it): What am I into? I've been into BDSM for more than 18 years. I've done it in real life. Some people would call that extreme but I call it natural. What would I like to find? A long term relationship with real people into doing this for real in a 24/7 situation. My place in that relationship will depend on the situation. Would I accept situations less than 24/7 or just for play? Absolutely, I always welcome new friends but my goal remains the same. Why do I list myself as a switch? I have been on the bottom and on the Top. As much as possible I try not to dish out what I wouldn't take. My advice for those who can't get around this you leave me alone and I'll leave you alone. What is casual dating distance for me? Despite my profile's location I am in New York City frequently. Any place from the New York City area to around Chester, NJ is a casual trip for me and I can do that easily. Beyond that things start to get complicated. Can we just be friends? Sure. Just don't start off by wasting my time pretending you want to be more. What does 24/7 mean to me? It means that every possible chance they get 2 or more people engage in BDSM related activities and as such it's a big part of our lives. How does a partner know I'm going to play safely if they trust me? Communicate your parameters. Don't make the mistake of assuming either way. If you can't be bothered to communicate now how do you expect you'll evolve later? How do I know I can trust a partner who Tops me? I prefer to remain untied during any initial play situation. Additionally I communicate with that partner to see if I think they can handle what they are dishing out. Am I healthy? Yes and I am not sexually promiscuous. I'll be happy to submit for tests if someone really wants me to. I am a regular blood donor (a gift of life for those who receive it and something I credit a Domme and friend with getting me started doing). Do I consider myself a freak? I think if you consider yourself normal you're probably dangerously demented. I accept that to some people my desires to give up control and take control are sometimes a little scary and sometimes beyond their expectations. If you can't handle my opinions or how I live my life lucky for you it's a big place and I won't bother you if you don't bother me. What does total power exchange mean to me? It means just that. One person becomes the other person's puppet in a very tangible way. I've rarely found people that are prepared to go this far into their submission. I've even found people that have no idea what to do with me after I offer up complete control. So if you're coming to me to offer this up consider carefully the source of my skepticism. There's nothing wrong with a relationship without this experience, but it's a rare thing in deed to find one that lives this experience 24/7. Do I consider my interests private? No. As a matter of courtesy I don't discuss them with people outside the lifestyle. However, if some dofus were to run around shouting about this they would find it's impact almost non-existent on me and my life. Every one that matters to me knows enough that there's little you could surprise them with. For a long time I kept a copy of "Screw the Roses Give Me the Thorns" out where guests could read it. What are your limits? Anyone that's not an adult (and I know plenty of adults that aren't adults). Anything that results in major bloodloss. Anything that destroys a perfectly good nerve ending. Will you write a story for me? Yes, but if that's all you really want from me just be honest. Where does sex fit into this for me? I've played with plenty of people that I've never had sex with. I won't lie it did excite me, but I don't think it's always necessary to conclude a good flogging with sex. If I were a member of the Addam's Family who would I be? Uncle Festor's ability to light up bulbs has always impressed me, but Mortica wouldn't need a spell to keep me kissing her arm. Then again I do see eye to eye with Lurch. Do I want to have children? First I need to find a partner that can deal with me and has the strength to handle the depths of my interests. Then we can decide. I figure any woman that can handle me might stand a chance in handling my offspring. Am I trouble? No I'm perfectly unreasonable and unpredictable. I'm only trouble on days that end in 'y'. What will it take to make me go away? Don't tell me to not take 'no' for answer then just keep yelling 'no'. Just explain you are not really interested....and poof...I'm gone just like that. Where do I get my wonderful toys? I make them. If you ask nicely I might help you out. Someone hates me why won't I die? Life sucks and then you live ;) What is my relationship status? Single, never married. What's wrong with me? Let's tie you up all snug and we can discuss that. Am I hung like a horse? Honestly no. However you'll be walking funny afterwards anyway. How dare I act like this? Feel free to do something about it. If not stop whining. Do I have a job? Yes and I am well paid. Do I expect a partner to work? Yes whenever possible. I think people should use their full potential. Am I poly? Yes I could function in a poly relationship and I have before. Will it hurt? Nothing that a proper Lady like you can't bear. Have I ever 'broken' a partner? No. I've disciplined people and changed their outlooks but I have never and will never try to 'break' a person's spirit. Overwhelming force is a silly thing. What are my darkest desires? To find a person whose nature so utterly mingles with my own that no challenge is too great and no perversion divisive. I've yet to find that person. Darkness like light is a matter of perspective. Would I 'kidnap' you for fun? Put it in writing and yes I'm up for that. Do I have issues with body modifications? I personally have no tattoos or piercings. I have no problems with those that do. I am interested in body modifications on some of my partners, but not the more extreme stuff like nullification. I might consider a Prince Albert someday for the right partner it's been asked before. What body types do I like? I prefer a woman that isn't dramatically overweight by more than 200lbs from the ideal (so yes I am fine if you're a BBW). Will I relocate? Perhaps. Ulitmately I will continue to travel until I find a place that suits my goals for later in my life. Do I want your money, will I pay for a Domme? No and no. I find that anything real enough to get me into subspace will leave me very sad without after care. Do I do after care?
You shouldn't need me to tell you yes. Am I into men? No. I have friends who are TG and TS but I am not bisexual. I have been known to Dom other men for fun but there will be no sex. Why haven't I responded to you yet? I have plenty to do something probably came up. You'll get faster responses from me if we communicate outside of this website. Why don't I shut up? Why are you so lazy about things that obviously interest you? Feel free to make me shut up just be warned I might bite you. I'm a big fella can I carry you? It is quite possible. If you promise to treat my like your prize horse I might even be willing to pull you around in a sulky. Why do I disgust you? Better question is why should I care if I disgust you? So you're gonna kick my ass? There's a *REALLY* long line for people that want to try that in a violent way. Let me give you a hint. Hit me with a city bus and pray I don't walk away otherwise get in line with the rest and hope I drop dead from some unrelated cause so you can brag. Am I a violent woman hater? Not at all. I love women. I think they are powerful beautiful creatures that deserve fulfilling relationships as are all human beings. I reserve violence for people that mean me harm. Will I tie someone up for long term bondage? That's disgusting what sort of filthy mind do you have to even ask that! Of course I would. Am I a pussy? I love when people use that as a derogative. As I've written elsewhere. I've known some really tough pussies. The better question is why is the person calling you that name so impotent. Will I ever grow out of this? Aren't I too old for this? No. Do I date people on mood altering perions? It depends on why you are on them and how much your mood swings from bunny boiling psycho to someone I can trust. Maybe this is all just lip service? That could be but then these would be some talented lips. Would I stay in chastity for you? Perhaps. I have known some women that are worth it but it's never happened. Do I really love rubber? No I have a bunch of this at hundreds of dollars per outfit because I thought I could patch bicycle tires with it! Can I send money to Nigeria for you? Sure. In fact I actually know people in Nigeria and I'll bring you the money in person so we can start our relationship. No...I'm shocked. Am I real? My goodness you better hope so or you really need to have your head examined since you dreamed up a fiction like me. You must have taken the wrong meds. Have I ever really been submissive? Yes there are people that will gladly admit to this fact. What do I consider extreme? It's a fair question. Naked on a first date might be extreme to some people. I have experience so extreme to me is deeper than a lot of people are prepared to go. I am above all a realist. Someday you might reach or eclipse my idea of extreme (regardless of whether I Top you or you Top me). As this level is so easily desensitized I rarely judge people by it. Still if extreme is your destination of choice I can get you there. The question you should be asking yourself is how far into extreme do you want to go and for how long? Some people can do extreme things for a short time. However, it's a whole different matter to have the endurance to sustain it. Personally I think I'm more impressed by endurance. Will I be your Daddy? I'm all for age play. I am very proud of some of the people I've helped along the way. You should be careful however that you don't confuse Daddy with SugarDaddy. Daddy knows not to raise spoiled brats it's not good for anyone. Do I have references? If I really need them sure. Just don't ask for them if it bothers you I'm not new to this. I'm sure some of them will be happy to dish out the dirt on me, but it's a cruel world and sometimes you gotta take your chances. How can a switch be a Dom/Domme? Actually I've always wondered what exactly qualifies a Dominant that has never tasted their own whip? All of the serious Owners I know have at least taken a few shots from friends for the hell of it. I don't know how seriously I can take a Dominant that is offended by this idea it would seem to me they are overcompensating. How can a switch be a sub/slave? You take it like a human and deal with it. The same way I've dealt with every other adversity in my life. In some cases you do it as a rite of passage. Am I up for a vanilla relationship? No it's not compatible with my life or my goals. Everyone has vanilla aspects to their lives. This does not mean it's BDSM all the time there is always some vanilla aspect somewhere. It means that I am not interested in a business relationship where the only point in sex for my partner is to shut me up for a while because they have no interest in intimacy or my kinks but otherwise 'I am a hell of a guy' and they do it for the sake of charity. What's the point of life if you are just going through the motions? What's wrong with purely vanilla relationships? Many vanilla relationships are broken and I'd rather be alone than listen to the excuses for no communication and an unhealthy situation. I certainly don't want to give up BDSM entirely just to have children and then raise those children in a cold environment that's a bad decision and sooner or later it's going to result in grievances. BDSM requires communication and usually intimacy so consider it a vehicle for a more healthy relationship. If you don't see it this way and the only point of sex here is to rope some dope into being: a piggy bank, massage chair, cleaning person, repair service and nothing more; we are not compatible. If acquiring: a piggy bank, massage chair, cleaning person or repair service is the goal may I suggest hiring a professional because like a prostitute: everyone in prostitution agrees they go away when the job is done. When is a longer term BDSM relationship not a relationship? When the people involved agree that it's play and nothing more. Just because BDSM can be an aid to communication and intimacy in a longer term relationship doesn't mean it always has to be something like that. Casual encounters can be fun but I think we all hope that sooner or later something casual becomes something with deeper meaning. Am I religious? I am agnostic. I understand the value of religion to people and I won't take that away but I don't think we know enough to be atheistic or worship. I choose to remain neutral. Aren't I an old man at 38 maybe I should act my age? I am long past the point in my life where people lecture me with alterior motives and I give a damn. In my 20s I was with people almost twice my age. I won't lecture people how age brings wisdom, I know some really unwise older people. It does bring opportunity and if the person giving that lecture fails to seize that opportunity then the loss is their's. Am I in a hurry? If I ask you to contact me outside of this site it's probably because I'd like to be able to communicate without having to deal with the limitations of this site (like the obvious pornography, banner ads and people trying to waste my time). If I give you my name it's probably because I'd like to think you're not just wasting my time. That being said I like to play for endurance as I've already stated. I'm in no hurry beyond finding out whether or not I'm wasting my time. I value my privacy. My interest in someone doesn't mean I feel like handing out private information to people that it turns out are just wasting time. Why do I think this really long profile is a good idea? Cause only someone with real interest would bother to read it all.
3/5/2014 5:26:14 AM

So as my year wears on I've worked another series of long weeks.  Things are starting to come together and the outlook for people having nice vacation looks great.  Mine looks like they got what they asked for and I get to sit here and clean up the consequences.

One of these days I'll find someone worth this for.  For now I'll go back to sleeping at least 7 hours a night.  I know I am *just insert some negative bullshit here* for pointing out the inequity of this nonsense.

It's funny that I have seen people question others for their 'servitude' and 'commitment' to 'abusive' S&M situations.  If people only knew what sort of crap I endure to be committed to being productive they'd understand that this is just the natural state of affairs of the World not a 'condition'.

Personally I think people are just lost.

1/2/2014 3:03:59 AM

So 2013 has apparently been the year of giving.  I got a great job just to move to another.  I gave away selflessly to charity only to have my competence, intentions and motivations questioned endlessly.  I spent the later part of 2013 cleaning up one improperly planned mess after another and lucky me none of these should really have been my problem.  It's been a pointlessly stressful year for me because really I suspect most of these people don't respect me any more for the gargantuan effort.  Quite possibly some people respect me even less.  Some days working hard and being generous doesn't appear to pay - I guess I just have to do it for me and my reasons.

Anyway clearly politics have rotted America.  Everyone is so busy 'getting one over' on everyone else they seem to have agreed to tear up unity and piss on sacrifice.  It's a New Year and hopefully people will find new inspiration to be productive and motivated.

1/6/2013 12:54:34 AM

Political position: Abstract moderate.

I have no party and I personally think politicians should be locked in a room to thoroughly debate everything to the end.  That room should contain some knives and perhaps some pistols.  Should they kill each other oh well.  Guess they weren't as civilized as they like to pretend.  Anyone that really...really...wants to lead probably really shouldn't.

Can I discuss politics.  Sure if you really must.  Do I care if you feel you are my polar opposite in this regard?  No I don't.  I vote my mind and experience and I welcome you to do the same.  The great part is that I welcome the chaos of political conflict as it prevents easy consensus and abuse of military and legal powers.  Feel free to tell me how ignorant I am as I use my right to vote to keep the dominant forces against each other.  After all, again, I've seen up close and personal what happens when 'the Decider' makes it fast and simple.  There is no way to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.

My personal opinion is:

That liberals often forget that they are centralizing power that can be abused and that the conservatives would happily abuse that power just to prove it can be done.  See they told you it could be done let them show you.  It's a test..no really...we'll all have a good laugh later.

The progressives are often not engineers with loads of experience.  They like the conservatives seem to think if you just pour money into *anything* it'll just produce the best results.  No it won't.  If your society lacks Justice and is one endless distraction all that money will be blunted.  I like the idea of progress but evolution can't be forced or it wouldn't be evolution.

That Libertarians have picked a great position with little power and little chance of getting power.  Though often I hear they voted mistakenly for Obama in the name of 'change'.  Odd that.  Then they proceed to explain that was a bad choice but surely their next will be better.  It's a safe place to be where they steer their group to the best choice for their position.  What position?  Be careful here I am acutely aware of the Founding Father's history.

The real conservatives.  These are the people that like what they have now and want to maintain it.  What is it that they want to maintain?  Right now we have what I want...2 dominant parties at each other's throats.  So in the sense I like that I can sympathize I want to maintain that situation.

The conservatives.  Let's get real here.  You are *NOT* a conservative if you seek to fundamentally alter the current situation.  Especially if you start by referring to the past in intervals in which you never lived.  Especially if your story sounds like utopia.  The harder the pitch to change I bet if I look under the mask you have an another motive.  This is really very much like the Libertarians as you seek a comfortable mask for your agenda.  Though unlike the Libertarians who can avoid risk by not holding dominance these folks have plenty of dominance.

The corporate facist.  Not to be used senselessly.  The corporate facist is all about evolving markets and systems to produce the greatest production.  Everything comes second.  People's quality of life.  Justice.  Fairness.  This is a war and we all have to sacrifice.  Well oddly all except the 'special ones'.  The magical executive leadership that is the 'Decider'.  A position achieved by those born to rule.  Do not dare to fly too close to the sun for only those of birthright are capable to be feudal lords.  These people can't decide whether they prefer the mask of the Monarch, the zealous God(s), or the Bourgeois.  On the plus side they are agile as long as they don't have to do the welding, the cutting, the field work, and there's sufficient inferior slave labor underfoot (or that be created by sabotaging the economy and *all* labor protections).  Some of them occasionally do some dirty work just to prove to themselves how 'easy' it is (for the 5 hours they did it).  These sorts will be first to notice that my hands and feet have callouses, obviously I am to be put in my place (I wish them luck trying).

Utopia exists in your head after a good orgasm.  *Any* political position incapable of 'surviving' without perfection is incapable of surviving in the real World less the World is an orgy in an orgasm.  All of my statements above will incite someone.  How dare I?  I dare because I am a realist.  I am my toughest critic and if you can't take that critique to your dainty little World take this.  I have altered the political landscape a few times for both the Democrats and GOP.  I see your positives and your negatives.  If you can't grasp the fairness of my position don't waste your time trying to convince me.  I've seen the blood of the innocent we have all spilled in the name of Justice, and greed, and power, and all the things the moral claim are the virtues they seek to embody.  Your failure to evolve is your problem...hence I am dominant...do not agree well there's not a darn thing you can do about it.  Feel free to piss all over the mask of virtues you claim to wear and try if you must, but just remember from the minute your civility comes second to winning you lost a piece of yourself.  I don't need to win just help put the dominant forces on the battlefield instead of their pawns.

If you are the sort of person that decides how I should feel on this topic either from on top or bottom and can't deal otherwise we night have a problem here.  I watch John Stewart, Stephen Colbert, Glenn Beck, Fox News, MSNBC, BBC and Al Jazeera occasionally.  I am more than capable of running businesses and I've worked my way up to here.  If you can't accept a difference like I can, or stand to risk being wrong if you challenge me to prove it (just as I love to be proven wrong...because it means good things will happen), this might be really frustrating.  It's never personal with me unless you try to kill me or sabotage me.  Then it's personal.

12/30/2012 6:10:08 AM

Submissive and slave where's the line?

Even as a slave you have an opinion.  Does not mean anyone cares about it...but generally I do care about what slaves think I just might not care to do what they want.  On the other hand to submit implies to bend occasionally to the will of another.  If you really trust that other person you might bend to their way more often than not.  If you are the sort that jumps into being a slave you are in for a bumpy ride because you will be giving up your control from the start.  I have known plenty of submissives that really are the property of their mates because their mates have earned their almost continuous compliance.  That's a special place and whether or not they think of each other as property is irrelevant to the fact that they expect compliance.  Slavery always has a way out and if you share powerful experiences with the owner a real pain of leaving is to replace that expectation and it might be very hard.  To fear being a slave is to fear the intensity and the bond.  A slave or fully committed submissive without a bond of value to another may as well be meat and frankly that says much the same about the value of the owner.

12/30/2012 5:50:19 AM

I am a survivor.  I've been to some pretty rough places.  People have tried to car jack me, assault me, I've been shot before.  It's always interesting to me that when I call myself a geek and nerd that people assume that means that I have no idea about violence.  I've had my ass kicked and I've done the ass kicking.  I know what fight or flight looks like up close and personal.  I detest violence.  I dislike that so many people run their mouths about war and how tough they are.  If you never watched someone you care about die before shut up because sooner or later everyone dies if you are lucky you can hold their hand in their final moment before their journey on this plain ends.

It's easy in BDSM to confuse the 'rough stuff' with violence considering how many people advocate war and would likely be found curled up in a ball unable to function on a real battlefield.  I practice responsible sadism.  I don't want a parter that wants to be mutilated.  I can take control of you.  Pull your normal off like a rain coat.  Wrap my hands firmly around you and take you on our journey.  If I choose you will be sore in the morning.  Your body will bruise like the canvas on which I painted with my deliberate strokes.  If this turns you on get used learning how tough you are cause I'm gonna find out how much of this you enjoy and cum over.  Everyone has a real limit and after that it really is torture.  I'm not cool with real torture...I'm cool with the sort of thing that you can still hug me tight and trust that you will heal and I will help you.  Do you have to be a masochist to be with me?  No.  Just never be afraid to be upfront with me about where you are at.

 

12/30/2012 5:30:42 AM

The cookie cutter:

Are you one of those people that likes to paint with a broad brush?  Do you judge a book by it's cover?  I get it.  I really do.  What else can you do if you don't give people a chance?  I'm a guy that shaves his head.  I'm a big guy.  I look like the stereotypical biker.

Then again I like fine clothes.  I enjoy art and literature.  I'm equally comfortable in a log cabin as I am in marble and sculpture.

It's funny how that cookie cutter works.  It can make you feel like you're protecting yourself.  However if I hold you close and pull your hair and call you a whore, a slut, a cunt and property your cookie cutter wraps itself around you like the finest steel collar.  It's superficial of course.  If I take the time to hold you close your only there because I care enough to do so.  Still I'll clip my leash on that cookie cutter collar and take the lead cause it's just so much fun.

12/30/2012 5:10:18 AM

I'm a geek.  A nerd.  That is to say I'm intellectual and cerebral.  I wouldn't mind being with someone that shares my interests in things like that but I am an explorer.  It is wonderful that you have a sex drive.  It is wonderful that you have other interests.  It is wonderful that maybe you have some ideal situation you want to explore.  However there can be little replacement for the interest to explore.  If you can't deal with that aspect of me you'll probably find it annoying.  I am by no means reckless I just can't see living your life in a box.  Well that's not entirely true...I can see living in a box for the kink of doing so...grins.

12/30/2012 4:53:30 AM

I'm 24/7 in the sense I'm me 24/7.  I think it's interesting that people can be someone else for a little bit but then role play in their normal life.  I am exactly what I am, the only difference is the restraint I practice the rest of the time.  Picture it a little like a person wearing weights under their clothes slowly but surely building endurance and strength.  When you take the weights off movements are unhindered, range of motion increases and gravity is just a little less of a drag.

12/24/2012 12:10:12 PM

Merry Christmas to all and to all a great night!  This has been a rough year for me and it looks like 2012 is doing it's best to keep my in the ring till the very end.  Still despite the my latest batch of woes I refuse to give up...a Merry Christmas to even you bratty little wench Fate.

 

12/22/2012 3:58:19 AM

So being that it's 12/22/2012 it appears that the World didn't end after all.  I mean it was a simple mistake.  A partial message on a piece of ancient stone chiselled out long ago by a society swallowed by the jungle.  A romantic idea that somehow we could see some of the little details but not the grander picture and it wouldn't matter.  If the Mayans left us any message at all it was probably the all to real message to live everyday to it's fullest because things change.  Even the ancient stone gets worn with age.  The fragments crumbling into the Earth as materials for life yet to come.  Carpe diem.

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 Age: 37
 Wales, United Kingdom