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	Well it's been almost two years since I've been here.....time to take another look? 4/10/09 I now know exactly my place in the lifestyle, I'm no longer confused. I know exactly what I need and want and who. I also know what I have to give and how much I can give. This self realization comes at a great price though. This past week I reconnected with an old love, my first real love, but being young and stupid, I foolishly let him slip away. Through many hours of phone conversations, there were many questions asked and many answers given. I now know he was the "one". I would have been a much better person with his guidance, teaching and love. I always say I feel young at heart, now I know I am just stuck at that age when I lost him and spent the rest of my life since then searching for him...or one like him. ---------------------------------------- Greetings, all! I have to add this, Please, please, if you write to me and do not have a picture on your profile, send one along with the email. I am not shallow and I do not expect perfection. I am far from perfect as are most. But, lets be honest we all have things we like/prefer in looks. I believe I have just hurt the feelings of a very nice man. The last thing I ever want to do is hurt someone who doesn't deserve it, he didn't. I am sorry! Another thing to know, I leave myself signed on here even when I am away. If I do not respond to you right away, it probably means I havent seen your mail yet. So please dont send an email five minutes later telling me how rude I am for not responding !! The only thing that will accomplish is getting your email deleted and you will be blocked. I find impatience such an unattractive quality...especially in someone who considers him self a "dom" First and formost, I am here to make friends. Please, If I put you on my favorites list, that does not mean I want to belong to you, necessaraly,,,It means I find your profile and what you have to say interesting and perhaps we can be friends and share ideas. .....I came to this site with more trust than I have now. I came to learn and explore something I have felt inside for a long time, but it seems I keep coming across wanna be's or just crazy people who think that just because I dont have much experiance in the life style that Im an easy mark......Wrong! I have plenty of life experience and know when someone or something needs to be walked away from. Is it really so hard to meet a man who is what he says he is? Who has the patience to teach, water, nurture and watch what blooms? I hope not...I need to learn what it is inside me, or I will always wonder and be hungry for that knowledge. There is so much that interests me, but scares me as well. I suppose thats where the trust and guidance of a truly good dominant male comes into play. .....Some say I should not call myself a BBW. All I will say about that is: "In my case, it doesn't stand for '[B]ig [B]lue [W]hale.". Perhaps "full figured" or "curvy" would be better. I guess BBW or not, is in the eye of the beholder... .....Either way, If stick figures or Barbie dolls are what you like, I am not the woman for you. .....I was born and raised in NY..and yes..lol have the accent to prove it. Also have the NY attitude..which has and does serve me well in my everyday life..but will be put away for "Him". I have a good sense of humor (a bit on the sarcastic side) and love to laugh and make others laugh...please have one too. If you cant make me laugh I doubt you will be able to do anything else. For me..this all starts in the mind. If you can capture my mind...well...the rest is easy. I am well educated and well traveled, most of my travels have been in the far east. My favorite has to be indonesian....I spent 4 months there once learning how to cook the foods...I love to cook. I dont have a wall of degree's (only one) but am a student of the world. Meeting and mingling with other cultures is a wonderful teacher. My friends in the lifestyle swear Im a switch...I do have a dominant side, I admit it. One day I may explore that side, but for now, one thing at a time. I love making new friends and talking (Intellegent conversation), so dont be shy....drop me a line. If nothing else we may become good friends.. Be well. Jo I do enjoy talking to and learning from those who know more than I. The only thing I will ask, from the onset, is common courtesy. I am submissive but, I am not YOUR submissive therefore. I am a pure slut at heart..proud of it ..and love when someone can bring that out in me. I'm also a human being and a lady.

5/23/2011 12:54:45 PM

I just dont understand the men on here........so inconsistant and unreliable......and the reason I stay away for so long when I do. Well wishes to all.....till (if) I return...xoxo

2/18/2011 7:24:56 PM

I found this on a profile a long time ago and saved it. It spoke to me, I felt like I could have written most of it...I hope he doesn't mind my sharing it with you...

There is something about
Being pushed up against a wall, face first
Cheek resting on rough wallboard
Breath caught in your throat
Listening to the growling in your ear
And trying to remember your own name

There's something about being
Pushed up against a wall
Your back flat up against it
Staring straight into eyes that see through you
Swallowing hard
Waiting for your heart to start beating again

There's something about
Being made to crawl across the floor
To a seated Man, staring into your eyes
Not letting you not look at Him
Not letting you stumble
Drawing you to Him without a word
Trembling, a whimper caught in your throat

There's something about
Being pulled up by your hair
Feeling that hand slink up your neck
Into your tresses, close to the scalp
Grabbing, gripping it, guttural sounds emitting from His lips
The pain not nearly as strong as the urge
To cry or bite a hole through your bottom lip

There's something about
Being bitten
Especially on the back of the neck or nipple
Feeling His teeth so close to piercing you
Wondering, as you cry out, if He will, this time
Wondering, if you're going to bleed for your Submission

There's something about
Being bent over the back of a chair, without warning
Without pretense, without question
Having your skirt flipped up, cool air hitting hot skin
Your cheeks blushing, with the same color of your ass
As He warms it with the striking of the palm of His hand
The tears you cry not cooling you
The tears you cry because He has found you

There's something about
Being slapped across the face
Not backhanded, but smacked to bring about
A change in behavior
A change in attitude
To make that lovely wail come from deep in your chest
You long to make it, as He longs to hear it

There's something about
Those words He uses
Those names He calls you
Those phrases meant to elicit a response
And you do respond
All of you responds
And your body betrays you, always

There's something about
Being thrown down and taken
Not against your will
For your will is to be there
To please, to submit, to offer, to relinquish
And you cry out for breath, for more, for Him
And you know you are home

There's something about
Being drug in the shower
Forced to your knees
Hissed at for silence
Growled at to be still
And awaiting the flow
That you know
Marks You as HIS

There's something about
Kneeling quietly beside Him
Your body bruised, reddened, coated, tired
Your mind silent, for once ~ for a time
Your head bowed, your eyes closed
Your lips quivering as His fingers touch you
Your submission, unquestioned
Your Peace at Hand

how a sub might feel

4/25/2010 6:22:23 PM

One has to wonder........with all the emphisis we have on "respect" here.........why do so many supposedly respectful people not bother to start a first email with hello. Hello?????? Its called manners.........I learned mine in the first grade.....<<<sigh>>> I have decided to stop trying to teach them to some on here.

9/23/2009 6:44:45 AM

The other day I was trying to explain my submissivenes, as best I could, not completly understanding it myself. The best for now is that I realize that "I do not need to submit to be happy, I need to be happy to submit" I love when all the brain cells work at the same time....lol

4/28/2009 5:39:07 PM

Ya know, even though I try to convey what is acceptable in a first email..(respect, etc.) It never fails that some fool will send an email that is just so wrong...lol. I know many of us have to deal with them even if it just to block them. Now, I do try to answer all that are polite and respectful even if it is to say that I dont feel we have anything in common and say thank you for the email. For the most part I just delete and block the ones I dont like....but every once in a while the bitch in me just has to come out....lol. Today I got an email with nothing but ""would you like to be a pet"". I tried, I really did, but couldn't help myself....I responded with "" would you like to be a fool?...ohhh wait..too late...you already are.."" and blocked them....it was great, I really needed a good laugh... thought I would share...<>

4/26/2009 2:04:35 PM

I have been away from this site for a very long time.....and now I remember one of the reasons why. I just signed back on a few hours ago and when I opened an email from someone (very polite mail) I was called away from the computer before I could answer him. When I came back he had sent me another email saying that I had no manners....oh well, another "thinks he is"

blocked.

1/5/2008 4:05:14 PM

I am not doing what I am doing to be evil. I am trying to protect my sisters. And to be honest, the men too. It's just that the men usually see through him quicker. No hormones involved...lol. Take it from me ladies, if a man does not have one photo of him smiling....ASK for one. There is a reason for the no smile/teeth photo's. Feel free to contact me to know more.

1/5/2008 2:47:53 PM

I just read a post from someone who met my ex...rt...she said how interesting/entertaining his life stories were...lol. Fiction usually is. And I see he is still spouting his beliefs in total honesty...I really wonder how one can live within a total illusion as he does. Just a little note of warning...dont ever lend him money.

12/25/2007 7:21:37 AM

Well, the Christmas chaos is over for the year. It was great though...all my boys here with me. Life is good. I really am blessed. It has been a really hard year for me. My sister was murdered by a stalker, my youngest son had to be put in a group home for a while ( he is home now and doing well) and some of the other things are on my profile. But I look at all the things I have and the good people in my life, and realize there are so many that are so much worse off. We have a roof over our head, food on the table and we are all healthy, to me, that is all one can ask for. Anything beyond that is frosting on the cake. Best wishes to all of you .

12/24/2007 11:28:33 AM

LMAOOO What is wrong with people? I just had someone tell me how messed up I was because I havent been able to drop everything in my life and run to meet him. Forget the fact that I explained that I just got the internet hooked up at the house and have house guests staying with me. I answered an email from him this morning and gave him my yahoo id so we didnt have to keep mailing here. Jokingly I said if he messages me I might answer him, well he did message me but I had walked away to answer a phone call. (new Massage table was delivered..:) )

I come back to find some nonsence about playing hard to get and that he is done bending over backwards to get together...yadda yadda. and that he was done...buh bye.! I explained about having to answer the phone....got some responce like yea yea. It then got ugly with him saying nonsence about now he knows why I am single.....lol. Anyone who can read, knows I am single by choice right now. I decided, being Christmas eve and all I was going to be charitable and not chew him up and spit him out, so I just told him that I was done with him and blocking him. <<>>>> Someone, please, take the loser magnet off my forehead....lol

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL

Jo

12/23/2007 8:21:17 PM

How sad when people get caught lying that they turn and twist things around. The man I recently left is saying the most awful things about me. I cant even say Im angry, I feel truly sorry for him. He is alone, no friends, almost no family bothers with him. I tried to remain friends with him but he shut me out, guilt at getting caught I guess. Oh well, his loss. I have so much love and family around me right now, and I know he will be spending the holidays alone.

12/23/2007 12:44:31 PM

Well I am back on Long Island now.....Home! I spent the last year kissing a frog.....lol. Ah well, Im sure my prince is out there. The only thing I did learn from him was that I like a Daddy Dom. He needed a Mommy, so that didnt work out so well..<>. This is going to be a wonderfull Christmas, my oldest son is in from cali on leave from the navy, and my two other sons will be here on Christmas morning as well. It will be the first time we are all together for xmas in 4 years.....can you say "happy momma"...lol I hope all of you have a wonderful and safe holiday....((hug)))

6/28/2006 7:51:03 AM

I'm not homesick anymore...I'm home ! While Fla was fun..my heart was here. My boys are here and most all the people I care about are here as well. I realized after Fathers day that there really was nothing holding me in Fla..so I packed up..threw my stuff in the car...and came home... feels so good.

6/19/2006 8:12:38 AM

Ok..yesterday was fathers day..my sons were in NY...went canoeing with their dad...then went to have dinner with my dad at my godmothers house.... and I am here in Fla. whaaaa I am homesick....I want to go home....lol

3/31/2006 12:57:07 PM

I had someone ask if I was married or attached and thought, sheesh cant he read? I then went to look at my profile and realized that nowhere does it state my status as far as that is concerned. lol God I am so blond sometimes ! ! I am not married, attached or involved at this time. OK now that clears that up.

3/18/2006 7:13:36 AM

It's funny Now that I am not looking I am getting more emails...go figure..lol I do welcome the mails and the kind offers of friendship. Thank you. I feel this is important, to learn from those of you with the knowledge and experience. xoxo

3/16/2006 8:21:09 AM

I am no longer looking. Not now, maybe never. I don't know where that leaves me...but I need to step back for a while. I would like to continue to make friends, to continue learning and talking with others more knowledgable than I. Maybe one day I will actully understand all this. It seems the more I learn, the less I know. I am quite frustrated, and yes , confused. That is why I am no longer looking. To the friends I have made, thank you for your comfort and advice.