Rewrite: 3/28/2024   

     Well it's official. My wife has told me for the last 10 years that she wanted this lifestyle. Turns out that what she really wanted was to be a defiant bratty owed personal slut. She's a kind soul and she's willing to suck and fuck me pretty much anytime I want, but as you know, there's a lot more to this lifestyle than just sex.

     I have a need for control. I love being dominant and forceful. I love being able to tell a woman to model and dance for me. to wash me in the shower. using her body like a washcloth . I like a woman that's willing to suffer a little for me . I like using a riding crop and be demanding. All this just makes my wife cry.

     So just like the sissies have to hide who they are. I have to hide my brutal nature from the world. so there I am, my wife wants to start going to church and I'm going to come here to vent on the journals. and yes, in case you're wondering, she does know I'm here and for anybody I might meet. You can even talk to her before we meet, but she will never be Involved.

     I'm not really looking for anything. Nobody will be near me and I've always been pretty good at cultivating the women that I need. I just now know that I have a real need to micromanage  wome for my pleasure. I don't want you to give me a blowjob. I want to tell you how I want to use your mouth and what I want you to do with it. I want a woman that will relish in my control and be willing to put the effort in to pleasing me.

     Every woman I've ever slept with has had multiple orgasms to my one. I should at least get my one the way I want it.

at any rate, I need a woman, but I'm a friend to all

PS i don't care for anal