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| I have relocated less than an hour south of the California US border. I have been off the site for the last few months because I got into a relationship. I wanted to taste the vanilla. As you may imagine, it didn't fulfill me. So here I am. In Baja. Seeking the one.
This is not something I'm prepared to go on living without. I have struggled all my life, with what I am. I'm not kinky. This is an emotional fix. I need to be devoted, whole-heartedly. To trust, without conditions. To shine and blaze and unfold under the guidance of a wise and wild, medicine-man-master.
Give me the chance to heal myself. Give me the opportunity to express this deep need inside of me. Bear compassionate witness to the emerging woman within me that needs to crawl and beg and whimper and fall under the spell of your Presence.
For me the D/s lifestyle is about so much more than what happens between bodies, and for me to engage intimately with a man there has to be a profound connection. Emotionally. Spiritually. I am not the kind of woman who is here for cheap thrills. I want resplendence and transcendence. I want to find my soul in the heat of sex and love. I want partnership, in life, not just use.
Please understand, that I am not looking for someone to define me, or give my life meaning. I already exist; life has already forged me. I do not need a new shape. My life is already rich with meaning and purpose. I am seeking an avenue of intimate connection, presence, and expression of my secret inner life.
I like to think we're all grown-ups here and we understand that power exchange relationships are deeper and more complicated than vanilla relationships typically are. That neither of us can fully express our Dominance or submission unless there is a powerful connection, because we draw the expression out of one another via magnetic attraction/polarization. Personally, I'm very sensual. I'm not a maso, and yet I need my master to have a sadistic streak. I need to fear him, a little.
Probably the biggest issue that comes up for me when seeking my magnetic opposite is my spiritual sensitivity. I'm not a religious woman. I'm a gifted one. Some people might see psychic phenomena as madness, but the right master for me knows that my sensitivity and knowledge of how energy moves makes me a valuable asset. He also, senses things, and uses that to control.
If I have a fetish, control is what it is. I do not mean micromangement; I mean that when we are together, his control is absolute. When we are apart, we can feel each other all the time. There is that much intimacy. That much trust. I want to want to do whatever it takes, to please you. And I want to do it without losing myself, because, while undoubtedly flawed, I'm a deep, sincere, curvy bbw. An empath, a great communicator. A deep feeling person. A woman of character and honor, and someone who is driven to this by a need that goes far beyond sex.
If you get that, please, write.
I'm a real person going through a major transition in her life right now. That means that I'm busier than usual, and I really will only meet you if we have a very powerful connection established over letter-writing and phone. Having an intellectual conversation is not enough. Being nice is not enough. I really have to think we might have a shot at something very rare and worthwhile.
The truth is, that if you're the right masterful man for me, I will move heaven and earth to accommodate your Presence in my life. And I can.
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For the love of God, Sirs, be awakened in your bodies. If you can only use the body of knowledge in your brain, her vessel will not open to you, will not respond to you.
If you can only use the body of knowledge in your balls, her heart will deny you entrance, and her devotion will be lost to you. You will wear her out quickly with all your demands, and she will take flight from your farm.
If you can only be present in your heart, then she will love you, but believe you cannot hold the allness of her: dark and light, destructive and creative... the nitty-gritty embodied experience of womanhood. She will not believe you can balance her fullness with reason and firm grounded understanding, and will not defer to you.
Only the masterful can use all three. |
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Your submissive partner has needs besides your control. A Ds relationship, is first and foremost, a relationship. Kink cannot substitute for interpersonal, empathic, and communication skills. Nor can leather, whips and chains substitute for presence, intimacy or sensuality.
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A Ds relationship, is first and foremost, a relationship. Kink cannot substitute for interpersonal, empathic, and communication skills. Nor can leather, whips and chains substitute for presence, intimacy or sensuality. - me.
"An awakened man chooses to honor the woman he loves.
He doesn?t object and argue with her, nor does he need to prove himself right.
He attentively listens to her heart without judgment.
He allows her to express her feelings, accepting and validating them.
He communicates in a manner that acknowledges she is important, cherished and respected.
He is conscious of her needs and wants, as if they were his own.
He is her protector and does all he can to make her feel safe.
He is also her best friend and confidant.
He is devoted to her, makes her a priority, and commits himself to supporting and fulfilling her desire to feel special and adored.
He knows she is a precious, priceless gift.
When a man opens up his soul and cares for a woman in this way he allows her to trust him, to reveal her passionate heart to him, and to give all of herself to him as he gives all of himself to her."
~ Daniel Nielsen |
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| Age: 26 |
| Hoorn,
Netherlands |
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