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Resisting My will & your desire is pointless - so bring it to Me; with bows on.
Sensual, erotic & demanding. A Lady of character, exceptional taste, & quality, with a certain "something" which puts Her a firm cut above anyone you might otherwise stumble upon in your search.
I stand before you as a Woman of distinction; displaying a bearing of pride, a look of defiance, & sharing an exceptionally creative mind.
An experienced Owner & trainer willing to work with the appropriately mannered subjects & personally qualified materials.
I do NOT take requests.
Willing key holder to the right submissives.
Generosity anticipated.
Punctuality & timely communication expected.
Interests including: percussion play, cbt, power exchange, prolonged chastity, bondage, sensory deprivation, wax, edge play, specialty training & more.
Come to Me with dreams exposed ... For dreams & desires radiate heat and warmth. They provide comfort to the soul, bring colour to a home, light to the dark & share a need to be cared for, & fed ... Just like a hearth fire.
I will be your fire;The flame you can not be without; both consuming & protecting you - the flames that you thought were your own, you will learn are My desires; created to find you & bring you to Me. Bring those pieces of My soul back to Me slaveling; so they can be reunited & burn within Me, & I will hunger for fuel, & I will be demanding, & if you deny Me I will leave you mercilessly; Wet, hungry, & cold in the dark. For you have known My flame, dreampt of My lingering hot touch.
Ah; But until you partake of that flame, My kiss, My caress, & feel the passion I hold ... that spark is all you carry. A possibility left stagnating, lingering as you look, & your dream of a flame dances slowly in your mind; Reminding you of what you are missing. the light flickers, the shadows dance ... the dream calls you ...
Bring the spark, share your desire with Me My sweet, sweet slave & allow Me to show you the power of that spark when fed, & fueled & kept alight ... Alive. I will hold it for you, guard it, & keep it burning.
Yes; Fuel Me & My fire, My sweet slave, for if you heed My requests, & feed My desires; I can promise ...
I shall awaken you as none before would ever have dreamed, & as you never thought possible.
For I am magical and mythical - & you ... are in My garden, drinking of My pool.
Drink ...
Drink deeply.
Let the waters cool you, for the fire & its burning need will return, My sweet ... And I will be here with you when they do.
Kneel before Me ...
Look deeply into My eyes, look upon My face; that frighteningly beautiful face ... Clothing may make the man, but the look ... the carriage, the disposition define the Lady.
How many others here share this look; even naked? I am not one among many -I stand alone.
Now - Come to Me ... Serve Me ...
Become entangled, & drown in that sweet seductive desire ... for as you can see; I am not merely a Lady - I am ... THE Lady.
And yours are not merely dreams or desires, they are pieces of My soul, My dreams & desires; glimmers of heaven.
Should you deserve or desire to serve an Angel on Earth; & to serve with distinction, then it would be wise to say "hello."
Opportunity may knock, but it is up to you to answer.
Come to Me.
* Residing and located in North York Ontario - GTA
* Main photo taken March 15th 2013
* Current photos (2017/18) also in the pile.
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First possible slave arrangements made to be meeting and undertaking some preliminary examinations of the specimen.
LESS THAN 24 HOURS - FROM INITIAL LOG IN - After NOT BEING HERE - FOR YEARS
I will repeat to those playing games that there are many a slave willing to be bent, and dreaming of being Owned by someone such as Myself.
I have no desire to deal with slaves in other countries. I will not be providing my phone number or email to a slave prospect. I am not here looking for a lover, husband, or boyfriend, so don't even begin to be delusional. I am not interested in "clients" and I am not, nor have I ever been a "pro domme" - I want more from My slaves than money, and I expect to get it, be given it without fights, without arguments, without power struggles. Indeed I will not participate in such dramas with those aspiring, but instead will appear with the longest of nights and the coldest of winds to remind the masses of the fires which they could be gathered around while the wind blows outside - and to seek to invite a very select few from those available herds for My Own personal stock.
If chosen I will anticipate bodies in the house, I will anticipate a willingness to relocate and a lack of avoidance on the matter, and I will anticipate an appropriately humbled and respecting bearing. I will only ever accept the cream that rises to the top and after decades in the scene training, teaching and guiding I think I'm due some worthy material I can simply sculpt to My purposes and desires. If there is need for training, that is not what I am here seeking at the moment and I anticipate that those writing Me can appreciate while I will read the "fan mail" I will only be replying to those "left standing"
If the prospect can display appropriate bearing, manners, and attitude and bears knowledge of a trade, experience on a farm, or has knowledge of a useful nature - I'm even more amused. What can I say I have a soft spot for mechanics, construction, painters, roofers, farmers, and other manly type toys. I may also have use for others not mentioned here, so feel free to apply with a note designed to win My heart and attention ... The first one is through the door ... and currently uncertain if it is excited or scared about the possibility it faces in meeting Me on Friday ... but it has secured an initial meeting period and will serve Me, bring it's gift and in so doing assist Me in accomplishing a goal ... and that, is a wonderfully decisive, trust building experience, and a great beginning.
I have another distinct possibility lined up as well who may be sliding into the next available interview slot behind that ... I'm not bragging, or gloating - I'm saying if there is desire, sitting on it and waffling will serve neither the slave nor I ... I come in search of worshippers and swords ... And in short order, I am sure, I will have a solid foundational beginning to the reformation projects.
My great thanks to those who have waited and carried My flame, and dreamt of serving beneath Me, wearing My collar and chains, while gifted the right to call Me Goddess. I am saddened and dismayed at the havoc and destruction wrought upon our world, and it is My sincerest hope that together we can work to rebuild a sense of family, that might spread and grow and become, community.
If it would serve or care to cast it's name for consideration it must consider the following
I will only provide Canadian slaves with interviews
I am not seeking a BF, husband, or lover
This is not a 1:1 situation, I'm not a babysitter or a distraction
I will only accept slaves whose interests bare a life threatening concern (breath play, edge play, extended percussion, extreme bondage, sensory deprivation and the like)
I have absolutely no desire to be involved with adult babies, or those who have as yet not experienced their desires, but live in a realm of fantasy.
There will come a time it is asked to relocate, if that is going to be an issue please do not apply now.
I am looking for long term slaves of value as a base stable and will favour slaves with a skill or trade as that's how I am.
I do NOT follow the belief set of SSC (Safe sane and consensual) but instead follow the belief set of RACK (Risk Aware Consensual Kink)
In this vein - please be aware I don't believe in safe words, and if that makes this one run, then off it goes. I am happy to explain My position and stance on such matters and why I bare them, but such things will not be a concern to the prospect for "quite some time," regardless. I want trust first, not a hard on, a hard on is a easy physical reaction, trust is an much harder emotional one, I prefer trust and if given trust will work using that - to get to the other. But if I am in control how can I possibly expect a slave to tell Me when to stop, or when is enough? That's not dominance, that's insulting to My intelligence, but amusing none the less.
I have been in this world a very long time ... I am currently on the site in all likelihood for what is a limited time, if there is a desire or interest to be considered, please - do not hesitate, second guess, or even foster that doubt - and risk missing the opportunity. When I have the prospects I am interested in I shall likely vanish again and focus upon training and building the foundations to the empire, with the right slaves and stock that should not be a lengthy process, but those interviewed in any subsequent waves will not be personal slaves, but instead merely tools. Again - I repeat - do not delay.
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So ... For those following the lunacy of Life ...
I was yes, very ill - I was yes, laying on the floor drooling on Myself level of quadriplegic. Much to some folks chagrin, and other folks dismay - I lived. Beyond and after that and without therapy or assistance I've retaught Myself to do everything, and am at this juncture - 9.5 years post that mishap a whole lot more mobile and happy.
In the meantime however every piece of PVC and rubber - latex and rottables - have rotted. What can you expect, you know, it happens. The entire dungeons, equipments and the rest will need to be replaced, built, etc.
While I was immobile I lost much, some to theft, some to disrespect, some to inability to manage it through that period, and so with little other than some old floggers and restraints I began thinking My time in the leather community had come to an end and it was time to move on - and so - was doing as much.
Then this past year I've had to face 2 deaths, 2 men who I'd met post pervert era and who knew of My interests but both respectfully kept their desires to themselves. One died of auto-erotic asphyxiation and was found half naked, dick in hand, belt around his neck, under a bridge. The other - confessed his interests and motivations on his death bed, and asked Me to whitewash his place before the family found the evidence.
These sorts of things get One to thinking - to realizing that My place in this world isn't about erections, and while those may very well appear :P the truth of the interest is the reality that - I understand. I "get it" - many of you have been trying to tell Me for decades now that "I'm different" than the other Domina's ... at the time I took it as light handed compliments - I've come to realize however that was rather flippant of Me. So - Ok ... I'm not here for a week or two, I'm not here for the thrills and kinks, I've been in this world since I was 19 ... and indeed there's quite probably folsk around somewhere who remember as much. To Me this is all fun and games sure ... but I'm here because I'm not a risk to anyone's life, in any capacity, ever.
Now having said that - don't for a minute think I won't get this one (you) to believe otherwise. I'm a fabulous cock tease, an amazing flirt, I will deny this one and it's desires, I will be happy to keep it on it's toes - I am no t however an "angry Lady" and I do not control with abuse - should this one manage to be accepted into My stables it will be found I prefer to assist growth, to enable possibility and to assist a slave to attain the potential within so that it might be better able to serve Me at it's actual capacity. This is My position, and perspective, and it has served Me well.
Should this one have desire to serve I will anticipate an explanation as to how it believes the desires it bares, and My motivations are matched - which is to say I'm really not interested in hearing about a foot fetish, or a penchant for cross dressing but frame that as smothering, and a man who enjoys being anally penetrated and I can fully see how such an interest might be life threatening.
I am experienced, intelligent, and able. I do not play games and when I decide to work with a slave, I expect to be given control. If this one is seeking session play, I'm not the Lady for it. To be perfectly blunt I am currently living alone in a 4 bedroom home and am fully able and willing to move the right slave/s in ... Same time I appreciate a motivated action minded slave who isn't forever sitting ona fence wanting to be coreced - I'm not here to coerce and again if that is your desire you would be better off to seek it elsewhere.
I hope this journal entry has been illuminating - I have not been here for years and yet the very first attempt I made to log in I got my password right ... call it an omen if it likes but I seem to have some sort of spot in the Hierarchy of Leather ... and I think it's about time I stood up, walked in, and re-sat My Throne.
I come seeking worshippers - and swords ... the halls are empty the stables have been abandoned for years, and - I think I'm ready to do this ... WILL IT SERVE? |
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AH ha!!
I got my first " University level A" - I am so freakin pleased with Me!
Course the psychology thing with a lack of access to the databases I need to do my research I'm sucking horse balls in at the moment - But once that's rectified over the weekend I'm sure it will be sorted in short order.
Also have yet another Sociology paper to write over the next couple of weeks - oh joy.
FOR THOSE OF YOU ASKING:
I study during the day at University - in the evenings I am studying/writing and working on papers and assignments - weekends I'm busy chasing the crap I didn't have time to do during the week (like the movies I need to watch and do reviews for; for school) ... this means I have little to no time right now which is the price of a double major degree, in a compressed format and pulling high grades; In one of Canada's top Universities.
So if you want Me to stop MY thing to focus on YOUR thing; I'd recommend you provide Me AMPLE reason to be doing that ... and not "hi wanna hook up" because My answer to "hooking up" will be - NTY; I'm busy.
Also I believe I'm rather clear that if you offer nothing but time - it is of no use to Me as the time you offer is not in MY benefit, and is actually a detriment to Me as you want Me to drop My work to focus on your "kink" - so ... make it worth My while to consider it - or realize aimless mail gets 2 answers, and then I have better things to be doing - Like maintaining My "A" and working to pay down student loans ... So either HELP - or BE helpful, by not wasting My precious time with circular emails that go nowhere fast ... kisses.
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rofl - way cool ... ooops!
I got an email from the University a few weeks ago talking about some art exhibit thing they do annually - Sex & Secrets it's called ... supposed to be all sexually themed material so I read it and it said you could submit written work as well, you could be anywhere in the world to submit material for entry and did not need to be a current or former student of anywhere ... so I in a bid of what I thought was idiocy ... sent in a submission. TODAY I got up early to send in my "homework" only to log in and see the email saying ... YOU WON ENTRY! And yes ok I admit it I shrieked ... *giggles* SO ... Apparently I will be displaying in an art exhibit at the University of York for a few days with a piece I wrote about Endometriosis - right after the most recent bunch of surgeries and hell. Cool eh. Course the FUCK UP of it is the fact how many people consider themselves artists, they submit to thousands of art shows and never get picked ... and yet they still consider themselves artists ... right. ok ... so ... I do NOT consider myself an artist or even a writer ... I have submitted to ONE art show ... I did get picked and ... I still don't consider myself an "artist" ... lol ... but I AM excited and thinking HOW COOL! ok so ... this week I have 1 exam and 2 papers due next week ... Monday ... groan ... and then this art exhibit thing I have to build, take in and then man for some part of the time I'm sure ... AND; I shall get to speak with complete strangers about genitals! How amusing for me!!!! lol ... Have a stellar week, yes I'm feeling MUCH better. Thanks to those of you who wrote and expressed healthy wishes. Now get out there, kick some butt and show em' how it's done kids!!
XxoxX
PS - I already think I know what piece I want to submit for NEXT YEAR's display too!! lol Unless I write something better between here and there I just GOTTA do it. It's done in Shakespearian english - olde english ... and it's a D/s themed piece laughs ... WHAT! Someone hadda do it to PROVE to people that they have NO CLUE what they are reading and claim to "hate it" for that exact reason - and YES - it IS full of sex! SEE!!!!! lol ... I'm off to shower and chase the kids about the campus all week! Enjoy yours! |
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*Today's BIG NEWS* - I have been accepted into York University Faculty of Health to be studying PSYCHOLOGY starting with the Winter 10/11 Session - if that worries you; take it elsewhere ...
And you SHOULD be worried ... very worried ... after all you're hiding things, aren't you ...
If you're a person who enjoys a good head trip - you should probably say hello ...
XxoxX
* Orientation done ... *chuckle* ... I arrived slightly late but the moment I sat my kiester in a chair I was ahead of the class as apparently I was the only one of the bunch who decided to actually DO the recommended prep work ... ;) So I had to WAIT for the rest of em to catch up; even tho I arrived late - Gotta like that. DO NOT mess with - THE BEST! |
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I prefer slaves to subs for any number of reasons and as slaves I prefer a method of objectification, which while I understand is usually not understood; brings Me to the point of saying the following so that My grammar and approach to this one is understood:
I have little use or patience for "humans" - they are arrogant, egotistical, mouthy and usually assume rather than investigate. They oscillate between self control and uncontrolled desire, and seldom posess any reliable sense of balance or will, drive or consistent desire. Humans are a waste of planetary resources ...
A slave on the other hand is the greatest treasure, and the greatest compliment to a Lady. A slave is not "useless" and should not be treated with a lack of respect, compassion or understading as a slave is to be collared and claimed: for life: and in that light, such things as "long term consequences" become far more than a mere term but a great consideration.
I have no repect for humans, greedy, demanding, obstinate souls they are - but a slave deserves not only My respect but that of any other who may feel fit to judge it as well. And should they judge without understanding, or education they will find I am quite happy to play "turnabout is fair play" while chewing their dignity and self-righteouness into a bloody pulp. I have no tolerance, nor use for humans, and submissives who are collared to their fears, and thus will never be able to wear the collar of any Lady, to show respect or to understand their POTENTIAL VALUE.
I rule not with a heart of stone and a mouth of fire - but instead prefer to lead by example and with understanding, acceptance, and that mutual respect, which turns into devotion and becomes love. DO not misunderstand Me I do enjoy to humiliate a slave, to torture a slave, to hear tears, and see it cry out; for in pushing our physical form this permits the soul to evolve and the mind to explore itself in ways which were previously unknown to it ... I enjoy sensory overload and sensory deprivation - humiliation and praise - tolerance, understanding and yet know I am also demanding and impatient to be seeing results.
So as much as I love and respect a slave - I have neither for submissives, or humans.
Are we still on the same page I wonder ... Do take the time to read the rest of the journal and should the interest be maintained or even grow into desire - I will be here, and awaiting a note.
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There is no more to life than the two realities of heaven and hell - one is where we are living, and one is what we are seeking to create.
If someone is serious about wanting to be a part of your life - then they will seriously make an effort to be in it.
THE WAY To WIN A WOMAN:
Respect her,
Honour her,
Love her,
Protect her,
Care for her,
...Obey her,
Sacrifice for her.HOW TO WIN A BOY?
smile once
*GAME OVER* XxoxX
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Holy Lord liftin!!!! NO WAY - SARIS - HEY SAAAAAAAAARIS!!!!!! YOO HOO OVER HERE ... (slave can get a little absent minded and errant here and again) YO! SAR ... hey DUDE ... um ... I'm looking at a calendar and uh buds ... darling charming slave of Mine ... What year is this? What year was it? So - this would then mean ... (I love it) That SLAVE may be potentially in the position to trash previous history, and change patterns IF IT SO CHOOSES ... DAMN SON that's freakin wow - I'm freakin OUT over here man .... WTF! SLAVE DID IT????? *shocked look* ok wait ... CAN do it now ... hasn't officially done yet I'll have to wait and see ...
For the rest of you reading and goin' HUH??? - On August 31 of this year ... I will have Owned saris for 13 years ... no shit, and no one in My life not My parents, no one ... manages to remain in the picture (or desires to be in it) beyond 13 year mark - indeed for the past few years slave has been becoming more and more distant to Me; and I've come to feel less and less desireable, sexual, and empowered ... Was after all slave's job to be maintaining that sense of appeal and desireability; its been slacking and I have been too ill to chase it - and now the question arises ...
For whom does the bell toll?
So this year should be FUN! lol ... oh now I'm so CURIOUS dammit ... well shit if sar MAKES it to 14 years and finds its way to manage more gooder communication; I personally think it should get a fucking medal - don't YOU?? And if NOT then there'd BETTER be one extra super fun party or something, don't you think?
I mean for slave to be there - 13 freakin years, has it REALLY been that long? Wow - seriously feels so much not like 13 years - WTF!!! lol SAAAAAAAAAAAAAR OMG slave I SO SO SO wanna spank it til it bleeds ... tie it up in the leather body bag n suffocate it with Me nether regions ... tickle it for HOURS ... aaaahahahhahahahaaa lol ... and seriously NEED I mention that MY ASS HAS NOT BEEN WORSHIPPED IN YEARS NOW????? hmmmmm???
Thirteen years, I suppose works cause they talk about 7 year cycles ... NEXT year I so will NOT be sitting here healing from surgery and if everything is BACK to mostly normal - OH watch out!!!! Here I COME!!!! YEAH BABAY don't just clear the roads n sidewalks - just - get the fuck out of town ... 7 years AGO - shit got stinky man ... THAT sucked ... and 7 years before that - shit was AWESOME!!!! ok so ... awesome - crappy - and then reset and start what should be now a GOOD cycle again - HEY SAR U payin' tention here? PAY TENTION SARLING!!!!!
ok so ... assuming the laws of nature are still in play and all is mostly well in the universe this would suggest that SHOULD the next year or two be managed slave and I are just gonna hafta be buried together at this rate. *chuckles* How long has it been since anyone even DID that??
HOLy FRiG 13 years sar - I am seriously - truly - fully jazzed with that - shocked even I admit it, BUT I expect to be actually talking with it to be continuing the count.
Holy damn ... that's NUTS ... 13 years?!
No sex ...
Not living together, for a large chunk of it ...
Yep. Tis so true ... slave while he could have been far more at times than it has been - has despite all odds persevered, endured, and made it to a mile marker in time which as yet - no one in My life has ever surpassed so hell he wins (so far).
Which is to say - should saris opt to return to a path of actual communication it will HAVE EARNED over the next year the award of longest standing relationship in My life - ever - from BIRTH to 2011.
Many once aspired to being in the position which at this juncture - has saris as the last and only man standing ... (or slave kneeling as the case may be)
August 31 ... 1997; Diana died and we were doing our first off-net face to face and live meeting, he came to My house to stay for a few days which uh got lengthened ... slave flew in and I made it wait at the airport for like HOURS (lol) I was so mean eh - What? I was wanting it to go through thinkin I wouldn't show up and then realizing how much it meant - when I did ... and then I took it out and left it on a street corner starving, and dirty for a week ... the whole stable was there actually - we tended to Lady Di's memorial and represented the British Consulate General - but not a soul noticed we were hungry, we never left the site ever ... or we'd not bathed all week ... and the lesson was? People will take - people will demand - people will fail to care or notice - people will remain wrapped up in their own idiocy while claiming to notice - But I will feed slave, and I will care for its needs, and I will notice.
We even got a letter from the British Consulate General ... well I did ... saying how fully cool and awesome I was and our help was - and that "I wish there were more people in the world like you" ... (We even had KEYS for the embassy, and like all we did was show up and stay!) Was cool ...
The stable was cool - was fun - been thinking - IF I'm actually going to be FEELING mostly more HUMAN now - maybe just PERHAPS ... I should consider being somewhat less reclusive here. Of course back THEN it just wasn't a party if Domina D.Vyne and crowd failed to show up and put on a display. Wonder what he heck the peanut gallery is up to now ... SAR!!!! OY slave yoo hoo - we should check that out and go find out and cause some serious trouble I mean we haven't done THAT in how long now???? hmmm hmmmm hmmm COME ON; I KNOW it wants ta!!!!
Course - if sar is just "unavailable" perhaps I shall have to remain receptive to other possibilities ... any suggestions kids?
OMG SARIS!!!!!!! Thirteen?? REALLY I mean in human years as compared to collared years - does anyone even KNOW what the math on that is???
And seriously slave - I'm impressed. Now - come TALK to Me dammit!!! lol Well what, we can't PLAN anything if it's all freaky n weird ... BUT ah har I'm over here pondering and I'd LOVE to share the thoughts with slave - but it would have to be available to share those things with.
Hell for that matter I deserve a medal for 13 years too ... mmmmm ....
Wildness 13 huh ... cool!
I LOVING MY SLAVE!!
Now if sar won't be here then can I find a slave who is actually like HERE, with Me; or is that too much to ask?
XxoxX
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... NOT a good week , sick to death of being sick; doing nothing and getting nothing done. Multiple trips into the hospital this week - however (and I keep saying this) HOPEFULLY when the smoke all settles from THIS round of "OMG" I shall be able to once again walk upright, eat, and simply exist without being in constant pain - Being a Woman ... needs perks for the tortures it comes with - send perks! (and I don't mean pills I mean - smiles) ...
While lazing about staring at the ceiling it dawned on Me I currently have 21 holes in My body ... yes 21 ... 9 I was born with ... 9 are piercings healed ... the other three are spares in case anyone ELSE wants to play about with Me innards *laughs* ... what joy! I shall be known for the remainder of this year as Madam Swiss Cheese ... TY! woo hoo!!! lols ... oh laugh a little or I'll hit ya with an IV (and miss intentionally at least 3x ;) HA!)!
XxoxX
For those asking what is it that's wrong, and so many surgeries later refuses to be "fixed?" ... please feel free to look up ENDOMETRIOSIS ... thanks to those of you who have shared letters of compassion and concern; & yes I am still seeking a live in.
*****
Endometriosis affects 15 - 20% of Women
Women suffer an average of 9 years with the disease before they are
(surgically) diagnosed.
It is genetic ... a Woman who has a Sister with the disease is 15X more
likely to get it than any other Woman.
It is most notably believed to be activated by environmental
contaminants, particularly dioxin.
It can kill - but it can also bring a Woman to suicide to stop the
pain.
It is placental tissue outside of the uterus, adhering to digestive,
bowel, pelvic wall, organs, or other tissues, and this tissue outside the womb
follows the monthly hormone cycle of the tissue within it, however the menstrual
blood of Endometriosis tests to be more stem cells than any other cells - cells
which are happy to attach to anything handy and flourish. The disease is it's
own cause ...Even menopause may not stop its progression.
The tumor like lesions which form are called implants as they are the
material which has implanted in the incorrect location, and may burrow into the implanted site - They however cause the creation of the adhesions in their swelling and rupturing, the adhesions are fibrous bands of
scar tissue which is hard - it is the adhesions which are believed to be the
cause of the most severe of the pain.
The fibers and bands grow upon and over themselves hardening the pelvis
and fixing the organs onto each other, causing rigidity and immobility
accompanied by excruciating pain.
There is no cure for Endometriosis, not even menopause has proven to be 100% successful.
The only possible treatments for what appears to be "a disease of the
immune system gone awry" revolve around the cessation of the menstrual cycle of
hormones. This can be done surgically, or with drugs and birth control by
simply omitting the "skip week"
Surgery is the only method for testing, and treatment, but the bleeding and swelling of the surgery
itself can cause the condition to worsen, spread, and otherwise compound.
The pain is severe to the point of full body sweats, vomiting,
convulsions, spasm, and even fainting. The relentless cramping and constant
abdominal tenderness which accompany the disease leave sexual activity in the
"inappropriate" category as it will be far too painful either during intercourse
or afterwards to be deemed "enjoyable" by those thus afflicted.
Endometriosis is the leading cause of infertility in Women. It does not preclude Your chances of becoming pregnant but it can cause extreme complications in
pregnancy, and tends to result in multiple miscarriages. The bleeding caused by
the miscarriage tends to worsen the endometriosis and again lower the chances of
successful conception.
Endometriosis as a body type loves tall thin Women. It is not yet known
or understood if these characteristics are precursors of the disease, or if the
disease causes the particular build to emerge.
Endometriosis causes multiple "odd" food sensitivities, and intermittent
"allergies," most noteably nuts, grains, meats, and dairy - leaving only (some)
fruits and (some) vegetables.
Because of the pain, vomiting, surgeries, fertility issues, bloating and
cramping Women with endometriosis have self perception and body issues,
compounded with confidence and sexuality issues which society, the medical
community, and the psychiatric community remain remiss in addressing.
The average Woman with endometriosis will miss 5 days of work a
month (assuming the employer is understanding, and retains Her)
She will be unable to care for the family, or home as well as She may
feel is appropriate
Others will accuse Her of being lazy, of failing to be
reliable, of having no respect, and of not being there when needed. She needs
understanding and compassion, not offhanded accusation.
In time - Endometriosis can cause frozen pelvis, it can destroy bowels,
bladders, stomachs and intestines, it can enter the eyes or brain tissue, legs or anywhere else in a Woman's body . The constant vomiting from the pain will
destroy Your esophagus, stomach and throat linings which will harden and varicose and thus need to be removed surgically - this will mean if You ever take an
aspirin, You're dead.
Endometriosis - is a silent plague upon Women - who suffer in silence and
humility rather than ask society to face with them (and those close to them) the
leading cause of infertility, FEMALE duress, and angst.
Men - will never know or feel endometriosis, it is a disease specific only to Women, and caused by our reproductive /immune systems.
"My tummy hurts" ... it's a lot more than just "bad periods" and wickedly
unpredictable mood shifts (caused by pain shifts) ... it's a disease without
cure, that strips hope and dignity and leaves a Woman who was once vibrant and motivated and beautiful - a husk of Her former self.
I have - endometriosis, and I'm not alone in my suffering. And if you would serve - then you need to completely understand you will be doing so on MY terms. To actually STATE that you saw and know that stress makes Me VERY sick; and you are not worth a trip to emergency ... so ... either serve ME as I ask and require ... or go get your jollies elsewhere; period - I simply can not afford the "conflicts" and battle of the wills which so many of you seem to enjoy. Also don't expect Me to exert any physical effort on you I simply can NOT do it, asking Me to is an insult and again lands Me in the emergency room in tortuous pains and will NOT happen. Domestic duties if you'd be so kind would be FABULOUS! I will never get enough foot rubs, or butt kissing either I don't think ... HUGE fan of a good massage ... and hey sometimes things ease up for a spell and if that happens - things can be far more interesting but of late I'm lucky if I can walk across the house.
Now - I ask again ... Would ... you ... serve?
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Gee look MONDAY I shall be knocked out and hacked open - how glorious ... See that wasn't much of a delay at all was it! |
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Not that anyone give's a rats ass ... but surgery was cancelled at the very last possible moment (as I lay on the gurney outside the OR) - and has already been rescheduled to be being done before the month is out. Apparently the anesthesiologist wasn't quite up to form (and rarely is) and someone saw fit to put the nasty little man in the path of My until then awesome day. So we crossed words, and then swords, and then wills. Last I heard he was still trying to pull his testicles out of his mouth, and his dignity from the ditch.
XxoxX
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For those inquiring ... I put My back out terribly badly last weekend and have been flat out immobile all week. I don't want to hear how you relate I'd rather hear the vacuum going.
My birthday passed on Thursday - quietly without song, dance, candles or fanfare ...
Surgery: Monday the 31st ... Will leave Me once again flat out THIS week and then I get to look forward to dealing with cleaning the bathroom, vacuuming and this sort of mayhem when I'm once again upright and able.
And you?
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* LOST: all hope, belief, and sense of "being" Reward offered to the slave who is slave enough to return those things to a soul that which is currently - past a point of interest. |
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Things around here have suddenly become rather fast paced emotionally of late. It's a long, sordid and personal tale which I am not inclined to divulge here or using this format; however the point remains I am not interested in bullying, in coercing or enforcing and am more inclined to be seeking a "silver service" - House assistant ... than I am someone who wants Me to be chasing and spanking them. I'm sure it might be prone to crossing over if the trust and communication was there, but truly at this point I need to focus on MY own growth, balance and life happiness as opposed to catering to a would be slaves desires all the time in a bid to keep them ... appeased ... Can that be worked with ... Does it sound desirable or appropriate to anyone's desires ... because at this point - That would be My desire.
XxoxX
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Well there's some new photos up - I'm not thrilled with them, in fact I think they suck and I'm rather fully disgusted with them. To YOU who don't know the location and desired shot you probably think it looks fine - but trust Me it's a very very poor rendition of what SHOULD have been in the shots ...
SO ... I'm looking for photographers. I don't care if you shoot as a hobby, with the newspaper, or for a living ... I just want and need some USEABLE shots done which are clear, visible, viable, and awesome. Think you can do it or are willing to try? Drop a note in the mailbox and say so, it should get you a "hello," anyway and an intial meeting - what you do with it, and how you handle it will decide if there is a repeat.
Right now however - I could really use a "shooter" ... or 6 ...
So hopefully - I get some responses ...
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Oh look it's that time of year again, and the river will be beckoning. I see the weather plans to be absolutely stunning this weekend, and that all means it's time to get out cameras and go play.
The river I do these photos at is in London Ontario, so if you are there, or would/could be there - have a camera, and want to particpate in this years additions to the photographic collection, you should probably say something via email, and then plan to be busy on Saturday.
Hope all is well, with all of you.
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Holy poop!
Wow well that's a shocker.
I got an email today which someone sent LAST YEAR and I'm sure they thought they'd never get a reply to. Truth was I hadn't read it. I never think to check the bulk mail - but when I did there it was ...
A serious blast from the past.
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Wow - I woke up today to a whole new life, and body and reality. Over the past 18 months I've been undergoing some surgeries, yesterday was supposed to have been a simple exploratory, instead they discovered My stomach lining was full of vericose veins, and removed it all for Me.
My throat is god awful sore today, and swallowing is pretty disgusting, but overall I feel MUCH, MUCH better and I've got a bit of a smile for the first time in EONS!
Hospital said it's only the 3rd time they've ever seen it, I keep hearing how I'm a complete medical oddity, at some point it will sink in that I am not normal or average but for now they're all still in their little "weirdo bliss" ...
IM SO EXCITED!!!!
I've been SO SO sick for SO LONG - I know MANY of you have tried to communicate with Me and I do appreciate your efforts - NOW I think I will FINALLY have MY life back and be able to enjoy it more again.
I will be taking a short time to heal and recuperate, and can not eat any solids for a few days - But I can already tell you ... I'm back in the shyt kids - and I ain't goin down for no one, no how ...
I'm SO LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING ABLE TO EAT!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHA
And if I put on 20 LBS I'll be freakin jazzed!!!! No holding out hope cause well I keep hoping and it keeps NOT happening, but hey NOW I can absorb food, which should help!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! For the 1st time in well over 15 yrs MY TUMMY DOESN'T ACHE!!!!!! WOW I'm SO THRILLED I COULD JUST SPANK SOMEONE!!!!!
WOO HOO!!!!!
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Bearing
Ethics
Communication
Observation
Mindset
Endurance
Servility
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Moving: Oct. 16-19
Now - when I hear so many people wishing to serve as slave; WHY am I doing this - alone ... without slave help or labor? Not a SINGLE slave in sight? Oh so wanting to serve are you?? - Love how the supposedly dominated pick and chose the times to serve - like a free soul with all kinds of choice as opposed to a slave with a need - desire, seeing an opportunity to be of use and helpful and jumping to it ... a slave who aches to assist a beautiful and strong Lady in a time of need ... so that She may see your value and worth and perhaps chose to continue calling and requesting ... the presence and assistance of he who would be slave.
HOW ELSE are you supposing to gain My attention, respect and SHOW you WILL serve not just PLAY???
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Apparently a few folks here seem to think speaking to Me for a few days enables the title of My "considering them" ... such is not the case. Indeed if there is no application fee and weekly support seen the claim is simply impossible ... If you cannot support your own interests, desires and needs then you will never support Mine - don't come to Me claiming to be willing to serve ME, when you refuse the labor offered, and cry about minimal but fully substantiated weekly stall maintenance fees. It’s patently obvious when you do this you are seeking to be self serving and cater only to your own interests and desires – Mine are not applicable; and this is not a situation I will tolerate.
If you cannot even provide Me that small modicum of consideration - or feel it is beyond your capacity to be self supporting in your “stall fees;” then I suggest you move along, and seek elsewhere.
ALSO you need be aware that in My reality initial indiscretions are penalized by hefty fines; not My personal exertion via “discipline.” You will prove and show your sincerity over time ... because I like having that time ... I expect to be able to take My time ... And to enjoy the fruits of your idiocy. After all: you err, I get an evening out at the Symphony ... a shopping trip, or whatever else I deem suitable as punishment ... you however will NOT accompany Me; you will simply pay the consequence of the indiscretion, insubordination, or otherwise errant and less than submissive position.
IF YOU ARE NOT PREPARED TO DO THIS ... I am not prepared to deal with you - a slave should after all contribute; amuse, entertain, and bring smiles not stress – but contributing is a vital component to the term, “slave” as in “slave labor.”
I’ll assume we’re fully clear, and I shall have no need to repeat this. If you have ANY desire to be added to the very short friends list, I’d suggest whoever you are; that you take some initiative in standing up to the plate instead of daydreaming yourself into old age.
I will give you no more than 20 days to waste My time with idle human chatter which prances about in forever meandering circles … that 20 days is your time, your turn, your point to decide, to ask to say, to find out … If there is no movement over that 20 days, no sign of increasing submissive “set” or posture, no request to begin holding a stall – I will find many other things to do on the 21st and every other day past that … I am simply not interested in aimless, pointless chat – Or in introduction training slaves – who forever run off to other Ladies; while I am left unrewarded for the effort – No more … if you want to make the claim of desiring to serve Me, you will be expected to be backing it up in short order.
The wisest of the slaves would be ensuring the mail man loved Me … long before those 20 days were coming due … We’ll see if that happens or it’s this is more claims without cause.
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Lesson of the weekend ... when the machine is being a turd change the battery in the mother board, and clean the fans ... saves the office from being torn to shreds while the stupid things deals with repairs which likely - aren't needed.
Any and all computers 2 or 3 years old and older are more likely a $3 battery than a $150 drive, and install, and reset, and segment and well yanno how it goes.
The OTHER lesson of the weekend is ... the weatherman should be SHOT ... if ya even THINK you can rely on this jerk ya oughtta know better ... I want to know what his wife thinks of him *chuckle*
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I am so very pleased to announce that as of the beginning of MAY 2009 I will be leaving the London area and not anticipating returning here to live. I find the community repressive, the people uncreative, and the scene non-existent. After the lively scene in BC I find this to be fully unacceptable, and so am relocating elsewhere that such cloistered community restraints do not exist.
Until then I will not have time for seeing, or interviewing people; and as yet I remain uncertain as to My direction of community involvement online after the move.
I'm a fan of real life involvement, physical proximity, contact, and emotional involvement - Don't waste either your or My time with the emails - they bore Me. XxoxX
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Went to the EVERYTHING ABOUT SEX SHOW this weekend, there was actually a substantial amount of D/s and fetish oriented stuff - D/s particularly.
While wandering about, My much prized posterior was photographed and much adored yesterday, and today I was even more of a spectacle in the red mardis gras outfit, but I'm not here to write about Me at this point.
Few things.
1 - shitty toys are shitty toys and it's bad enough you have to use them yourselves but good lord people please stop trying to sell this garbage and utter junk.
I'm seeing floggers with shammy's for falls = I give it 50 swats and it shreds, and if I wanna tease someone with something like that I certainly don't want falls 2ft plus long and 3" wide - buy some real leather already. Try upholstery leather at a place where it's actually TANNED - in Ontario you'd go to The Olde Hide House in ACTON and buy the stuff, they will sell you hides which are tanned, dyed and otherwise raw. Half and whole hides even - ASK, call - do what you must but get real leather!!!
2 - WTF is with the raw wood; no sanding, no paint, no finish - Just pine with the ugly ass stamps left showing all over it, and shabby lil cushions for dungeon furniture?
Couple of issues with this shit - it looks terrible - it gives a very cheap and junky feel to your product, mood and the overall feel of the scene - and - pine?? PINE??? Ok listen man ... if yer taking 6 pine 2x4's to make this thing and not even finishing it - AND using an old cushion for the "pad" - wtf is the $400 price tag for???? The 12 bolts and 24 eyelets??? - grow up.
HOW OUR WORLD LOOKS - AFFECTS HOW OTHER PEOPLE SEE IT - represent your community with some creativity, pride and thought already and realize even I at 105 lbs could destroy a pine bench, without much thought to it; UNLESS it it sleeved and finished out IN FULL and properly but wood doweling pegs or bolts without sleeves - are both stupid and cheap ideas; and reflects the rip off which this stuff IS - If you are looking to furnish a dungeon really it's NOT that hard to do and you can do it yourself cheaper, better and with more pride than MUCH of what I've seen over the many years I've been - interested, involved, amused with it all.
3 - Creativity counts - Can you guys come up with some new shapes, designs, finishes, materials and the rest yet or are we all unfortunately stuck in dollar store hell, because if we are, I already have saris working on some new toys which I know will put this junk to shame. WHAT has happened to the ball handled floggers? Where are the slappers? No hoods? Why no harness' - cbt's or bondage bags on display? Can you say - HUGE blank spots and otherwise a lot of the same??? Good - don't do this. You look like a bunch of sheep - all dressed the same all with the same shit lined up in front of you - oh gee how SO DIFFERENT from the vanillas out there eh - NOT. Show yer differences and get creative already with the toys man.
4 - Now this is the clincher - STOP BEING SO FUCKING STUPID HERE PEOPLE!!!!! There was dungeon space in the place, there was display and demo space in the place, there were rules for the community to follow just as much as there was for anyone else to follow and SOMEONE there decided the rules didn't apply to him; so he and his single tail took a little stroll, outside the dungeon, outside of the building even ... Out to the smoking area - where he decided to stand about flicking and cracking it at people ... Then a seriously wasted group of folks came out the door and the one chick says HEY I WANNA TRY THAT ... and so ... bonehead the brainiac gets in there with this weapon in a public place and swats her, like 7 FULL OUT CRACKS ... on a vanillaite who is drunk -= in public - outside of the entire building even not just the tolerated areas ... NEEDLESS to say he got himself charged with the assault and also fined - $300 for lewd or who knows what it was.
WHILE the guys were whipping the ladies I am being harassed about the fact I should in turn whip the boys - I declined.
I have had so many slaves, and of them; saris long enough I do not feel the need to "prove anything to anyone" but had I of been many other people, I probably would have ... and now I'd be right in there with him in getting in shit too.
So after being warned repeatedly NOT to do this, buddy then left the building envelope and goes out on the sidewalk, whips a couple of drunk people ... and wonders why he gets in shit.
Not only does this variety of "stupid" get us all a bad name, but ANYONE who would go near this moron is a fruitcake. As he will NOT comply with the "dungeon rules" - how can anyone EVER think he will comply with any agreed limits or boundaries? He's crossed every COMMUNITY one there was, and yet people will still be so stupid as to trust him.
Drunk
Public
Asked to stop
Strangers
Multiple impacts
dumb
She was all good with it, at the time - the bf however was taking fits and I suspect she went to the bathroom and freaked when she saw the marks - and the police were called. Repercussions are very real, rules are in place for a reason - MANY people have learned BEFORE YOU - and if they do NOT allow so much of a D/s interest next year because of this sort of idiocy ... I believe it will be expected.
A femdom is a Lady who has fought Her way up from Her knees, and will not again be placed upon them. Peer pressure only works, if ... a- you accept these fools as Your peers & b - if you cave in to it.
You fought to hard to get to standing with grace, dignity, and respec,t to be so dumb as to cave into the guys in those sorts of moments, so I wanted to remind people what sense looks like and say: it's only NOT common because BOYS don't have any, but they still have the bulk of the controls, and they do stupid shit - like this.
Don't buy their garbage, whichever variety of it they are selling.
And if you are looking for durable and well priced implements, come say hello!! I'll put saris to work on it, slave has learned well what a job well done looks like, after all it makes far better stuff than anything else I saw there this weekend, well except for the flogger Lady but at the moment even SHE is slacking off ... sar could catch and pass Her I bet, but then it is Owned by a Lady of Wit; so few slaves are so wise in their choice of Owners.
Of course they'd also have to be good, willing and worth it as well - I do after all have so very little patience at this point in time.
XxoxX
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What is it that the Lady seeks ...
That which any Lady seeks must be perfect to Her in both form and function. To be viewed favourably it is wisest to be without blemish, without the slightest workings or toolings of Another. Youth usually seen as folley outside this world; permits a certain openess and acceptance of position within this world, bringing an ease to training which age forbids.
It is always wise to be without request, without demand, without need - save for the single burning need to serve ... to be more than merely accepted, but to be seen as worthy of claiming, and wearing a collar. Thus; when asked to share thought or fantasy, when asked to open a mind and reveal the contents; the wise prospect would share willingly, embellishing nothing, witholding nothing; for a wise prospect would realize that to do so is to deny the Lady truth, to attempt to mislead Her, to seek to repress ... and a Lady of bearing and ability would be neither appeased nor amused by such tests of authority.
A Lady seeks out slaves who would adorn Her in gifts of gold and cover Her with the decadence which befit Her nature as a Goddess ... A Goddess whose colours are gold, and red ... The body I will take and Own without request; but the other shall be gladly gifted in offering to show the value of MY Worth to the prospect, and the worth of that collar; to the slave.
There is no such thing as generosity, there is only the value and worth of the collar being offered and sought ... The "weightier & more significant the prize," the greater that should be reflected back to the Lady who is being asked to consider such things.
Casual slaves and hobbyists; need not waste any time, your presence is not desired or required here; please do move along.
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What is it to serve? What is it to be servile, to be appreciative of a position of servitude as gifted by Another as One who would Lead?
So many ask, and so many claim to understand, to know, to desire such a position and yet few would care to have lived, or been seen as this man chose to do; for indeed so very few truly serve as he did his Queen, and again so many would make such claims of servility.
ww.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/femail/article.html?in_article_id=496390&in_page_id=1879
Let his life continue to serve others; as an inspiration to those of you who aspire to long-term TPE service, and who claim to be slave; for surely the time of service such as his, is far from done.
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Until last night I didn't realize how much I was missin' My girls - And then GS set up a situation and tossed Me into it thinking it would go down a certain way and I think I shocked the begeebers out of the entire room when suddenly out of nowhere man did MY MOUTH start (lol) ... Talk about dirty talking a slut to orgasm you guys ain't got SHIT on Sek!!
I so very much adore playing with a girl toy and when I do play with the girls; I talk to them lots ... and I know all those nasty things to say to them to ... so while I drove the luscious little tart around the bend and fed her body to the boys who were gathered ... I then also proceeded to do an actual sex ed class using the tart dancing on My hand as the teaching tool - it was a most cool evening ... Haven't done that in YEARS and man did I miss it!
I so need to find some girl toys to play with and train and be able to use and enjoy ... And lord knows there's plenty of uses around here for an appropriate slut. I'll have to hope I find such a pretty puppet; or she finds Me ... even better.
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And so returns the scent of a Lady filled with knowledge and control; brimming with lusts and desires, perfumed with glistening beads of passion ... After that brief interlude, the short respite having ended - THE BITCH IS BACK.
I've been away from the site for awhile; I've been hanging out on one of the other sites advertising on CM here; Being Adult FriendFinder; and incidentally where GS and I met 16 mos ago. I've been on AFF roughly forever, but the account the world knows and loves is fairly new ... I was having a lot of fun with being such a tasty DOLL, and being there, it's helped Me quite a lot actually; I've been remembering what a luscious and cruel tease I am at heart. OK actually it started with a webcam and a bet ... since then I've become an overnight webcam and porn sensation without even being naked - which is exceptionally cool ... and the guys hate Me due to the fact I am getting them all fired in droves because they can't pry themselves away to go to work, or they're caught at work with penis' in hand!!! WHAT FUN!!! The best part is they all know I am the one who controls the visual and having control over them from there ... is not that hard to do ...
If you have a profile there and are also on AFF or adult friend finder and would like to see our profiles, please just ask for the ID's.
I'm always looking for slaves with fast tongues, nice hands, a great sex drive ... and all kinds of other talents ... I demand a full package deal around here and I expect to get what I demand.
I'm still hot as hades and sexy as can be, so if you will not cater to Me and My weird and wild whims; move along there's a long line of those waiting to be inspected ...
I will always be a wicked tease, a nasty terrible tart ... and a deviant little bitch, that's Me. What I will never be is YourFuckDoll, or submissive to any man in any sense of the word - I do not believe in SSC but INSTEAD FOLLOW RACK, which may cause you to feel I am an extremist; that is your opinion. To ME SSC is an oxymoron. If RACK is not for you, I hope you find the person who is; but if you would provide opportunity, I will control your sexuality, your manners, and your life - using My Own sensuality, sexuality and your suseptibility to it. I expect to be worshipped for the Goddess I am, and will not tolerate insubordination or disrespect. Also; I will not waste My time on those less than worthy of My attention, or sensuality. If perhaps you would taste My kindness, and drink from My wisdom; it is I who will decide and deem your worthiness to do so, not yourself; for even My toejam is covetted by millions; and you are but one among them - stand out from the crowd; and follow Me home like any good slave would, or become a groupie with the masses.
Come to Me ...
Serve Me - For in placing My collar I would take the soul; capturing the heart of a slave forever, feeding it.
I am never happy, never fulfilled, never satiated, never at peace - and I will laugh at the turmoil I create for you; as you strive to bring Me that peace and pleasure. I am a true Bitch Goddess who loves and adores Her sexuality and oozes sensuality. I do not need clothes to be covered from prying eyes for I know few are strong enough and fewer still would care to look beyond the surface anyway - I am forever free and you shall forever know the burden of being slave to My freedoms, My lusts, and My voratious appetites ... Never is it enough, and My appeasements will not come easily nor last long. Serve Me if it would, and allow Me to drown it in My Womanhood; while ever denying the slave release.
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Speculums, humblers and paddles - OH MY!
So the hunt for a house slave continues and although there have been a couple candidates who seemed rather interesting and possibly genuine in the beginning, within a few short weeks it was apparent the one would be a no-show, and the other would be a runner. So that's been cut off at the pass. Never any need for the grief and duress such souls would cause in this house. The rest of them who have left notes; dreamers all around.
In other news saris has been slavenapped, by some crazy Canadian Woman (ME!!) and I'm holding it hostage - it's been almost a month now and slave's ass is definitely showing the wear as it were ... poor lil ol saris! I must say of the carbon rods I like the medium length as opposed to the short or long, and as it's cracked and split it leaves the most delicious marks which last - and last - and last ... *soft smiles*
GoodSamaritan is also talking with a couple of girls and making some progress and effort in that regard. I DO so hope We find a girl to play with soon, nothing nearly so much fun as a girl-toy!! So ... that's an ongoing effort in progress. The other night I sent a note off to one of the lasses telling her how We'd like her to become our "horny little beast on a leash" We could have such FUN with that!
The laptop is in for repair too, so the whole house is down from 3 puters, to ONE functional machine - THIS SUCKS!!!
The van plate issue has been dealt with thanks to a sweet nameless someone who did have a profile here, but whom has since apparently deleted it. Why does it always work out that the slaves who are most likely to be the ones of value and worth, are always the ones who for whatever reason can't come out to play!!! Thank you to that sweet soul who I am sure WILL see this.
This weekend I want to see about hanging some of the dungeon stuff up, I've been rather lazy about this because well there's no slave around to use it on so it's rather foolish to have it all out. Right now with saris here in chains 24/7 it seems odd to NOT have it out. Just can't win for losing. Gotta' get that full time live in slave ... if saris could do it, it would (I know) but alas there are a few steps yet left to be being undertaken before that's looking viable long term. So ... I'm looking for a slave - a live in slave ... females, couples ok ... boys will have to be exceptional to be being considered. Let's face it sub men are a dime a dozen and your attitudes suck, if you want to be a success here then you will need to stand out, and you do that best - by standing up and taking on the challenge. It also means a very polite and respectful attitude and bearing, no sexual suggestions or pushing, no demands or wish lists, just ... serving and amusing. It can be done, it is possible - ask saris! *chuckles*
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There are those who drop a note to ask if they might be considered, and who go further to suppose I might be inclined to marry a slave. Such insolence and arrogance is completely out of line and unapprecited, it is also inherently erred from the perspective of a Lady of bearing and truth. Allow Me to show you this so as to save everyone possible grief in the future.
1) A slave is a lesser being who would fail to attain their goals (of a collar) and desire (to serve) without the appropriate input, guidance and motivation. A dominant is the greater being because they would achieve the goals (self control and dominance) having Their needs and desires met regardless of the input of the slave in question - thus the true and ultimate goal of any slave is to be one of the ones chosen who is ALLOWED and PERMITTED to thus assist, such a charmed being; once their own desires and needs are being met and indeed excelled even due to that very guidance and support.
2) To say "I will give you everything if you marry me" is as unsubmissive as it comes - a) if you are slave then according the "the rules of combat;" everything you have is Mine anyway, I need not marry you to get it. b) Never ever make demands or put your BS before My needs and call yourself slave. c) Dreams are wonderful, fantasies are ok - But I'm not your Barbie and am not here to accomodate the personal masturbation dreams, of a SLAVE. d) I am clear and will continue to be; Chastity is not optional, it is mandatory ... I do NOT "fuck" slaves or see it proper to have such relationships with My toys, no one will be an "exception." e) I've never been a big fan of marriage, or changing My citizenship, BOTH of which are cowtowing to YOUR agenda not MINE - these sorts never ask about these things; again what is it with you guys and this selfish THING with marry a Lady and ship Her to California, Georgia, Washington, Greece, Italy, Germany, Sweden, France and all the OTHER places which I've been approached with. If you are sub then you accomadate Me and My life you do NOT ask Me to drop everything and fit into yours and call yourself slave.
3) All relationships require sexual stimulation and yet I do not permit a slave to gratify Me, save for in exceptionally rare and exceedingly unusual circumstances, and even then never with the penis. Problem with this and marrying a slave is I rather LIKE cock ... just not yours, thanks.
4) If you can not contribute to this house don't waste My time - And to come to Me claiming to be a millionaire and yet refusing whatever minor trinkets, or assistances are asked of you is an insult to My intelligence and to your claim of a desire to assist, impress, worship, and win Me. Consistency and following through are both endearing qualities in a slave and a housemate ... But I will not tolerate insubordination, arrogance, or a slave who is personally focused and motivated - These are not slaves, they are posers and players looking to manipulate the weaker Ladies into their lives and will invariably dump you upon your ear, broke, without contacts or friends, or anything other than a sad tale and a number of wasted years.
Those coming to Me need be aware this is a FAMILY ... I am not alone ... I do have a slave of 9 years who comes and goes. My parents are "clued in" - and I have a Man in My life who is working on His Own Dominant Development.
Discounting the input of these individuals is suicide, they know every conversation, they will hear of your success' and failures. Indeed I will even help you with what to do to ease the waters, and assist in being welcomed and accepted by the fold, and when I am willing to guide you in this way you do NOT adlib, change the plans, wordings, or dates - When I guide and direct, those directions are to be followed to the letter or you may as well not bother at all, because the rest is pointless anyway. Is that clear enough?
I am not looking to marry a slave, or anyone else for that matter.
I have a significant other; who incidentally, My Mother adores.
My Mother is also a Dame, and not stupid.
I also have a slave who has served Me 9 yrs.
I will not move to any other country or province to accomadate you, period.
Chastity is mandatory not optional.
Contributing to the household is a priviledge.
If you even think of trying to pass Me off as your GF this is NOT going to go well and will end rather suddenly in a loud and dramatic moment.
Follow My lead, or don't even bother to try, I won't be manipulated or played with, I have lots of balance and foundation, you won't win. I am a Dame, and this is not a game ... Players, and posers be warned.
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So much mail claiming one thing or another ... after a time it just seems to say the same thing; And yet oddly, so very few even ask for the right to send presents, in order that they might support the claims made in those letters. How thoroughly disappointing, and yet what an easy way to separate the wheat from the chaffe.
I know I deserve more than merely data transmissions and letters, hollow promises, claims, or internet tales; and when all I am given are those same empty promises, then all you will get is an empty stare. Do not waste the efforts, it will get you nowhere.
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When the student is taught - the lesson has already been learned.
The question becomes: What was taught? And was that the intended lesson?
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I can not Own what I can not feel.
I can not touch that which is guarded by fear.
I do not fear you, or Myself.
I have patience, only for that which holds promise.
Promise only holds as long as there is belief.
I believe in Owning only the best.
I appreciate and enjoy the sensual.
Sensuality unfolds into accepting sexuality.
Sexuality defines spirit, and can either grow and blossom into strength, or wither and die untouched upon the vine.
For I can not Own ... What I can not touch.
Will you allow Me to touch you?
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| Age: 24 |
| Philippines |
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